Today I power. Sick like hell still can hang on till 6pm. Rushed home after that. If not think I'm going to faint at BEST. All of them said my health's weak. That's not what I wanted too. But what to do? Felt better after resting at home for a few hours. Hence I'm online now. Checking some stuffs. Resting soon after this. I still feel weak.
Intend to off tomorrow. Who cares about the so call rules? Monday's my off day and it's fixed. Standard one! Will be going to the doctor's and maybe to IMM for a visit and some shopping. Mum's going to Malaysia. There, and I'm left alone at home again. So sick yet have to spend the day alone. If I stay at home, bet I'm going to rot to death.
Can't hit my target. What a joke. Left 200 bucks more yet I can't reach it. Hope everything will be fine. It's just a few hundreds. They won't mind would they? Don't know what I can do about it now. Leave it then. So many problems unsolved. Making my mind confused. No wonder I'll alawys fall sick. It's been a tough year for me. Tired of it.
That guy's very concerned when I fell sick today. Oh well. Thanks ah. And the most surprising matter. BEST staffs are nice after all. Most of them showed concern for me. Double thanks ah. Appreciate it. But wonder why sometimes they don't appreciate the things I did. Weird people. Am going rest now. Head's spinning. Bless that I'll recover soon.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Bad Days Never End
I think I'm going to die soon. It's the first time that I tired myself out till I collapsed. And that guy still haven't give up. He got stress from the Newstead people. Keep asking him. And I got stress from him. Keep asking me. Mentally stressed up.
Work was busy. Poor Lional and me. One person took care of the whole counter. Lional bro in charge of game while for me is mp3. Where my partners gone? Alex and Nas? One go smoke can smoke for one hour. One go walk walk in Best can missing for 30 minutes. Left me alone.
Sales was good today. In fact it's great. 3 in total. $199 each. Target left 250 bucks more to reach. Need to chiong a bit more tomorrow and I'll be safe. Blame that stupid Nas. Snatch my customer. Was about to bring my customer to the cashier already. He come sabo me. Said our products lousy this and that. I KNOW LOUSY LAH! YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY LAH! In the end the customer dumped mine and go for his brand.
.......F.......U........C.........K..........U..........
Want to compare can just compare before I go take the stock. Fair and square. I'll respect the customer's decision then. Don't suddenly come snatch my customer! PISSED off. Punched card and left although it's only 8.45pm. Went Newstead to hide. All things shoot me. How can I stand it? Alex also another one. Ordered me around like I'm his slave. Guys are so kuku.
Some more the worst is we kena newspaper report about our outlet's mp3 counter have bad customer service. And I kena the most from that sotong in charge. Everything throw blame to me. SO MANY PEOPLE THERE WHY KEEP SAYING CUSTOMER COMPLAIN ABOUT THE PROMOTER IS ME? Feel like throwing sotongs to him.
Falling sick soon. Julian's already half dead. Brian can still stand one more day. The kopitiam sell chicken guy was better after I passed panadols to him. Now I starting to feel not really good. Hang on one more day. Can finally have a good rest on Monday. Although not really rest. More like relax. Then it's pay day next. May please arrive faster. April's a BAD month.
Work was busy. Poor Lional and me. One person took care of the whole counter. Lional bro in charge of game while for me is mp3. Where my partners gone? Alex and Nas? One go smoke can smoke for one hour. One go walk walk in Best can missing for 30 minutes. Left me alone.
Sales was good today. In fact it's great. 3 in total. $199 each. Target left 250 bucks more to reach. Need to chiong a bit more tomorrow and I'll be safe. Blame that stupid Nas. Snatch my customer. Was about to bring my customer to the cashier already. He come sabo me. Said our products lousy this and that. I KNOW LOUSY LAH! YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY LAH! In the end the customer dumped mine and go for his brand.
.......F.......U........C.........K..........U..........
Want to compare can just compare before I go take the stock. Fair and square. I'll respect the customer's decision then. Don't suddenly come snatch my customer! PISSED off. Punched card and left although it's only 8.45pm. Went Newstead to hide. All things shoot me. How can I stand it? Alex also another one. Ordered me around like I'm his slave. Guys are so kuku.
Some more the worst is we kena newspaper report about our outlet's mp3 counter have bad customer service. And I kena the most from that sotong in charge. Everything throw blame to me. SO MANY PEOPLE THERE WHY KEEP SAYING CUSTOMER COMPLAIN ABOUT THE PROMOTER IS ME? Feel like throwing sotongs to him.
Falling sick soon. Julian's already half dead. Brian can still stand one more day. The kopitiam sell chicken guy was better after I passed panadols to him. Now I starting to feel not really good. Hang on one more day. Can finally have a good rest on Monday. Although not really rest. More like relax. Then it's pay day next. May please arrive faster. April's a BAD month.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
A Messy Day
For no reason some guy want to woo me. And he's very determinate. You kidding me? Then called me up and talked to me for 2 hours just now. For no reason I don't know why Newstead people all support. So 'nice' of them. All gone crazy.
Because that guy is the new Newstead staff. That's why they all own self people support own self people. Just one day so many things happened. My mind now confused and blur. I just want so sleep early. Don't want to think of anything.
Him and this guy. And my work stress. I'm unsure how long more can I hang on. Target still not yet hit. 800 plus more bucks. Hope weekend crowds will be good. Don't mind rush a little more. Tired myself out to hit target is worth it.
Alex will be working on weekends. Tomorrow Lional, Jenny and Alex will be back. Hope we can work together and help each other. Bless that tomorrow will be a good day. I can't afford to lose this battle. Need energy now. Time to replenish it.
Because that guy is the new Newstead staff. That's why they all own self people support own self people. Just one day so many things happened. My mind now confused and blur. I just want so sleep early. Don't want to think of anything.
Him and this guy. And my work stress. I'm unsure how long more can I hang on. Target still not yet hit. 800 plus more bucks. Hope weekend crowds will be good. Don't mind rush a little more. Tired myself out to hit target is worth it.
Alex will be working on weekends. Tomorrow Lional, Jenny and Alex will be back. Hope we can work together and help each other. Bless that tomorrow will be a good day. I can't afford to lose this battle. Need energy now. Time to replenish it.
Friday, April 27, 2007
A Never Ending Nightmare
I'm very good today. Didn't puff at all. Mood was not bad. Sales yes. But only one. Sold to a gangster tao some more. Brought a Geylang china lady to buy. He's fierce but quite nice. So the so call bad guys are good also? Ben xing shan liang? Then what about those good guys? They'll change to be bad?
Alex's not here. Asked his friend Jerry about him. He's not sure too. Worried for him. Afraid he's being fired already. Feel bad because I didn't cover up for him when his in charge came yesterday. Hope he'll come this weekend. Missed his jokes. Now left Nasri and me only. Three's a crowd. And I like crowds.
My mood's badly affected by someone just now. Why did he choose to appear again when he's MIA for so many months? Don't know. Mind's very confused now. And stress because of my sales target. My current total sales is only $3170. Come on! I need 4000 bucks you idiot! Three more days to go and I'll be dead meat.
Sometimes I really hate my in charge Vincent. He never bothers about anything around me nor find time to visit me. Unlike Jie Sheng. Such a pleasant surprise to see him today. He's at nearby and decided to pop by to find me. Maybe having Jie Sheng as my in charge is not a bad idea too. But nah. Among these two, I'll still prefer Vincent.
Worried for sister. Yet I can't fork out any time to keep him company nor visit him. He asked me a question that day. "Sister, last time you asked me not to smoke, then why are you smoking now?" Good question sister. I don't know the answer. He asked don't my mom mind me smoking? Well, mind also no choice. She'll understand.
Just transfered 200 bucks to him. I'm broke now. Hope this money will do him good and last him for a while. I don't know how to help anymore. Smoked again just now. 2 in a row. Just because of that person appeared suddenly. Maybe I can't accept the fact that he's back. Asked to meet me some more. Luckily he DC before I can answer. Need some time to think.
Mind's tired. Brain's dead. Goodnight.
Alex's not here. Asked his friend Jerry about him. He's not sure too. Worried for him. Afraid he's being fired already. Feel bad because I didn't cover up for him when his in charge came yesterday. Hope he'll come this weekend. Missed his jokes. Now left Nasri and me only. Three's a crowd. And I like crowds.
My mood's badly affected by someone just now. Why did he choose to appear again when he's MIA for so many months? Don't know. Mind's very confused now. And stress because of my sales target. My current total sales is only $3170. Come on! I need 4000 bucks you idiot! Three more days to go and I'll be dead meat.
Sometimes I really hate my in charge Vincent. He never bothers about anything around me nor find time to visit me. Unlike Jie Sheng. Such a pleasant surprise to see him today. He's at nearby and decided to pop by to find me. Maybe having Jie Sheng as my in charge is not a bad idea too. But nah. Among these two, I'll still prefer Vincent.
Worried for sister. Yet I can't fork out any time to keep him company nor visit him. He asked me a question that day. "Sister, last time you asked me not to smoke, then why are you smoking now?" Good question sister. I don't know the answer. He asked don't my mom mind me smoking? Well, mind also no choice. She'll understand.
Just transfered 200 bucks to him. I'm broke now. Hope this money will do him good and last him for a while. I don't know how to help anymore. Smoked again just now. 2 in a row. Just because of that person appeared suddenly. Maybe I can't accept the fact that he's back. Asked to meet me some more. Luckily he DC before I can answer. Need some time to think.
Mind's tired. Brain's dead. Goodnight.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
The Not Funny Joke
Sleepy. The most I can stay up till is 2am only. Will collapse after that time. When I'm not working last year. I'll take a couple of hours to fall into a deep sleep. Now? 2 minutes is all I need to fall asleep. Won't wake up in the middle of the night. Only my morning alarm can wake me up.
No sales today. As usual what I've predicted. Pouring like mad in the evening. So of course no customers. Do you think people will be so stupid to come all the way here to shop? They'll rather stay at home to sleep. We're free till can watch officer Alan play the new game. Whole group of promoters surround him. Customers walked past our counters we also lazy to move back. LOL!
Leg 'sour' like hell. Foot pain like crazy. Toe numb like no tomorrow. This is what I get for standing 10 hours daily. Think I'm really not suitable to be in the sales line. Am too quiet. Till the other promoters get the sales always. Intend to change job. Once again, if not because of Vincent, I won't be staying here for so long.
Went Newstead after work. Things had changed a lot there. Julian re shifted all the counters. Wanted to find back the memories but it's gone after the re arrangement. Maybe that will do me good. Actually working busily is good for me too. So that I can forgive and forget easily. And yes. I've forgiven and forgot.
Wonder why Newstead's people are always able to cheer me up. BEST can also. But only Alex is able to make me laugh like crazy with his lame jokes. And Alex never come for work for 3 days already. His in charge came to spot check today and think he kena till very cham on the phone. Bless him. Hope he won't kena fired.
I noticed that the guys changed a lot. Julian suddenly became kay poh. Asked me if I've got a bf. Some more said I HOLD HANDS WITH A GUY FROM BEST??? I went like wtf and chased him around the shop. The others said he 'old flower eyes' already. Lao hua yan okay? 28, 29 years old only Mr Julian. So poor thing? Crazy guy. LoL. If I got a bf to hold my hand, I won't be so pathetic till haiz here haiz there everyday then. =.=
Guess the guy he's talking about is Lional bro. Because that day Samsung promoter Jenny and us went out together. But I don't know why he find Jenny invisible and the most funniest thing is saw me and a guy hold hand? Plus he called me but I walked more faster? Where got? He must be seeing ghost if he's not having 'old flower eyes'. LOL!
Sorry SP mei. Have no time to help you ask about the watch. Next few days okay? I'll try. And now. Time to sleep. Having a good night's rest everyday keeps my mood lively and great. :D
No sales today. As usual what I've predicted. Pouring like mad in the evening. So of course no customers. Do you think people will be so stupid to come all the way here to shop? They'll rather stay at home to sleep. We're free till can watch officer Alan play the new game. Whole group of promoters surround him. Customers walked past our counters we also lazy to move back. LOL!
