Back for a third short post for today. Was like having so many how how in my mind till i'm about to drown from them. Why does he ask me this question again? Thought i told him my decision long ago and he respect and understands it. But why does he ask again? Making me pondering again.
I know i should not have think more. But i knows he need my help more then they do. I really don't know which side i should choose? Friends or family? I'm close to both of them. That's the problem. But i'm kind of tired in here. Maybe a new change of environment is not a bad thing after all? But i don't want to dui bu qi them. Also don't want to disappointed them.
Is there a liang quan qi mei way? No i guess. The best method. Disappeared from here. I'm hanging with kids too much too. I need some time of my own. If not is be a carefree person. Without any strings attatched.
He told me i'm too soft hearted. Saying sometimes making a decision must not be like this. Don't be afraid to do it. Don't scared of dui bu qi people or what. But you really don't know how well they treat me. It's irresponsible for me to left just like that. Sorry is all i can say to you. And i know you will understand. You don't lack of me to help. I'm sure you can find someone who you think is a better helper then me.