Today's a fine day. Slept a lot. And sleeping makes me feel better. Not that tired but still tend to feel drowsy after the medication. Fell off my chair just now. Been a long while since I logged in habbo. I did log in. But just rot awhile in hotel view and off I go. Think it's time for me to un mia there. Otherwise I'll really be mia forever. You know what I mean? Jia lat lah. In danger liao. Can't imagine what will happen.
Of coz first place to go is Litez room. Fire da ge deejayed tonight. Techno! My favourite! Bas da jie next. When is my turn? Haha. Don't know leh. I only know will be quite busy this week. Next week bah. It's a promise. Won't let it drag le. Can't keep on mia-ing here and there to avoid virtual stuff. Mic ah. Seems to crash liao. Rusty till die. Time to get a new mic and top up my ppc for buying hc. Ending soon.
Let's see about my schedule this week. Will be going to eat salmon japanese meal with that salmon later at cck lot 1 I suppose? I don't 100% pin my hopes on everything now. Listen listen then forget it. Unless the promise is being done. Otherwise, hear hear suan le. PS my mum's medical appt just to have sushi with him. His mian zi so big. If he dares to ps me this time. All readers will be my witness. I'll make him into salmon sushi! And I mean it.
Reason for lunch later is coz he'll be busy on sat which is my exact day of birthday. Darling sis plan the whatever chalet I think no hope liao. Totally no news about it. Jie jio me out on friday to pre celebrate for me with yan jie. So I'm busy on thur and fri. Saturday! My birthday. Yet I'm free like a bird. Reina wanted to jio me out to pub for drinks. But guess I shouldn't touch drinks recently. Otherwise mati.
An old friend of mine wanted to book a place in a restaurant on sat to celebrate. Hotel de some more. Salmon was like asking where he's bringing me to. Don't tell me to hotel? I answer yea. He's shocked like hell. Hahaha. But guess I'm not going. Later cause misunderstanding between him and his gf then I can die. Sat, hmm. Spend the day alone bah. Laze around and do some thinkings at home. Otherwise who want to jio me out on sat? I'm sick of spending my birthday alone.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Bye and hello to mia again
A big apologize to all for mia-ing for so many days. Not at Malaysia or something. The one and only reason that I'm mia without any notice, it's because I'm sick. For so many months I'm so alive and kicking and suddenly I just dropped dead. For two whole days. So nice? Dropped 2.5 kilos straight for not able to eat during these 2 days. It's back without a warning.
Not blaming anyone for this. Although I know the main reason why I fell sick this time. Went to a wedding dinner with my aunt, uncle and cousins on sunday. Showing them the way to Rendezvous Hotel. A bad choice I guess. Shouldn't have went there with them. Uncle forced me to drink. Said it's good for my health. Glasses after glasses of red wine. Think I drank 2 or 3 glasses. And how would I know I can't stand red wine? Strong liquor's not a problem to me. Just dropped dead. Totally drunk with a bad gastric.
Too drunk till I fell off Rendezvous Hotel's stairs. 2nd storey jitao down. Luckily my cousin is there to held me. Otherwise I think I'll just fell dead and landed in hospital. Pai seh till! So many ang mos and VIP and I just fell straight to their counter there. Wearing a skirt some more. Head banged against the pillar. Slam my butt right on the floor. Legs and whole body hurts. And yet I'm still blur blur. Only when my cousin called me biao jie (cousin) then I noticed that I fell off the stairs. With the help of my aunt I crawled back to the car. On my way back and I knew something was wrong.
Feel like puking but can't. This is the worse I tell you. Walked back home from the car wobbling. Don't want to tell my parents that uncle forced wine down on me. So I took all the responsibility and said I showed geng and drank too much. Too hao lian was their reply and got scolded like mad. Then straight to bed I fell and jitao lie there and sick for two whole days. Thinking who will be there for me and how my birthday will be. But I saw blank image. Totally nothing at all. All's going to be empty promises again I guess.
I'm never going to drink red wine again. It hurts my gastric real bad. It's acting up again. Tried to call salmon up but he offs his phone. Leave him a msg telling him I'm sick like mad and for the whole day there's not even single msg or call back from him. Disappointed. But what can I do? Mum asked doesn't he showed any concern for me when I'm sick badly? My answer? "No ma, I don't even know him well." I replied with a cold grin. Mum sarcastically said bet he'll be the last one to know I'm dead if I suddenly died. How nice?
Feeling so cold. My poor heart is shivering. No one to show concern for me. My parents will only be sarcastic towards me when I'm sick. And I don't want to let my kors, jies, meis and dis worry. I think if I want to find that fish will be tougher than climbling the mountain. Used to it already. The only thing he know to say is asked me to go rest and don't man yuan (complain) too much.
I can feel free to man yuan here. It's my blog. Just because I'm inactive due to my health and busy schedule doesn't mean I don't want to care anymore. Why can't they be more understanding? For all you guys want, can treat me fried ******fish. I don't mind. For now I just want to get my health and life back. I'm really too tired to do anything more. No job no everything. Perhaps I should think of qin's request and go work in her pub. But that will mean more drinks and smoke. But I want to quit all these. For the sake of health.
Thanks uncle francis for remembering me and asking about my health. Thanks for getting my hp sold. 80 bucks is better than nothing. Thanks for the memory card. Thanks to all who cared for me. Buddy, I won't forget how you cared for me always when I'm sick. I feel bad myself for going to him whenever I can't find salmon. My turn for taking him as a replacement? Mei, I'll missed you these few days. Anything just contact me through my hp. I'm not like a someone who tends to shuts off phone and went mia.
Enough of man yuan-ing. I feel so much better. Can't believe that I'm actually so tired in life. Guess I should put this to a stop. Shouldn't play with fire anymore. Yin huo zi fen. I'm playing with fire and letting it burn myself to make my life so miserable. Maybe I should let it go soon. Let go if you're tired. The words keep repeating in my mind. Can't afford to let myself being hurt anymore. I don't even know what am I doing now. Forget it.
Not blaming anyone for this. Although I know the main reason why I fell sick this time. Went to a wedding dinner with my aunt, uncle and cousins on sunday. Showing them the way to Rendezvous Hotel. A bad choice I guess. Shouldn't have went there with them. Uncle forced me to drink. Said it's good for my health. Glasses after glasses of red wine. Think I drank 2 or 3 glasses. And how would I know I can't stand red wine? Strong liquor's not a problem to me. Just dropped dead. Totally drunk with a bad gastric.
Too drunk till I fell off Rendezvous Hotel's stairs. 2nd storey jitao down. Luckily my cousin is there to held me. Otherwise I think I'll just fell dead and landed in hospital. Pai seh till! So many ang mos and VIP and I just fell straight to their counter there. Wearing a skirt some more. Head banged against the pillar. Slam my butt right on the floor. Legs and whole body hurts. And yet I'm still blur blur. Only when my cousin called me biao jie (cousin) then I noticed that I fell off the stairs. With the help of my aunt I crawled back to the car. On my way back and I knew something was wrong.
Feel like puking but can't. This is the worse I tell you. Walked back home from the car wobbling. Don't want to tell my parents that uncle forced wine down on me. So I took all the responsibility and said I showed geng and drank too much. Too hao lian was their reply and got scolded like mad. Then straight to bed I fell and jitao lie there and sick for two whole days. Thinking who will be there for me and how my birthday will be. But I saw blank image. Totally nothing at all. All's going to be empty promises again I guess.
I'm never going to drink red wine again. It hurts my gastric real bad. It's acting up again. Tried to call salmon up but he offs his phone. Leave him a msg telling him I'm sick like mad and for the whole day there's not even single msg or call back from him. Disappointed. But what can I do? Mum asked doesn't he showed any concern for me when I'm sick badly? My answer? "No ma, I don't even know him well." I replied with a cold grin. Mum sarcastically said bet he'll be the last one to know I'm dead if I suddenly died. How nice?
Feeling so cold. My poor heart is shivering. No one to show concern for me. My parents will only be sarcastic towards me when I'm sick. And I don't want to let my kors, jies, meis and dis worry. I think if I want to find that fish will be tougher than climbling the mountain. Used to it already. The only thing he know to say is asked me to go rest and don't man yuan (complain) too much.
I can feel free to man yuan here. It's my blog. Just because I'm inactive due to my health and busy schedule doesn't mean I don't want to care anymore. Why can't they be more understanding? For all you guys want, can treat me fried ******fish. I don't mind. For now I just want to get my health and life back. I'm really too tired to do anything more. No job no everything. Perhaps I should think of qin's request and go work in her pub. But that will mean more drinks and smoke. But I want to quit all these. For the sake of health.
Thanks uncle francis for remembering me and asking about my health. Thanks for getting my hp sold. 80 bucks is better than nothing. Thanks for the memory card. Thanks to all who cared for me. Buddy, I won't forget how you cared for me always when I'm sick. I feel bad myself for going to him whenever I can't find salmon. My turn for taking him as a replacement? Mei, I'll missed you these few days. Anything just contact me through my hp. I'm not like a someone who tends to shuts off phone and went mia.
Enough of man yuan-ing. I feel so much better. Can't believe that I'm actually so tired in life. Guess I should put this to a stop. Shouldn't play with fire anymore. Yin huo zi fen. I'm playing with fire and letting it burn myself to make my life so miserable. Maybe I should let it go soon. Let go if you're tired. The words keep repeating in my mind. Can't afford to let myself being hurt anymore. I don't even know what am I doing now. Forget it.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Phone talk
I love you! I really love you lots! My dear new phone. Samsung Z230! LOL!
I admit I'm mad. To fall in love with samsung phones. Where's the nokia kia rongfang gone to? Probably coz nokia phones are having more problems now. And those N series sux to the max. Their 3G phone are also cmi type. Bulky and heavy is not the type of phones for me.
Take a look at samsung. Small and classy. What you want, it's all in there. Just a tad pity that samsung phones are too soft to be heard. No radio somemore. Who needs radio in their phone nowadays anyway? Plus their sms function are not user friendly. But will be alright when you get used to it. I must get used to samsung phones! Their phone's software is so cool also. Can edit songs and videos etc. So fun lor!
As in why I have the sudden urge to buy a phone. Coz this samsung Z230 is FOC! YES! You never saw it wrong. This phone comes free if you upgrade your line or sign up for a new line. And of coz due to my two M1 lines had ended their 2 years contract. So hence decided to sign up for this free phone. But the salesgirl at M1 shop never tell me there's a free 2 months mms when you upgraded. Ended up I signed the contract using my dad's no.
And I never regretbuying taking it. It's a beauty. No matter inner or outer. Pardon me, I'm just drooling over the phone. Mp3 player, 3G, bluetooth, 2 cameras, all under one phone. My first choice is actually pink nokia 6111. But guess what, SG had totally no stock of them. Unless it's some leftovers. Will recommend you guys to grab this samsung phone instead. Samsung rocks!
Went to the shop that I bought my phone every time. Too bad uncle francis's not working there anymore. But another salesman still remembered that I'm still a regular customer. Coz you see, I've already bought around 10 plus hps there. I must be crazy last time. Now I'll just stick to one phone unless it's spoilt or something then I'll changed it.
Redeemed the sunperks points too. 1000 over points already. Got mom a prepaid top up card using this 1000 points. How nice. 1000 bucks for just a 18 bucks top up card. To my horror, I just noticed that I've spent more than 1000 bucks on my hp bill these 2 years. Faints! To my horror two, singnet sux to the core. Don't know do what bill adjustment and cause my internet bill to fly up to a shocking 100++ bucks. That's mad. They counted 3 months bill you know? Singtel lack of money is it? Kia su.
Got myself a key pendent at last. 38 bucks after a 20% discount. Mom was okay with the price. So it's mine at last! Didn't want to spend too much. So glad mom bought it for me. Guess what? I've only left 2 bucks in my wallet. How nice. End of the month is coming soon. Still can tahan bah. Need to get a memory card for my new phone too. Plan to sell my old phone and use the cash to buy it. Price is just nice for me to top up.
Simon so bhb lor. Saying that since I've got a 3G phone must have wanted to call him and see hismouse face. LOL! But got 3G phone also not bad lar. The first 5 mins is free when you call to another M1 customer. There's quite a lot of people around me using M1. My cousin and simon etc. Can video call liao.
My cousins still have not reach SG. Probably they are spending the night at JB. Will get to see them later. Hope they stay for a couple of days instead of going back later again at night. Oh yah, almost forgot. Simon better win for his mahjong session tonight. If not get lost far far. Muhahaha. Evil me. Speaking of mahjong makes my hands itch. Oh well. Back to explore my phone. Everyone sure knows I'm super ki siao tonight coz of the new phone.
I admit I'm mad. To fall in love with samsung phones. Where's the nokia kia rongfang gone to? Probably coz nokia phones are having more problems now. And those N series sux to the max. Their 3G phone are also cmi type. Bulky and heavy is not the type of phones for me.
Take a look at samsung. Small and classy. What you want, it's all in there. Just a tad pity that samsung phones are too soft to be heard. No radio somemore. Who needs radio in their phone nowadays anyway? Plus their sms function are not user friendly. But will be alright when you get used to it. I must get used to samsung phones! Their phone's software is so cool also. Can edit songs and videos etc. So fun lor!
As in why I have the sudden urge to buy a phone. Coz this samsung Z230 is FOC! YES! You never saw it wrong. This phone comes free if you upgrade your line or sign up for a new line. And of coz due to my two M1 lines had ended their 2 years contract. So hence decided to sign up for this free phone. But the salesgirl at M1 shop never tell me there's a free 2 months mms when you upgraded. Ended up I signed the contract using my dad's no.
And I never regret
Went to the shop that I bought my phone every time. Too bad uncle francis's not working there anymore. But another salesman still remembered that I'm still a regular customer. Coz you see, I've already bought around 10 plus hps there. I must be crazy last time. Now I'll just stick to one phone unless it's spoilt or something then I'll changed it.
Redeemed the sunperks points too. 1000 over points already. Got mom a prepaid top up card using this 1000 points. How nice. 1000 bucks for just a 18 bucks top up card. To my horror, I just noticed that I've spent more than 1000 bucks on my hp bill these 2 years. Faints! To my horror two, singnet sux to the core. Don't know do what bill adjustment and cause my internet bill to fly up to a shocking 100++ bucks. That's mad. They counted 3 months bill you know? Singtel lack of money is it? Kia su.