Leg 'sour' like hell. Foot pain like crazy. Toe numb like no tomorrow. This is what I get for standing 10 hours daily. Think I'm really not suitable to be in the sales line. Am too quiet. Till the other promoters get the sales always. Intend to change job. Once again, if not because of Vincent, I won't be staying here for so long.
Went Newstead after work. Things had changed a lot there. Julian re shifted all the counters. Wanted to find back the memories but it's gone after the re arrangement. Maybe that will do me good. Actually working busily is good for me too. So that I can forgive and forget easily. And yes. I've forgiven and forgot.
Wonder why Newstead's people are always able to cheer me up. BEST can also. But only Alex is able to make me laugh like crazy with his lame jokes. And Alex never come for work for 3 days already. His in charge came to spot check today and think he kena till very cham on the phone. Bless him. Hope he won't kena fired.
I noticed that the guys changed a lot. Julian suddenly became kay poh. Asked me if I've got a bf. Some more said I HOLD HANDS WITH A GUY FROM BEST??? I went like wtf and chased him around the shop. The others said he 'old flower eyes' already. Lao hua yan okay? 28, 29 years old only Mr Julian. So poor thing? Crazy guy. LoL. If I got a bf to hold my hand, I won't be so pathetic till haiz here haiz there everyday then. =.=
Guess the guy he's talking about is Lional bro. Because that day Samsung promoter Jenny and us went out together. But I don't know why he find Jenny invisible and the most funniest thing is saw me and a guy hold hand? Plus he called me but I walked more faster? Where got? He must be seeing ghost if he's not having 'old flower eyes'. LOL!
Sorry SP mei. Have no time to help you ask about the watch. Next few days okay? I'll try. And now. Time to sleep. Having a good night's rest everyday keeps my mood lively and great. :D
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Countless Problems
Currently 1am now. And I just reached home an hour ago. Been a busy day today. Helped them rearranged all the audio players till BEST closes at 10 plus. I'm biased. Shifted my LeMon to a clearer view side. Hoping there's more customers.
Every day's a busy day. To think I'm already sleepy at this time. Maybe too tired that's why. Trying to get a full 8 hours sleep daily. Guess I'm able to do it. A good night's sleep will allow me to chiong on the following day. My mood will be better too.
Getting closer to my target. It's already 3000+ bucks now. Yet they still say it's not enough. Say Samsung have 9000+ bucks. Why can't I? Eh? Samsung VS LeMon. Never die before is it? I don't dare to bang my egg LeMon to rock Samsung. Sure die.
Feeling quite vexed. Yet trying to stay cheerful. Got a bad news last night. Darling sister is on wheelchair now. His legs are giving him problems. If he don't go for the op, he'll stay on the wheelchair from now on. Was stunned. I don't know his legs are that bad suddenly.
Some more his mother suffered a mild stroke and is in hospital now. Sister badly needs help. And financial needs too. Yet he stays at Bedok. And I'm working everyday till late night. Wanted to fork out some time to visit him. But it's not possible. I'm such a bad sister.
Still thinking of a way to help him. He can't possibly wait for death as he said. Was in bad mood yesterday. Yet he still have to try and cheer me up. He only have one sister and that's me. But I'm such a failure. I can't help. Even if I can. It's not much help though.
Please bless my dear sister with recovering health and his mom will recover soon. Suddenly I think I trust his words more than buddy's now. Previously I was quite confused about it. But now more worse. Don't even know who is wrong and who is right now. I don't want to care LE!
Every day's a busy day. To think I'm already sleepy at this time. Maybe too tired that's why. Trying to get a full 8 hours sleep daily. Guess I'm able to do it. A good night's sleep will allow me to chiong on the following day. My mood will be better too.
Getting closer to my target. It's already 3000+ bucks now. Yet they still say it's not enough. Say Samsung have 9000+ bucks. Why can't I? Eh? Samsung VS LeMon. Never die before is it? I don't dare to bang my egg LeMon to rock Samsung. Sure die.
Feeling quite vexed. Yet trying to stay cheerful. Got a bad news last night. Darling sister is on wheelchair now. His legs are giving him problems. If he don't go for the op, he'll stay on the wheelchair from now on. Was stunned. I don't know his legs are that bad suddenly.
Some more his mother suffered a mild stroke and is in hospital now. Sister badly needs help. And financial needs too. Yet he stays at Bedok. And I'm working everyday till late night. Wanted to fork out some time to visit him. But it's not possible. I'm such a bad sister.
Still thinking of a way to help him. He can't possibly wait for death as he said. Was in bad mood yesterday. Yet he still have to try and cheer me up. He only have one sister and that's me. But I'm such a failure. I can't help. Even if I can. It's not much help though.
Please bless my dear sister with recovering health and his mom will recover soon. Suddenly I think I trust his words more than buddy's now. Previously I was quite confused about it. But now more worse. Don't even know who is wrong and who is right now. I don't want to care LE!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Past And Present
Was MIA the whole day. Yes, I'm online. Yes, I'm alive. But sorry, I just don't wish to talk. Let me have some time alone okay hao ma xie xie.
Don't wish to go out. Don't wish to meet anyone. Just stayed at home the whole day and smoked a hell lot in front of my computer. Woke up at 11am. But slept back till 3pm. Till the sky went dark and it started pouring like hell. Damn it. Hate thunder and lightening yet this had to happen while I'm at home. So back to bed. Blasted my mp3 loud like mad. And continued sleeping.
Woke up again at 5pm and had a light meal. This was the first meal I had today. Don't feel like doing anything. Yet wonder why still spent 1 hour plus doing manicure and pedicure. Went online after that. Till now. Updating my friendster, browsing through friends' profile, find new pictures and edited them for my blog. Spent the most time browsing through forums checking the latest news of my idols.
I love forums hopping. Knew so many great news of my idols. Including S.H.E's new album, got a nice Ella's wallpaper, saw their new song's MV. And the best. Ming En is going to cast in the coming San Li new show. Missed all these. Normally I'll know all about the latest entertainment news last time. Now? I don't have time to read magazines and browse forums. Don't even know what's the 7pm or 9pm show on channel 8 now. Everyday work and can only reach home at around 12mn.
Found some time to write some posts for my journal. If you're one of those who know me well. You'll know I actually kept a journal. I prefer writing some thoughts in my book instead of just blogging them online and showed everyone. Noticed that most of my posts are written about buddy instead of him. And some on Kelvin and Low too. Yet I didn't contact anyone that I wrote about in my journal nowadays. What's going to be in my journal next? What else but my work?
I enjoyed today. Thank you. I feel good now. If possible, I'll like to spend every week's off day at home to relax instead of going out. How I wish I can go back to the past. No work. No stress. No failing health. No memories of him. Only online and browsing forums, deejaying and chatting with friends most of the time. I've drifted from all including my family after I start working. But perhaps that's my life? Can I have a silly wish? I'll like it to be better. Okay? Thanks and bye.
Don't wish to go out. Don't wish to meet anyone. Just stayed at home the whole day and smoked a hell lot in front of my computer. Woke up at 11am. But slept back till 3pm. Till the sky went dark and it started pouring like hell. Damn it. Hate thunder and lightening yet this had to happen while I'm at home. So back to bed. Blasted my mp3 loud like mad. And continued sleeping.
Woke up again at 5pm and had a light meal. This was the first meal I had today. Don't feel like doing anything. Yet wonder why still spent 1 hour plus doing manicure and pedicure. Went online after that. Till now. Updating my friendster, browsing through friends' profile, find new pictures and edited them for my blog. Spent the most time browsing through forums checking the latest news of my idols.
I love forums hopping. Knew so many great news of my idols. Including S.H.E's new album, got a nice Ella's wallpaper, saw their new song's MV. And the best. Ming En is going to cast in the coming San Li new show. Missed all these. Normally I'll know all about the latest entertainment news last time. Now? I don't have time to read magazines and browse forums. Don't even know what's the 7pm or 9pm show on channel 8 now. Everyday work and can only reach home at around 12mn.
Found some time to write some posts for my journal. If you're one of those who know me well. You'll know I actually kept a journal. I prefer writing some thoughts in my book instead of just blogging them online and showed everyone. Noticed that most of my posts are written about buddy instead of him. And some on Kelvin and Low too. Yet I didn't contact anyone that I wrote about in my journal nowadays. What's going to be in my journal next? What else but my work?
I enjoyed today. Thank you. I feel good now. If possible, I'll like to spend every week's off day at home to relax instead of going out. How I wish I can go back to the past. No work. No stress. No failing health. No memories of him. Only online and browsing forums, deejaying and chatting with friends most of the time. I've drifted from all including my family after I start working. But perhaps that's my life? Can I have a silly wish? I'll like it to be better. Okay? Thanks and bye.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Thoughts On Life
Great feeling to stay up till late night. Missed the late night chats. And I can only do it during Monday mornings. Waiting for the once a week off day is like waiting for death. So fucking long. But it gets better when counting down to Mondays. At least it gives me some work spirit.
Been thinking a lot recently. Maybe too much. That's why couldn't sleep at night. Even if I manage to sleep will still get woken up by nightmares of the incident eventually. Had to depend on sleeping pills to fall into a good night's sleep. Am so tired of this feeling. When will these end?
Sales was very bad for me. Watching the others selling players like hot cakes while I just stand there for the whole day. The feeling can be quite upsetting and depressing. Don't know why my luck can be so down. I'm trying and have tried. But if makes no difference anyway. A failure.
Stressing myself too much. Smoking is the only way to keep my stress level down. Even woman was shocked when I jioed her to smoke. Remembered I once told a person I'll sure change when I start working. So is this the change in me? Guess this is not the change the person want me to.
Keep thinking of the past. Wondering what would have happen if all those never happened at all? Walked by those places. Surroundings are still the same. But the people are already different. Trying to find back some long lost feelings but it only makes me more upset thinking.
Missed the guys lots. Which ever places I walked by that holds memories of them I'll stop by and think back. The food they like to eat and the things they like to do. Time can't turn back. No point staying in the past anymore. It's time to move on. Only wish is to meet them once again.
Everyone have a best friend. For me? I can't even find many friends around me. Most of my friends are younger than me. It doesn't seems nice to bother them too much. Some are even too young to understand my problems. I'll like to have a best friend too. Someone who is older.
Learn that many of my friends are attached. Some even tried to introduce guys to me. Seriously I'll like to be attached too. But don't think I'm mature enough to talk about this yet. Perhaps my fate haven't come yet. Just let nature take its own course then. I know it'll be late though.
Mind filled with tons of matters. I need a break. Just want to enjoy myself well tomorrow. Time for my rest. After in which I hope everything well be smooth for me. Hoping that the rays of sunshine will arrive soon. Otherwise I won't know how long I'll still be able to hang on already.
Been thinking a lot recently. Maybe too much. That's why couldn't sleep at night. Even if I manage to sleep will still get woken up by nightmares of the incident eventually. Had to depend on sleeping pills to fall into a good night's sleep. Am so tired of this feeling. When will these end?
Sales was very bad for me. Watching the others selling players like hot cakes while I just stand there for the whole day. The feeling can be quite upsetting and depressing. Don't know why my luck can be so down. I'm trying and have tried. But if makes no difference anyway. A failure.
Stressing myself too much. Smoking is the only way to keep my stress level down. Even woman was shocked when I jioed her to smoke. Remembered I once told a person I'll sure change when I start working. So is this the change in me? Guess this is not the change the person want me to.
Keep thinking of the past. Wondering what would have happen if all those never happened at all? Walked by those places. Surroundings are still the same. But the people are already different. Trying to find back some long lost feelings but it only makes me more upset thinking.
Missed the guys lots. Which ever places I walked by that holds memories of them I'll stop by and think back. The food they like to eat and the things they like to do. Time can't turn back. No point staying in the past anymore. It's time to move on. Only wish is to meet them once again.
