Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wonderful

Tired but great night.Went to plaza to bought a new mic.Old one spoilt.Funny way of spoiling.The mic can only be bend in the middle, if at upwards or downwards.There will be no voice. :S Weird.Screw it out but pointless.Still not able to fix it.In the end got dump into store.Lol

Bought back a $17 mic.The popular guy says the brand is good quality.Genius.Hope so bah.Spoilt fast i sure going to murder the salesman.But the volume is too soft.I had to shout at the top of my lungs.If not listeners will complained is it an ant talking?Haha..

Bought a concealer too.Maybelline brand.To hide my blemishes.Gee..Alot sia.But heart pain $14.Hais..Spend alot today.Need to save back le.Found one really nice de oil control flim.The package was nice.There's even a mirror.And cost affortable.So bought it.

Saw frog vcd now only cost $45.Nearly fainted.Half the price only.Wah!Suan le.I watch finish le lor.I just finish dj-ing.Tired.Lots of consoles and all.I'm being drowned.And i'm forced to sing.Sabo me sia.Peak listeners need to sing.Ytd sabo da ge too much.Now's my turn.Zzz..

In the end still sing guan huai fang shi.Bad voice i have.Hmm..He's not online today.Weird..Well.. None of my biz bah.Hee..Just hope he's alrite.Talking to Fai again.Now late night only he pei wo chat.And mei too.She creep back.Lol..I'll end my blog here.Maybe blogging later. =))

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Back for an update.Can't sleep.Feeling hungry.Cook mee again.Ate and rest awhile before shooing off to sleep.Still smsing mei about just now matters.Really is funny lor.Conference night again.First time with a guy can chat so long.Luckily mei is here.If not think i wun be able to talk too.Interesting and funny guy.We talk till so crazy and laughing non stop.

But sigh..My house phone keep gave me prob.Spoilt again? :S Dun tell me another thing spoilt?Dead meat.After my crazy idea on switching in between my hp and non cordless house phone.It was better.But that silly guy about to doze off.Mei and i chase him off.And mei u are not a lightbulb lah.Is we both too familar le so can play till so crazy.

He'll be overseas soon.Wah..Somemore says no network.Haiz..Mia afew days le.Sure i will miss u de.No worries.After he's back, it's time for mei to go japan too.Waaaa..Sigh..Now both of them the most important to me.Cos they are the one who acompany me most now.If not i'm sian.Till now i haven wrote who is he.Wun be disclosing.Dun wan any gossips.Happy guessing.Tata~~

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Fed Up

Today's sun was really bright!!!!Love that.I love sunny days.Lalala.Haha..Sleep late ytd night again.Around 6 plus.Chat with ah Fai and gang.And pleaseeeeeeee stop teasing about us.Zzzz..I'm going to chase after anyone with a hammer who 'matchmake' us. #$^%$*&^(%

We talk alot with mei too.She ran off early.At last buay tahan liao ah?Cannot be the same as me de la.I wanted to sleep de ok?But can't.Zzz..Swollow 2 more tablets again and cook some noodles.Felt alittle better chat awhile more then go zzzz.Ah Fai's ghost story nearly made me can't sleep. -.-'' And hey?My voice seductive? *pukes* He's fever to say that.Lol..Si buddy!

And ah xiong ah.Not i see u run la.Is just nice i just log off.It's just a concidence.Ur call then scared me.My hp is dead recently de.Till u called.Thanks for waking it.Lol..Dun mind more.Waiting for more free incoming calls.Lol..I'm evil. >:) That's what all others said me.

Received this lame msg from him again.Bo liao sia.Wun be replying le.Any of ur probs and stuffs i'm not interested.None of my biz anyway.Can say he's out of my friend list.Can't be counted as a friend.Suddenly feel so carefree without any stress.Learn to take things more easily.

But ytd night i had to shout and scream again due to some matters.U hor very bad de leh.Run here and there.I stay in ur room help u till nearly died.This will be a tough nut to crack.Mei says i am so brave and fierce. -.-'' Bo pian la.Cannot stand the way they talking.

Feeling tired.And what de.Raining.Zzz..I want my sunshine la! #$^%&%^*$% Ah mei ask me why i am still online at such an 'early' time.I ask her back too.Haha..Funny us.Eww...Feeling alittle giddy.Friends all say i dunno how to take care.Haha..U all must get used to it leh. =P

Aunty liza msg me asking me to test her webcam and mic.Mic could not connect.As for webcam, the view is sooooooooo clear! *envy* Mine is just -.-'' no eyes see la.And hmm..I need to brush up my eng.Someone says my eng sucks.It's just i do not want to type so cheem.So yan su for what.Sg style more better la.Lol..

Where's mei?Ahh!!!Dun tell me still Zzz..Dun pig pig le.There's no one online to acompany me.My buddys and mei all not here.Left me alone. *sobs* Think i go koon.See i'm pig also le.

Argh!?!Mic is spoilt?Help la.There's some probs here.Grrrr...Really is spoilt.Stupid wire cant connect.I need to held my headphones mic to speak!?What de hell.Had enough.Going to throw u into rubbish bin.Da ge says buying me one.Thanks..I'll go buy one myself bah.It's ok.Fed up la.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Bored

Was feeling terribly unwell these few days.That stuff is killing me.Can't sleep ytd night.Dad went to buy medicine for me.Cook myself a packet of instant noodles and ate the medi.Till then i feel alittle better.And hence i felt sleepy.Phew..Tough night.Giddyness and pain.Hope it can go far away but can't.It's back again now.But not so serious.

Habbo is under maintenance.Maple too..What de. #$%^$&# Haiz..Can only stone now.Wonder when will it be back.Mei is not online yet.Should be sleeping.She acompany me till 6 plus.And silly F.All scared i'll be in trouble like that.Shoo buddy off at last at quite a late time..He's tired till can doze off.Zzz..

Mei and A broke.Aww..I pity A more.Neverless i still side with my mei.But yup.A will still be my guai di bah.Can't be meifu.Haiz~~Mei was asking me to introduce her a new bf.But habbo down today.Zzz..F ytd night ki siao.Made a room all chiong in for mei.Or for me?!Lol..We were laughing like siao.

I get teased alot by F de staffs and friends.Dun try to matchmake us.Mei like wanted to sell me off again.Jiefu here jiefu there. -.-'' And his staffs more....Says dun want be lightbulb.Good luck whatever and shoo off.Pengz..Somemore the new nick was laughing my head off.F sao!?LOL!!He's my buddy i repeat.Dun try anything funny.

H jie was telling me some news ytd night.And i begin to suspect if it's true.Hmm..None of my biz now.Haha..Suddenly feel so relive but pity that poor gal.Muhahahas..No way will i say more about it.It's so funny.F and mei was laughing like siao.Me too. *giggles*

Talk to A jie this morning.It's been quite a long while since we last chat.And J msg me this morning.Nearly delete his msg in blur blur state again.He's not feeling well recently too.Take care hor.Hmm..Saying he will be online but haven de.Zzz..