Got myself a key pendent at last. 38 bucks after a 20% discount. Mom was okay with the price. So it's mine at last! Didn't want to spend too much. So glad mom bought it for me. Guess what? I've only left 2 bucks in my wallet. How nice. End of the month is coming soon. Still can tahan bah. Need to get a memory card for my new phone too. Plan to sell my old phone and use the cash to buy it. Price is just nice for me to top up.
Simon so bhb lor. Saying that since I've got a 3G phone must have wanted to call him and see his
My cousins still have not reach SG. Probably they are spending the night at JB. Will get to see them later. Hope they stay for a couple of days instead of going back later again at night. Oh yah, almost forgot. Simon better win for his mahjong session tonight. If not get lost far far. Muhahaha. Evil me. Speaking of mahjong makes my hands itch. Oh well. Back to explore my phone. Everyone sure knows I'm super ki siao tonight coz of the new phone.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
A post of love
Actually not feeling very well but since ning jie asked, I went out with her. Had a nice day out. We went to IMM. And gosh, it changed a lot! Those new shops are so cool! Walked for around 3 hours. Bought an elegant black pouch. Nice! Actually intend to meet matthew and go vivo today. But don't know where he mia to. Can't contact him. He flew me plane! But vivo's not that nice. Just love the candy empire there. Love the nougats!
The small argument salmon and me had is finally over. Don't know why he got ''that kind'' of thoughts. And said that I don't understand him at all. Still can argue with me over this. What can I say? Guys are just so different from girls. Guys don't understand girl's feelings too. They won't know what we wanted. Very simple. We just want guys to spend more time with us instead of just asking how are you. Have you eaten. Enough money to use anot etc.
Guys are always cute when they are half awake. When they are in blur mode. One example is that piggy. From mouse to salmon to piggy. So many nicks. First time he ans my call when he's in half awake mode. Sibeh cute ah! Gong gong type. For me, I won't gong. At most just huh. Then you''ll hear doo. Coz I dc the call. LOL! I only know how to act cute. Can't believe it? I'll act cute and make those jiejies and korkors of mine to sayang me. But to those younger than me, I'll act da jie jie. Very tough to see me act cute one.
Went to look for hp with ning jie at IMM's M1 roadshow. Seems N6280 is a bad choice till even the salesperson recommend me to buy other phones.
N6280 - $138 with 2 years contact. Free bluetooth earpiece and printer.
The salesperson said the price had already included the free stuff. Coz the previous week this phone only cost $98. But guess I won't buy it. Ning jie and elizabeth said that it's not a good choice. Seems only YM di loves it. Maybe coz of his size? This phone suits him well. LOL! The salesperson even said I look 18. When I become so young? But maybe. Coz I kana check IC when I went to buy crig. Salmon upon hearing this laughed till pengz. Funny?
I fell in love with a samsung phone. Samsung phones are just so attractive.
Samsung Z230 - $28 with two years contact. It's a 3G phone. OmG! $28?!
The small argument salmon and me had is finally over. Don't know why he got ''that kind'' of thoughts. And said that I don't understand him at all. Still can argue with me over this. What can I say? Guys are just so different from girls. Guys don't understand girl's feelings too. They won't know what we wanted. Very simple. We just want guys to spend more time with us instead of just asking how are you. Have you eaten. Enough money to use anot etc.
Guys are always cute when they are half awake. When they are in blur mode. One example is that piggy. From mouse to salmon to piggy. So many nicks. First time he ans my call when he's in half awake mode. Sibeh cute ah! Gong gong type. For me, I won't gong. At most just huh. Then you''ll hear doo. Coz I dc the call. LOL! I only know how to act cute. Can't believe it? I'll act cute and make those jiejies and korkors of mine to sayang me. But to those younger than me, I'll act da jie jie. Very tough to see me act cute one.
Went to look for hp with ning jie at IMM's M1 roadshow. Seems N6280 is a bad choice till even the salesperson recommend me to buy other phones.
N6280 - $138 with 2 years contact. Free bluetooth earpiece and printer.
The salesperson said the price had already included the free stuff. Coz the previous week this phone only cost $98. But guess I won't buy it. Ning jie and elizabeth said that it's not a good choice. Seems only YM di loves it. Maybe coz of his size? This phone suits him well. LOL! The salesperson even said I look 18. When I become so young? But maybe. Coz I kana check IC when I went to buy crig. Salmon upon hearing this laughed till pengz. Funny?
I fell in love with a samsung phone. Samsung phones are just so attractive.
Samsung Z230 - $28 with two years contact. It's a 3G phone. OmG! $28?!
So nice right? Who won't fall in love with it? But don't know why blogger made my pictures till so ugly. Like phone rusty like that. LOL! This phone is just like my current nokia phone except it's without the antenna. Might consider buying this as a birthday present for myself. I still want a key pendant. Took a liking for one from taka. Cost $69. It don't really look like a key. On another view, it look like a guitar. So cool! But I'll need to fork out at least 100 bucks for both. Totally broke.
Had a long chat with elizabeth tonight. Miss you old friend! She's going to fish's concert later. Envy her so much. And she's so nice to try to get fish to sign on my album! She's going to give it as a present to me. So touched! Thanks friend. I'm fortune to have you as my friend. =)
My msian cousins are coming over later! I can't wait! Mum says she's asking my aunt to cook up a storm and celebrate my birthday in advance. So nice of her. But guess what. Dad poured a cold bucket of water down on me. Saying it's useless to celebrate birthday. Oh well. Luckily I had wonderful friends around me. Thanks sister and kieran! Seems they're planning a chalet or something for me. They've been discussing it for the last few days. So nice!
Lastly, something before I blog off.
I LOVE YOU ALL LAH! ^^
PS: I've make up my mind. I still think I love this phone the most. Don't care don't have 3G. I love it! Coz my current phone died on me! Help! Hope cwp's nokia shop still have the stock. Pink Nokia 6111 wait for me!
Friday, November 24, 2006
Had a bad day
Think I throw too much temper, now I got it back double. Don't know why salmon got such a fierce temper today. Complained that I online too much. Don't know how to control. Lots of online matters for him to complain. Then he started throwing his shao ye temper here and there. Then said bye.
You bad mood bad mood lah. Dump all your temper on me for what? Does that make you feel better or happier? I'm not your punching bag. He said he's stress. You think I'm not? But I still control my mood and temper. I know where and how to let those bad mood loose. Don't just anyhow bomb it lah.
In my fit of anger, I sent him an sms. Saying that I won't call him again next time. If case I got bomb for no reason. Vexed out all my anger at one go. And I got back a sorry as reply. Sorry no cure. Bomb is bomb. Hurt people's feeling le say sorry got use? And now what, he rejected my call and offs his phone. Fine loh, don't ever asked me to call him again from now on.
I got too furious today till my old sickness came back. Can't breathe properly. Heart pain like hell. And started feeling faint. Not feeling very well these few days. Guess it's time for this bad case to return. I just fell down and lie on the floor unconscious. Head bang against the bed's edge. Now got a bump. Don't tell me, the hole in my heart had expand? Don't dare to think.
Started to be cheeky in case my parents got too worry. I just said I'm too tired hence lying on the floor to rest. What a joke. Glad all's over now. Lucky have not mati yet. Lol. I sense something bad. Maybe I can't get over 21 years of age. Dead end at 20? Choy! Recently read tons of news about people passing away during sleep. Good way of dying. Painless at least.
Tired, I'm so tired. Think buddy knew that something's wrong with me already. Coz I don't know why go and msg him asking him some stupid things. He must have found me weird. Exposed liao loh. For sure one. Just returned him a nitez and shut off my phone. I want to be independent without him. I'll solve my problems myself. Don't want to bother him.
Everything went wrong today. All those contestants I support in superstar all got kicked out. Shiyu! I said mei got a ''crow mouth''. Me too. Anyhow said and he kana. Should have shut my big mouth up. Not going to watch superstar liao. All those good ones got out. What is this contest coming to?
My msian cousins might be coming over to SG this weekend. Yay! They better be. Don't ps me. This is one thing that cheers me up alittle. I missed them so much. Suddenly I miss msia too. No worries there at all. Unlike being in SG. Lastly, I don't keep any sms or emails. Weird? My habit mah. So don't ask me to transfer any msg. Coz all tio deleted. Gone with the wind.
You bad mood bad mood lah. Dump all your temper on me for what? Does that make you feel better or happier? I'm not your punching bag. He said he's stress. You think I'm not? But I still control my mood and temper. I know where and how to let those bad mood loose. Don't just anyhow bomb it lah.
In my fit of anger, I sent him an sms. Saying that I won't call him again next time. If case I got bomb for no reason. Vexed out all my anger at one go. And I got back a sorry as reply. Sorry no cure. Bomb is bomb. Hurt people's feeling le say sorry got use? And now what, he rejected my call and offs his phone. Fine loh, don't ever asked me to call him again from now on.
I got too furious today till my old sickness came back. Can't breathe properly. Heart pain like hell. And started feeling faint. Not feeling very well these few days. Guess it's time for this bad case to return. I just fell down and lie on the floor unconscious. Head bang against the bed's edge. Now got a bump. Don't tell me, the hole in my heart had expand? Don't dare to think.
Started to be cheeky in case my parents got too worry. I just said I'm too tired hence lying on the floor to rest. What a joke. Glad all's over now. Lucky have not mati yet. Lol. I sense something bad. Maybe I can't get over 21 years of age. Dead end at 20? Choy! Recently read tons of news about people passing away during sleep. Good way of dying. Painless at least.
Tired, I'm so tired. Think buddy knew that something's wrong with me already. Coz I don't know why go and msg him asking him some stupid things. He must have found me weird. Exposed liao loh. For sure one. Just returned him a nitez and shut off my phone. I want to be independent without him. I'll solve my problems myself. Don't want to bother him.
Everything went wrong today. All those contestants I support in superstar all got kicked out. Shiyu! I said mei got a ''crow mouth''. Me too. Anyhow said and he kana. Should have shut my big mouth up. Not going to watch superstar liao. All those good ones got out. What is this contest coming to?
My msian cousins might be coming over to SG this weekend. Yay! They better be. Don't ps me. This is one thing that cheers me up alittle. I missed them so much. Suddenly I miss msia too. No worries there at all. Unlike being in SG. Lastly, I don't keep any sms or emails. Weird? My habit mah. So don't ask me to transfer any msg. Coz all tio deleted. Gone with the wind.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
A surprise visit
Surprising day. Darling sister came over my house with his god sis shue ting. Got a shock. Was napping when I received the call. Shue ting asked if I missed her. Then passed the phone to sister. He told me he's coming over to BP, dropping over to my house for a chat later. Immediately tio shock up.
Today whole day can't contact salmon. Sister asked me where is san wen yu. I told him he's mia. He did give me a call in the morning. Saying he's starting to get busy. Okay. Busy all he want then. I'm used to being alone. Still got my friends to keep my company. As if it's real. My foot lar. Sometimes it's so hard to even find a friend to chat.
Darling sister and shue ting came snacking here. Playing his guitar. Nice singing. So just chill the night away. Sister's nice. He's planning to celebrate my birthday for me. Chalet? BBQ? Don't know. He better mean it. He knows I sure will reject if he asked me. So he said he'll do all these himself. LOL! Smart guy. Sister asked didn't salmon plan to celebrate my birthday for me? Saying maybe he's planning a surprise? If he will, I'll win 4D straight. No, don't want him to promise me that. Coz most of the time sure got ps.
Too bad sister's going to kieran's house soon. Asked me along to stay overnight. But I'm not used to it. So rejected them. Went with them to 7-11 to buy crig. Wanted to get myself a packet too. But discovered I didn't bring along my wallet. Better don't buy also. Sure sister will murder me if I smoke. So we had a big group hug and they left. Today we don't know hug how many times. Missed sister lah. Thought he don't want me this sister after the trashing he gave me. But guess I'm just thinking too much. Sisters forever.
Chatted with hua jie for awhile. Finally understand what she's going through. Wonder why this kind of matter will happened. But I told her I'm different from them. I'll always be her friend and ai ai. Glad that the misunderstood is cleared. But we won't be that close liao. For sure. That day the guys had an outing yet I don't know about it. So sad. Maybe I'm really not close with all already. Drifted from all liao. As what sister said.
Was kind of angry with mei too. I know she'll be busy le. So trying to ask her out today. She rejected. Lazy was her answer again. Suah lor. I'll be fine alone. Glad that shipei mei's willing to keep me this old lady company. Maybe we'll be going out to window shop later. At last, I'll be freed from the jail which is my fucking home. She also listened to my old grandmother story. Told her I'm really tired. Emo and mentally. Will be trying to rest early from now on. Never an night owl again. I'm tired. Really tired.
Today whole day can't contact salmon. Sister asked me where is san wen yu. I told him he's mia. He did give me a call in the morning. Saying he's starting to get busy. Okay. Busy all he want then. I'm used to being alone. Still got my friends to keep my company. As if it's real. My foot lar. Sometimes it's so hard to even find a friend to chat.
Darling sister and shue ting came snacking here. Playing his guitar. Nice singing. So just chill the night away. Sister's nice. He's planning to celebrate my birthday for me. Chalet? BBQ? Don't know. He better mean it. He knows I sure will reject if he asked me. So he said he'll do all these himself. LOL! Smart guy. Sister asked didn't salmon plan to celebrate my birthday for me? Saying maybe he's planning a surprise? If he will, I'll win 4D straight. No, don't want him to promise me that. Coz most of the time sure got ps.
Too bad sister's going to kieran's house soon. Asked me along to stay overnight. But I'm not used to it. So rejected them. Went with them to 7-11 to buy crig. Wanted to get myself a packet too. But discovered I didn't bring along my wallet. Better don't buy also. Sure sister will murder me if I smoke. So we had a big group hug and they left. Today we don't know hug how many times. Missed sister lah. Thought he don't want me this sister after the trashing he gave me. But guess I'm just thinking too much. Sisters forever.
Chatted with hua jie for awhile. Finally understand what she's going through. Wonder why this kind of matter will happened. But I told her I'm different from them. I'll always be her friend and ai ai. Glad that the misunderstood is cleared. But we won't be that close liao. For sure. That day the guys had an outing yet I don't know about it. So sad. Maybe I'm really not close with all already. Drifted from all liao. As what sister said.