Everyone have a best friend. For me? I can't even find many friends around me. Most of my friends are younger than me. It doesn't seems nice to bother them too much. Some are even too young to understand my problems. I'll like to have a best friend too. Someone who is older.
Learn that many of my friends are attached. Some even tried to introduce guys to me. Seriously I'll like to be attached too. But don't think I'm mature enough to talk about this yet. Perhaps my fate haven't come yet. Just let nature take its own course then. I know it'll be late though.
Mind filled with tons of matters. I need a break. Just want to enjoy myself well tomorrow. Time for my rest. After in which I hope everything well be smooth for me. Hoping that the rays of sunshine will arrive soon. Otherwise I won't know how long I'll still be able to hang on already.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Stress Kills
Stress, stress, stress. Till I nearly can't hang on at work. I'm so tired and disappointed in myself. Thinking of giving up soon. 4 mp3 promoters including me today. Jenny, Alex, Nas and me. They've all got at least 3 pieces sales each. Me? Only 2. Some more the other 1 is Nas help me sell it. I'm so shi bai. So wtf am I still staying there? Make myself more embarrassed?
No appetite to eat much. Whole day only ate a mac chicken meal. I really don't understand why is this happening? Been trying to chiong. Worked till 10pm some more. But yet nothing seems to go right. Sebes asked me not to give up. The others asked me to change another company or brand.
No, I can't do this to Vincent. The only reason I'm staying on is because of him. He's one of the kindest guy alive. Though he's timid sometimes and won't know how to stand up for his staffs. But he's really a nice in-charge. It's my luck to work with him. Thinking if I should change my promoter job to admin. Go our company to work. Maybe I'm really not suitable to be promoter.
Already giving up on myself and my brand. Totally lost my confidence. Wonder who and what can help me to gain my confidence back. But am really grateful for all those who encouraged, comforted me and helped me. Perhaps I should learn how to walk on my own soon. Time to stand up on my feet without any help.
Sorry, I lied to a lot of people. I did smoke. But I'm not a heavy smoker. Please pardon me. And understand that I'm suffering from stress. You can choose to believe it or not to. Choose to befriend me still or end the friendship. Sorry buddy. I shouldn't have lied.
I need to believe in myself once again. Can I?
No appetite to eat much. Whole day only ate a mac chicken meal. I really don't understand why is this happening? Been trying to chiong. Worked till 10pm some more. But yet nothing seems to go right. Sebes asked me not to give up. The others asked me to change another company or brand.
No, I can't do this to Vincent. The only reason I'm staying on is because of him. He's one of the kindest guy alive. Though he's timid sometimes and won't know how to stand up for his staffs. But he's really a nice in-charge. It's my luck to work with him. Thinking if I should change my promoter job to admin. Go our company to work. Maybe I'm really not suitable to be promoter.
Already giving up on myself and my brand. Totally lost my confidence. Wonder who and what can help me to gain my confidence back. But am really grateful for all those who encouraged, comforted me and helped me. Perhaps I should learn how to walk on my own soon. Time to stand up on my feet without any help.
Sorry, I lied to a lot of people. I did smoke. But I'm not a heavy smoker. Please pardon me. And understand that I'm suffering from stress. You can choose to believe it or not to. Choose to befriend me still or end the friendship. Sorry buddy. I shouldn't have lied.
I need to believe in myself once again. Can I?
Saturday, April 21, 2007
The Stress
MC-ed today. Was dragged down by the stupid woman's thing. Cramps and dizzy spells. Hence made me lose my sales. Friday is another good day to chiong. But if I chiong today. Tomorrow and Sunday sure will collapse. Luckily still have Nas. He helped me sell one SS100. That stupid SS100 that always crush with my luck. And he got if sold off. I'm so grateful to you my friend!
Went doctor's. Got some medicine for stomach cramps. And some medicine to relive stress. Because I'll vomit when I eat. Tough to sleep, even if I manage to sleep. I'll sprang up in the middle of the night with cold sweat and cried non stop. Everyday mumble work stuffs non stop. Have been stressing myself to get good sales for myself and BEST. And the outcome is pathetic. My health's gone case.
My family doctor already warned me to get myself a break and try to relax more. If not I'll really suffer from depression soon. He insisted me to see a psychologist. But got rejected by me. As if I have the money. If only I have the extra money, I won't be so pathetic now. If only that incident didn't happen. Life's still be great.
That incident affected me too much. Still having nightmares about it. But silly me still pinning some hopes. As if a miracle will happen like that. Kelvin and Low their matter too. Left a deep scar that needs a long time to heal. Maybe some will say I'm stupid. They left. Why am I so bothered by it? I'm a human mind you. And humans have feelings. Who won't feel upset to see two best friends left suddenly?
Went to the mart and bought some chocolates to cheer myself up. I need chocolates when I'm feeling down. Esp white chocolates. Wanted to get a packet of crig. But mum was there. Nope, she didn't object. Just that I feel it's time to quit smoking. It's not a good thing to use smoking to relieve stress. After all those puffing, the stress will still be back in the end.
Saw the chocolates he like. Wanted to buy a packet for him. But mum reminded me he's not here anymore. Oh, my bad. I still can't get the fact that they're not here anymore. I've got two wishes. One is to meet them once again. And the other is not to let me see the him forever. I hope they'll come true. Esp the second.
Thanks darling. You're still my best sister. Still that good in cheering me up with your jokes. So far only a few people managed to cheer me up with their silly jokes. Darren, Dreamze, Jeff, Ah Low and Alex. Esp Alex. We'll all laugh till bonkers while at work. Guess it will be a fun day tomorrow. So many promoters and Lional will be back too. Hope it'll be a good day. Bless me.
Went doctor's. Got some medicine for stomach cramps. And some medicine to relive stress. Because I'll vomit when I eat. Tough to sleep, even if I manage to sleep. I'll sprang up in the middle of the night with cold sweat and cried non stop. Everyday mumble work stuffs non stop. Have been stressing myself to get good sales for myself and BEST. And the outcome is pathetic. My health's gone case.
My family doctor already warned me to get myself a break and try to relax more. If not I'll really suffer from depression soon. He insisted me to see a psychologist. But got rejected by me. As if I have the money. If only I have the extra money, I won't be so pathetic now. If only that incident didn't happen. Life's still be great.
That incident affected me too much. Still having nightmares about it. But silly me still pinning some hopes. As if a miracle will happen like that. Kelvin and Low their matter too. Left a deep scar that needs a long time to heal. Maybe some will say I'm stupid. They left. Why am I so bothered by it? I'm a human mind you. And humans have feelings. Who won't feel upset to see two best friends left suddenly?
Went to the mart and bought some chocolates to cheer myself up. I need chocolates when I'm feeling down. Esp white chocolates. Wanted to get a packet of crig. But mum was there. Nope, she didn't object. Just that I feel it's time to quit smoking. It's not a good thing to use smoking to relieve stress. After all those puffing, the stress will still be back in the end.
Saw the chocolates he like. Wanted to buy a packet for him. But mum reminded me he's not here anymore. Oh, my bad. I still can't get the fact that they're not here anymore. I've got two wishes. One is to meet them once again. And the other is not to let me see the him forever. I hope they'll come true. Esp the second.
Thanks darling. You're still my best sister. Still that good in cheering me up with your jokes. So far only a few people managed to cheer me up with their silly jokes. Darren, Dreamze, Jeff, Ah Low and Alex. Esp Alex. We'll all laugh till bonkers while at work. Guess it will be a fun day tomorrow. So many promoters and Lional will be back too. Hope it'll be a good day. Bless me.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Failed In Life
My life's in such a mess and bad shape. Somehow this seems like my life's low tide. Ren Sheng Di Cao. I don't know how I should continue going on. Just take one step at a time. Can only do what I like now and try not to think too much hence won't feel that stress. Doing manicure helps. Painted my nails black and added stickies.
Haven't been able to sell any LeMons for a week. Stress. I got fined for selling too many Samsungs. 1 buck fine each for every Samsungs K3 I sold. Double stress. Sandwiched in between them. They want me to help sell other brands too. Then my they not happy I sold too many other brands. Sell cannot. Don't sell also cannot. I'm lost.
Luckily there's Alex and Nas to help sell the other brands. With them there, there'll never be peace. Those two guys super jokers. I laughed till want to peng san. The topic super pervert some more. Our three in charges also joined in and joked. Suddenly like market like that. Caught the attention of MT. He came and gave the wth look to us.
Tomorrow Alex off. Weekends Nas not at IMM. Bored again. Uncle quited. Weijie got transfered to Taka. IMM is getting more and more quiet. One come, one goes. Waiting for weekend. Lional will be back. He can chiong PSP already. These few days we helped him sell a lot already. Time to dump back to him.
One stupid guy warned the other guys not to get close to me. Said coz I'm his gf. Keep asking me how's it if he's my guy. Talked cock to me. Talked till very overboard that kind. Wa lao! I went like wth. Married man still can joke until so overboard. I pity his wife. With that kind of husband will feel super unsecured.
Whoever who stepped on my tail dies a terrible death. That guy's the first to kena. No way his name is going to appear on any of the product I sold. I don't like the way he behaves. Warned him and he still continues. I've more than enough problems. So he better shoo. I don't like to joke. That's it.
Troubled over the money that appeared in my bank account. Knew who transfer it over. Although not much. But I still don't like it. I didn't earn that money. So it better get back to where it came from at first. Don't care about the incident anymore. Since I've spent his money before and it's much more than the amount of this.
Life's better be better for me. More OWN BRAND sales. Let my path be smoother. I've tripped and fell tons of times already. Another time and I'm going to fail getting up forever.
I've tried my best to live well but failed. What a failure.
Haven't been able to sell any LeMons for a week. Stress. I got fined for selling too many Samsungs. 1 buck fine each for every Samsungs K3 I sold. Double stress. Sandwiched in between them. They want me to help sell other brands too. Then my they not happy I sold too many other brands. Sell cannot. Don't sell also cannot. I'm lost.
Luckily there's Alex and Nas to help sell the other brands. With them there, there'll never be peace. Those two guys super jokers. I laughed till want to peng san. The topic super pervert some more. Our three in charges also joined in and joked. Suddenly like market like that. Caught the attention of MT. He came and gave the wth look to us.
Tomorrow Alex off. Weekends Nas not at IMM. Bored again. Uncle quited. Weijie got transfered to Taka. IMM is getting more and more quiet. One come, one goes. Waiting for weekend. Lional will be back. He can chiong PSP already. These few days we helped him sell a lot already. Time to dump back to him.
One stupid guy warned the other guys not to get close to me. Said coz I'm his gf. Keep asking me how's it if he's my guy. Talked cock to me. Talked till very overboard that kind. Wa lao! I went like wth. Married man still can joke until so overboard. I pity his wife. With that kind of husband will feel super unsecured.
Whoever who stepped on my tail dies a terrible death. That guy's the first to kena. No way his name is going to appear on any of the product I sold. I don't like the way he behaves. Warned him and he still continues. I've more than enough problems. So he better shoo. I don't like to joke. That's it.
Troubled over the money that appeared in my bank account. Knew who transfer it over. Although not much. But I still don't like it. I didn't earn that money. So it better get back to where it came from at first. Don't care about the incident anymore. Since I've spent his money before and it's much more than the amount of this.
Life's better be better for me. More OWN BRAND sales. Let my path be smoother. I've tripped and fell tons of times already. Another time and I'm going to fail getting up forever.
I've tried my best to live well but failed. What a failure.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Tell Me Why
If only I can have a good rest. If only day doesn't arrive. If only things still remain the same. If only my bad luck is gone. How great can it be? I've been selling lots of Samsungs for them. As for LeMon. If there's customers who stop by and have a look, I can't be more glad. Why can't my life path be smooth and clear? Why is living such a tough and tiring chore?