Chomp my fav chips just now.Roasted wings flavour.Mum and dad chomp more then i do.Keep saying yummy.I almost can't grab a handful. -.-'' Haiz..Totally bored now.But dun feel like chatting.Mei mai koon.Come online leh.Say we bith wake up at 2pm de.Now 4pm le la!!!!

My birthday is just 4 days countdown.Yay~~Wanted to jio afew ppl to catch chicken little on that day.Mei keep invite F. -.-'' U want me to get arbish by his gal till panda eyes?Zzz..One more word i heard about us.U guys get it from me.Dun made us later frens no more. -.-''

Super bo liao type this super long post.Habbo faster be back lehs.Sian si wa liao.But nothing more to nag liao.So shoos off now.Find someone to chat bah.My close frens de msn there's 8 ppl online.Maybe i should throw 'him' out of my close list. *laughs* Shoos~~

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Stars

Dying again lah.Tired tired tired.I'm collasping soon.I hate that!Erm..That stupid girl stuffs.Zzz.. -.-'' It's killing me!Argh~~Dun tell me i had to spend my birthday with that!?!Grr~~5 more days till my birthday.And i'm dying now lah.Help lah.

Getting so giddy.Yeah.Twinkle twinkle little stars wun leave me alone.Zzz.. -.-'' And cramps!Argh~~I hate that.Terrible cramps.I cant even stand stable today.Why so serious lah? T.T And those cramps are hurting me.Pain till i can't get off my bed.And mum choose to wash the matress's sheets at this time. -.-'' Please loh.Want throw me off my bed.No choice.Manage to creep to my com at last.Update a short post and check some stuff.Shooing off soon again.Zzz..

I'm getting so fainting.Last night was still alrite.I had to walk leaning to a wall today.Pengz..Ytd night keep getting chase offline.Zzz..Now i finally know when guys nag, it's far more scary then girls.Lol..GO NOW!~~Faints..I'm only feeling alittle giddy.Pal u too kiasu le la.See me giddy heart pain.I keep suan back i'm not ur gf.U can't control me. =P Bully him!Muhahas!Alot was telling me.Wah!I finally know u are so evil de.Lol..

Keep bugging him recently these few nights.XM MIA le.Angry ah?Din hear from him recently.Busy bah?Now night times can only talk to him.That guy wun be in my mind forever.Hope so.Thinking alot last night and start to zzz.U know what again.Got scolded to shut up.Lol..Asking me to call him to chat will be better.But i'm lazy!Zhu lah u!I admit im one.Haha..

Mei was here last night to pei wo also.Naughty mei.Stay up till so late with me too.We log off at around 5am. -.-'' So 'early'.Glad that there's still friends around me caring for me.Thanks to all.I'll continue to MIA again.Dun even dare to on my msn.It's a sun!Sure tio bug.I'm too tired to reply anything.Hope i'll feel better later. =)

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Dying

I'm really dying.May collaspe one day and for all.I'm not like da jie.Can kan kai.I'm stress.Da jie hurry come back save us.This is getting serious.Falling apart.One by one all leave.And to there.Wah!I'm sandwich now.A family is not a family anymore.It's breaking up.

Knowing too much is bad.I need to so call protect the unknowns.Those younger staffs and all.Like a mother hen. -.-'' I wun let anything happen to those innocent and all.Can sense the 'war' is coming.Better dun.I wun know which side to stand on.All are my friends.Argh~~

Sometimes really wish im still young.Dunno much.It does helps.I hate all the stress i had now.I'm collasping.I can't hang on anymore.But i know myself i can't leave just like that.

Giddy spells now.Seeing stars all over.No choice.I hate that time of the month.Zzz..I had to lie down soon.Can't visit the doc.I may faint halfway~~Twinkle twinkle little stars.How i wish to be as carefree as u are.Real life matter plus online stuffs.I cant stand it anymore.

So many shocks.Hope i dun think too much about some stuffs.If not can die man.Some ppl are scary.Help la.Omg omg.And mei ah.Dun sell me off la.Make me so dui lian~~Pengz lor.I dun want anymore troubles now.Guys and girls?!?!Yeah..Girls -.-'' All dun wan okies?

Blogging off here.Alot complained that my blog is alittle nuts.Pop out windows and all.Crash ur computer too.Sorry ah.I dunno what is wrong too.Under too much stress i guess.Haha..SHE's songs.I'm not sian of them.Just let me have a break and rest now.Dying.Really.Rao le wo bah.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Tired

Really very tired today.Slept at 7am ytd morning.Chatting with rage,fai and hua jie.Somemore phone conversation with hua jie.2 womans=1 market.Indeed it is.Woke up by some stupid engine noise.Wanted to go visit my doc.But kinda lazy now.I'm giddy since i woke up.Dun dare to go out.Later fainted~~So should be home all day again.

Yrd was a bad day.Luckily i got my pals and friends here.Should not have online ytd.Regret it man.Online to watch show?Watch lor.Movie leh.Digital screen de somemore.Pity not enough time to destroy much.We were laughing so hard in real.Cool.They deserve it man.Hi 5 to my pals.Boy.I told them.Guys?Are we too evil and mean?Guess i am alittle.*laughs*

They can't believe im so scary.Haha..Told u i can changed face real fast.Swoosh~~Hang out with the guys more then others.Cos hmm..They know me well.Yea..Thanks pals.Now listening to SHE's new album which is released today.Love all the songs in it.As usual.Only their songs can cheer my mood up alittle.So soothing and heart warming.Their drama showed ytd night.It was soso~~I perfer frog frog.Dunno bahs.No comments.Since just started.

Dj at late night ytd.Glad so many listeners are still supporting.And him also.Later kena bish ah pal.All was saying my real voice dun sound like when im dj-ing.I can changed voice de mahs.Haha..But really tired and nearly collaspe.Pass the mic to ikia soon after.Was feeling breathless.Lucikly din halfway no breathe.Lol..

Today was my bao bei cousin di de birthday.Send him a sms wishes.Phew~~Din forget.If not i will kill myself.Sure he got a big shock.Yang yang.Older one year le ah.Guai boy.His birthday means only one more week to my birthday.I dun wan to step into the 2 la!I wan 1 lo! T.T xD

J was alittle angry with me.Said i din take care of myself.Sorry la bf.I will de.To visit doc anot i know myself kaes?I'm already so old le.No worries la.U take care of ur health la.And hmm.Btw,Wondering who are those lame and idiots and all in my tag.Can die laughing.All those are just some clowns to cheer me up.I wun take it to heart de.Not sian tag more.Im waiting.

Still giddy should go take a rest now.Still listening to SHE's song.Really is so~~Love it la.This is the best album consisting of all their soothing songs.And i love all those better then hard and rock songs.Well..Tata for now..Giddyness is killing me.Shoos~~

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Disappointed

These few days are so bad for me.Met up with da jie then feel sick halfway.She brought me home.Thanks da jie.Sorry to trouble u and gave u a heart attack.That's why i say i'm a burden.For so many months.It's back again.How i hate it.Why are u back to torture me?Argh!!