Was kind of angry with mei too. I know she'll be busy le. So trying to ask her out today. She rejected. Lazy was her answer again. Suah lor. I'll be fine alone. Glad that shipei mei's willing to keep me this old lady company. Maybe we'll be going out to window shop later. At last, I'll be freed from the jail which is my fucking home. She also listened to my old grandmother story. Told her I'm really tired. Emo and mentally. Will be trying to rest early from now on. Never an night owl again. I'm tired. Really tired.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
The usual topic again
I don't even know how to describe my day today. Totally bored. Bored till I want to scream out loud. No one want to go out with me. Came online no one talked to me too. So went browsing for all the latest version of all soft wares and upgraded them. Windows Media Player 11 is DAMN CHIO. Black and blue. Woots! Don't forget to try the new skype beta 3.0 is you're a skype user. It's much more better. Looks more neat and cool now.
Other than rotting online, didn't do much things. Wanted to catch a nap also so tough. Doze off and got woken up by parents talking? shouting sibeh damn loud. I'm tired, yet wanted to go out for a walk. Didn't manage to jio any of my friends out. Actually wanted to ask dar lin out to celebrate her birthday for her. But think twice, guess she got her bf to celebrate it for her liao. So just sent her an sms wishing her happy birthday.
Really don't dare to think how my birthday will go. Don't tell me I really had to spend it alone. Keep thinking who will even remember my birthday. Buddy? Sister? Best friends? Siblings? Will they? I've forgotten buddy's birthday this year. Will he even remember mine? Shouldn't have opened up all the xmas presents he gave me. Coz there won't be a 2nd time anymore.
Have you seen anyone sending 3 presents written a part of xmas jingles on each? 3 parts of the jingles on 3 presents. Hahaha. Last year's birthday and xmas were great. This year? Guess won't be. Buddy's mia. More and more of my close friends just mia totally in virtual and some in reality too. I don't even know what happened to them. Such a failure.
Don't even dare to msg buddy. Can't understand why he's online instead of being in camp. Everytime when I'm facing a problem, I'll go to him straight. But nah, can't depend on him always. Don't think I'll msg him. Unless he's the one who yo me first. Feel so upset yet I can't msg him to pour out my woes. Guess only buddy can cheer me up. Someone is just so hard to contact.
Noticed that I changed my photo back to the avater? The avater buddy made for me. Pro is pro. I don't even know how to do a basic avater. Maybe should bug him for a new avater again. Haha. Evil me. Why arh, why am I talking non stop about buddy? Maybe just need to get it off my chest. Can't complain to him, so this is what I can do only. Blogged it down.
Got woken up my a lame sms at 7am. Simon's friend used his hp and sms me. Asking me if I'm his gf? Is like wth? Too bo liao is it? Disturb people at 7am you think funny? Wanted to blow my top, but try to simmer down. Gave his friend this answer. "Go asked him lah, asked me for what?" Really bo liao lor. Can't even get a good sleep. My only wish today. Let me have a good rest for tonight. Maybe I should off my bloody phone and sleep the whole day.
Other than rotting online, didn't do much things. Wanted to catch a nap also so tough. Doze off and got woken up by parents talking? shouting sibeh damn loud. I'm tired, yet wanted to go out for a walk. Didn't manage to jio any of my friends out. Actually wanted to ask dar lin out to celebrate her birthday for her. But think twice, guess she got her bf to celebrate it for her liao. So just sent her an sms wishing her happy birthday.
Really don't dare to think how my birthday will go. Don't tell me I really had to spend it alone. Keep thinking who will even remember my birthday. Buddy? Sister? Best friends? Siblings? Will they? I've forgotten buddy's birthday this year. Will he even remember mine? Shouldn't have opened up all the xmas presents he gave me. Coz there won't be a 2nd time anymore.
Have you seen anyone sending 3 presents written a part of xmas jingles on each? 3 parts of the jingles on 3 presents. Hahaha. Last year's birthday and xmas were great. This year? Guess won't be. Buddy's mia. More and more of my close friends just mia totally in virtual and some in reality too. I don't even know what happened to them. Such a failure.
Don't even dare to msg buddy. Can't understand why he's online instead of being in camp. Everytime when I'm facing a problem, I'll go to him straight. But nah, can't depend on him always. Don't think I'll msg him. Unless he's the one who yo me first. Feel so upset yet I can't msg him to pour out my woes. Guess only buddy can cheer me up. Someone is just so hard to contact.
Noticed that I changed my photo back to the avater? The avater buddy made for me. Pro is pro. I don't even know how to do a basic avater. Maybe should bug him for a new avater again. Haha. Evil me. Why arh, why am I talking non stop about buddy? Maybe just need to get it off my chest. Can't complain to him, so this is what I can do only. Blogged it down.
Got woken up my a lame sms at 7am. Simon's friend used his hp and sms me. Asking me if I'm his gf? Is like wth? Too bo liao is it? Disturb people at 7am you think funny? Wanted to blow my top, but try to simmer down. Gave his friend this answer. "Go asked him lah, asked me for what?" Really bo liao lor. Can't even get a good sleep. My only wish today. Let me have a good rest for tonight. Maybe I should off my bloody phone and sleep the whole day.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Monday blues
Just a plain normal day. Guess I've learned to wake up early. Is 10am considered early? Settle some online stuff and off to the doc's there I went with simon. He's nice lah. Came over my house and accompany me to the doc's there. And stayed there waiting for me to be done. It's like around an hour. Pro sia. He can tahan. So sweet of him lah.
The most funniest joke of today. How he's stunned and afraid when he saw my mum. My mum told him that she's not a monster that ate humans. Lol? I laughed till pengz. Silly mouse and funny mum sia. Both gang up and bully me somemore. Wth? But I've got a bad temper today. PMS maybe? LOL! So be wary, step on my tail = you die.
Lots of lame matters and serious matters too. Not going to mention those serious matters. Lame matter, hmm, can you believe that we both are so mad to climb 10 floors of stairs back to my house? Just coz I said I always climb it. Then end up a challenge lor. Of coz I lost. Till 6th floor I gave up and took the lift instead. Guess I need to exercise more.
Didn't see much of the ''pilot'' that always flew my aeroplane now. Don't say I'm bad to suan him saying he's a pilot that keep flying planes. Till now then I noticed he's still reading my blog. Luckily I didn't bad mouth about him much. My life is getting more and more back into reality. Virtual stuff like habbo I don't bother to log in much. PS: Version 11 of habbo seems so normal.
Had a chat with ting and kieran. Sorry ting, couldn't get you fish's concert tix. Pai seh. Then at the same time chatted with kieran about darren and dreamze. Seems ah dream is having his wonderful romantic time of his life. So glad to hear this. Ever since that ''arguement'', I didn't chat that much with him anymore. And about darren, don't know lah. Lazy to bother. Haha.
Keep thinking how I will spent my 21th birthday. Rotting at home? Chilling with friends? Pubbing with my jie meis? Or sleep the day away? I'll just go for the most simple option. But wish that it's a memorable one. Really envy friends whom celebrated their 21th birthday. They all good lor. I wonder how lin lin will celebrate hers tmr. Got to give her a call. Miss her lots. Lin!
My parents are fucking disgusting. Used such mean ways to get rid of lizards. They actually stick scorchtape on the wall. And let those lizards fall into their trap. Just now one silly lizard kana taped. Blood oozing out from the head and tail. The poor lizard's body became 3 parts. Head, body and tail. Tons of blood! Eyes staring hard. EEEEEEEEEE!!! Super gross and cham. The poor lizard. I got angry with my parents for that. Screamed at them at 2am. Fuck lah! Lizards also got life one okay! Sorry lizzie. I feel bad now. Really feeling bad about this. ):
The most funniest joke of today. How he's stunned and afraid when he saw my mum. My mum told him that she's not a monster that ate humans. Lol? I laughed till pengz. Silly mouse and funny mum sia. Both gang up and bully me somemore. Wth? But I've got a bad temper today. PMS maybe? LOL! So be wary, step on my tail = you die.
Lots of lame matters and serious matters too. Not going to mention those serious matters. Lame matter, hmm, can you believe that we both are so mad to climb 10 floors of stairs back to my house? Just coz I said I always climb it. Then end up a challenge lor. Of coz I lost. Till 6th floor I gave up and took the lift instead. Guess I need to exercise more.
Didn't see much of the ''pilot'' that always flew my aeroplane now. Don't say I'm bad to suan him saying he's a pilot that keep flying planes. Till now then I noticed he's still reading my blog. Luckily I didn't bad mouth about him much. My life is getting more and more back into reality. Virtual stuff like habbo I don't bother to log in much. PS: Version 11 of habbo seems so normal.
Had a chat with ting and kieran. Sorry ting, couldn't get you fish's concert tix. Pai seh. Then at the same time chatted with kieran about darren and dreamze. Seems ah dream is having his wonderful romantic time of his life. So glad to hear this. Ever since that ''arguement'', I didn't chat that much with him anymore. And about darren, don't know lah. Lazy to bother. Haha.
Keep thinking how I will spent my 21th birthday. Rotting at home? Chilling with friends? Pubbing with my jie meis? Or sleep the day away? I'll just go for the most simple option. But wish that it's a memorable one. Really envy friends whom celebrated their 21th birthday. They all good lor. I wonder how lin lin will celebrate hers tmr. Got to give her a call. Miss her lots. Lin!
My parents are fucking disgusting. Used such mean ways to get rid of lizards. They actually stick scorchtape on the wall. And let those lizards fall into their trap. Just now one silly lizard kana taped. Blood oozing out from the head and tail. The poor lizard's body became 3 parts. Head, body and tail. Tons of blood! Eyes staring hard. EEEEEEEEEE!!! Super gross and cham. The poor lizard. I got angry with my parents for that. Screamed at them at 2am. Fuck lah! Lizards also got life one okay! Sorry lizzie. I feel bad now. Really feeling bad about this. ):
Monday, November 20, 2006
Home sweet home
I'm back! And I'm busy, busy, busy. Tired, tired, tired. Fever, flu, sprain at my back, tummyache blah. Just a trip to Malaysia and so many problems. About to collaspe soon yet got to stay strong. I'm not as weak as *youknowwho*. LOL! That person's weak till even my mum complained that he's always sick. Oh well. Rich guy. Mummy's boy mah. What to do?
The trip to Malaysia's damn jia lat. Having to face the war which is my mum VS the maid. Can die man. Step into the house need to face the war already. Shouting, screaming, scolding. The 3 s all came. The worst is I don't understand wtf are they screaming about coz it's in malay. How to ask them shut up then? Luckily, I'm safe. But my kor and cousin ping are not so lucky. They got my mum's nagging for a couple of days already. Poor them.
I really feel so damn pai seh among the cousins. Such an unreasonable mum and such a blur maid. All my aunties sided with the maid. Making my mum fucking angry. TEACH LAH. Scream what scream. Scream liao say headache. I'm too lazy to bother. Nearly wanted to slap my mum to ask her diam. Control! In the end I stuff my ears with my mp3 and blasted away.
Other than this, the trip went well. Just rotted in the house. Joked with my kor in the day. Creep into his room and watch movies together with all the cousins at night. Death note's nice! Rob B Hood also nice! Chatted and hugged all the gals cousins to sleep. It's so damn freaking cold in the room. Brr~~ No wonder I can catch a cold. And imagine squeezing with 4 other cousins and aunt on 3 mattress. Squeeze till~~ But really warmth lah.
Complained that I missed my cousin lorraine, ah loon and my kor's gf miyan. They all bo chup me much! My kor's nice to ''disturb'' me. Otherwise I'll just rot to death. Or maybe got bitten to death by a centipede. Gross and creepy you know? Just after the heavy rain, those centipedes just came crawling out. Into the carpark, toilet etc. And they're damn HUGE. Skali later one crawl into the room. Then uh oh. Mati lor.
We can be so crazy. Asked if kor and miyan done ''that thing'' yet. LOL! Kor's ans is no wor. As if. Who believe lah? So many years relationship liao. Don't believe they so guai. Hahaha. We keep talking about all these stuffs lor. They asked me back this qn too. Wth? Funny. Very funny lah. All siao liao issit? Want ask, ask lorraine first lah. I'm younger than her one leh. All so super bo liao. Yea, I'll get pissed at all these de. Dunno why also.
Then lorraine more worse, she go and slap kor's *youknowwhere*, wanted to pull ''it'' somemore!! Just coz kor blocked the door. Kor more pro, said wanted to touch hers back and let her bf which is bao xiong screamed. WTF lah. All siao one. Funny cousins I had. Buay tahan them. Unlike them, I can't play till so mad one. I'm more of the quiet type. Can't play till so jia lat. Serious type bah. Just coz of a small joke, I stared at my kor like mad. Making him shiver and said I looked damn scary ah lian.
They're ALL asking about simon. Why is he so famous? Said I bullied him too much. Wth!? Ya lah, he's nice lah. I'm the bad one okay? He's nice to came over my house, took my bag for me and go with me to my kai ma's house on thurday. In army uniform some more. Shuai anot? Eh, no comments. Normal clothes suits him better. An officer carry my hello kitty bag. Laugh till can pengz. But he don't mind. But I mind lah. In the end I nearly quarreled with him over my bag. My problem meh? Really very weird lor.
He's so damn weak. Took a blood test and his whole face went pale. So white and green. Only one tube of blood leh. Faints. Okay lah, had lunch with his friend at kai ma's there de kopitiam. I can't believe my temper can be so bad. Don't want to eat but got forced. Nearly wanted to just slam and overturn the table. Cannot! Cannot make people pai seh. And sia suay myself too. Alamak how lah? My temper so jia lat recently.
21th birthday's coming in 2 weeks. Got myself a key pendent as a present. Had to even fork out money for this myself. Others have parents or friends to buy this for them. Mine leh? Want then buy it myself. But comfirm must buy, it's meaningful to own a ''key'' for your 21th birthday. Any celebrations? Bo lah of coz. Will do as what mum asked me to do. Buy myself a cake, put the candles on and blow it, wishing myself a happy birthday. Pathetic sia.