Sure to pop by for my meals at Kopitiam daily. Maybe I'm already used to it. Or I still can't get over them yet. Most of the time I'll order a lot of takeaways. All their favourite food. Kelvin's favourite famous fish soup. Low's favourite chicken rice with soup. But then I'll need to cancel the order. It's a fact they won't be back anymore. So why am I still not letting go of those habits?
Just within a few weeks everything changed. The surroundings are still the same. But the people and feeling are already different. Am so glad Matthew came and pay me a surprise visit today with his pink psp. Was shocked. And my colleagues thought he's my bf. LoL. Interesting yeah? We had a nice chat. Thanks for the food and tompang. You cheered me up lots.
Nice sympathy English song. I like the lyrics.
AFTER ALL THIS TIME – SIMON WEBBE
After all, the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And though her heart, begs the stars
No sign of healing, It's all right
She's loving him still, after all this time
Oh yeah
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of it
Pride pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time
Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time
And to the outside eye
You see you found a different guy
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time.
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of it
Pride pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time
After all this time
After all, after all, after all this time
Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still after all this time
And behind his tired eyes, she sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel
Oh that’s why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still after all this time
Sure to pop by for my meals at Kopitiam daily. Maybe I'm already used to it. Or I still can't get over them yet. Most of the time I'll order a lot of takeaways. All their favourite food. Kelvin's favourite famous fish soup. Low's favourite chicken rice with soup. But then I'll need to cancel the order. It's a fact they won't be back anymore. So why am I still not letting go of those habits?
Just within a few weeks everything changed. The surroundings are still the same. But the people and feeling are already different. Am so glad Matthew came and pay me a surprise visit today with his pink psp. Was shocked. And my colleagues thought he's my bf. LoL. Interesting yeah? We had a nice chat. Thanks for the food and tompang. You cheered me up lots.
Nice sympathy English song. I like the lyrics.
AFTER ALL THIS TIME – SIMON WEBBE
After all, the broken stones
That were thrown, for no good reason
Inside, she's loving him still
After all this time
And though her heart, begs the stars
No sign of healing, It's all right
She's loving him still, after all this time
Oh yeah
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of it
Pride pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time
Now he knows his weakness shows
Selfish soul, never changing
That's fine, because she's loving him still
After all this time
And to the outside eye
You see you found a different guy
And it all seems perfect, and that's how she wants it
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time.
Trying to push the past away
Still waiting for the lights to change
Try, try for the sake of it
Pride pride
Learning to barely feel the pain
Thicker the skin the less the strain
And though it's really hurting
She aint breaking, breaking, breaking
Cos she's loving him still, after all this time
After all this time
After all, after all, after all this time
Bones have to grow, and age it shows
Though we try and hide it
Inside, she's loving him still after all this time
And behind his tired eyes, she sees the boy with his arms wide
Who made her feel like an angel
Oh that’s why she's loving him still
For the rest of her life, she's loving him still
For the last of many miles
She's loving him still after all this time
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Had A Good Day
Funny thing. I'm actually not sleepy at this time. Must have been too hyper today. Keep running here and there to take stocks for customers. But none is my own brand. I sold 5 Samsungs. Guess I should change brand soon. Samsung should thanks me for promoting their brand.
Still considering if I should get that lime green K3. Can't get my hands off it while working. I love it so much. But staff price will still be around 300 bucks. Still not very that affordable. And my previous month's commission is really what I expected. 40 plus bucks only. Can last me 2 or 3 days though. Guess it's better than nothing after all?
Woman came and gave me a surprise today. Was shocked. But she's more shocked when she saw me with my short hair. Missed her so much. But don't really have much time to chat with her. After all it's BEST I'm working at. Not Newstead anymore. There's a newbie at Newstead. A young girl. I rather Lieu come back. Went Sim Lim and visit him. He's getting more handsome.
There's 2 newbies joining us today. One is a Panasonic digital camera guy while the other is a SUPER shy TEAC guy. The arrival of them made me and Alex happy. Because we can go and snack more. Then everything we taught the new attachment TEAC guy asap already. Next time he can help more. Then Alex and me will be free more. Bad seniors we are.
Not feeling sleepy is a bad thing. Means I won't have energy to work tomorrow. Some more the new guy need to learn more things. And Alex's not there. He good. Off day. Everything dump to me. Poor me. But can't blame him anyway. He's already sick just now. Let him rest then. I'm awaiting weekend. Lional will be back. So there's another person to help me.
S.H.E's new song Zhong Guo Hua is nice! ELLA! ELLA! ELLA! Nice rap by Ella. Nice lyrics. Their new album PLAY. I can't wait for May!
-Link removed for the song-
爱音乐！ 放音乐！ Let The Music PLAY!
中国话 S.H.E
曲：郑楠 词：郑楠 / 施人诚
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
伦敦玛莉莲 买了件旗袍送妈妈
莫斯科的夫司基 爱上牛肉面疙瘩
各种颜色的皮肤 各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄 (仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人 好优美的中国话
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
板凳不让扁担绑在板凳上
扁担偏要绑在板凳上
板凳偏偏不让扁担绑在那板凳上
到底扁担宽还是板凳长
哥哥弟弟坡前坐
坡上卧著一只鹅
坡下流著一条河
哥哥说 宽宽的河
弟弟说 白白的鹅
鹅要过河 河要渡鹅
不知是那鹅过河
还是河渡鹅
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
纽约苏珊娜 开了间禅风Lounge Bar
柏林来的沃夫冈 拿胡琴配著电吉他
各种颜色的皮肤 各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄 (仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人 好优美的中国话
有个小孩叫小杜
上街打醋又买布
买了布 打了醋
回头看见鹰抓兔
放下布 搁下醋
上前去追鹰和兔
飞了鹰 跑了兔
洒了醋 湿了布
嘴说腿 腿说嘴
嘴说腿 爱跑腿
腿说嘴 爱卖嘴
光动嘴 不动腿
光动腿 不动嘴
不如不长腿和嘴
到底是那嘴说腿 还是腿说嘴
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
Still considering if I should get that lime green K3. Can't get my hands off it while working. I love it so much. But staff price will still be around 300 bucks. Still not very that affordable. And my previous month's commission is really what I expected. 40 plus bucks only. Can last me 2 or 3 days though. Guess it's better than nothing after all?
Woman came and gave me a surprise today. Was shocked. But she's more shocked when she saw me with my short hair. Missed her so much. But don't really have much time to chat with her. After all it's BEST I'm working at. Not Newstead anymore. There's a newbie at Newstead. A young girl. I rather Lieu come back. Went Sim Lim and visit him. He's getting more handsome.
There's 2 newbies joining us today. One is a Panasonic digital camera guy while the other is a SUPER shy TEAC guy. The arrival of them made me and Alex happy. Because we can go and snack more. Then everything we taught the new attachment TEAC guy asap already. Next time he can help more. Then Alex and me will be free more. Bad seniors we are.
Not feeling sleepy is a bad thing. Means I won't have energy to work tomorrow. Some more the new guy need to learn more things. And Alex's not there. He good. Off day. Everything dump to me. Poor me. But can't blame him anyway. He's already sick just now. Let him rest then. I'm awaiting weekend. Lional will be back. So there's another person to help me.
S.H.E's new song Zhong Guo Hua is nice! ELLA! ELLA! ELLA! Nice rap by Ella. Nice lyrics. Their new album PLAY. I can't wait for May!
-Link removed for the song-
爱音乐！ 放音乐！ Let The Music PLAY!
中国话 S.H.E
曲：郑楠 词：郑楠 / 施人诚
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
伦敦玛莉莲 买了件旗袍送妈妈
莫斯科的夫司基 爱上牛肉面疙瘩
各种颜色的皮肤 各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄 (仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人 好优美的中国话
扁担宽 板凳长
扁担想绑在板凳上
板凳不让扁担绑在板凳上
扁担偏要绑在板凳上
板凳偏偏不让扁担绑在那板凳上
到底扁担宽还是板凳长
哥哥弟弟坡前坐
坡上卧著一只鹅
坡下流著一条河
哥哥说 宽宽的河
弟弟说 白白的鹅
鹅要过河 河要渡鹅
不知是那鹅过河
还是河渡鹅
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
纽约苏珊娜 开了间禅风Lounge Bar
柏林来的沃夫冈 拿胡琴配著电吉他
各种颜色的皮肤 各种颜色的头发
嘴里念的说的开始流行中国话
多少年我们苦练英文发音和文法
这几年换他们卷著舌头学平上去入的变化
平平仄仄平平仄 (仄仄平平仄仄平)
好聪明的中国人 好优美的中国话
有个小孩叫小杜
上街打醋又买布
买了布 打了醋
回头看见鹰抓兔
放下布 搁下醋
上前去追鹰和兔
飞了鹰 跑了兔
洒了醋 湿了布
嘴说腿 腿说嘴
嘴说腿 爱跑腿
腿说嘴 爱卖嘴
光动嘴 不动腿
光动腿 不动嘴
不如不长腿和嘴
到底是那嘴说腿 还是腿说嘴
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
全世界都在学中国话
孔夫子的话 越来越国际化
全世界都在讲中国话
我们说的话 让世界都认真听话
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Peacefully Delightful
At long last my peaceful Monday came. I won't have Monday blues anymore. Because it's either my off day on Monday otherwise there's totally no business on that day. No business = Peace.
Legs ache till I can't even walk properly. I walked with a limp now. Plus long hours of standing cause my toes to swell. I can't even step on the floor properly. Think I'm going to get my both legs executed off one day. Injured all over. I've decided. The first thing I'm going to buy when I save enough money is a foot massager. Although Samsung's Lime Green K3's very tempting too. Guess I need to skip that. Can only look at it to satisfied my crave . Everyday look at the Lime K3 and drool while at work.
Anyway, since I've already gotten a new Samsung SGH-Z240 HP. I must be satisfied. (Although it's free due to me upgrading my plan, must also learn to be satisfied.) No more spending on unimportant enjoyment stuffs. Pink PSP and new mp3 or 4 can wait. Can't over spend. My commission's digits are getting lesser and lesser. Previous few months still have 3 digits. Wait till I go get my commission pay tomorrow. Later only 2 digits can go bang wall already.
I was treated very politely today. Fine then. They okay with me I okay with them. The new Packerd Bell guy's a full timer. At last there's another one. We can help each other. And it won't be so bored. Can chat and joke around. He lives at BP too. Such coincidence. I always mix in well with guys younger than me. This Packerd Bell guy whose name is Alex. He's quite beng. Handsome though. Too bad he's taken. Sorry ladies.
Almost every single one of the guys there approached me and asked if I'm attached. They tried to introduce me guys some more. "Xiao mei, got bf mah?" "Xiao mei, aiyo. Why boh ta poh peng eu?" And it's never ending. Give me a break. Rather you introduce me gf. And I'm serious. I'm not interested in guys anymore. Why? Because I don't find guys can be trusted anymore.
Right now, I only want to concentrate on my career, learn more new things, make more friends and enjoy life. That's it. And the best method of enjoying life is have to a good night sleep. Bless me with a not that too jia lat commission rate tomorrow. If not I won't know where to hide my face in front of my juniors.
Legs ache till I can't even walk properly. I walked with a limp now. Plus long hours of standing cause my toes to swell. I can't even step on the floor properly. Think I'm going to get my both legs executed off one day. Injured all over. I've decided. The first thing I'm going to buy when I save enough money is a foot massager. Although Samsung's Lime Green K3's very tempting too. Guess I need to skip that. Can only look at it to satisfied my crave . Everyday look at the Lime K3 and drool while at work.
Anyway, since I've already gotten a new Samsung SGH-Z240 HP. I must be satisfied. (Although it's free due to me upgrading my plan, must also learn to be satisfied.) No more spending on unimportant enjoyment stuffs. Pink PSP and new mp3 or 4 can wait. Can't over spend. My commission's digits are getting lesser and lesser. Previous few months still have 3 digits. Wait till I go get my commission pay tomorrow. Later only 2 digits can go bang wall already.