It was suppose to be a great night out.Da jie was so shocked.Asking dear gal are u alrite?I keep saying yes yes till finally i knew the ans.It's a big fat no.Haiz..Health in bad shape.That's why i said i hate cool weather.Hate it man.But before that.Can still said the early night went out fine.

Or is it not?All things happen too suddenly.I feel i'm being cheated.I hate liars!How i hate them.All my close friends.Why are u all wearing a mask?There's a hidden identity in alot of u.I'm shocked and stunned and find it unbelievable.But why are those cruel facts the truth?

I must learn to be more smarter.Look at everything wisely.Dun easily believe anything.Trust me.This world is bad.We must change to survive.If not i'll find it hard to live on.I can't be that innocent gal anymore.Life never going to be the same again.It's hard but i can do it.Believe me.

Choose not to think of them anymore.But there's still more to come.Someone save me out of this mess.I'm such a burden to everyone.This world is getting so much complicated then the way i think it to be.I'll be so silly and foolish to trust those stuffs.Liars are the most hurting to me.

Lame annoymous is back again.How i miss u!Bleh~~As if.Dunno what u wanted.If u dare then show ur face.Dun act such a coward.I've begin to lose my patiance.Believe me.I'm not someone u can annoyed.Dun try anything funny.That's foolish of u to tramped with me.

Sometimes i do not wish to change.But guess this is hard as we are living in a cruel world.Everything seems such a fake.Mostly of them are lies.Must really rub my eyes and look carefully in which is it a lie or real.But it's not easy.Liars wun be so easily reveal.

I'll end here.One more phrase before i go MIA again soon.I wun be logging on as always.As usual, life got to continue.Believing is hurting.Trust ends immediently once u saw their true colours.I'm not one to get easily bullied.No more weakling.That's me from now onwards.Yeah.

THERE'S ALWAYS A HIDDEN ANGEL INSIDE A DEVIL

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Crashed

Woke up my mood was still great.Mum told me it's my lunar birthday.Haha..I'm turning 22 counted as lunar year. x.X Old le lah.She fried me a plate of fried noodles.Alittle salty tough.But it's the thoughts that count.Glad she still remember it.While i dun remember it myself.Haha..

Birthday's coming soon.But i can be sure that this is the worst birthday.Bleh..Dun care le.Habbo life is in a mess now.Since i can't quit.Why not let them quit instead?This is the best choice.Yup yup.Lol..Still got ppl scold them gou na nu.Not so serious la.I can give u a more wonderful nick.

Pack ur luggage and get urself ready to go.That's what i can say.I hate ppl who ruin my life.Whoever steps on my tail will died a horrible death.Even if i'm gone.I'll still drag u along.Everything should be alrite if not for that stupid msg.Sometimes i really hate habbo.

Birthday should be a joyful one.But it's not for me.Feeling cold now.Brrrr...Hate cold weather.Din go see doc again.I'm tired from all those probs.Haiz..When can it end?Just ate my fav bread.The coffee choco one.Mood great even everything seems tasteier.Haha..

The demon inside me is back.After hidden for so many years.I can be a scary one.Told u.It's better not to know me.Regret is what u can get.Been ask to go out.Will see how first.Weather is too cool to go out.A nice weather to sleep tough.Zzzz...

Listening to rage dj now.In habz. :S Haiz..He's still the rage i know.I'll still listen to my pal dj.Chat with Fai alot.He's telling me being over profile isn't good.And i know that.Telling me alot on how to kan kai.Thanks pal.Another great fren of mine.Gtg now.It's cool.Just nice for a bath.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Parted

Nothing wun end.Everything will end sooner or later.Nothing last forever.Including ur life too.Upset recently.So many things happened.Parted is what i face everyday.All left.Haiz..

I've had enough talk of that guy.Dun even wish to bring up his matters anymore.Let's talk about others.Rage. T.T He left litez.My buddy since superstar dj.My best pal in litez.My fav dj.Rage i really dunno it can happen so fast.I thought u will consider.Aww..But in the end u still left.But pal.No matter where u go,we are still best of pal.Stay happy always.Cheers!We'll miss u.

Sad to say im really upset over it.Silly me crying over this.We have been work mates for so long.U can persude me to stay in habbo yet i cant persude u to stay in litez.Our family is getting smaller.One by one.Soon it will be my turn.If i think leaving i will be more happier,pls do suppot my decision.But i wun do anything i will regret after.It's a tough choice.Really.I'm stress.

But still got to wish u all the best.What matters most is u feel comfortable and happy.I was ask over too.But nah.I wun.If one day i leave litez.I will leave totally.No more dj and all.Dj life will end.Habbo will end too.There's no everlasting stuffs.It's all a lie.And i can say.It's soon.Maybe i wun last till this year.I hope i have the courage to make up my mind soon.

Slept at 7am.Just cant sleep.Keep thinking of everything.Ask J to habbo.And lol.Saying i miss his trade room.He go renovate till so nice.A room i can hide.But my pp lah.Still got to find one today.So ex.Nvm..With or without.It's alrite.Since i know myself i wun stay long here.And we are funny man.Miss the days all of us ki siao ing together.Mei miss it too.Life not the same now.

Dunno if im going over to see doc.J says acomapny me there.But i keep having loo runs.Gosh..And i think he's still sleeping.So oh well.Guess i got to postpone.Parents nagging all about my online stuffs.Yeah..I got to go soon.I knew that.How soon issit?I dunno le.Haiz..Maybe after litez has more staffs and is more stable and all dun really need me anymore.

Going in to malacca this week if nothing goes wrong.Hence i will take a long leave and break and go MIA for a long time.I'm vexed.I want the carefree life of habbo last time.So relaxing and enjoying.Being popular and famous is scary.And i dislike it.I just want to be a normal habbo.

I'll made up my mind real soon.Pls do support me no matter what decision i made.I know i wun be wrong in this.I want the life i want it to be.Sometimes really regret habboing.Haiz..Confused.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Tired

Woke up to feel myself very tired.So go nap awhile more.Now still tired and feeling pain in my stomach and chest.Must be cause by inregular meals and all.Haiz..Eaten too much junks and not proper meals cannot lah.Must ting hua.Guai lah!If not whack ah! :S

5566 performing at BP plaza.Din go.Cos i'm too lazy and tired.Mei ask me go support her in the campus superstar audition.So late somemore need to go junction 8.So reject her.But tell her i will give her my moral support.Jia you!U can do it de.

Slept late ytd.Chatting on phone.First was hua jie called me.Chat and chat.Another laughing bag.Saying my voice dun sound like when i'm deejaying. X.x Then after is i called.But not to hua jie. =X Use home phone le.I din have much chance to talk on phone de.Dj talk non stop de. -.-'' But hey.Nice to chat mah.I'm always so blur blur de.Can u believe that i dun even know how to use my house de cordless phone?Yah really lah.The phone can become afew pieces soon. -.-''

Now listening to SHE's new song.Bu xiang zhang da.Yeah.I really dun wish to grow up loh.Older means more responsibilty and all.Haiz..Hate that.And oh gosh.I'm feeling so tired and restless now.Sleepy and in pain.Not again.Maybe going off soon to nap awhile before having dinner.