Still need to chiong stuff. I need a crig to wake me up. Twins so evil. Temp me with their dad's packet of crig. Coz they wanted to snap a picture of me smoking. Lame lah. Unwell also must chiong. Fever's damn high. I need a rest. Guess I won't be online much. Since everyone's independent now. Mei and darren lah. Esp darren. A huge relieve. Plus I'm really tired with online matters. Virtual stuff, it's time for a break.
The trip to Malaysia's damn jia lat. Having to face the war which is my mum VS the maid. Can die man. Step into the house need to face the war already. Shouting, screaming, scolding. The 3 s all came. The worst is I don't understand wtf are they screaming about coz it's in malay. How to ask them shut up then? Luckily, I'm safe. But my kor and cousin ping are not so lucky. They got my mum's nagging for a couple of days already. Poor them.
I really feel so damn pai seh among the cousins. Such an unreasonable mum and such a blur maid. All my aunties sided with the maid. Making my mum fucking angry. TEACH LAH. Scream what scream. Scream liao say headache. I'm too lazy to bother. Nearly wanted to slap my mum to ask her diam. Control! In the end I stuff my ears with my mp3 and blasted away.
Other than this, the trip went well. Just rotted in the house. Joked with my kor in the day. Creep into his room and watch movies together with all the cousins at night. Death note's nice! Rob B Hood also nice! Chatted and hugged all the gals cousins to sleep. It's so damn freaking cold in the room. Brr~~ No wonder I can catch a cold. And imagine squeezing with 4 other cousins and aunt on 3 mattress. Squeeze till~~ But really warmth lah.
Complained that I missed my cousin lorraine, ah loon and my kor's gf miyan. They all bo chup me much! My kor's nice to ''disturb'' me. Otherwise I'll just rot to death. Or maybe got bitten to death by a centipede. Gross and creepy you know? Just after the heavy rain, those centipedes just came crawling out. Into the carpark, toilet etc. And they're damn HUGE. Skali later one crawl into the room. Then uh oh. Mati lor.
We can be so crazy. Asked if kor and miyan done ''that thing'' yet. LOL! Kor's ans is no wor. As if. Who believe lah? So many years relationship liao. Don't believe they so guai. Hahaha. We keep talking about all these stuffs lor. They asked me back this qn too. Wth? Funny. Very funny lah. All siao liao issit? Want ask, ask lorraine first lah. I'm younger than her one leh. All so super bo liao. Yea, I'll get pissed at all these de. Dunno why also.
Then lorraine more worse, she go and slap kor's *youknowwhere*, wanted to pull ''it'' somemore!! Just coz kor blocked the door. Kor more pro, said wanted to touch hers back and let her bf which is bao xiong screamed. WTF lah. All siao one. Funny cousins I had. Buay tahan them. Unlike them, I can't play till so mad one. I'm more of the quiet type. Can't play till so jia lat. Serious type bah. Just coz of a small joke, I stared at my kor like mad. Making him shiver and said I looked damn scary ah lian.
They're ALL asking about simon. Why is he so famous? Said I bullied him too much. Wth!? Ya lah, he's nice lah. I'm the bad one okay? He's nice to came over my house, took my bag for me and go with me to my kai ma's house on thurday. In army uniform some more. Shuai anot? Eh, no comments. Normal clothes suits him better. An officer carry my hello kitty bag. Laugh till can pengz. But he don't mind. But I mind lah. In the end I nearly quarreled with him over my bag. My problem meh? Really very weird lor.
He's so damn weak. Took a blood test and his whole face went pale. So white and green. Only one tube of blood leh. Faints. Okay lah, had lunch with his friend at kai ma's there de kopitiam. I can't believe my temper can be so bad. Don't want to eat but got forced. Nearly wanted to just slam and overturn the table. Cannot! Cannot make people pai seh. And sia suay myself too. Alamak how lah? My temper so jia lat recently.
21th birthday's coming in 2 weeks. Got myself a key pendent as a present. Had to even fork out money for this myself. Others have parents or friends to buy this for them. Mine leh? Want then buy it myself. But comfirm must buy, it's meaningful to own a ''key'' for your 21th birthday. Any celebrations? Bo lah of coz. Will do as what mum asked me to do. Buy myself a cake, put the candles on and blow it, wishing myself a happy birthday. Pathetic sia.
Still need to chiong stuff. I need a crig to wake me up. Twins so evil. Temp me with their dad's packet of crig. Coz they wanted to snap a picture of me smoking. Lame lah. Unwell also must chiong. Fever's damn high. I need a rest. Guess I won't be online much. Since everyone's independent now. Mei and darren lah. Esp darren. A huge relieve. Plus I'm really tired with online matters. Virtual stuff, it's time for a break.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Malaysia here I come
Why is he so lucky? Unfair! *Screams* Simon came over my house today. Saw my house no #10-24. He said this number buy 4D nice. But must buy combo. I only orh orh only. Didn't listen much. So of coz also didn't go bet on the no. And then guess what. Tonight's 4D's starter 2041! He won! And said I'm his lady luck. Nice lor. Lady luck herself boh luck. Wth! How nice sia?
Enough of complaining. Will be going to Malaysia later or perhaps on Friday. So this is a post before my Malaysia's trip. Then it's mia time for me till next week. Got to go visit my grandma. Mei don't sa jiao. I MUST go de okay. What you want tell me, I buy for you okay. Don't sad le. My precious mei. Jie loves you. <--- Omg. *pukes* So disgusting. Hahaha. Jk.
Anyway, I got a kaypoh YM di and zax mei. Keep asking me what happened when salmon fish's at my house. Sooooo bo liao. Just normal chatting. What else more do you think? But think I face my computer more than I face him. Lol. Di and mei made me buay tahan so I asked them go think whatever they want. And the outcome is, seriously OMFG. Get what I mean? Teens these day have scary thoughts. Brainwash them please. Get them a clean brain!
So many coincidence happened. When salmon's about to left, my dad and him just bumped into each other at the lift. And guess what is my dad's impression of him? IS HE A SEC SCH KID? LOLOL! I laughed for 10 mins straight. Bo bian, he got a baby face. But overall impression still not bad. Eh well, he's really not that bad. You guys just don't worry too much. I'm still trying to know more about him. Let nature takes it's own course.
Alrighty, don't miss me yea? Bhb sia. Hahaha. But I'll miss you all. No computer no life. Guess it's a good chance to relax before I start work. Treasure this holiday. Am gonna chiong when I'm back. Both virtual or reality. Buay tahan liao. I miss my mummy already. Hahaha. It's real. 10 days without mom is hell. Esp eating those takeaway food. Urgh! Malaysia here I come! Shopping! Eating! Sleeping! YAY!
Enough of complaining. Will be going to Malaysia later or perhaps on Friday. So this is a post before my Malaysia's trip. Then it's mia time for me till next week. Got to go visit my grandma. Mei don't sa jiao. I MUST go de okay. What you want tell me, I buy for you okay. Don't sad le. My precious mei. Jie loves you. <--- Omg. *pukes* So disgusting. Hahaha. Jk.
Anyway, I got a kaypoh YM di and zax mei. Keep asking me what happened when salmon fish's at my house. Sooooo bo liao. Just normal chatting. What else more do you think? But think I face my computer more than I face him. Lol. Di and mei made me buay tahan so I asked them go think whatever they want. And the outcome is, seriously OMFG. Get what I mean? Teens these day have scary thoughts. Brainwash them please. Get them a clean brain!
So many coincidence happened. When salmon's about to left, my dad and him just bumped into each other at the lift. And guess what is my dad's impression of him? IS HE A SEC SCH KID? LOLOL! I laughed for 10 mins straight. Bo bian, he got a baby face. But overall impression still not bad. Eh well, he's really not that bad. You guys just don't worry too much. I'm still trying to know more about him. Let nature takes it's own course.
Alrighty, don't miss me yea? Bhb sia. Hahaha. But I'll miss you all. No computer no life. Guess it's a good chance to relax before I start work. Treasure this holiday. Am gonna chiong when I'm back. Both virtual or reality. Buay tahan liao. I miss my mummy already. Hahaha. It's real. 10 days without mom is hell. Esp eating those takeaway food. Urgh! Malaysia here I come! Shopping! Eating! Sleeping! YAY!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Nonsense stuffs
Cold night. I mean really cold lor. Lame till cold. Cold till shiver. Conf night on phone with the usual gang. Mei and francis. Then transfer to skype conf with mei, francis and another person who just joined the ki siao gang. A big welcome to matthew! LOL! But he quite cham lar, coz he don't really understand our topic. Must get used to it ah. Hahah.
Pigumon. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Don't know why francis de skype nick so cute one. Don't even know how he think of that. See once laugh one. Omg francis di, don't create such funny nicks anymore lar. Spare us. Chatting with them are nice lar. Coz sure can laugh one. Shipei mei also make me laugh so much tonight with her sms's topic. TS's jie fu. TS de jie fu. Who? *whistle*
Going to msia in a few days. Not sure if it's thur or fri. Will miss you all lar! Actually quite lazy to go. But thinking of once started work, I won't have time to visit my grandma already, so yea, better be a guai granddaughter and go visit her. Make her happy lar. Hahah. I also miss msia. There got nice food, nice view, nice everything lar. LOL! Malaysia truly asia!
Smoky salmon? Alright alright, now everyone is using this nick when talking about him. He became a fish le. Hahahaha. Later he said come over ta bao breakfast for me. See lor, I said he don't dare to come de. If he come hor, I chop my head for you to sit ah! Eh.. Ok I didn't say anything. Don't know lar. Just think he won't dare come de lor. Just that simple.
No topic to blog about tonight. Too distracted by skype's conf. I need to concentrate there. Another topic before I blogged off. Renfu's gonna be daddy liao. Ji qin's gonna give birth in a couple of days. Is like wth? Planned de? Going to ruin renfu issit? If you don't know who renfu is. He's one of the members in 5566 lor. Poor him. That old woman gonna tie him with a kid liao!
Pigumon. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Don't know why francis de skype nick so cute one. Don't even know how he think of that. See once laugh one. Omg francis di, don't create such funny nicks anymore lar. Spare us. Chatting with them are nice lar. Coz sure can laugh one. Shipei mei also make me laugh so much tonight with her sms's topic. TS's jie fu. TS de jie fu. Who? *whistle*
Going to msia in a few days. Not sure if it's thur or fri. Will miss you all lar! Actually quite lazy to go. But thinking of once started work, I won't have time to visit my grandma already, so yea, better be a guai granddaughter and go visit her. Make her happy lar. Hahah. I also miss msia. There got nice food, nice view, nice everything lar. LOL! Malaysia truly asia!
Smoky salmon? Alright alright, now everyone is using this nick when talking about him. He became a fish le. Hahahaha. Later he said come over ta bao breakfast for me. See lor, I said he don't dare to come de. If he come hor, I chop my head for you to sit ah! Eh.. Ok I didn't say anything. Don't know lar. Just think he won't dare come de lor. Just that simple.
No topic to blog about tonight. Too distracted by skype's conf. I need to concentrate there. Another topic before I blogged off. Renfu's gonna be daddy liao. Ji qin's gonna give birth in a couple of days. Is like wth? Planned de? Going to ruin renfu issit? If you don't know who renfu is. He's one of the members in 5566 lor. Poor him. That old woman gonna tie him with a kid liao!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Virtual and reality
Got ps from friday till now. Used to it already. Always will go ya later meet but knew that I'll just rot at home for the whole day as usual. See, I can predict the future. That's what I told him. He everyday and everytime busy. Who dunno? But he's smart now. Asked him if he's free tmr he said dunno. Coz he knows I hate people who break promise. So now no promise given.
Guess today's a bad day. I suffer the same fate as elaine. Got shoved out of the house by my dad. His mad cow disease strikes. At home face him can die. You dunno when you'll get bombed. So no choice, left the house and leave him alone. Grabbed i-weekly and went to library to rot for half a day. Dinner-ing outside too. For the whole day I just ate my pathetic dinner only. No wonder my pants can dropped when I wore them. I need a belt liao.
Stock up lots of junk food at home. At least I won't starve. And junk food does make me grow fat. Not bad huh? I spent about 20 bucks on junk food. Scary sia. My room seems like minimart. Chips, chocos, fruit juices, candies. Eat all these is better then facing my dad. For the whole day he just asked me one qn which is have I changed my mom's appt. I replied got. Lidat nia.
Last time when I didn't talk much, I just don't want to speak suddenly. Just hate to open my mouth coz my dad will screamed at me telling me that my voice sux. Even a crow is better. So keeping myself quiet. Luckily last time there's buddy to help me overcome the werid 'fear'. Saying he can't sleep without my voice. LOL! I miss buddy. But don't dare to msg him when he's back on weekends. Scared I'll just yi lai him again. Or is he yi lai me instead?
Chatted with jiahe last night. He changed alot. Seems he's more cute now. We talked about virtual and reality. What he said is true. Sometimes virtual matters can affect your real life. Which is something we all don't want. I'm not gonna mixed virtual and reality together now. Must learn to know the difference. For instance, buddy is virtual. He just lives in my virtual world. Get the fact right. He's not real to me. I don't even know him in reality.
I wanna get a life. Get a real life. Virtual is killing me. Seems I'm depending on the virtual world too much. Ans is quite simple. Coz I don't have anyone to talk or ask out in reality. I'm plain lonely. Well, actually sometimes things in reality seems very much like virtual too. Even more worse than virtual I suppose. At least virtual online friends knows how to care for me. Want to mia also will give warning first. Unlike real life friends. Die till dunno where also dunno. I guess virtual friends and stuffs are better sometimes, after all.
Guess today's a bad day. I suffer the same fate as elaine. Got shoved out of the house by my dad. His mad cow disease strikes. At home face him can die. You dunno when you'll get bombed. So no choice, left the house and leave him alone. Grabbed i-weekly and went to library to rot for half a day. Dinner-ing outside too. For the whole day I just ate my pathetic dinner only. No wonder my pants can dropped when I wore them. I need a belt liao.
Stock up lots of junk food at home. At least I won't starve. And junk food does make me grow fat. Not bad huh? I spent about 20 bucks on junk food. Scary sia. My room seems like minimart. Chips, chocos, fruit juices, candies. Eat all these is better then facing my dad. For the whole day he just asked me one qn which is have I changed my mom's appt. I replied got. Lidat nia.