I was treated very politely today. Fine then. They okay with me I okay with them. The new Packerd Bell guy's a full timer. At last there's another one. We can help each other. And it won't be so bored. Can chat and joke around. He lives at BP too. Such coincidence. I always mix in well with guys younger than me. This Packerd Bell guy whose name is Alex. He's quite beng. Handsome though. Too bad he's taken. Sorry ladies.
Almost every single one of the guys there approached me and asked if I'm attached. They tried to introduce me guys some more. "Xiao mei, got bf mah?" "Xiao mei, aiyo. Why boh ta poh peng eu?" And it's never ending. Give me a break. Rather you introduce me gf. And I'm serious. I'm not interested in guys anymore. Why? Because I don't find guys can be trusted anymore.
Right now, I only want to concentrate on my career, learn more new things, make more friends and enjoy life. That's it. And the best method of enjoying life is have to a good night sleep. Bless me with a not that too jia lat commission rate tomorrow. If not I won't know where to hide my face in front of my juniors.
Monday, April 16, 2007
The Nightmare Strikes
Pon work. Nothing much to explain. One particular OLD guy is making me blood boiling. Don't want to stir matters up so fake sick and pon work today. If not guess I'll go mad there. Luckily Newstead is always opening it's doors to me. Where I can get some warm and comfort from the guys. I really missed there. Missed them too. If only I can go back to the past. If only everything still remains the same. Then living won't be such a torture.
FUCK FUCK FUCK! BEST DENKI SUX TO THE CORE!
What right have they to order me around? Ask yourself are you the one paying me? No? Then SHUT UP! What right have they to scold me when I've done nothing wrong? Just because I sold my products more than the other brands. IS IT EVEN MY PROBLEM that the other brands are not selling well? I already did my best! Jealous is it? That our brand selling better than others?
OI! Other brands I help sell already being kind okay? We have the right to don't promote other brands. CONTRACT THERE GOT INDICATE WHAT. BLIND IS IT? What the fuck I helped so much since nobody appreciate? You think I superman? So pro? Other brand's knowledge I 100% can grab? Can't promote well also got ticked off. YOU PRO YOU GO SELL THEM YOURSELF. DON'T EVERY TIME SAID BUSY AND PUSHED TO ME!
Still say want to throw me out. I was told we sure win this battle. Got contract. They can't easily said don't want us then don't want one. SO WHAT LAH? I can easily get transfer elsewhere. THINK YOUR OUTLET VERY BIG? My boss said he making used of me still dare to complain this and that. I'M NOT COLLECTING MY PAY FROM YOU! WHAT RIGHT HAVE YOU TO ORDER ME AROUND? YOU BASTARD!
One last chance for them. If they don't know how to call it quits. Then it's bye bye!
FUCK FUCK FUCK! BEST DENKI SUX TO THE CORE!
What right have they to order me around? Ask yourself are you the one paying me? No? Then SHUT UP! What right have they to scold me when I've done nothing wrong? Just because I sold my products more than the other brands. IS IT EVEN MY PROBLEM that the other brands are not selling well? I already did my best! Jealous is it? That our brand selling better than others?
OI! Other brands I help sell already being kind okay? We have the right to don't promote other brands. CONTRACT THERE GOT INDICATE WHAT. BLIND IS IT? What the fuck I helped so much since nobody appreciate? You think I superman? So pro? Other brand's knowledge I 100% can grab? Can't promote well also got ticked off. YOU PRO YOU GO SELL THEM YOURSELF. DON'T EVERY TIME SAID BUSY AND PUSHED TO ME!
Still say want to throw me out. I was told we sure win this battle. Got contract. They can't easily said don't want us then don't want one. SO WHAT LAH? I can easily get transfer elsewhere. THINK YOUR OUTLET VERY BIG? My boss said he making used of me still dare to complain this and that. I'M NOT COLLECTING MY PAY FROM YOU! WHAT RIGHT HAVE YOU TO ORDER ME AROUND? YOU BASTARD!
One last chance for them. If they don't know how to call it quits. Then it's bye bye!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Be Wary Of This Post It Kills
I hate China people and Banglahs! Full stop. Final. Don't ask me why. Because I'm pretty sure nobody likes them too. I admit some of them are nice. But the sad thing is MOST AREN'T!
Bad day. It's worse than Friday the 13th. No sales, got scolded by customers. And got locked in the store by a stupid guy while I went in to take stock. Some more it's on purpose. Not funny idiot! Damn him! He made me lose a customer due to this mean joke. And I have a phobia of being locked in a place filled with stuffs. Was screaming there and he still can dilly dally do his stuffs. The storekeepers just laughing away there. Then after SO long he came and unlock me out. And said you're freed out of the prison. WHAT THE HELL?
Lional! Look what your good brother did to me. Idiot! Fuck! Childish!
Got bullied by a customer also. He want the mp4. Okay fine. I go take stock. Came back. He said don't want already. Okay fine. I go returned it. After returning back and I came back. He returned and said he want the mp4 again. OKAY FINE. I GO TAKE AGAIN. Came back. HE SAID HE DON'T WANT AGAIN. This whole thing repeated for like 6 or 7 times. Till it's 9pm and I left. Telling the others if he come back again. SAID IT'S OUT OF STOCK. DAMN HIM!
Another customer is more 'interesting'. Wanted a red Sony mp3. While we only have black and purple. And he insist on a red one. Saying no matter what colours customers want, we should have it. Asked us to SPRAY THE MP3 RED!
SIAO! WHAT A JOKE!
You want you go and spray it yourself lah! Stupid. And he kept complaining there. Till I buay tahan and walked away. Then he left. TMD! Some China people are really a pain in the ass. PB's promoter Alex and me buay tahan a couple of them today. He's great. Dare to talk back in front of the customers instead of cursing and swearing them behind their back. Way to go guy!
Damn lah, I'M PISSED OFF TODAY!
Bad day. It's worse than Friday the 13th. No sales, got scolded by customers. And got locked in the store by a stupid guy while I went in to take stock. Some more it's on purpose. Not funny idiot! Damn him! He made me lose a customer due to this mean joke. And I have a phobia of being locked in a place filled with stuffs. Was screaming there and he still can dilly dally do his stuffs. The storekeepers just laughing away there. Then after SO long he came and unlock me out. And said you're freed out of the prison. WHAT THE HELL?
Lional! Look what your good brother did to me. Idiot! Fuck! Childish!
Got bullied by a customer also. He want the mp4. Okay fine. I go take stock. Came back. He said don't want already. Okay fine. I go returned it. After returning back and I came back. He returned and said he want the mp4 again. OKAY FINE. I GO TAKE AGAIN. Came back. HE SAID HE DON'T WANT AGAIN. This whole thing repeated for like 6 or 7 times. Till it's 9pm and I left. Telling the others if he come back again. SAID IT'S OUT OF STOCK. DAMN HIM!
Another customer is more 'interesting'. Wanted a red Sony mp3. While we only have black and purple. And he insist on a red one. Saying no matter what colours customers want, we should have it. Asked us to SPRAY THE MP3 RED!
SIAO! WHAT A JOKE!
You want you go and spray it yourself lah! Stupid. And he kept complaining there. Till I buay tahan and walked away. Then he left. TMD! Some China people are really a pain in the ass. PB's promoter Alex and me buay tahan a couple of them today. He's great. Dare to talk back in front of the customers instead of cursing and swearing them behind their back. Way to go guy!
Damn lah, I'M PISSED OFF TODAY!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Just Another Boring Weekend Start
Very tiring day. Indeed it's unlucky Friday. Was sick. Feverish and coldness strikes me. Feeling weak at work is the worse thing you can get. Luckily there's not many customers today. Or should I say there's not even a single one? The whole mp3 counter didn't manage to sell anything. Nice one. Congrats BEST.
Keep looking at the watch for the time to strike 9pm. All of us chit chatted there for the whole day. Some more all keep teasing and making fun of me plus want to introduce me bf. I got stuck BARCODE behind my back for countless time. Well, the bad thing is I found out the more you look at the time the more slower it is. So finally it's 9pm sharp, rushed to punch card and ran off. I even adjusted my time to match the card machine now. 9pm straight run!
Went to ta pao for the guys although I'm still feeling unwell. The guys = Newstead people. They all = BEST people. Cabbed home soon after makaning with them. My stomach felt more worse after the tang yuan supper. Poor me. Still got dumped by Edmund at the roadside. He don't want to accompany me wait for cab. Stupid kor!
At last now I felt much more better after resting. But still feel like taking MC later. But like that will lose a lot of sales. Weekends are good time to chiong. No choice I guess. Can't afford to rest now. My target is drifting more and more further. I'm still stuck at the stupid 2000 plus. When can I get 4000 bucks? They all said I'm stressing myself. Maybe I really am.
Luckily I now have guai guai to accompany me. Became my chu qi tong. Poor it. It's a small soft toy tortoise I bought to reward myself plus torture it? Yet it got 'molested' by Jimmy first! I missed my tortoises. If only I still have the time. I'll get myself pet tortoises once again.
Please bless me with good sales this weekend. I need more sales badly. Stress!
Keep looking at the watch for the time to strike 9pm. All of us chit chatted there for the whole day. Some more all keep teasing and making fun of me plus want to introduce me bf. I got stuck BARCODE behind my back for countless time. Well, the bad thing is I found out the more you look at the time the more slower it is. So finally it's 9pm sharp, rushed to punch card and ran off. I even adjusted my time to match the card machine now. 9pm straight run!
Went to ta pao for the guys although I'm still feeling unwell. The guys = Newstead people. They all = BEST people. Cabbed home soon after makaning with them. My stomach felt more worse after the tang yuan supper. Poor me. Still got dumped by Edmund at the roadside. He don't want to accompany me wait for cab. Stupid kor!
At last now I felt much more better after resting. But still feel like taking MC later. But like that will lose a lot of sales. Weekends are good time to chiong. No choice I guess. Can't afford to rest now. My target is drifting more and more further. I'm still stuck at the stupid 2000 plus. When can I get 4000 bucks? They all said I'm stressing myself. Maybe I really am.
Luckily I now have guai guai to accompany me. Became my chu qi tong. Poor it. It's a small soft toy tortoise I bought to reward myself plus torture it? Yet it got 'molested' by Jimmy first! I missed my tortoises. If only I still have the time. I'll get myself pet tortoises once again.
Please bless me with good sales this weekend. I need more sales badly. Stress!
Friday, April 13, 2007
An Unlucky Friday?
Friday 13th. I'll sure to get bad stuffs happening to me every time. Hopefully there's none this year. Today's still not bad. Maybe because it's Jimmy's birthday. The shou xing gong brought some luck to me. Products are selling like hot cakes. And the stocks I ordered had arrived. Everything went smoothly today. I wished it will be the same later.
The only good thing about working in BEST is there's good sales there. Weekdays also can open sales. Able to learn a lot more things too. I've learn computer stuffs at Newstead. Can pick up some skills of camcorders, digicams, pdas such from here. I hoped it will be good. Since Vincent said it's okay to kay poh a little. Anyhoo. Blur in charge I have. I've no comments already.
Waited for the guys to knock off work. Still need to wait for Jimmy to clear account things before we can go. The new Newstead staff Sky, he's not bad. Very friendly and approachable. But he keep mistaken that I'm Julian or Jimmy's gf. Very funny. And the guys keep asking me to get a bf. BEST's security uncles also. Kopitiam people also. Asked me find bf, blah blah blah.
Spare me all these. I'm a lesbian. I don't like guys. Happy?
Tired. Train-ed home with Jimmy. And we're both tired till like half dead on the train. Esp me. Totally no strength to walk to JE. Jimmy said I walked so slow. Work is really killing everyone. And my bed is calling me now. So I'll respect my bed's wish and go accompany it then. Bedtime.
The only good thing about working in BEST is there's good sales there. Weekdays also can open sales. Able to learn a lot more things too. I've learn computer stuffs at Newstead. Can pick up some skills of camcorders, digicams, pdas such from here. I hoped it will be good. Since Vincent said it's okay to kay poh a little. Anyhoo. Blur in charge I have. I've no comments already.