Tonight's litez prize giving event dj i'm not taking i guess.Ask ikia.She's ok with it.Deer loh.Want me to find a dj.I can't.My english is bad.It's our dear dj's rage bday today.Last night had lots of fun in habbo.Hope he enjoy his bday today.Happy bday pal.

Blogging off here.Mei haven came back.Tio catch to taiwan by 5566?Lol..Will be back later at 8 to catch litez event.Seems not much staffs can come.So tata for now first.I'm getting blurz and all.Need a rest.Maybe going to doc tml.If not i'm dead meat.So many grandmother nagging. xD

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Cheers

Mood was bad just now.Received this bo liao news.And whole day mood like sea saw.Up and down.But getting abit better now.With care and concern from friends and all.Hmm..Maybe being friends is better.Haiz..Dunno..Take one step at a time. =D

Mood stable alittle at night.Mum and dad went shopping.And bought back alot of stuffs.A few is i like to eat and drink de.They still remember.Apple juice!So ex yet they go buy. x.x And my fav tapocia chips.Yum yum.Yuan lai they still care de. ^^ Alot of people around me cares.

Lots of calls ringing.One is from him.Nag nag nag. -.-'' Like old grandmother.So long no ppl nag me le.Mum nag till sian and fed up.Cos i'm like dui niu tan qin.Die die dun listen in de. xD This is call stubborn.Haha..Dad and mum was like o.o Why u so many phone calls?Friends mah.Have friends de feeling is great. =)

Ok loh.I guai guai de listen in.If not tio scold and nag more.Can die.Wanted to call more ppl to chat.But scared tio reject calls as always.Now there's a few friends says i'll be there for u.Feel free to call.And the feeling is wonderful.Hmm..Hp time is running out.Last mth bill flying.Now i'm allowed to use home phone to make calls.Yay! =D

Mood is getting better.Cheers!Shoos all the probs away.Dun wan any.Habbo is a place for fun and to enjoy not having more troubles.Haha..Twins called me too.They are back.Woots!Miss ya both.Was the trip fun?I'm sure it is.

Seems they bought me my early birthday present.A hello kitty bag!Omg!! ^^ They still remember.Saying wanted to give me on my birthday.Will see how.Let's celebrate together okies?So long my bday never so many ppl celebrate with me before le.

Shoos now.Must make sure i sleep well tonight.And i did eat de ok?Provided snacks are counted?Lol..Tata for now.Stay cheerful.Cheers!<--stole inraged de 'tai chi' =P

Sad

Still sad.Need time to heal i guess.But it's hard.Hard to forget everything.For about 5 mths.My life is totally different.Now it's the same again.Alone and lonely.Guess i'm fated and destinated to be a loner.Nowadays keep play the song Hao Ai Ta Hao Xiang Ta by 183 club and 7 flowers.The lyrics are meaninful.Love that song.So soothing and nice.

Just end another round of crying.Heartache.I know he will still be reading it.And i will continue to blog out my feelings.Wun be hiding them.Suddenly feel as if i'm back to 7 years ago when i just quitted school.My mood was swinging and flying.Nearly need to go see a doc.Now it's back again.I need to control myself now if not will be suffering from depression.

Promise i wun do anything silly and foolish.Will be fine soon.I guess?I'm trying to forget.Lock up my habbo room.Dun wish to go in and feel more upset.Friends are indeed my moral support now.My litez, Jeff, jie, mei and ger etc.And recently talk alot to Fai.He's really a nice guy.My dear friends.Thank you.But friends concern is different bah.

I cant stand the thoughts of just friends with him.This hurt terribly.For 5 mths.Now it's not the same anymore.Wun be able to face him.Will be more upset.One word.Avoid.Guess that should helps.The birthday wish will never come true.His words.'Even as a friend i will be there to spend ur bdae with u.'Nah..Dun..Actually long ago i already had this feeling this will come true.

Still remember last time i was still scolding jie about virtual relationship.Now it's my turn.Thinking about my bdae.It's been a long time since family celebrate with me.Guess this year twins wun be.The last party i got was on my 7th bdae.After that cake is normally i bought myself.Then spend my bdae alone cutting, eating and blowing out the candles.

Jeff was asking what present i wanted.Only one.Dun wan to spend my bdae alone and lonely.As an only child, i'm so afraid of being lonely.I'm scared of the lonely feeling.And hate going out alone.But i did not have much friends.So i really do cherish all friendships.Hope this year's bdae will be alittle different.Every year i wish for health.Hope my wish comes true this year.

Maybe asking them out this weekend.I din go see doc today.Mood too bad to go.Jeff was planning for my bade.Kiasu lah.2 more weeks.Yeah.2 more weeks.Why cant last till that day?My bdae dream gone.Again..Haiz..A bdae i will never forget this year.A sad bdae without him.

Eyes still watery now.Dunno what to do.A call to him?Wun bah.What to say?Scold him?Nvm le.Must get used to this new life.Yeah.A life without him.Long long blog again.Guess i can't sleep tonight also.Let it be.Leave me alone will be best perharps?Dunno.Hope i get my ans soon.

Jeff went to cook something to eat.Come to think.Quite long i din eat anything.Yet i dun feel hungry.Was asking him to cook my share.He send a word file type with the food in it as title.Pengz.. -.-'' But at least i can still laugh alittle.It's great.Sure a wonderful feeling to laugh. =D

But is this laugh fake?Jeff can see that i laugh just to let all of my friends not to worry.He know me well.Indeed bah.No matter how sad my mood is.Dun like to affect ppl much.Will try to cheer but is laughing at the outside and crying in the inside.Hope i can laugh out from my heart soon.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Hurt

This was the toughest day i ever can had.Now mind free.Nothing in my mind at all.Came online yesterday night to caught a bomb.A bomb i will never forget for life.This is hell for me.So sudden i dunno what to respone.Just had alot of why in my mind.Haiz..But what to do?Can't be forced right?I guess i have to suffer alone in this cruel online virtual world.

Qutting habbo maybe good.But i can lose a number of friends too.Bas dun accept my resign.Means i cant quit.I know it's unresponsible for me to leave suddenly.And i dun want that.But i know i cant stand it anymore.Cant stand the stress and facing him.

Din sleep last night.Maybe yah for 2 hours?Weeping too much.Dj also cried.Listeners were asking if i am alrite.Chest hurts recently.To think i cough and vomited out some blood ytd night.What is wrong?Too heartbroken or something is wrong with me?Scared to think more.

Thanks to all my friends who comfort me.Guess i'll still be alive in habbo.But will be habboing lesser.But wun be staying long.Maybe after my hc ended.To think i still have quite afew guys talking alot to me.Hmm..Funny lah.Some my close friends.Popular de somemore.As what jeff says alot to me.Come to think of them.Should be right.U are always right.Yeah.