Last time when I didn't talk much, I just don't want to speak suddenly. Just hate to open my mouth coz my dad will screamed at me telling me that my voice sux. Even a crow is better. So keeping myself quiet. Luckily last time there's buddy to help me overcome the werid 'fear'. Saying he can't sleep without my voice. LOL! I miss buddy. But don't dare to msg him when he's back on weekends. Scared I'll just yi lai him again. Or is he yi lai me instead?
Chatted with jiahe last night. He changed alot. Seems he's more cute now. We talked about virtual and reality. What he said is true. Sometimes virtual matters can affect your real life. Which is something we all don't want. I'm not gonna mixed virtual and reality together now. Must learn to know the difference. For instance, buddy is virtual. He just lives in my virtual world. Get the fact right. He's not real to me. I don't even know him in reality.
I wanna get a life. Get a real life. Virtual is killing me. Seems I'm depending on the virtual world too much. Ans is quite simple. Coz I don't have anyone to talk or ask out in reality. I'm plain lonely. Well, actually sometimes things in reality seems very much like virtual too. Even more worse than virtual I suppose. At least virtual online friends knows how to care for me. Want to mia also will give warning first. Unlike real life friends. Die till dunno where also dunno. I guess virtual friends and stuffs are better sometimes, after all.
Monday, November 13, 2006
What a sunday
I'm about to die ler. So tired now. Ytd night slept 3 hours. Chatted with matthew till 7am. 10am got woke up by simon's call. Said meet, in the end put aeroplane. Zzz. Then cannot sleep ler. Rot here and there awhile then he called again. Asked me called back. Chat a couple of hours. After the call, I jitao fall on bed and nap a few mins. The medicine's making me drowsy lor.
Woke up, came online. Chatted here and there. Comfort people lar. Do proposal lar. Hear sound clips lar. Gossip with the djs etc etc. Bad mood washed away soon after. Dunno why hua jie suddenly changed so much. Asked me to forget about her ba. Then no matter how many more msgs I send she bo reply liao. My hua jie ai ai don't want me le. Sigh. Small misunderstanding only friendship gone just lidat. Wth. I'm not in the wrong.
Guess I chatted on msn with around 40-50 peeps today. At one time there's like 20 conv windows together to target me. Can die man. Friends and family today so active one. Then night want to watch show also cannot. Busy with settling mom's things. Later still have to go postpone her dental appt. Applied leave lor. So that I can finish all these stuffs and go msia this week. Going to start work soon. That mouse said de ma. Wait and see when lor.
Still need to keep those bored teens company by chatting with them on msn. Help to settle a matter. Talk dunno what with deer. My mind all messed up like my schedule. Still need to re plain my schedule. When go doc's there. What deadline need to settle finish my stuffs etc. Will be more busy when started work I suppose? But now haven work already so busy liao lo. Win le. As what that mouse said, I'm doing bo liao stuffs. Well? Maybe ba?
All still alright lar. Just cannot accept that my niece lyvia got engaged for two years already. Was chatting to her oftenly one. Then saw her friendster that she's married. Was like what the? How come I dunno sia? Things really do changed alot in these few years. But my gastric won't changed lor. Still that serious. Only had a bread and packet of rice like ytd. Now gastric hurts. Medicine time. Let me have a break. Hand about to play hang man liao.
Woke up, came online. Chatted here and there. Comfort people lar. Do proposal lar. Hear sound clips lar. Gossip with the djs etc etc. Bad mood washed away soon after. Dunno why hua jie suddenly changed so much. Asked me to forget about her ba. Then no matter how many more msgs I send she bo reply liao. My hua jie ai ai don't want me le. Sigh. Small misunderstanding only friendship gone just lidat. Wth. I'm not in the wrong.
Guess I chatted on msn with around 40-50 peeps today. At one time there's like 20 conv windows together to target me. Can die man. Friends and family today so active one. Then night want to watch show also cannot. Busy with settling mom's things. Later still have to go postpone her dental appt. Applied leave lor. So that I can finish all these stuffs and go msia this week. Going to start work soon. That mouse said de ma. Wait and see when lor.
Still need to keep those bored teens company by chatting with them on msn. Help to settle a matter. Talk dunno what with deer. My mind all messed up like my schedule. Still need to re plain my schedule. When go doc's there. What deadline need to settle finish my stuffs etc. Will be more busy when started work I suppose? But now haven work already so busy liao lo. Win le. As what that mouse said, I'm doing bo liao stuffs. Well? Maybe ba?
All still alright lar. Just cannot accept that my niece lyvia got engaged for two years already. Was chatting to her oftenly one. Then saw her friendster that she's married. Was like what the? How come I dunno sia? Things really do changed alot in these few years. But my gastric won't changed lor. Still that serious. Only had a bread and packet of rice like ytd. Now gastric hurts. Medicine time. Let me have a break. Hand about to play hang man liao.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Cause you and I all got an angel's eye
A video to share before I begin a short post. Ming dao's new show tian shi qing ren (天使情人), Angels Lover's theme song. Fa xian zhen ai (发现真爱). The MV is released. But too bad it's not the full version. So just let you guys drool for the moment. I like the song. Soothing and calming. And esp the lyrics "Cause you and I all got an angel's eye." Other SG's actor and actress includes ix shen and kwok fei li. Quite a nice show I suppose?
I'm sick again. After the rain yesterday. Feeling cold the whole day. Jacket never fails to leave me. Slept almost half of the day after medication. Crawl online and upload this scary photo onto my blog. I look weird without specs. I've got fierce eyes. :S Here's the photo without editing. I look so dazed and shock. Not to mention sick too. Coz kana snap when I'm sick and feeling sianz. Nice move to you know who. Dare to snap my photo when I'm blured. Then I too bo liao go edit and add a simi beside it. Lidat also can. LOL!
Glad to have friends concern when I'm sick. Not going to mention a someone coz he's totally mia. Forget it lah, depend on him I can die man. My kai ma was asking where's him when I'm sick. I just replied he's dead. LOL! Today whole day didn't eat much. Only a piece of bread and a packet of rice. Guess my weight will drop like bird's dropping?! soon. Hahaha. Jes jes, mai sick liao. Flu flu going away. Come again another day?! Eh?? I mean don't come le.
My sick look aka the simi photo. I still du (嘟) my mouth somemore. Zzz.. -_-
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Unlucky friday again
11-11 (Gone? Postpone? Dunno? Who cares!)
Understand? I'm taking it very easily. Got got lor. No no lor. Not going to bother about it anymore. Bother so much for what? Make my hair white faster meh? -_- Lazy to even keep track of who and where. Alive alive lor. Mia mia lor. Washing my hands off. I don't even know what to believe now.
I'm starting to dislike friday. So many bad things happened on friday. And what the heck it's not even unlucky friday. Told ya guys. I'll tio fly aeroplane right? Bingo! See how smart I am. I can predit the future! Not pinning any hopes on it anymore. Coz I know I'll tio ps most of the time. Used to it already. Used till numb liao you know? Keep tio ps till now no feeling already. Don't give promise if you tend to give disappointment more instead.
Ice queen? Me me! Having high fever now. 37.8. My bad just now type sala till 38++. If so high can die le. Pardon, fever till blur lur le. Abit high hor? Not ice anymore. Hot, chao ta with fever now. Sianz. I'm so useless lar. Kana soak in rain awhile also fever till lidat. Can't find any panadols. So let it heal by itself lor. Won't die so easily one lar. If got any problem, I won't be here typing liao right? Just now fenni came over I still can chat like mad with her for 2 whole hours. So of coz no problem at all.
Today went vivo ma. Bad luck came. I suay all the way lor. Firstly heard people called me ice queen on my way there. Only *they will called me ice queen. Coz I damn dao aka cold towards people and likes to act cool? Hahaha. So had a bad feeling le. I had ''enemies'' all over SG. -_- Turned and look. !!!!! Jitao shock and run. I rather don't turn and look. Coz scared almost half of my life away. I saw *them. *Some people I hate bumping into.
Then my fingers kana cutted by don't even know simi? A deep cut sia pain till~~ As for why I having fever till so jia lat. Told ya le. I went vivo with my kai ma aka godma coz someone ps me. That person also at vivo. But I lazy bother. Lucky didn't bump into him. LOL! Then kai ma want take bus. I want take train. Then we argue. In the end she won. So we board bus. Suddenly heavy rain came. And guess what?
The bus broke down halfway!
Wth. You know how heavy the rain is anot? I only have183 yi ba san aka an umbrella. Sure kana soak like fall soup chicken?! Luo tang ji. -_- Shivering there and waited for another bus to arrive. And now the fever lor. Heng still got my kai ma to shelter me abit from the rain. Otherwise more cham. My ma won't have done that I tell you. Kai ma! Told ya we should take train le! T_T
Anyway, vivo is just normal to me. Not really that huge. Compare msia's building with it. Cannot fight sia. But it's wide. At least you don't have to worry bumping into people. We walk here walk there. Went to buy nougats and candies! I love them! My poor pocket got hole liao. Also wentfootcourt foodcourt makan sai toh fishball. Ok ok only lar. Coz I still prefer msia's de. I'm baised. LOL! Thanks kai ma who paid for the meal.
Talk so much about msia for what? Coz I'll be going to msia soon again! Wee~ I miss msia so much. There so relaxing lor. Kai ye aka my godpa will be back later. Welcome back home to sg! Then as what kai ma told me. We'll set off to msia on thur or fri. I can't wait. Kai ma, don't ps me ah. Otherwise I cry! And I mean it one okay. I really wanna go msia.
I cry more when kai ma asked me this qn just now. "You met his mum liao?" "Asked him go msia also leh." Wa piang. I tell you. I just stunned there and jitao went speechless at vivo. Like a statue. Gong diao. But guess what. My ans? "Hahaha, I don't even know him well leh." LOL! Nice one fang! You're damn power sia. I mean, you're damn evil. The evil ff = fang + f??, what do ya think? I got a pro teacher one okay! Hahaha! >=)
Understand? I'm taking it very easily. Got got lor. No no lor. Not going to bother about it anymore. Bother so much for what? Make my hair white faster meh? -_- Lazy to even keep track of who and where. Alive alive lor. Mia mia lor. Washing my hands off. I don't even know what to believe now.
I'm starting to dislike friday. So many bad things happened on friday. And what the heck it's not even unlucky friday. Told ya guys. I'll tio fly aeroplane right? Bingo! See how smart I am. I can predit the future! Not pinning any hopes on it anymore. Coz I know I'll tio ps most of the time. Used to it already. Used till numb liao you know? Keep tio ps till now no feeling already. Don't give promise if you tend to give disappointment more instead.
Ice queen? Me me! Having high fever now. 37.8. My bad just now type sala till 38++. If so high can die le. Pardon, fever till blur lur le. Abit high hor? Not ice anymore. Hot, chao ta with fever now. Sianz. I'm so useless lar. Kana soak in rain awhile also fever till lidat. Can't find any panadols. So let it heal by itself lor. Won't die so easily one lar. If got any problem, I won't be here typing liao right? Just now fenni came over I still can chat like mad with her for 2 whole hours. So of coz no problem at all.
Today went vivo ma. Bad luck came. I suay all the way lor. Firstly heard people called me ice queen on my way there. Only *they will called me ice queen. Coz I damn dao aka cold towards people and likes to act cool? Hahaha. So had a bad feeling le. I had ''enemies'' all over SG. -_- Turned and look. !!!!! Jitao shock and run. I rather don't turn and look. Coz scared almost half of my life away. I saw *them. *Some people I hate bumping into.
Then my fingers kana cutted by don't even know simi? A deep cut sia pain till~~ As for why I having fever till so jia lat. Told ya le. I went vivo with my kai ma aka godma coz someone ps me. That person also at vivo. But I lazy bother. Lucky didn't bump into him. LOL! Then kai ma want take bus. I want take train. Then we argue. In the end she won. So we board bus. Suddenly heavy rain came. And guess what?
The bus broke down halfway!
Wth. You know how heavy the rain is anot? I only have
Anyway, vivo is just normal to me. Not really that huge. Compare msia's building with it. Cannot fight sia. But it's wide. At least you don't have to worry bumping into people. We walk here walk there. Went to buy nougats and candies! I love them! My poor pocket got hole liao. Also went
Talk so much about msia for what? Coz I'll be going to msia soon again! Wee~ I miss msia so much. There so relaxing lor. Kai ye aka my godpa will be back later. Welcome back home to sg! Then as what kai ma told me. We'll set off to msia on thur or fri. I can't wait. Kai ma, don't ps me ah. Otherwise I cry! And I mean it one okay. I really wanna go msia.
I cry more when kai ma asked me this qn just now. "You met his mum liao?" "Asked him go msia also leh." Wa piang. I tell you. I just stunned there and jitao went speechless at vivo. Like a statue. Gong diao. But guess what. My ans? "Hahaha, I don't even know him well leh." LOL! Nice one fang! You're damn power sia. I mean, you're damn evil. The evil ff = fang + f??, what do ya think? I got a pro teacher one okay! Hahaha! >=)
Friday, November 10, 2006
Chinese cry
Let me tell you. Chinese rocks. Because hua yu cool. It doesn't make you ku (cry) okay? But if you are using chinese to do proposal. Wah, you can never imagine it. It really can make you cry one. Coz typing chinese kills. Esp to SGs including me. We typed using english most of the time. Chinese typing skills do sux. When the proposal deadline is so near. Eg sat, it kills you x 2.
I'm rushing a proposal. Trying to translate english to chinese and typed a whole long 20+ pages. And it's due on sat. My nightmare! As requested by someone whom I can't reject. No pay though. Owe him ren qing debt. What to do? Rush rush rush lor. Few thousands characters nia. Don't think so much will past very fast one lar.
Later go lunching with him = that mouse. Never pin much hopes. Scared later kana fly aeroplane again. Used to it le. -_- If he never treat lunch then I mati lor. Bo $ liao. Sister needs $ urgently. I told him I've only got 10+ bucks to last me till end of the month. Cham hor? I still in debt. Owe roggie money. Ar bo where you think I got my money from? My medical fees don't have to pay one lar? Wait for the job also so long. Sianz.
Guys very troublesome one. I don't know my old friend will lidat one lor. He borrowed $ from me last time. And used the note to fold into a heart. It's been like don't know how many years liao. And he still keep the note. What does that mean? I'm actually kept in the dark until another friend told me. Interesting. Let's see what he got to explain.