Waited for the guys to knock off work. Still need to wait for Jimmy to clear account things before we can go. The new Newstead staff Sky, he's not bad. Very friendly and approachable. But he keep mistaken that I'm Julian or Jimmy's gf. Very funny. And the guys keep asking me to get a bf. BEST's security uncles also. Kopitiam people also. Asked me find bf, blah blah blah.
Spare me all these. I'm a lesbian. I don't like guys. Happy?
Tired. Train-ed home with Jimmy. And we're both tired till like half dead on the train. Esp me. Totally no strength to walk to JE. Jimmy said I walked so slow. Work is really killing everyone. And my bed is calling me now. So I'll respect my bed's wish and go accompany it then. Bedtime.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Pissed Off Mood
I'm sick and tired. Everything also must report. Everything also must summit. Everything also want to bother. Everything also want to complain.
WHO THE HELL THEY THINK THEY ARE? MY BOSS? I DIDN'T COLLECT MY PAY FROM THEM!
The staffs asked me don't obey the rules. I wished I could also. At Newstead, the most I do is to help with notebooks. Here? Phones, cameras, mp3s. The whole counter I bao gao liao. I even have to care about other brands mp3s. Checking if they're charged or not. 70 plus mp3s asked me to settle all. Today I even lost my own brand's customer coz the iPod customer was bugging me non stop. End up? She didn't buy. And cause my customer to walk off coz he's sick of waiting.
And those stupid officers. I was smsing shipei mei and kana caught. Was called to the office and tio a warning. Hello? Just a couple of messages only. Why so cat? Why can your staffs use hp non stop also never tio? Made me really pissed off. Be fair to us can? Please treat us promoters and your staffs the same.
Moreover the timid cat Vincent didn't help me. Stupid guy. I had to go over to Newstead and complained out. I just know how to sell the other brands they dumped ALL to me already. They badly need a mp3 promoter who is in charge of ALL brands. Instead of just 3 in charge who are always busy. I don't want to lose my own customers anymore. My target and commission is drifting more and more.
I JUST WANT TO CONCENTRATE MORE ON MY OWN BRAND. GOT SALA?
I missed Newstead, I missed Kelvin and Low. At least I can still see them if I continue working at IMM. They're able to cheer me up fast. Jimmy's grin, Julian's an wei-ing, Edmund's jokes, Brian's playfulness. Walked to JE with Edmund. Knew more about the story of them. Still don't understand why they'll choose that. And hopefully the history won't repeat itself again. My two close brothers left. I don't want to see my kor kors left also.
Guys, please don't leave me alone here.
Tired. I want to go MIA again.
WHO THE HELL THEY THINK THEY ARE? MY BOSS? I DIDN'T COLLECT MY PAY FROM THEM!
The staffs asked me don't obey the rules. I wished I could also. At Newstead, the most I do is to help with notebooks. Here? Phones, cameras, mp3s. The whole counter I bao gao liao. I even have to care about other brands mp3s. Checking if they're charged or not. 70 plus mp3s asked me to settle all. Today I even lost my own brand's customer coz the iPod customer was bugging me non stop. End up? She didn't buy. And cause my customer to walk off coz he's sick of waiting.
And those stupid officers. I was smsing shipei mei and kana caught. Was called to the office and tio a warning. Hello? Just a couple of messages only. Why so cat? Why can your staffs use hp non stop also never tio? Made me really pissed off. Be fair to us can? Please treat us promoters and your staffs the same.
Moreover the timid cat Vincent didn't help me. Stupid guy. I had to go over to Newstead and complained out. I just know how to sell the other brands they dumped ALL to me already. They badly need a mp3 promoter who is in charge of ALL brands. Instead of just 3 in charge who are always busy. I don't want to lose my own customers anymore. My target and commission is drifting more and more.
I JUST WANT TO CONCENTRATE MORE ON MY OWN BRAND. GOT SALA?
I missed Newstead, I missed Kelvin and Low. At least I can still see them if I continue working at IMM. They're able to cheer me up fast. Jimmy's grin, Julian's an wei-ing, Edmund's jokes, Brian's playfulness. Walked to JE with Edmund. Knew more about the story of them. Still don't understand why they'll choose that. And hopefully the history won't repeat itself again. My two close brothers left. I don't want to see my kor kors left also.
Guys, please don't leave me alone here.
Tired. I want to go MIA again.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Too Little Too Late
Bad news. Julian told me they've reported them to the police. Which means that I won't be able to see them again soon in the near future. If only everything started all over again, I wished for peace with Kelvin. No more quarrels. Be friends instead of yuan jia. But all is too late.
Seems Lieu got transfer back to Sim Lim. Hence there's a shortage of staffs here. A new guy joined this week. His size looks like Jeff. 20 plus this year. Very chiong. Hope he'll get along fine with the others. Julian asked me over again. This time it's IMM's branch. No fate I guess. Last time I requested for IMM and got rejected. Now it's too late.
Since I'm fine at BEST. No point if I go work at Newstead. Have to start all over again. Learn all over again. I'm tired of all these. BEST people are not bad. Sales is good too. I don't think I will switch job. Some more Newstead's feeling is different already. Joanne, Jimmy and Brian became cold towards me. Only Julian and Edmund treated me the same. Maybe I'm over sensitive? I don't know.
BEST people can be such jokers too. I don't know Sebes can joked such yellow jokes. Always thought he's a serious person when it comes to work. Jitao stunned when Simon Seo and I heard him said that. Made my specs nearly dropped. No wonder they say you can't judge a person by his looks. True after all. Some more they keep teasing me about Lional. Very funny. Jie di also nice to tease? Siao.
I love pink. Got to chiong more and earn more commission to get more pink stuffs. I fell in love with a pink watch from 25 hours gallery today. Cost nearly 100 bucks. Still considering if I should get it. I can't resist pink nowadays. Lional! You la! Your fault la. See la! Tio your virus liao. LOL!
Seems Lieu got transfer back to Sim Lim. Hence there's a shortage of staffs here. A new guy joined this week. His size looks like Jeff. 20 plus this year. Very chiong. Hope he'll get along fine with the others. Julian asked me over again. This time it's IMM's branch. No fate I guess. Last time I requested for IMM and got rejected. Now it's too late.
Since I'm fine at BEST. No point if I go work at Newstead. Have to start all over again. Learn all over again. I'm tired of all these. BEST people are not bad. Sales is good too. I don't think I will switch job. Some more Newstead's feeling is different already. Joanne, Jimmy and Brian became cold towards me. Only Julian and Edmund treated me the same. Maybe I'm over sensitive? I don't know.
BEST people can be such jokers too. I don't know Sebes can joked such yellow jokes. Always thought he's a serious person when it comes to work. Jitao stunned when Simon Seo and I heard him said that. Made my specs nearly dropped. No wonder they say you can't judge a person by his looks. True after all. Some more they keep teasing me about Lional. Very funny. Jie di also nice to tease? Siao.
I love pink. Got to chiong more and earn more commission to get more pink stuffs. I fell in love with a pink watch from 25 hours gallery today. Cost nearly 100 bucks. Still considering if I should get it. I can't resist pink nowadays. Lional! You la! Your fault la. See la! Tio your virus liao. LOL!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
My Pinky Down Mood
I'm tired. Please let me rest.
I must say that I'm badly affected by the two guys doing. Now I know I can't be too close to anyone anymore. Otherwise I won't be able to suffer the blow if the same thing happened again.
Mood was down for these few days. That's why I didn't talk much at work or at home. This matter affected me much more than the previous one. Maybe the two guys played an important part in my work life. Hence I don't know whether I should be upset or angry by their doings.
Off day is bad. I hate off days. Rather work. Life without work is boring. And once I've rested for one day, I'll get lazy and lose all the chiongness. Hopefully my stocks will arrive by this weekend. Then once again it's time to chiong. Money is another important thing to me.
Will get a pink PSP maybe. Maybe that will cheer me up. I'm beginning to like pink nowadays. Infected by Lional maybe? Can't imagine what will happen if we both played pink psp during our break. The others will go, either 1) Wow! Sibling PSP? Or 2) Eee Lional, why girls get pink psp you guy also same?
Falling in love with pink. It's a colour of romance. People who like pink are romantic? As what I've heard. Perhaps? But guys who liked pink are a no no to me. Excluding Lional di. Can't imagine guys wearing pink top. Gross. Disgusting. Guys should like black, white or blue. To me, pink is a colour for girls only.
My mood is down to the extreme. Hopefully something good will come by and cheer me up really soon.
I must say that I'm badly affected by the two guys doing. Now I know I can't be too close to anyone anymore. Otherwise I won't be able to suffer the blow if the same thing happened again.
Mood was down for these few days. That's why I didn't talk much at work or at home. This matter affected me much more than the previous one. Maybe the two guys played an important part in my work life. Hence I don't know whether I should be upset or angry by their doings.
Off day is bad. I hate off days. Rather work. Life without work is boring. And once I've rested for one day, I'll get lazy and lose all the chiongness. Hopefully my stocks will arrive by this weekend. Then once again it's time to chiong. Money is another important thing to me.
Will get a pink PSP maybe. Maybe that will cheer me up. I'm beginning to like pink nowadays. Infected by Lional maybe? Can't imagine what will happen if we both played pink psp during our break. The others will go, either 1) Wow! Sibling PSP? Or 2) Eee Lional, why girls get pink psp you guy also same?
Falling in love with pink. It's a colour of romance. People who like pink are romantic? As what I've heard. Perhaps? But guys who liked pink are a no no to me. Excluding Lional di. Can't imagine guys wearing pink top. Gross. Disgusting. Guys should like black, white or blue. To me, pink is a colour for girls only.
My mood is down to the extreme. Hopefully something good will come by and cheer me up really soon.
Monday, April 09, 2007
The Tiredness Strikes
Finally, my off day. Waited for so long. I nearly die. Worked one whole week without resting. Dumped one day's off just to chiong sales. I must be foolish enough to chiong so hard. But at least all my efforts aren't wasted. 1.5K sales during the 3 days long weekend. Sold all of those ex models till they ran out of stock. I've a satisfied feeling. =)
Was feeling unwell today. Luckily there's everyone to help. Team work man. You helped me I helped you. I helped to sell 2 Phillips and 2 Samsungs. My toes are all swollen up but it's all worth. At most go and find my sin seh for treatment tomorrow. Just want to sleep till noon and go to my sin seh after that. Maybe will read a magazine too. That's what I planned for my off day.
Newstead is getting way too quiet. Never see the whole shop so dead on weekends. I missed the days. Didn't go and visit them for a couple of days. I just walked past the shop. The feeling is already different. The warmth feeling's gone. Till today I still don't understand why things can changed so much without a few days. It's unbelievable.
No place for me to go after work. So went haunting for food. But almost all the food are sold out everywhere. Managed to get some fried sweet potatoes from Kala Kala. That JJ Lin who happens to have the same name and surname as the famous singer asked where's Jes. I worked till forget to contact her. Maybe she still don't know about Newstead's matter yet.
Chatted with Lional just now. It'll be another 2 weeks till he's back at IMM. I wonder how next week will be. So many of them left. I just get to know them better and they left. Sad case. Guess everything have to end one day. Sooner or later. Bed time. It's already 3 in the morning. How I wish I can get a couple days more leave. I'm so tired. This time it's physically tired as well.
Was feeling unwell today. Luckily there's everyone to help. Team work man. You helped me I helped you. I helped to sell 2 Phillips and 2 Samsungs. My toes are all swollen up but it's all worth. At most go and find my sin seh for treatment tomorrow. Just want to sleep till noon and go to my sin seh after that. Maybe will read a magazine too. That's what I planned for my off day.