Get myself in another?Nah..Wun be.It's hard to pull urself out but easy to get urself in real deep.And tend to cause more hurt to urself.I wun be thinking much now.Real life probs and matters more impt now.

I know there are alot who cares.Including some guy friends of mine.But i know it's stress to be with me.That's what he told me.Guess so.I know u are more famous then me.But this is totally different.I'm shocked now.I dun want to change our relationship.Single will be great.Hope so.Miss his care and all.The care is different now.No longer the same no longer the way i want it to be.So dun want to burdun anyone now.Most impt now is litez.All my mind will be in litez now.

How much i love my litez family.Hope i will be able to stay with u guys forever.U guys are great!A great listener.And to my habbo family.Thanks for ur listening ear and called to comfomt me.I will be going out to see doc later.Dun wish to online too much.Should be.If i'm not lazy.Jeff acompany me.Should be also right?Dinner is eating out again.Better still dun eat.No mood to eat.

Get this really cool song.Ba ai chuan chu lai by FIR.Wonderful lyrics.But ai cant chuan.Pian ren de.How to?Teach me pls?Mind so confused now.Esp mei and ger are saying go la. -.-'' Pls lor.Dun wan burden frens more le.Somemore they are quite famous de lor.How much i hate habbo too.Those paparazzi.Kpo like siao.Hate it man.No freedom.

My heart is stable and lifeless.Dead now.Not thinking further more.Will let things come the way it should be.There's no more chance for this i know.Give the chance to others.That's what they said.Nah..Pls gimme a break now.Haiz..

Hoping SHE's new cd will be released soon.Next week so slow.Love listening to their songs when i'm upset.Shooss off now.Coughing badly.Must been T.T too much.Hahaz..Time heals everything including deep scars.Dun be afraid to stand up when u fall.Yeah.That's the spirit!Cheers! =D

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Fun

It's o.o 1 plus am now.Just back not long ago with a movie date with xiong mao,nef and her kor at PS.So late today.Heng din tio nag much.But can see mum is super angry.Can die. :S Movie end late.Harry Potter!The show was boring at first but wow.It was so exciting after.Can't get my eyes off the screen.I'll sure to catch other episode of it again.But cinema too cold lah.*shivers*

I seems to affect xiong mao with my sullen mood.Haiz..Dunno why he tried so much to cheer me up but i cant laugh much.Too many problems and matter to worry about.Sorry xiong mao.I promise u to cheer up k?Thoughts suddenly ran to dunno where.Thinking alot and alot.They went for supper ate fast food but i can't.So can only drool.Haiz..Why am i so useless?Everytime go out with friends are only a burdun to them. =(

Parted late.Everytime my side de train is sure i take alone.Alight at orchard trying to board bus 190 back.But can't find the bus stop.And it's drizzling.How i love the rain.And those xmas lighting.I can't take my eyes off them.Walk and look.To find out i walk wrong way. -.-'' U turn back finally found the bus stop opposite far east.Wonder how far distance i walk le.

Back to found mum save a bowl of porridge for me.Ate it and still hungry.Whole day only ate bread and the duck kuay teow at PS.Mum dun allow me to spend much.The movie tix is already ex liao.Maybe i'll cook instant noodles later.Whole day stomach feeling quesy.Keeping running to the washroom.PS all level de washroom i go dao liao loh.Lol..

Xiong mao is online le.Going to chat with him now.Sleeping early tonight.Not dj ing i guess.Buay tahan liao.I'm hungry lah.Zzz..Sleepy?Not really.Haha..Been thinking of the outing and the movie.If only i can cheer up i could have enjoyed myself more.Thanks xiong mao.U tried ur best le.But i did laugh awhile after all right?

I double check my M1 bill to recived a shock.Actually thought i din over spend.But i did lah!Help lah!Sms is still fine.More abit also over le.Free 500 leh!Pengz..As for calls.There's free incoming.But calls $$ are $200 plus.20 over hours cannot blame.So sure over spend abit de.Outgoing calls only have $15 free.I call till about $30?!Wah!Another $15 more.I thought $53 still cheap bill.Faints..Can't call so much le.Dad's caller cancelled.So bill should not be over $40 plus per mth.Save!.Aiyo hungry like siao now.Shooing off to cook mee goreng.Instant de lah.xD

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Faint

Suddenly got so many shocks and surprise today.Woke up and blar blar blar dunno what.Got that terrible incident.I must have been suay like siao.Argh..Forget it.Saying much not use now.

Going to movie with xiong mao and others at PS later.He's angry again.Says i so many stuffs to do online.Why can't go earlier?Sorry lah.Abit busy.Yesterday night been thinking if i quit habbo will that be better?Argh..Why these thoughts again?Cos someone is really dying to make me leave.Suan le.Die die stay?Yay..I will just do the opposite no matter what happens.

It's late now.I'm rushing for time.Help lah!Went to apply for HabboX.But what de?Got rejected? T.T Wonder why.I'm clean and clear.Obey the rules and meet all the giao blar blar rules.But why tio regected?Is it we apply last time is counted?Angry and upset.How i wish to be a habboX too.Haiz..Suan le.Guess either habbo is crazy or i am.~~

Mode is out again.Went to bank in my credits.I love modes.But buy also dunno do what. -.-'' See how bah.Can buy afew.Will see what new rooms i can make with those new mode furnis and stuffs.A pub or bar seems nice.How i wish to make a waiting bar.A litez one perharps?Miss lyn jie's waiting bar.Haiz..See how bah.Short of furnis and all.

Going off now to habbo check what stuffs i can buy and all.Then shooing off for a bath and went out.Xiong mao seems angry.Haiz..Sorry lah.Wonder why i'm so busy?Esp on a wed.Now listening to da ge playing the whole album of crazy frog.Ding ding dong dong.Watch harry potter later.Cant catch my frog show.Pocket empty soon again.Faints..Will update if i'm free at night.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Excited

Bad night bad day.Wake up to find pain and cramps.Zzz..Sian..After a long blar blar blar.Ok i'm fine at last for the moment.After lunch came online.Found TS di.He's deejaying.Cool.He's improving alot.Still remember last time heard him dj.He was nervous and made quite a number of mistake.Compare to now.He's improvment is great. =D

Later will be metting TS di at BP plaza.Actually wanted to go JP.But sort of tired.So asking if he would like to come over instead. o.O He coming wor.But scared that he may lost his way?Haha..Dun worry la.Jie wun let u go missing de. xD

Xiongmao worried too.Lol..No worries.Just going out with my di.Wun tio kidnap de.Haha..Back in one whole piece.Thur prove it to u.I only grow more flesh nia.Zzz..Rao le wor bah!Will be going to watch harry potter with xiongmao and other friends.Now is chopping cinema seats.This show popular wor.Must book and snatch fast.Till now still not yet comfirm which cinema to go.