Proposal's almost done. Think I don't have to burn midnight oil tonight. So shiok. I miss my bed badly. I want to orh orh liaoz. =P
I'm rushing a proposal. Trying to translate english to chinese and typed a whole long 20+ pages. And it's due on sat. My nightmare! As requested by someone whom I can't reject. No pay though. Owe him ren qing debt. What to do? Rush rush rush lor. Few thousands characters nia. Don't think so much will past very fast one lar.
Later go lunching with him = that mouse. Never pin much hopes. Scared later kana fly aeroplane again. Used to it le. -_- If he never treat lunch then I mati lor. Bo $ liao. Sister needs $ urgently. I told him I've only got 10+ bucks to last me till end of the month. Cham hor? I still in debt. Owe roggie money. Ar bo where you think I got my money from? My medical fees don't have to pay one lar? Wait for the job also so long. Sianz.
Guys very troublesome one. I don't know my old friend will lidat one lor. He borrowed $ from me last time. And used the note to fold into a heart. It's been like don't know how many years liao. And he still keep the note. What does that mean? I'm actually kept in the dark until another friend told me. Interesting. Let's see what he got to explain.
Proposal's almost done. Think I don't have to burn midnight oil tonight. So shiok. I miss my bed badly. I want to orh orh liaoz. =P
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Singlish rocks
Save me! ~_~
I'm so sleeping now lor. Zhe me ban? Didn't get enough sleep recently. Been crawling to bed at 7am or 8am. So ''early'' hor? Coz you know what? I don't dare to sleep when nobody is at home. Quite a creepy feeling. But when I actually doze off. Hur hur. I slept till 4pm or 5pm. -_-''
Mum's not at home and my gastric acts up. About to collapse soon from all those running to loo too. I can't eat too much takeaways. My super sensitive stomach aka the sss can't stand it. I want to shui jiao now. But can't shui leh. Err.. Not shuai jiao (dumpling) hor. I want to koonz lah!
Watched pss2 just now. Was so freaking funny. Laughed till my dad came into my room and screamed at me. This year's superstars I no eyes see lor. All look normal. Those not bad looking de, eg ke wei and chris goh didn't get in. But although they're not really shuai ge or mei nu, but I must admit their vocal not bad leh. Tough competition this year.
Their blog also nice lor. I like blogs with lots of photos. Too bad I can't transfer photos from my cam to com. Keep hang here hang there hang everywhere. Otherwise I will also snap photos like siao one lor. If you asked me which contestant I kan hao this year. Think is shi yu bah. He's once an artiste before. Sure got supporters and fans one.
Ku xiao bu de (哭笑不得) at one stuff I knew today. Really can pengz. I mean it doesn't matter anyway. Since it's the same. Nothing changed from the previous till now. I'm okay with it. But dunno what others think leh. Coz someone kana till very badly. Pity that person. Why become lidat. I think he heart break liaoz. Tsk tsk.
Sorry ah, today's post super singlish. Wonder what's wrong with me too. Abit ki siao liaoz I think. Very cham lor, got someone hor, in camp then sick again. Da shao ye is da shao ye lah. Abit abit also will sick. Dunno who is the one with weak health lor. Hear the voice kana shock. Changed so much sia. Really seriously sick liaoz lah. Jitao pengz.
Teached you people so much singlish tonight liaoz. Got tutor fee to collect one anot? Okay lah, don't play liaoz. Really sleepy like hell tonight. Cannot tahan till early morning le. Can die one sia. I don't want to become a panda. Lastly, anyone wants to go out later msg me leh. I'm rotting to death at home. I can see moulds and spider webs on me liaoz lor.
Save me! ~_~
Buai lahs. =P
I'm so sleeping now lor. Zhe me ban? Didn't get enough sleep recently. Been crawling to bed at 7am or 8am. So ''early'' hor? Coz you know what? I don't dare to sleep when nobody is at home. Quite a creepy feeling. But when I actually doze off. Hur hur. I slept till 4pm or 5pm. -_-''
Mum's not at home and my gastric acts up. About to collapse soon from all those running to loo too. I can't eat too much takeaways. My super sensitive stomach aka the sss can't stand it. I want to shui jiao now. But can't shui leh. Err.. Not shuai jiao (dumpling) hor. I want to koonz lah!
Watched pss2 just now. Was so freaking funny. Laughed till my dad came into my room and screamed at me. This year's superstars I no eyes see lor. All look normal. Those not bad looking de, eg ke wei and chris goh didn't get in. But although they're not really shuai ge or mei nu, but I must admit their vocal not bad leh. Tough competition this year.
Their blog also nice lor. I like blogs with lots of photos. Too bad I can't transfer photos from my cam to com. Keep hang here hang there hang everywhere. Otherwise I will also snap photos like siao one lor. If you asked me which contestant I kan hao this year. Think is shi yu bah. He's once an artiste before. Sure got supporters and fans one.
Ku xiao bu de (哭笑不得) at one stuff I knew today. Really can pengz. I mean it doesn't matter anyway. Since it's the same. Nothing changed from the previous till now. I'm okay with it. But dunno what others think leh. Coz someone kana till very badly. Pity that person. Why become lidat. I think he heart break liaoz. Tsk tsk.
Sorry ah, today's post super singlish. Wonder what's wrong with me too. Abit ki siao liaoz I think. Very cham lor, got someone hor, in camp then sick again. Da shao ye is da shao ye lah. Abit abit also will sick. Dunno who is the one with weak health lor. Hear the voice kana shock. Changed so much sia. Really seriously sick liaoz lah. Jitao pengz.
Teached you people so much singlish tonight liaoz. Got tutor fee to collect one anot? Okay lah, don't play liaoz. Really sleepy like hell tonight. Cannot tahan till early morning le. Can die one sia. I don't want to become a panda. Lastly, anyone wants to go out later msg me leh. I'm rotting to death at home. I can see moulds and spider webs on me liaoz lor.
Save me! ~_~
Buai lahs. =P
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Another crazy post
I've got a new idol and love.John Huang Jun Yuan
Winner of Malaysia's Project Superstar.
He's cute and his songs are nice. He got really nice voice. A vocal meant to be a singer. Sounds a tad like JJ Lin. But much more soothing I think. Guess after more practice he's be perfect. Another Zhang Dong Liang is born. Must asked mum to get me his album from Malaysia. I can't find it in SG. Anyone knows where to get Jun Yuan's First Album?
<----------I WANT THIS!!!!!!!!
Hahaha. Better stop or else I'll go crazy. Some interesting pictures to share. A before and after version of my computer's wallpaper when I on winamp. So nice. It actually only shows ming dao. Poor Zhang MM. Tio 'covered' liao. Coz most of the time I don't bother to minimize winamp. So this is what I get.
Before:
After:
Ehh.. Pai seh Zhang MM. :S
PS: Nice wallpaper isn't it? Btw, anyone knows what is PS? Mei and I keep using it but we don't know the meaning. LOL! -_-
Mum went to Malaysia today. Seem the blur maid didn't cause any troubles yet. Heng ah. But jia lat. I feel that I'll be sick soon. Just had this tired feeling all day. Hope that I won't be sick while home alone these few days.
Dad was nice today. He yesterday asked me to eat instant noodles for today. But today's lunch he actually cooked me porridge coz my gastric was bad. So nice of him. But poor dad. He had to share a packet of mixed vege rice with me. And he gave almost all the nice food to me. He just gobble up the plain rice. Don't tell me we are running low on our 'credits' again. I only have a few more couple of tens to spare for this month. Totally broke.
Sometimes I just want good food for my parents. I don't want to save even on food. Eh, nvm. I'll just squeeze simon dry on friday. His treat lar! I want good food! I don't want to eat leftovers liao. Eat till sick of it. 8 of every month is a nice date huh? Yea. It is to me. Hahahaha. *Whistle*
My birthday's coming soon in less than 1 month. 21th birthday leh. Not planning to celebrate. Since not many people bother to celebrate it for me too. Celebrating it alone I rather mai. Need to save even on cake. I need to buy a new phone. What to do? This one keep ki siao on me. Kana electric shock for countless times. Can money fall from the sky one day? Well, do pardon me. I must be dreaming again. Hahahaha.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Interesting post I guess
Saw lots of roaches in the kitchen. Try my luck to kill one. But bad choice, it ran towards me and I screamed like a mad woman. In the end, my screaming woke my mum up and she killed it instantly. I still sucks at killing roaches. -_-
I had fear for thunder and roaches. I need a bf who's not afraid of roaches. Guys who are afraid of roaches are cowards. Not hinting at *youknowwho*. But pardon me, I can't stand guys who are afraid of roaches.
Since I had nothing to blog about tonight. I'll just be bo liao and talk about my msn's groups. There's 6 groups in my msn list.
1) Close - My close siblings and buddies.
2) Extra - Those I don't know who they are or seldom chat with.
3) Family- All my cousins and their bf / gf.
4) Friends - My real life friends. Most are my old classmates.
5) Online Friends - The people I met online. Some close, some not really.
6) Company - My 'colleagues'. Group in the same group for easy contact.
Want to know which group you are at? I'll just named out those in my close list. Then you'll know where you're at already. And the list consists of...
Simon, zax mei, k kor, dream, darren, kieran, xinying, ah xi0ng, lyn jie, ym di, jessie jie, jie fu, ning jie, francis di, min ger, aaryn jie, weikai, jeff, curze.
Okay and now let's see how I typed short forms, what I like to type and what kind of emo I used. My typing consists of...
1) LOL! The most used phrase in my typing anytime, anywhere.
2) Because, cos or coz? Coz.
3) That, tat or dat? That.
4) What, wat or wad? Wad.
5) Lol, lolz, lolx or lols? Lol.
6) Tmr or tml? Tmr.
7) Singlish! Lah, leh, lor alot.
8) Okay, okie, ok or even worse k? K.
9) Dunno, gimme, haven, nitez, cya, plus lots of le, de and liao.
10) Loves to =D =) =( xD
As for why I love to use pink fonts in msn. It's coz darren said that pink fonts are easy to read. So had been using pink since. When there's no msg plus then use purple. Why I wear the same old grey outfit in habbo? Coz of korkor last time. We love to wear the same. So had been in grey since.
I want a new hp! Think fenni got her samsung Z400 already. I want a nokia 3G phone. My current phone keep dc when I ans a call. Make me so pai seh. I want to go vivo too! Matthew, let's see when we're free then go there find got nice pasta to eat anot. LOL! And btw matt, don't have to keep coming to my blog dunno how many times a day. Coz I blogged once at midnight only. Nothing much to see. LOL! Hope today's post a little interesting to read. xD
I had fear for thunder and roaches. I need a bf who's not afraid of roaches. Guys who are afraid of roaches are cowards. Not hinting at *youknowwho*. But pardon me, I can't stand guys who are afraid of roaches.
Since I had nothing to blog about tonight. I'll just be bo liao and talk about my msn's groups. There's 6 groups in my msn list.
1) Close - My close siblings and buddies.
2) Extra - Those I don't know who they are or seldom chat with.
3) Family- All my cousins and their bf / gf.
4) Friends - My real life friends. Most are my old classmates.
5) Online Friends - The people I met online. Some close, some not really.
6) Company - My 'colleagues'. Group in the same group for easy contact.
Want to know which group you are at? I'll just named out those in my close list. Then you'll know where you're at already. And the list consists of...
Simon, zax mei, k kor, dream, darren, kieran, xinying, ah xi0ng, lyn jie, ym di, jessie jie, jie fu, ning jie, francis di, min ger, aaryn jie, weikai, jeff, curze.
Okay and now let's see how I typed short forms, what I like to type and what kind of emo I used. My typing consists of...
1) LOL! The most used phrase in my typing anytime, anywhere.
2) Because, cos or coz? Coz.
3) That, tat or dat? That.
4) What, wat or wad? Wad.
5) Lol, lolz, lolx or lols? Lol.
6) Tmr or tml? Tmr.
7) Singlish! Lah, leh, lor alot.
8) Okay, okie, ok or even worse k? K.
9) Dunno, gimme, haven, nitez, cya, plus lots of le, de and liao.
10) Loves to =D =) =( xD
As for why I love to use pink fonts in msn. It's coz darren said that pink fonts are easy to read. So had been using pink since. When there's no msg plus then use purple. Why I wear the same old grey outfit in habbo? Coz of korkor last time. We love to wear the same. So had been in grey since.
I want a new hp! Think fenni got her samsung Z400 already. I want a nokia 3G phone. My current phone keep dc when I ans a call. Make me so pai seh. I want to go vivo too! Matthew, let's see when we're free then go there find got nice pasta to eat anot. LOL! And btw matt, don't have to keep coming to my blog dunno how many times a day. Coz I blogged once at midnight only. Nothing much to see. LOL! Hope today's post a little interesting to read. xD
Monday, November 06, 2006
Stress free at last
Emergency SOS call from Malaysia. Regarding the blur maid that we hired for my grandma. Sort of regret hiring her. Seems she's as blur as me sotong. Don't even dare to give my grandma her medicine. It's like what the. Then hire you for what? My uncle just sent her over to Malacca yesterday night. And need my mum to rush over to teach the maid.
Better get her to understand all my grandma's daily stuffs asap. Otherwise we can all die. Including me. I'm one who keeps nodding my head when we are having a decision regarding if we should hire this maid. But guess this young lady here needs more time. She's younger than me. 18 I think.
The main problem is I've become a ball again. Got dumped here and there. Mum don't want me to tag along this time. Saying I'm troublesome. Dad thinks that I'm troublesome at home too. Wanted to kick me in to Malaysia. Guess mum will spend a couple of weeks in Malaysia this time. I'm going to suffer if I'm home alone with my dad. At most I don't stay at home or Malaysia. I'll rot in whatever places I can go to. I'm not a ball! I'm already an adult and they're still kicking me here and there. What the.
Buddy's back. Didn't manage to grab hold of him and chat with him. Wonder how was the 'torture' in camp. Saw that his msn nick had changed to darren. When did he start to use this name? I really drifted a lot from all my old friends. So ended up sms C this noon. And had a good chat over sms. I still treated C as a good friend. Guess that I really forgive people easily.