Newstead is getting way too quiet. Never see the whole shop so dead on weekends. I missed the days. Didn't go and visit them for a couple of days. I just walked past the shop. The feeling is already different. The warmth feeling's gone. Till today I still don't understand why things can changed so much without a few days. It's unbelievable.
No place for me to go after work. So went haunting for food. But almost all the food are sold out everywhere. Managed to get some fried sweet potatoes from Kala Kala. That JJ Lin who happens to have the same name and surname as the famous singer asked where's Jes. I worked till forget to contact her. Maybe she still don't know about Newstead's matter yet.
Chatted with Lional just now. It'll be another 2 weeks till he's back at IMM. I wonder how next week will be. So many of them left. I just get to know them better and they left. Sad case. Guess everything have to end one day. Sooner or later. Bed time. It's already 3 in the morning. How I wish I can get a couple days more leave. I'm so tired. This time it's physically tired as well.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
A Day Of Peace
Do you know how to spell tired with a VERY in front? If you know, you'll understand how I feel now. It's VERY tired. Mentally and physically.
Nowadays will avoid walking pass Newstead. It's not the same anymore. You won't hear Low's loud laughters nor Kelvin's loud voice again. Newstead's quiet now. I don't even hear them talking much now. Guess everyone felt a tad upset by the two fools doings. I don't want to go on anymore. Useless. They won't be coming back.
I didn't notice my toes were swollen till I felt the pain. That's the outcome of not able to sit for 10 plus hours everyday. So just wtf am I doing all these for? For the miserable couple of hundreds? No. It's to forget. That's why although work keeps me busy but I'm still enjoying it.
Didn't went for my niece's wedding dinner tonight. Had to work just to chiong sales. Glad it's not wasted anyhow. I managed to hit a thousand in 2 days. Got to work harder tomorrow. Hopefully I can get $2000 by tomorrow. Although I feel bad for being selfish and 'mouthing' the other brands. But life is cruel right? I need to earn a living too. Sorry. Please do not blame me.
I'm focusing my whole attention on work. Planned to propose to bring in our Digital Voice Recorders. It's a good money grabbing product. Been working till reaching home at almost 11 plus daily. Don't even have the time to keep my aunt and cousin company yesterday when they came to visit from Malaysia. I feel bad.
Lional said I'm too quiet recently. Not my normal chatty self. Julian said that too. Maybe I'm too stressed up at work. But don't worry. I feel better this way. At least I don't have extra time to think of stupid matters. Food cheers me up. Yet I can only eat once at work. This is torturing me. Since Lional don't want to have supper after work. I just chomped on chocolates when I got home. Glad I can't grow fat. If not congrats. LoL.
Nothing much happened today. No complaints. Saturday past by peacefully. Hopefully tomorrow will be the same. After tomorrow I'll be able to get a good day of rest. Monday's my off day again. As usual. One meal break per day is pathetic. Sharing a bowl of fishball soup and a zhu tong fan each with Lional is more pathetic. I need more food.
Stress...
Nowadays will avoid walking pass Newstead. It's not the same anymore. You won't hear Low's loud laughters nor Kelvin's loud voice again. Newstead's quiet now. I don't even hear them talking much now. Guess everyone felt a tad upset by the two fools doings. I don't want to go on anymore. Useless. They won't be coming back.
I didn't notice my toes were swollen till I felt the pain. That's the outcome of not able to sit for 10 plus hours everyday. So just wtf am I doing all these for? For the miserable couple of hundreds? No. It's to forget. That's why although work keeps me busy but I'm still enjoying it.
Didn't went for my niece's wedding dinner tonight. Had to work just to chiong sales. Glad it's not wasted anyhow. I managed to hit a thousand in 2 days. Got to work harder tomorrow. Hopefully I can get $2000 by tomorrow. Although I feel bad for being selfish and 'mouthing' the other brands. But life is cruel right? I need to earn a living too. Sorry. Please do not blame me.
I'm focusing my whole attention on work. Planned to propose to bring in our Digital Voice Recorders. It's a good money grabbing product. Been working till reaching home at almost 11 plus daily. Don't even have the time to keep my aunt and cousin company yesterday when they came to visit from Malaysia. I feel bad.
Lional said I'm too quiet recently. Not my normal chatty self. Julian said that too. Maybe I'm too stressed up at work. But don't worry. I feel better this way. At least I don't have extra time to think of stupid matters. Food cheers me up. Yet I can only eat once at work. This is torturing me. Since Lional don't want to have supper after work. I just chomped on chocolates when I got home. Glad I can't grow fat. If not congrats. LoL.
Nothing much happened today. No complaints. Saturday past by peacefully. Hopefully tomorrow will be the same. After tomorrow I'll be able to get a good day of rest. Monday's my off day again. As usual. One meal break per day is pathetic. Sharing a bowl of fishball soup and a zhu tong fan each with Lional is more pathetic. I need more food.
Stress...
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Bad Friday
I don't know why things turn out this way. My mind's filled with question marks now. When I know the truth. My mood was down for the whole of today. Wondering how could they have do this? They're two of my closest kakis in Newstead. Frankly say, I'm only more close with Julian, Kelvin and Low. Yet they choose this path. Landing Julian in deep shit. How could they?
They found Kelvin. He's not coming back. Stunned. I hope my ears are playing tricks on me. What he told me was true. I should have believe it. It's his last day on Monday after all. I really don't know how I should feel now. I rather he don't tell me anything at all. Like Low. Why did they changed so much suddenly? Maybe I don't really know them well in the first place.
Julian asked me to help find Low online. I did saw him online that day. But never could have imagine that he's in Malaysia already. Stupid Low! You told me we're going to sing K some days. And I won't drink the warm water if it's not serve from you anymore. How could you? How could they? No wonder they both sound so weird that week.
I hate you guys for ps-ing us. Ps-ing Newstead. You're both such irresponsible fellows. I hate you both.
Bad Friday. It's not good at all. I hate it.
030107 - 290307
I missed the days when we had so much fun and laughters together.
They found Kelvin. He's not coming back. Stunned. I hope my ears are playing tricks on me. What he told me was true. I should have believe it. It's his last day on Monday after all. I really don't know how I should feel now. I rather he don't tell me anything at all. Like Low. Why did they changed so much suddenly? Maybe I don't really know them well in the first place.
Julian asked me to help find Low online. I did saw him online that day. But never could have imagine that he's in Malaysia already. Stupid Low! You told me we're going to sing K some days. And I won't drink the warm water if it's not serve from you anymore. How could you? How could they? No wonder they both sound so weird that week.
I hate you guys for ps-ing us. Ps-ing Newstead. You're both such irresponsible fellows. I hate you both.
Bad Friday. It's not good at all. I hate it.
030107 - 290307
I missed the days when we had so much fun and laughters together.
Friday, April 06, 2007
Stress That Is
Maybe I'm really weird tonight. Lional was wondering why am I so quiet. Told him I'm tired. That's all. He don't know I forever won't feel tired when working. If that's tired, it'll just be mentally tired.
Fourth day at BEST. Egg as usual. Come on. I have a target to hit. $4000! The damn $4000 bucks. If I didn't get at least $1000 this weekend. I'll be dead meat. Trust me. Stress. Fucking stress. BEST IMM is such a graveyard. Worse than Newstead in fact.
Guess I'll cancel my Saturday's leave to chiong sales. Bless me. Please. I can't afford to lose this battle. That's actually a customer that came asking for three sets of a 4GB model. Guess what? It's out of stock. Damn it. I felt really tired already. What's wrong with everything? Nothing seems to be going smoothly for me.
Tomorrow's public holiday. Better get some sales in. Or I can prepare a wall to bang against at. Joking with my colleagues is a good way to hide my fears. I'm afraid to lose. No way am I going to get myself transfer away again. I've got to buck up. Eat is a good way to de stress. Went with Lional and another guy whom I don't know how to spell his name for supper at KFC. Came home and it's another round of supper. Yet I'm still hungry. I know I'm feeling stress. That's why I ate so much.
Newstead is in such a mess now. Low and Kelvin left without any notice. Causing Julian to suffer from tons of scoldings. Just WTF are they doing? Seems they're in Malaysia now. Hope they're return after Qing Ming. If not, I'll really hate them forever. How can they be so irresponsible? Don't they have a brain? This kind of thing isn't funny at all. Stupid guys.
Oh, I nearly forget, today's his birthday. Happy Birthday buddy. =)
Fourth day at BEST. Egg as usual. Come on. I have a target to hit. $4000! The damn $4000 bucks. If I didn't get at least $1000 this weekend. I'll be dead meat. Trust me. Stress. Fucking stress. BEST IMM is such a graveyard. Worse than Newstead in fact.
Guess I'll cancel my Saturday's leave to chiong sales. Bless me. Please. I can't afford to lose this battle. That's actually a customer that came asking for three sets of a 4GB model. Guess what? It's out of stock. Damn it. I felt really tired already. What's wrong with everything? Nothing seems to be going smoothly for me.
Tomorrow's public holiday. Better get some sales in. Or I can prepare a wall to bang against at. Joking with my colleagues is a good way to hide my fears. I'm afraid to lose. No way am I going to get myself transfer away again. I've got to buck up. Eat is a good way to de stress. Went with Lional and another guy whom I don't know how to spell his name for supper at KFC. Came home and it's another round of supper. Yet I'm still hungry. I know I'm feeling stress. That's why I ate so much.
Newstead is in such a mess now. Low and Kelvin left without any notice. Causing Julian to suffer from tons of scoldings. Just WTF are they doing? Seems they're in Malaysia now. Hope they're return after Qing Ming. If not, I'll really hate them forever. How can they be so irresponsible? Don't they have a brain? This kind of thing isn't funny at all. Stupid guys.
Oh, I nearly forget, today's his birthday. Happy Birthday buddy. =)
Thursday, April 05, 2007
A Good Start And A Bad Ending
I don't know what happened to the Newstead guys. Suddenly they're gone. Almost half of them. I've not seen them for a couple of days. They didn't even attend the meeting this morning. Where have they gone to? I missed the rest of them. Have not seen them for a week plus. I even forgot to pay for my food because my mind was thinking of it.
The remaining guys kept their mouth sealed like tio stuck by super glue. Maybe they are at a roadshow? Or maybe they got transfer away. I heard that Kelvin is in Malacca now. Low's not there also. Can't even see Julian. And Newstead closes very early today. I'm worried. What is happening? And why am I bothering myself over it?
In the other hand. I'm glad I'm able to adapt into BEST. Made more friends today with help of Lional. They're friendly. My bad impression of them the previous time is totally gone. Lional and me is closer now. He's now my **. Having a sister and brother relationship. Not bf la. LOL! Is di. We really have fate. So many things alike.
We went JEC for KFC after work. It's already 11 plus after we ate finish. Can't believe that the two of us can chat so much. He's really a nice young guy. Too bad he's not interested in a relationship. Intend to recommend him my cousins or meis. LOL! But guess everything have to end soon. He'll only be working till this Sunday. I can't bear to see this di of mine leave.
天下无不散之宴席。
Things changes really fast. Last week I'm still chatting happily with the Newstead guys. Now they're almost half gone. And I'm already at BEST. Chatting too. But the feeling is totally different. Newstead is like a family. BEST is friends. I miss the family feeling. Don't understand why everything have to end when it's at the best time.
Oh well. Everything have to end one day right? I'll miss them and him, lots...
The remaining guys kept their mouth sealed like tio stuck by super glue. Maybe they are at a roadshow? Or maybe they got transfer away. I heard that Kelvin is in Malacca now. Low's not there also. Can't even see Julian. And Newstead closes very early today. I'm worried. What is happening? And why am I bothering myself over it?
In the other hand. I'm glad I'm able to adapt into BEST. Made more friends today with help of Lional. They're friendly. My bad impression of them the previous time is totally gone. Lional and me is closer now. He's now my **. Having a sister and brother relationship. Not bf la. LOL! Is di. We really have fate. So many things alike.