Mei is online!Dragging her to go along also.So sian now.Wonder mei will go?Please lor.Come pei wo to BP plaza.Got this shock.Surprise got this msn.Ewwwwwww!!Miss u.Dun tell u who. xD My msn is flooding now.Slowly type bah.Haha..Going off now.Will update later if i have the time. =D

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Back from my trip.Went NP but mei dun want to go.Haiz..What to do?Think i even made xiong mao angry.Sorry lah.I treat u makan bamboo tmr? =( Haiz.. He din answer my call.Suddenly think i can only called when i go out.It's more convienent.So called WJ.Hope my bill wun fly. xD But T.T lah.Halfway the call suddenly hang diao. :S M1 old duck de.Faints.. -.-''

Went out with TS di till now.Met fan fan di at NP.But he ran soon.Only chat for awhile.Then TS Di and me went eat.Walk and talk.Hmm..Funny..Can chat with young peeps.No age gap?Lol..We very gham sia.And hey btw.He dun look like his age.Seems older then me.Or should i say i look young?LOL!Din feel like bringing a xiao di di out.Haha..

Walk to Lot 1.Not again.And BP plaza.My fare card flying again.Zzz..Tml flying more.Suan le.Let it be.Seems the movie day is brought forward to tml.Hmm..Also not bad.Go walk walk loh.Nothing to do also rot at home everyday.Only scared my transport fee and hp bill.Argh..Wun kill lah.Take one step at a time.Save abit can le.

Send TS Di off the bus before i go.Scared him gone missing?Lol..We chat alot sia.Everything under the sun. o.O M1 ah?LOL!!Just now find that BP plaza changed again.The Fairprice and all.Faints..Can die sia.I'm now going to rest awhile le.Sleep early today.Tml another outing day. o.O A friend that has disappeared for long is back again.Oh no! :S GTG..Shoos.. xD

Monday, November 14, 2005

Tired

Din sleep much last night.Or should i say morning?Hungry can't sleep woke up cook a packet of mee ate then online.And woke ma up!Due to my trashing of those plates. :S Last time mei says before.Like war sia.Neighbours complain le.Then walama la!Gastric pain.Zzz.Can't sleep.Stone for a long time finally doze off at around 7am? o.O -.-''

DJ till 3.30am finally pass the mic to Inraged.Then nope off i din go to bed.Is still online.The whole dj session was tough.About 6 hours? o.O Faints..Tio ask to sing also.Singing the song dun cry but feel like crying. :S Received alot of presents during the dj session.Lol..U all. -.-'' Thanks..

Online for a couple of hours now.Haven rest yet.Been busy.About litez stuffs.Hmm..Bas is away.While da ge is in office.So what i can do to help then help lo.Since i'm the most eng eng kiao ka staff.Lol..I'm so tired now.Feel like napping.Wun be bah.Dun wan to be pig pig. xD

And funny stuffs alot.Mei and mei fu? o.O If got a real mei fu then good loh.U both get what i mean?Lalala..Lol..I'm crazy lah.Busy and sian till crazy?Now eating my fav fruit puff.Find it not as tasty as before?Zzz..Or is my taste changed? -.-''

Mum's not cooking tonight.Again.Haiz..I hate da pao la.Go out eat?Nah bah.More sian.Feel like catching a movie.But no good shows on.Wait for harry potter perharps?Din pei mei much.Too busy.Xiong mao ran le.Cos i too busy.And high even says scared to talk to me cos i'm always so busy.Since i'm in litez.I dun even know what i'm busy about.Haha..Must learn to relax la!

Later shooing off to take a bath.Stomach feeling quessy now. :S Should go take a rest liao.Minor headache too.Haiz..Been typing too much.Fingers aching too.Old le.Cannot blame so many problems.No one pei wo go out.If can i rather dun online so much.Go out shop shop walk walk better.Want watch movie also no one pei.Suan le bah.Will see how.I'm destined to be lonely.

Resting now.Just abit free.Think will be logging off and come back online later.Go out?Dunno.Maybe will.For dinner bah.I'm bored stiff.But seems i have so many matters undone.Well..Argh..Dun care le.Shooing off now.My stomach argh!Gasrtic.Haiz..Nvm..Shoos..

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Argh..Can't stop blogging out my vexed.My ma is mad.She's crazy.Sometimes i wonder if she is my ma now.After her brain op.She's changed.So much.Alittle will make her bo song.Throw her temper.Pa and me find it hard to stand her now.Wondering if that op change her whole brain.

Cos of little matters she can blow up.She din cook dinner today.And i was not allowed to go out.Sometimes only went out once a week will get nag by her.What does she want?Pei her everyday?I did le ok?No dinner and no my share of da pao.Can't go out.What does that means?I need to starve la?Faints lo.

Say i everyday go out with friends.Did i?Dunno how long once only.Says she din not go out.Can she?Haiz..She can't now lo.Take transport awhile.Walk not even 1 hour.Says i'm tired.My eyes blured.I'm giddy.And keeps saying i din go out with her.Just what does she want?Argh!!Can't she just rest?

Saying i'm over spending money?I din lo.Eat also call waste money to her.Ok lo.I starve ok?Pengz la.What is she thinking?Doesn't she need to eat?Haiz..I know i'm rubbish to u.I din get a job.But how u want me to get a job when i'm not even allowed to go out?Wait for jobs to fall from the sky?Pengz..

Had enough of her.She's totally changed.Even my dad ren till buay tahan sometimes.She's unreasonable now.Help la.What can i do?Haiz..Forget it.She cant be angered.Everything shun her lo.Dun like me to go out.Eating is waste of money.Ok i obey lo.What else?Haiz..

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Quit?

Been thinking alot recently again.I had to blog out my thoughts.I wanted to quit habbo a long time ago.But just can't.This few days i'm thinking.Seeing how carefree my friends are after they are not habboing.I love this feeling.So carefree.No stress at all.Wonder when then i can do it?

One main reason i can't quit is cos of litez.As what XY says.Litez makes our habbo life goes on.If not there's really not a point for us to stay.I can't bear the thoughts of leaving litez.Other then that.Most of the friends i have already known them.So should be alrite.I'll still be alive in msn and hp de mah. =)

Many of my friends and habbo family are upset about i want to quit.But do u think i will be much more happier staying?Maybe come back once in awhile will be the best.I can't imagne what will happen if i continue habboing.Miss the old friends.Life never be the same again.Suddenly feel this habbo is not like a habbohotel anymore.It's just a place for problems and sadness.

Quit means i have to leave litez.I can't leave now.Will see how after a couple of months.Meanwhile i'll just habbo lesser.For the whole of today.I just din online.And i suddenly feel wow.This feeling is good.So long never felt so carefree before.

I dun want to do anything that may lead to regrets after.Just as what i did in my younger days.Quit this word not easily to be done.It's easy to say but not easy to done.Esp when u have so many responsibilitly.How i wish i can turn back time sometimes.The old habbo.My old friends.The fun and all we had.Habbo is not going to be the same again.It's gone forever.