Msn a lot today. My fingers hurt. I admit I'm blur. I actually removed the wrong account of lyn jie for don't know how many months already. So pai seh. Luckily jessie jie added us for a chat this noon. No wonder I didn't see lyn jie online nowadays. Because I removed the account which is in use. While chatting I discovered that kor was online a few days ago. So went to sms him for the first time after that incident happened. But there's no reply.
My precious mei's back in habbo. Let's give her a warm welcome. She bought a new computer. At last. Which means she's alive back in habbo. LOL! Had a nice long chat with her while watching wei xiao pasta's final episode. Very sweet ending. I like it. And now at this late night I'm chatting with ning jie. Today's a nice Sunday. At last a good day after so many stuffs happened.
I want to go Vivo City. Can't believe I'm that sua ku. I never go before! Really need to find one day go out walk, eat and relax. Coping myself at home too much doesn't help. I'll only get more depressed. Sometimes going out will cheer my mood up. Not going to bother too much now. Must learn to kan kai. Guess that cry yesterday helps. Finally, I'm stress free at last. Yay!
Better get her to understand all my grandma's daily stuffs asap. Otherwise we can all die. Including me. I'm one who keeps nodding my head when we are having a decision regarding if we should hire this maid. But guess this young lady here needs more time. She's younger than me. 18 I think.
The main problem is I've become a ball again. Got dumped here and there. Mum don't want me to tag along this time. Saying I'm troublesome. Dad thinks that I'm troublesome at home too. Wanted to kick me in to Malaysia. Guess mum will spend a couple of weeks in Malaysia this time. I'm going to suffer if I'm home alone with my dad. At most I don't stay at home or Malaysia. I'll rot in whatever places I can go to. I'm not a ball! I'm already an adult and they're still kicking me here and there. What the.
Buddy's back. Didn't manage to grab hold of him and chat with him. Wonder how was the 'torture' in camp. Saw that his msn nick had changed to darren. When did he start to use this name? I really drifted a lot from all my old friends. So ended up sms C this noon. And had a good chat over sms. I still treated C as a good friend. Guess that I really forgive people easily.
Msn a lot today. My fingers hurt. I admit I'm blur. I actually removed the wrong account of lyn jie for don't know how many months already. So pai seh. Luckily jessie jie added us for a chat this noon. No wonder I didn't see lyn jie online nowadays. Because I removed the account which is in use. While chatting I discovered that kor was online a few days ago. So went to sms him for the first time after that incident happened. But there's no reply.
My precious mei's back in habbo. Let's give her a warm welcome. She bought a new computer. At last. Which means she's alive back in habbo. LOL! Had a nice long chat with her while watching wei xiao pasta's final episode. Very sweet ending. I like it. And now at this late night I'm chatting with ning jie. Today's a nice Sunday. At last a good day after so many stuffs happened.
I want to go Vivo City. Can't believe I'm that sua ku. I never go before! Really need to find one day go out walk, eat and relax. Coping myself at home too much doesn't help. I'll only get more depressed. Sometimes going out will cheer my mood up. Not going to bother too much now. Must learn to kan kai. Guess that cry yesterday helps. Finally, I'm stress free at last. Yay!
Sunday, November 05, 2006
I'm really tired
Really tired of this. There's bound to be shocking matters everyday. And most of the time I don't know about the news. I need my close ones to tell me. Just what is this? Are are what I heard and saw the truth? Can humans even be trusted? Can I just have a good night rest every night? That's just a simple thing I wished for. Nothing to worry about so that I can sleep better.
The bang on my head when I'm on the bus cause me to puke and have dizzy spells for today. And I'm so worried about it. Not knowing what to do. Don't want to worry my mum too much. She don't bother about me much too. So in the end I turned to him. But can't contact him at all. Lastly, it's my jie who helped me then I can find him. Well, no worries friends. I'm feeling better. But who knows. Maybe I'll just died one day and no one even notice that.
My guy friends become my nagging target. Thanks matthew for being there always for me. Although a young guy. But he's mature enough to understand the problems I'm facing. Thanks junhao. My old friend for around 10 years. For 'listening' to me. And yes! I missed you! So long then have chance to chat. Take care ah. Thanks to those that tagged too. I'll be fine. Just hope that all will be over soon. I wish for the nightmares to end.
I really hope that what I saw are not what I'm thinking. I really hope those are not the truth. Very tired one you know? I'll collapse soon. But hang in there RongFang. You're strong. Nothing can defeat me that easily. There's lots of close ones to give me support. But I really feel so lost without my main support here. Which is my buddy. Seems he and his ex are getting better. I don't want to be innocently be a third party. I'll learn to avoid now.
Thinking of buddy tends to cheer me up a little. He's really funny. Even matt can laugh at our conversation. Buddy's the only person who understands me most and knows how to cheer me up. I really don't want to bother him about my matters anymore. Sometimes I really feel like hiding everything inside myself. But afraid that I might explode anytime. I need to let them out. And hence my poor friends and my blog became the vicitms.
I won't let you guys worry anymore. I know how to stand on my feet. Do you know that the best thing to do to let out your sadness is just to col. Cry out loud. I promise myself I won't cry anymore. That's why I feel so stress. But maybe not as stress as ruben. I still try to cheer him up with cold jokes when I'm the one feeling bad. Because I don't want to let others around me feel bad along with me. I won't let my mood affect my dear friends.
RongFang's strong. But not jeslin. To those who know me well will know it. Jeslin is a person who will hide when she faces problems. Which is another side of me. Jeslin is just a younger version of me which I hate. Compare the difference between me now and years ago. You'll see it. Don't believe ask junhao. Guess I'll still be RongFang after all. I really hope that jeslin won't exist. Because I won't know how to defeat the weak side of me.
I got an explanation at 3 plus am. But at the same time I can't cheer up at all. Not because of the explanation I got was bad. It was a reasonable one. And I believed it. But my sad mood is due to my darling sister dreamze. I got the most harsh scolding from him ever. I broke down and cried totally. I'm so tired with my life. He said I'm living a life which has no future. I'm stupid and silly. And I don't want to walk out of the path. Which is isn't. I'm trying to get out of my old ways. Which I think I succeed. But sister think otherwise.
Sister must had lots of problems. And I'm not there to share with him. He said that he can't contact me. Which is not true too. Yes, I didn't online much. But he can just reach me by my phone right? But he don't want to. Sister didn't give me chances to explain much. He don't understand what am I busy with. Saying darren already went to ns. Do I still have other things to bother about? Keep on saying I need to get a life etc. I know sister. I know. But you don't have to be so harsh with those vulgar. It really hurts me.
I understand that he meant well. Or perhaps he's not in a good mood. But he said his problems were over. Just mad that I'm not there for him when he need someone to talk to. I feel bad. I'm always there for darren. Why can't it be the same with sister? Now that darren's not here. Sister is the only buddy closest to me. Yet I did nothing. As what he said. What kind of sister am I? I'm just a useless sister. He will always be there for me. But what about me? I did nothing. So now I can only apologize to him non stop.
Sister's reaction reminded me of that person. Whom don't understand me well. And in return I got misunderstood for 10 years. Why can't they be like darren? Try to understand me. I feel so lost. Had already choose the path I want yet I got all these. Sometimes I just need them to talk to. Nothing much else. I know sister don't mean any offence. But suddenly I just feel so useless. I'm just a useless person. Sorry sister. I did make you worried. Just let me fade away. Leave me alone. I won't let you guys worried about me anymore. I'll suffer everything alone. I'll bear the responsibility myself.
The bang on my head when I'm on the bus cause me to puke and have dizzy spells for today. And I'm so worried about it. Not knowing what to do. Don't want to worry my mum too much. She don't bother about me much too. So in the end I turned to him. But can't contact him at all. Lastly, it's my jie who helped me then I can find him. Well, no worries friends. I'm feeling better. But who knows. Maybe I'll just died one day and no one even notice that.
My guy friends become my nagging target. Thanks matthew for being there always for me. Although a young guy. But he's mature enough to understand the problems I'm facing. Thanks junhao. My old friend for around 10 years. For 'listening' to me. And yes! I missed you! So long then have chance to chat. Take care ah. Thanks to those that tagged too. I'll be fine. Just hope that all will be over soon. I wish for the nightmares to end.
I really hope that what I saw are not what I'm thinking. I really hope those are not the truth. Very tired one you know? I'll collapse soon. But hang in there RongFang. You're strong. Nothing can defeat me that easily. There's lots of close ones to give me support. But I really feel so lost without my main support here. Which is my buddy. Seems he and his ex are getting better. I don't want to be innocently be a third party. I'll learn to avoid now.
Thinking of buddy tends to cheer me up a little. He's really funny. Even matt can laugh at our conversation. Buddy's the only person who understands me most and knows how to cheer me up. I really don't want to bother him about my matters anymore. Sometimes I really feel like hiding everything inside myself. But afraid that I might explode anytime. I need to let them out. And hence my poor friends and my blog became the vicitms.
I won't let you guys worry anymore. I know how to stand on my feet. Do you know that the best thing to do to let out your sadness is just to col. Cry out loud. I promise myself I won't cry anymore. That's why I feel so stress. But maybe not as stress as ruben. I still try to cheer him up with cold jokes when I'm the one feeling bad. Because I don't want to let others around me feel bad along with me. I won't let my mood affect my dear friends.
RongFang's strong. But not jeslin. To those who know me well will know it. Jeslin is a person who will hide when she faces problems. Which is another side of me. Jeslin is just a younger version of me which I hate. Compare the difference between me now and years ago. You'll see it. Don't believe ask junhao. Guess I'll still be RongFang after all. I really hope that jeslin won't exist. Because I won't know how to defeat the weak side of me.
I got an explanation at 3 plus am. But at the same time I can't cheer up at all. Not because of the explanation I got was bad. It was a reasonable one. And I believed it. But my sad mood is due to my darling sister dreamze. I got the most harsh scolding from him ever. I broke down and cried totally. I'm so tired with my life. He said I'm living a life which has no future. I'm stupid and silly. And I don't want to walk out of the path. Which is isn't. I'm trying to get out of my old ways. Which I think I succeed. But sister think otherwise.
Sister must had lots of problems. And I'm not there to share with him. He said that he can't contact me. Which is not true too. Yes, I didn't online much. But he can just reach me by my phone right? But he don't want to. Sister didn't give me chances to explain much. He don't understand what am I busy with. Saying darren already went to ns. Do I still have other things to bother about? Keep on saying I need to get a life etc. I know sister. I know. But you don't have to be so harsh with those vulgar. It really hurts me.
I understand that he meant well. Or perhaps he's not in a good mood. But he said his problems were over. Just mad that I'm not there for him when he need someone to talk to. I feel bad. I'm always there for darren. Why can't it be the same with sister? Now that darren's not here. Sister is the only buddy closest to me. Yet I did nothing. As what he said. What kind of sister am I? I'm just a useless sister. He will always be there for me. But what about me? I did nothing. So now I can only apologize to him non stop.
Sister's reaction reminded me of that person. Whom don't understand me well. And in return I got misunderstood for 10 years. Why can't they be like darren? Try to understand me. I feel so lost. Had already choose the path I want yet I got all these. Sometimes I just need them to talk to. Nothing much else. I know sister don't mean any offence. But suddenly I just feel so useless. I'm just a useless person. Sorry sister. I did make you worried. Just let me fade away. Leave me alone. I won't let you guys worried about me anymore. I'll suffer everything alone. I'll bear the responsibility myself.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Too tired to go on
I'm so tired. Both in mind and body. Don't even know if I have the strength to carry on going anymore. Just getting so sick and tired of everything. What a tough game it is. A game that I spent almost all my energy on it. Spending and concentrating almost all my time on it. Trying to continue it till as long as possible. I'm not giving it up that easily. I know I'm playing with fire. It's a dangerous game. But I'm sure I won't give up half way. The end? Not yet. The game's still on. Get ready. Round N begins.
Don't understand what I'm talking about? Never mind about it then. I just begin a new chapter of my life. A new me. I don't even understand why I can become that bu zhe shou duan to get what I wanted. Since in your eyes I'm just a bitch. I'll just continue to live this position in your life then. No matter if it's 10 years ago or 10 years later. I'll still be the same. I really hope that we'll never bump into each other again. That hateful eyes of yours gives me the shivers and tears.
I don't want to be a guai guai girl anymore. It doesn't help. You need to be more ruthless to get things you wanted. Otherwise no matter how hard you try, you'll never had much chance to succeed. I'm stupid last time. Believing that when you treat people with kindness they'll do the same to you too. Unfortunately, the answer might be a no sometimes. I don't need your kindness now or in the future.
I hate it when people called me jeslin. Esp when it's from your mouth. The voice that didn't change for 10 years. But now I'm going to use back this name. No point hiding it anymore. Since it's my choice not yours. No matter if it's 10 years ago or now. I have the right to make my own decision. You don't have to care if I regret it or not. It's totally none of your business. I like the life I'm living now.
To you there's only the stupid dumb jeslin who made the wrong decision. There's no RongFang at all. I wanted to mend the gap between us. Useless isn't it? I still heard the 3 words from you. Which is of course I hate you. Let me tell you. Childhood memories sucks. Esp when it dragged hated to the future. I had no one to stand by me. Where's him when I needed him? Where's them? I can find no one.
Pardon me if I wrote stuffs which you don't understand. That's due to I bumped into some one whom I really wanted to avoid for years. And had an accident while on my way home. The bus I'm on crashed into a car. And I'm sitting in front hence I got the most shock of my life. Fortunately, no one's hurt. I only bumped my head against the window. Just feeling a tad giddy now. There's 'spiderwebs' all over the bus's windows. Serious isn't it?
Came home, nobody bothers about me. Mum was busy asking me about her artworks. Didn't even bother to ask if I had a shock or am I hurt. Can't even find the person I wanted to speak to just for a little while for the whole day. Who am I to you people? I really don't get it. I'm tired. Really tired. I need a long rest. Don't want to think of anything. Afraid that I might really collapse or explode. I need to stand on my feet. Without anyone to help this time.
Don't understand what I'm talking about? Never mind about it then. I just begin a new chapter of my life. A new me. I don't even understand why I can become that bu zhe shou duan to get what I wanted. Since in your eyes I'm just a bitch. I'll just continue to live this position in your life then. No matter if it's 10 years ago or 10 years later. I'll still be the same. I really hope that we'll never bump into each other again. That hateful eyes of yours gives me the shivers and tears.