We went JEC for KFC after work. It's already 11 plus after we ate finish. Can't believe that the two of us can chat so much. He's really a nice young guy. Too bad he's not interested in a relationship. Intend to recommend him my cousins or meis. LOL! But guess everything have to end soon. He'll only be working till this Sunday. I can't bear to see this di of mine leave.
天下无不散之宴席。
Things changes really fast. Last week I'm still chatting happily with the Newstead guys. Now they're almost half gone. And I'm already at BEST. Chatting too. But the feeling is totally different. Newstead is like a family. BEST is friends. I miss the family feeling. Don't understand why everything have to end when it's at the best time.
Oh well. Everything have to end one day right? I'll miss them and him, lots...
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Updates On Work
I apologize for not updating yesterday. Was too tired. Need to wake up early and go Sim Lim to collect pay. So just did some stock report, collapse in bed and fell asleep. One of the reason is I've got blisters all over my foot due to my stupid heels. Too tired from all those walking. So here's a long post. To make up for yesterday.
BEST was hell for the first day. Got bullied, got dao by colleagues. Not allowed to eat, not allowed to this and that. Newstead's guys were tired of hearing my nagging whenever I walked past them. Poor Vincent kept receiving my complaint calls. But it's getting better today. I've slowly adapted to the new surrounding and made some friends. Work life's getting smoother.
And here's some scary facts about my new workplace. Can you imagine that the rules at BEST is so damn strict? Not allowed to enter or exit via the two doors. Need to walk a staff's pathway which leads one big round but ended up at the same exit.
They need to search your bag when you knocked off work EVERYDAY. Totally flipped your bag inside out. Poured all the things out. Searched your pockets too. Damn gosh. They won. So kiasu.
Everytime forget this and that. They FINE you. I guess I'll get fined by them due to my blur character. Some more their locker and badge need to pay. Rental fee? Now I finally know why they're so rich.
No drinking of even plain water. You have to hide if you want to drink. And you have to hide your bag also. Either in office or locker. Means you can't have anything on you. So don't bother calling or sms me. Since I can't use my phone. I rather don't bring it.
ONE break time only. ONE! It's hell! A 9 hours job with only one break time. Kill me. I've not adapt to this yet. At Newstead I've being stuffed by the guys and uncle. Every time eat eat eat. And now? Every time starve starve starve.
I know I need to get used to it. 3 months of hell to suffer. Am glad there's nice people who helped me adapt. Eg Lional and Simon. Simon's a staff I've known since I'm at Newstead. With him there, everything will be easier. Lional's a wonderful 19 year old cute guy. Who uses a PINK PSP. And he hated people to comment on it. LOL! VERY cute and handsome young lad. Single some more. Any takers? LOL!!
Newstead's having so many new happenings. Wonder if they're joking or not. Seems all of them are leaving one by one. Kelvin was the first. He told me it was his last day yesterday. My mood went down. Was like WHAT? No more Kelvin? You're kidding me. And I hope he is. Can't imagine what life will be if Newstead change all IMM staffs. And Jimmy said he don't really welcome me anymore because I'm now BEST's staff. I hope he's only joking. Since all of them seems to be hiding something from me.
Don't brood over unhappy matters anymore. It's pay day today. My pocket is at last not empty. My Le-MON colleague Alvin went to buy a hp after collecting his pay. Pay = $800. Hp = $700. He's only 17. Spent his whole month's salary on a phone. That's scary. So I ended up reaching IMM at 1+ pm. Time to sleep. Later some BEST's Japanese big bosses are going. Better act guai.
LeMons anyone? LOL!
BEST was hell for the first day. Got bullied, got dao by colleagues. Not allowed to eat, not allowed to this and that. Newstead's guys were tired of hearing my nagging whenever I walked past them. Poor Vincent kept receiving my complaint calls. But it's getting better today. I've slowly adapted to the new surrounding and made some friends. Work life's getting smoother.
And here's some scary facts about my new workplace. Can you imagine that the rules at BEST is so damn strict? Not allowed to enter or exit via the two doors. Need to walk a staff's pathway which leads one big round but ended up at the same exit.
They need to search your bag when you knocked off work EVERYDAY. Totally flipped your bag inside out. Poured all the things out. Searched your pockets too. Damn gosh. They won. So kiasu.
Everytime forget this and that. They FINE you. I guess I'll get fined by them due to my blur character. Some more their locker and badge need to pay. Rental fee? Now I finally know why they're so rich.
No drinking of even plain water. You have to hide if you want to drink. And you have to hide your bag also. Either in office or locker. Means you can't have anything on you. So don't bother calling or sms me. Since I can't use my phone. I rather don't bring it.
ONE break time only. ONE! It's hell! A 9 hours job with only one break time. Kill me. I've not adapt to this yet. At Newstead I've being stuffed by the guys and uncle. Every time eat eat eat. And now? Every time starve starve starve.
I know I need to get used to it. 3 months of hell to suffer. Am glad there's nice people who helped me adapt. Eg Lional and Simon. Simon's a staff I've known since I'm at Newstead. With him there, everything will be easier. Lional's a wonderful 19 year old cute guy. Who uses a PINK PSP. And he hated people to comment on it. LOL! VERY cute and handsome young lad. Single some more. Any takers? LOL!!
Newstead's having so many new happenings. Wonder if they're joking or not. Seems all of them are leaving one by one. Kelvin was the first. He told me it was his last day yesterday. My mood went down. Was like WHAT? No more Kelvin? You're kidding me. And I hope he is. Can't imagine what life will be if Newstead change all IMM staffs. And Jimmy said he don't really welcome me anymore because I'm now BEST's staff. I hope he's only joking. Since all of them seems to be hiding something from me.
Don't brood over unhappy matters anymore. It's pay day today. My pocket is at last not empty. My Le-MON colleague Alvin went to buy a hp after collecting his pay. Pay = $800. Hp = $700. He's only 17. Spent his whole month's salary on a phone. That's scary. So I ended up reaching IMM at 1+ pm. Time to sleep. Later some BEST's Japanese big bosses are going. Better act guai.
LeMons anyone? LOL!
Monday, April 02, 2007
A Brand New Start
A brand new start. Everything need to be relearn and start afresh. I feel refreshed, relaxed yet relived. Feeling a tad nervous yet excited also. It's just how I feel when I'm in school. The beginning of a new year. A new surrounding. I can't wait for tomorrow.
It's tough to pass these few days. Esp when you're used to working. Rotting at home makes you feel lifeless. But I do feel a little upset. I missed my working life. Yet missed my free time too. But guess I prefer working after all? Because I missed the guys most of all. Esp you know who.
Julian and uncle la. Who do you think it is? -_-
Just now Jeff told me a BIG JOKE. April Fool's already over by a couple of minutes then. Crazy guy. I nearly choke on my drink. We're chatting happily. About how he said Julian said he'll miss me when I'm at Best. I will miss Julian too. Then the next topic is about the guys. One by one. Suddenly talked about him.
Jeff: "I think Kelvin like you lor."
WA KAO. You must be kidding me. *Puisssssss* LOL!
*Slaps Jeff* LOL!!!
Terrible joke to play on April's Fool. It got me shivering. *Feels cold*
You know what or not? Leaving Newstead is a sad case. But there's one matter to be joyful about. And that's I don't have to face Kelvin anymore. Mainly because I don't want any more arguments with Kelvin to let uncle and Julian sandwiched between us. Well, guess it's time for us to end our childish actions already. Enough of it.
Tomorrow, the BIG and BEST? day.
It's tough to pass these few days. Esp when you're used to working. Rotting at home makes you feel lifeless. But I do feel a little upset. I missed my working life. Yet missed my free time too. But guess I prefer working after all? Because I missed the guys most of all. Esp you know who.
Julian and uncle la. Who do you think it is? -_-
Just now Jeff told me a BIG JOKE. April Fool's already over by a couple of minutes then. Crazy guy. I nearly choke on my drink. We're chatting happily. About how he said Julian said he'll miss me when I'm at Best. I will miss Julian too. Then the next topic is about the guys. One by one. Suddenly talked about him.
Jeff: "I think Kelvin like you lor."
WA KAO. You must be kidding me. *Puisssssss* LOL!
*Slaps Jeff* LOL!!!
Terrible joke to play on April's Fool. It got me shivering. *Feels cold*
You know what or not? Leaving Newstead is a sad case. But there's one matter to be joyful about. And that's I don't have to face Kelvin anymore. Mainly because I don't want any more arguments with Kelvin to let uncle and Julian sandwiched between us. Well, guess it's time for us to end our childish actions already. Enough of it.
Tomorrow, the BIG and BEST? day.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Confused Mind
4am now. Such a wonder that I'm still online at this time. And it's the last day I can ton till this hour. Am so going to miss this kind of life again. After tonight, it'll be resting early nights for me.
Chatted a lot with zax mei tonight. She asked me not to mia too often. Mei, I'll try. If you know me well, you'll know that even if I'm mia, I won't be mia in my blog. If I'm even gone from blogging. Then I'm in some kind of trouble or something that upsets me till I don't even wish to online. I don't want and won't be like him. Tired with these missing in action thing he gave.
Been waiting for him to online for the whole night. Don't want to call him. Afraid that he'll gave me all those drunken speech again. Once bitten twice shy. Guys talked really different when they're drunk. But till now, 4.30am sharp and he's nowhere in sight. Perhaps he's drunk, again.
I gave up.
Feeling confused recently. Mind filled with bitter, sour, sweet and even salty. Bitter coz I found my life's tough. Sour coz I'm jealous? Maybe. Sweet coz I'm touched by what he did. And salty coz I cried upon the memories. Overall, I felt tired. But don't want to rest anymore. What should I do? Don't even know that myself.
Asked mei a silly question tonight. Asked her who will that be. And she answered me very fast.
F.
She don't even have to think. But is that the answer? Maybe? I'm not even sure of that myself.
People said feelings will fade. I believe. Coz I've lost all feeling for that person upon that matter. Yet for this it had been so many years. Even if that's a pity from start coz I feel bad. The feeling would have gone right? Yet it didn't.
Today's the 1st of April. April Fool. The day will arrive soon. I don't even know if I have a chance to say that to him. I hope I do. As long as he don't mia, it's possible.
I shouldn't have did it from the start. Using this to forget that is silly. Hence landed myself in such a mess now. I brought it upon myself. When this is gone. The feeling of that is back again.
Foolish me. That can never be forgetten.
Chatted a lot with zax mei tonight. She asked me not to mia too often. Mei, I'll try. If you know me well, you'll know that even if I'm mia, I won't be mia in my blog. If I'm even gone from blogging. Then I'm in some kind of trouble or something that upsets me till I don't even wish to online. I don't want and won't be like him. Tired with these missing in action thing he gave.
Been waiting for him to online for the whole night. Don't want to call him. Afraid that he'll gave me all those drunken speech again. Once bitten twice shy. Guys talked really different when they're drunk. But till now, 4.30am sharp and he's nowhere in sight. Perhaps he's drunk, again.
I gave up.
Feeling confused recently. Mind filled with bitter, sour, sweet and even salty. Bitter coz I found my life's tough. Sour coz I'm jealous? Maybe. Sweet coz I'm touched by what he did. And salty coz I cried upon the memories. Overall, I felt tired. But don't want to rest anymore. What should I do? Don't even know that myself.
Asked mei a silly question tonight. Asked her who will that be. And she answered me very fast.
F.
She don't even have to think. But is that the answer? Maybe? I'm not even sure of that myself.
People said feelings will fade. I believe. Coz I've lost all feeling for that person upon that matter. Yet for this it had been so many years. Even if that's a pity from start coz I feel bad. The feeling would have gone right? Yet it didn't.
Today's the 1st of April. April Fool. The day will arrive soon. I don't even know if I have a chance to say that to him. I hope I do. As long as he don't mia, it's possible.
I shouldn't have did it from the start. Using this to forget that is silly. Hence landed myself in such a mess now. I brought it upon myself. When this is gone. The feeling of that is back again.
Foolish me. That can never be forgetten.
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