The old carefree me in habbo.Now is just stress all day.So many problems to settle.Popular is bad.How i hate this.Haiz..But what can i do?Sometimes thinking what will i be if i never join litez?But thinking if i never join.I wun know so many great friends.

Well..My thoughts are out.Find that if i din online not many people will care.Xiong mao was great.Only he will miss me.Last time alot more will sms to ask about me.Now..It's not the same anymore.Cos my old caring friends have quitted.As for others?Guess they will only find me when they have problems.If not i'll only be a burden more to them.

Guees i will follow in their footsteps soon.How soon is the soon?I wun know.There's still stuffs for me to settle.I can't just throw them all away.I have to be responsible.But the emptyness feeling stays.Maybe i'll leave in a couple of months.Maybe..

Enjoy

Seldom blog so late.Cos just have too many things to type down.1.30am now.Feeling terrible suddenly.Wonder why.Stay too long outside?Dunno..Recently keep getting stomach upset.Was back quite late just now.Around 11.30pm.Seldom so late.Heng din tio scold.Dad even came to wait for me at the train station.Was out about whole day.Hmm..Not really.I just got out from home at 3pm.Wow..Also long lah.Around 8 hours! o.O Lol..

Can't really type much now.Just typing to hope can erase some pain.Haha..Went out with A today.Shall not blog out their names now.Instead i'll use nick.Actually thought it will be girls day out.Till night.Lol..Cos xiongmao din reply so we guess he is hibernating.Lol..Then hmm..I dunno why say to A sian leh.Why not we ask wk out?So tried sms him and voila.He say ok loh.Unbelivable sia.Partly cos of $?Ahahas..!

So we rush from lot 1 to je.And wait and wait.Zzz..Guys always are late? -.-'' After half an hour he arrived.Kind of shock.He dun really look like his pic.And wk bad habit can't change.Was puffing along his way here.I nearly sneeze again.Can't stand crig's smell.And of cos.No need say de.Tio suan by him.Not really alot.Heng..Speechless again loh. .....................

Meanwhile while waiting for wk.Hmm..Mood terrible lo.Angry and upset.A was angry too.Lol..I nearly cried out.Not again.Phone calls.Sian..All cos of it?Not really.Is just cos of the attitute.Then angry till giddy and fever.Walking wobbly.Wk was asking A to grab hold of me.Both scared i might faint.Haiz..Guess i'm only a burden to my friends.

Got drag by both of them to eat dinner.Chicken rice.Been a long time since i last ate.There's old cucumber soup to go along.Nice!And A and wk were betting to see if i can finish my rice.Faints..I can de ok?Of cos i won. xD Then after dinner.Wk drive us to IMM.Then rush home for his dinner with his mum.Guai kia.Envy man.Drive!We both same age he can drive le.Me leh?Wish to learn but not allowed.Haiz..

Shop for a long long time in IMM.Saw TS has this promotion that member now is only $5.So renew it.And saw SHE's show zhen ming tian nu.Only $39.90!For a whole set.Far more cheaper then frog.Wanted to buy but sure not allowed.So suan le.Since tv is showing soon.

Walk along and got drag by 2 cute and funny guys.Keep saying A and me looks like same age.Haha..Then ask us simi lucky draw and sit down chit chat listen to their talks.Seems they are promoting some insurance.Listen awhile then filled up their survey and walk off.Their prize was only some cheap tibits.But netherless the guys are chatting.Handsome too. o.O LOL!!

Now it's back story.Sms xiong mao and wonder why he's not online.Say he was eating mee suah.Not again.But i like too mah. xD His blog is nice.A and me envy his first blog can make till so great.Smart xiong mao.He came online.To pei wo ah?Shi mah?Meow!Haha..And share mee suah with me. o.O Thanks wor.I'm hungry too. =)

Now still chatting.Night is never bored.Alot of friends to acompany me.But he's busy.As usual.Haiz..Can only talk to xiong mao and other friends.Feeling alittle better after half an hour of blogging.I love to blog out my feelings.Going to rest my fingers now. =)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Lame

Recently there's this lame person who came tag.Really is so funny.I was laughing my guts out.So just watch the free preview of attack of the clown.And guessing who he or she is.Haha..Got ppl come tag is better then my tag lying dead right?I'm enjoying the show.Dun you? =)

Actually i can block the person's ip.And delete all those post.But nah.Wun.I would like to see more of those shows.And haha..My friends.All so funny.Help me attack back?The return of the war?Dun care that lame person lah.He or she must have been too boring.

Was wondering if it is the same person who tag at twins's blog.Should be.The same writing style.Blehs..Stinks..I need to perfume up my blog.Bad air in here.Poullated.Such a coward.Tsk tsk tsk.Dun dare show name.Kids. -.-'' Dunno which nerves gone haywire.

I've already shorten my suspect list to afew left.The answer should be out soon.There's not a need for that person to act anonymous.Meanwhile let's enjoy the show by cast mr or miss lame.Previewing the attack of the clown.

Shall blog off here.I've changed my blog's mucic to zhen ai.It wun hang now.Hope u all enjoyed it.Maybe i'll be out with a girl friend later.Not comfirm yet.And hey!Fire da ge is playing chinese songs now.Woooo!Nice one.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Stress

Lots of problems and troubles recently.And i must learn to type perfect english.Must buck up on my broken english that is mixed with singlish.Dun even know what to write more.LOL..Now i'm having a terrible headache.Just settle some stuffs.It's tough.I can even feel the stress here.

It's not easy to manage everything.Even online stuffs can be stressful.But i enjoy it.Some stress is good.Can help me think more and kill my brain cells.Keep listening to Stella's song wen yu.Kiss rain? o.O I love rain. Actually i love to walk in the rain.But can't.I'm scared of falling sick.

Ma thought of going to malacca.I maybe wun follow her in.I'm lazy.And i can't live without my computer and handphone.Haha..I love home alone.So much freedom.I can run!Woots!Shh..Dun tell my mama.Lalala..

Jeff is doing his blog!?!? o.O Was sort of 'teaching' him how to make those html stuffs.I dunno much about those too.I only know i'm having a headache.There's so many problems going on recently.But i have learn to relax.Nothing can be unsolved!

Sleep late yesterday night.Or is it morning?6++am.Told ma about it.She din respone big.Phew~~I can't lie.Wonder why?It's already so late now.No dinner tonight.Wun be going out too.Tired.Staying at home to browse my mag.

Been thinking alot recently.Brain blowing up soon.Lol..Nah..No worries.I have learn to relax.I'm fine.Yea..It's late now.Guess i'll go take a bath first.Eyes blured now.Thinking too much and typing too many things.Dun be so tense up. =))

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Shock

Aaryn was asking me what i mean by copying her.I was meaning my title.Short and sweet.One word only.Simple and understandable.Shock since i woke up today.Or should i say got woken up by all these shocked?I'm totally stunned for today.Can't believe them.

This sms shock me up the most.I nearly fall off my bed when i read it.Was still drowsy but immediently awake when read this sms.Shocked loh.Dunno if it is true still.I need to comfirm.