I don't want to be a guai guai girl anymore. It doesn't help. You need to be more ruthless to get things you wanted. Otherwise no matter how hard you try, you'll never had much chance to succeed. I'm stupid last time. Believing that when you treat people with kindness they'll do the same to you too. Unfortunately, the answer might be a no sometimes. I don't need your kindness now or in the future.
I hate it when people called me jeslin. Esp when it's from your mouth. The voice that didn't change for 10 years. But now I'm going to use back this name. No point hiding it anymore. Since it's my choice not yours. No matter if it's 10 years ago or now. I have the right to make my own decision. You don't have to care if I regret it or not. It's totally none of your business. I like the life I'm living now.
To you there's only the stupid dumb jeslin who made the wrong decision. There's no RongFang at all. I wanted to mend the gap between us. Useless isn't it? I still heard the 3 words from you. Which is of course I hate you. Let me tell you. Childhood memories sucks. Esp when it dragged hated to the future. I had no one to stand by me. Where's him when I needed him? Where's them? I can find no one.
Pardon me if I wrote stuffs which you don't understand. That's due to I bumped into some one whom I really wanted to avoid for years. And had an accident while on my way home. The bus I'm on crashed into a car. And I'm sitting in front hence I got the most shock of my life. Fortunately, no one's hurt. I only bumped my head against the window. Just feeling a tad giddy now. There's 'spiderwebs' all over the bus's windows. Serious isn't it?
Came home, nobody bothers about me. Mum was busy asking me about her artworks. Didn't even bother to ask if I had a shock or am I hurt. Can't even find the person I wanted to speak to just for a little while for the whole day. Who am I to you people? I really don't get it. I'm tired. Really tired. I need a long rest. Don't want to think of anything. Afraid that I might really collapse or explode. I need to stand on my feet. Without anyone to help this time.
Friday, November 03, 2006
Funny jie mei
Scanning my computer as I typed this post now. Computer nearly infected two virus just now. Don't know who is the evil one spammed my mailbox with junk mails and spread virus to me. Luckily it got detected and removed. But I'm still afraid they might stay, hence doing a full system scan now.
Here's a note to those who are using MSN Live and Messenger Live Plus. Don't ever download the newest version of MSN Live 8.1 if you are using Messenger Live Plus. It does not support this newest version of MSN Live. I got to try the newest MSN Live just now. But it's just the same as the old MSN Live. Useless to get it if you intend to keep your Messenger Live Plus.
Was on the phone with Mei just now. She was the one who wanted a chat tonight. And we talked for an hour plus before she went off to bed. Unbelievable right? Mei actually wanted to chat on the phone. Should ask her to add this matter into her unbelievable memories. LOL! So cold. So lame. Hahaha. Pardon me, I just had a serving of lamb chop.
Mei and me had another bet. Not telling you guys what it is about. I'm going to get her head off her body this time. Last time I won. This time I'm going to too. No way am I going to let her win. Mei! Your head's going to fall. You've already owe me one head?! already please. But say really, I'm really afraid that she might win this time. Which I hope not. Not because of her, but it's because of the matter we're betting on. First time that I'm afraid of losing.
Mei asked me lots of questions which left me stunned. This is actually a question that most of my close ones asked me about. Had told you people the answer already. No point pinning your hopes on a matter which will never happen. It's better to pin your hopes on another which might work.
Another question Mei asked was power man. She's another Fudgey. A more scarier one. Asking the most scariest questions ever till I don't know what to answer. Told her something around that. But not the exact point. Maybe what I told her was fake? LOL! Kidding. Of course it's real. Mei, you just had a slow Jie that's all. And I believe that you know that. LOL!
The above topics are for my Mei to read. Actually not only Mei. My Jie also stunned me with her questions today. About a best friend of mine. Why are you all asking me about him? I admit I know what happened to him recently. But not very sure. Well, we didn't really contact each other much now. Which I think it's a good idea after all.
Darling sister called me this noon. And we were screaming on the phone. He's the one unreasonable. Not me. And he's the one who didn't tell me what happened to him lately first. And I got his news through another friend of us. What sister is this? Still dare to complain about me first. *Shakes head* Sister, spare me with your naggings please.
Went out for a while to have a breathe of air just now. And bought the new KFC's fish and chips back. It really taste nice. Crispy outside, tender and spicy inside. Do try it! Bought stuffs for mum and dad too. Cheer them up once in a while. The smile on their face and the laughter we had were great. Been such a long time since we had such a great time. So in the end I drank too much of beer. Now I'm still feeling half drunk. Bed time soon.
Here's a note to those who are using MSN Live and Messenger Live Plus. Don't ever download the newest version of MSN Live 8.1 if you are using Messenger Live Plus. It does not support this newest version of MSN Live. I got to try the newest MSN Live just now. But it's just the same as the old MSN Live. Useless to get it if you intend to keep your Messenger Live Plus.
Was on the phone with Mei just now. She was the one who wanted a chat tonight. And we talked for an hour plus before she went off to bed. Unbelievable right? Mei actually wanted to chat on the phone. Should ask her to add this matter into her unbelievable memories. LOL! So cold. So lame. Hahaha. Pardon me, I just had a serving of lamb chop.
Mei and me had another bet. Not telling you guys what it is about. I'm going to get her head off her body this time. Last time I won. This time I'm going to too. No way am I going to let her win. Mei! Your head's going to fall. You've already owe me one head?! already please. But say really, I'm really afraid that she might win this time. Which I hope not. Not because of her, but it's because of the matter we're betting on. First time that I'm afraid of losing.
Mei asked me lots of questions which left me stunned. This is actually a question that most of my close ones asked me about. Had told you people the answer already. No point pinning your hopes on a matter which will never happen. It's better to pin your hopes on another which might work.
Another question Mei asked was power man. She's another Fudgey. A more scarier one. Asking the most scariest questions ever till I don't know what to answer. Told her something around that. But not the exact point. Maybe what I told her was fake? LOL! Kidding. Of course it's real. Mei, you just had a slow Jie that's all. And I believe that you know that. LOL!
The above topics are for my Mei to read. Actually not only Mei. My Jie also stunned me with her questions today. About a best friend of mine. Why are you all asking me about him? I admit I know what happened to him recently. But not very sure. Well, we didn't really contact each other much now. Which I think it's a good idea after all.
Darling sister called me this noon. And we were screaming on the phone. He's the one unreasonable. Not me. And he's the one who didn't tell me what happened to him lately first. And I got his news through another friend of us. What sister is this? Still dare to complain about me first. *Shakes head* Sister, spare me with your naggings please.
Went out for a while to have a breathe of air just now. And bought the new KFC's fish and chips back. It really taste nice. Crispy outside, tender and spicy inside. Do try it! Bought stuffs for mum and dad too. Cheer them up once in a while. The smile on their face and the laughter we had were great. Been such a long time since we had such a great time. So in the end I drank too much of beer. Now I'm still feeling half drunk. Bed time soon.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
4am post
Been a long time since I deejayed. So it's time to start work again tonight. Cannot eat snake anymore. Chiong for 4-5 hours. Current time is around 4am. There's still around 10 listeners. Win liao lor. At this kind of wee hours. I wonder who are those night owls. Most of the time at these hours I only streamed for the air to listen. Faints.
Can you believe that the teens without having to study can actually stay up till this kind of time and listen to radio. And keep ki siao in habbo. I kana scold for nothing by rivo too. Faints. Unbelievable that those teens parents don't bother? Or did they creep online secretly? Who knows? Same as me. I creep online at this time de. LOL!
Went out with di to jp today. To collect the vcd back. Then 'salmon' came along. LOL! Someone got a new nick. My cheeky di lor. Always loves to give nick to people. Chase di home soon coz I need to talk to salmon. Bribes di with 2 bucks and he left. LOL! How nice? Interesting lar. Di and me can actually chatted on the phone for like don't know how many hours today. We're both crazy today. I don't mind, since he's the one calling. Hahaha.
Tht fish seems weird weird today. Salmon fish I mean. If you get what I mean and who he is. We rotted in toys r us for the whole noon. Really dislike him for lying to me. Di and I caught him red handed smoking. But he don't want to admit it. Now you know why my di's msn msg becomes smoky salmon yea? How lame. Cold till I'm shivering~~ =.=''
Don't think I will bother too much about this. Since I smoke and drink too. So I can't argue with him over this. But I don't smoke nor drink too often. Unlike him? Well, I don't know. As usual, I'm blur always. Sleepy now. Got to hang in there and rush finish my stuffs. Going doctor's in a few days. I hate the feeling of being sick always. Anyway, who will like it? Hahaha.
I can't take it down. I'm not a bitch. Neither am I a cheap fucking bitch. You can't just call me bitch. It's so insulting. Nor am I acting big just because I'm a dj etc. Djs are just normal people. No matter if you're an online or radio station's djs. So please treat us equally. We don't deserve to be humiliated. You're the one who deserved to be scold for snatching our seat every time. Come on, I just advised you not to snatch our seats. That's call acting big? Sigh. If only darren or korkor's still here. Sure they'll scold that kid off. See? I always got bullied when there's nobody to help me. But still thanks to those who helped. Including that 'him'.
PS: Mei, jasmine remember you. (I don't mean you remember youself hor) She said that she won't forget her darling. LOL! Hear from her soon yea? (:
Can you believe that the teens without having to study can actually stay up till this kind of time and listen to radio. And keep ki siao in habbo. I kana scold for nothing by rivo too. Faints. Unbelievable that those teens parents don't bother? Or did they creep online secretly? Who knows? Same as me. I creep online at this time de. LOL!
Went out with di to jp today. To collect the vcd back. Then 'salmon' came along. LOL! Someone got a new nick. My cheeky di lor. Always loves to give nick to people. Chase di home soon coz I need to talk to salmon. Bribes di with 2 bucks and he left. LOL! How nice? Interesting lar. Di and me can actually chatted on the phone for like don't know how many hours today. We're both crazy today. I don't mind, since he's the one calling. Hahaha.
Tht fish seems weird weird today. Salmon fish I mean. If you get what I mean and who he is. We rotted in toys r us for the whole noon. Really dislike him for lying to me. Di and I caught him red handed smoking. But he don't want to admit it. Now you know why my di's msn msg becomes smoky salmon yea? How lame. Cold till I'm shivering~~ =.=''
Don't think I will bother too much about this. Since I smoke and drink too. So I can't argue with him over this. But I don't smoke nor drink too often. Unlike him? Well, I don't know. As usual, I'm blur always. Sleepy now. Got to hang in there and rush finish my stuffs. Going doctor's in a few days. I hate the feeling of being sick always. Anyway, who will like it? Hahaha.
I can't take it down. I'm not a bitch. Neither am I a cheap fucking bitch. You can't just call me bitch. It's so insulting. Nor am I acting big just because I'm a dj etc. Djs are just normal people. No matter if you're an online or radio station's djs. So please treat us equally. We don't deserve to be humiliated. You're the one who deserved to be scold for snatching our seat every time. Come on, I just advised you not to snatch our seats. That's call acting big? Sigh. If only darren or korkor's still here. Sure they'll scold that kid off. See? I always got bullied when there's nobody to help me. But still thanks to those who helped. Including that 'him'.
PS: Mei, jasmine remember you. (I don't mean you remember youself hor) She said that she won't forget her darling. LOL! Hear from her soon yea? (:
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Just a lazy post
Just ended a call with mei. Francis left early because he's sick and need to wake up early for school later. Take care di. We can really hear that he's very sick. Poor guy. As usual it's a conference between me and my di mei. Trying to jio more others but all rejected. Today's not a good night for conference. The least talking in a conference ever.
Mei was busy playing games. And francis di is sick like hell. No wonder he's named fran'sick'. -_- Me? I don't know what to talk about today. Unbelievable right? DJ RongFang had nothing to talk about. Hahaha. Actually had a lot to tell mei. But suddenly just don't know what to say. Then my mouth just went zip and brain empty.
Now I'm still waiting for my hp to charge till battery full and I'm off to bed. Envy mei that she could just pop to bed and doze off. I still have so many stuffs not yet done. Still waiting for a promise by someone. Guess this promise got broken tonight. Seldom got broken promises. Wonder why? Forget it. I'll just sleep early and maybe meet di later to collect back the vcd.
Keep listening to korean and jap songs recently. I'm hooked on them. If you know of some nice korean or jap songs, do recommend me okay? And of course not forgetting to mention about tank's songs. His new album is coming soon. I can't wait. He's one of the male singers I like. Really like almost all his songs. Perhaps he's S.H.E's junior. So that's why? Hahaha.
Mei asked me to post some pictures in my blog posts. But she knows me well. I'm lazy to do that. Since a long time ago I've already said that I'll share pictures and photos with you all. But didn't do it. Pardon me. Maybe next time alright? Meanwhile do enjoy the newest blog picture I've changed. CJ and Lu. Handsome Lu. I like! Don't ya? :D~
Mei was busy playing games. And francis di is sick like hell. No wonder he's named fran'sick'. -_- Me? I don't know what to talk about today. Unbelievable right? DJ RongFang had nothing to talk about. Hahaha. Actually had a lot to tell mei. But suddenly just don't know what to say. Then my mouth just went zip and brain empty.
Now I'm still waiting for my hp to charge till battery full and I'm off to bed. Envy mei that she could just pop to bed and doze off. I still have so many stuffs not yet done. Still waiting for a promise by someone. Guess this promise got broken tonight. Seldom got broken promises. Wonder why? Forget it. I'll just sleep early and maybe meet di later to collect back the vcd.
Keep listening to korean and jap songs recently. I'm hooked on them. If you know of some nice korean or jap songs, do recommend me okay? And of course not forgetting to mention about tank's songs. His new album is coming soon. I can't wait. He's one of the male singers I like. Really like almost all his songs. Perhaps he's S.H.E's junior. So that's why? Hahaha.
Mei asked me to post some pictures in my blog posts. But she knows me well. I'm lazy to do that. Since a long time ago I've already said that I'll share pictures and photos with you all. But didn't do it. Pardon me. Maybe next time alright? Meanwhile do enjoy the newest blog picture I've changed. CJ and Lu. Handsome Lu. I like! Don't ya? :D~
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