DOES ALL PEOPLE WHO ONLINE WEAR A MASK?THEY ARE NOT WHO U THINK THEY ARE TO BE.

Their identity is really blured.Sometimes i really dunno who should i believe.I wun so easily believed those 'news' till i saw them with my own eyes myself.That's me.I will ground all those whom i found lying to me.

I HATE LIARS!

And i will dig out their secrets.No matter what method i use.I will check it out clearly and throughly.

I WUN FORGIVE SOMEONE WHO LIES TO ME ABOUT THEIR IDENTITY!

Is there a need to lie?Friends should be true to each other right?No it's wrong.We are like monkeys.Fooled by them.So the result and outcome?

FRIENDS NO MORE!

I'm mad i guess.Received too many shocks.Mum was telling me this i din even know de news.I should have a younger sibling?Other then that one i know?A dragon di?Omg lah!I now then know about it.Shock and stunned.Why all gone de?Maybe it's fate i'm the only child.

Jeff.Ok i'm saying him again.He's busy for today.Whole day out.No one pei wo.Some of u may think he's bad.But to me he's not.At least he wun lie.He's true to his friends.Well ger and mei not free too.Mei having some problem i guess.

And i'm having some problem now too.Argh..Online is omg.So many troubles and problems.Old de and young de all can't think de.Act rushly.Unresponsible and all.Tian ah!Jia lat.Shooing off for now.Maybe i'll go lot 1 catch a movie later.

I SEEMS TO BE INVISABLE.I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Phew

I'm copying Aaryn.My blog title now is simple.Only a word clearly explains all.Today this phew means my com and jeff and me.Ok lah jeff.U keep saying i keep wrote ur name.I die die type more. xD Lol..

Firstly my com is saved.Thanks kor!My bestie kor!Xie xie ni.If not i headache sia.Dun even know where to start.Seems it's spyware prob.Hammer they all lah.At last now those stupid words wun pop out le.But kor ur turn to headache le hor?I'm so gong.Hear till all blur blur.Sorry ah.Hehe..And thanks for teaching me how to catch those spyware.Got 241 of them!Omg!Faints..

Secondly is i keep think jeff angry with me for dun wanna quit habbo.Heng he dun.Sorry lah.Habbo now only happy for me.I will cheer up de.No more sad rong mao ok?Cheers!I know u wun so petty de.So of cos i'm still habboing loh.Lol..Fei hua lah! -.-''

It's starting to rain now.Stupid.The smell is so bad.Argh..I hate it.Keep giving me giddness.My window is locked up now.Buay tahan.Actually wanted to go lot 1 catch a movie de.But since raining.I'm lazy liao.Haha..Tml bah.Thur movie day out.More movies to catch.Jeff ask me go somewhere central.Lazy lah.Save money best best.Ytd buy ppc.I'm broke again.

It's been so long since i wear t shirt and jeans out.So comfortable sia.Ytd wore this.W00ts!Shiok.But jeans so tight liao.I fat le. T.T Should go buy more tees and a new pair of jeans.Dad was saying not enough money go atm abit bah.Nah.Not going.I save save use can tahan de lah.Oops dead.Forget haven return mum de money for vcd. :S

Wonder who is free to go out these few days.Bored stiff.It's a wed again.So fast.Hmm..Shooing off again liao.Nothing much to say le.Lastly,Jeff relax lah.Let whoever that person is tag loh.See what can that person do.I'm fine de.No ppl finding me.Dun worry.I know what to do. =)

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Argh

Simple title can know what is my mood for today.It's bad.Chao bad!Why is this so?Actually my mood still ok.But then later jeff ask me out i reject then he online then we quarrel.Zzz..He keep asking me to quit habbo to have lesser troubles and probs.I dun wan.I've already promise to make sure that habbo is only a cheerful place for me.Dun wan to care about all what probs le.I had enough!I wun say out anything sad about habbo again ok?

Blog and computer is giving me some probs also.My computer keep having this weird words when i on it.Keep hang and dc and all.Esp all the prob lies with msn.Hope it's not the virus probs acting up.And my blog the window media keep siao.Hanging always so i rather replace it with the music from zhen ai.At least this will be better.I just add some html in.There's a welcome sign!Green!And hello kitty under my profile!Haha.Rong mao!

And my tag!Ok i know whoever tag those lame comments is reading this now.Whoever u are.I can comfirm u are a habboer.Dun think i will be so stupid to dunno who u are.Tag more lah.Gotta see what more can u say.It's totally lame.Only lame ppl does this.Dare then post ur name out.No need to act anonymous.Dun be so wicked.Will only bring misfortune to urself.

Chest still huts like crazy.Mum is persuding and nagging me to see a doc.I just dun dare.What if something really is wrong?Wah!I dun dare to think of it lah.Haiz..Sleep late ytd night again.Should say morning.Ya la..Awake to be thief can?Lol..Keep zzz at 5 or 6am recently.Getting used to this time table of mine.

Was having conference these few days.Algren,mei.xiong and ger.And my hp batt keep drop till pengz.Charge and talk at the same time.Unbelievable sia!20+ hours of talk time le.Woah!But all is received call.So should be alrite.Cos got free incoming call.Hmm..Wun over bah.If not i died.

Just now snap a new pic using my stupid blurry webcam.Ugly sia. x.x Better then the last few bah.Dun smile is better.I like this new pic of mine. xD And oh no!Just find out that habbo is going to be down for 30 mins at night.Oh well..Forget it.Din really habbo much now.Shooing off for a bath now.There's a weird smell in the air at my house now.Eww..Buay tahan lah.Shoos..Tata~~

Monday, November 07, 2005

W00ts!

Today's mood was not bad.Yesterday night chat with ger and mei till 6am?!?Lol..So late sia.We talk from 11pm bah.Siao one de.Xi0ng and algren left to koon liao we still kpo and gossip.And my hp batt can die like siao.Charge and talk.But shiok leh.3 gers=1 market!Lol..

My mood great was cos InRaGeD is back in litez.Miss his voice.He still remembers to call me Fang-Er.Haha..So cute de.Litez will be active le.Habz is way way far above us liao.Their server listeners can tahan so many ppl.And heard dreamze dj-ing again.His skills improve liao.

Got woke up by jeff's sms.Ask me if i am awake.Want go out mai.Lazy lah.Me and him nia.Zzz.So ask him online lah.Hmm..When he become ahshen?Call me rong mao also.I call him xiong mao lor!LOL!xD 2 siao maos.Meow..

Wonder if tonight will have another siao and lame conference.Hmm..Sian lah.All guys mood change so fast.Suddenly siao de.Still dare says us gals.And habbo family is casuing me prob also.As what bas says.Dun so softhearted lah.Dun accept siblings.She advised me not to quit cos of them.Considering bah.After 3 mths my hc ended.Maybe i will leave habbo next year.

Still thinking about last night or should i say today's morning conversation?Funny leh.Keep talking about habbo and guys.Those 2 meh meh.Lol..But seems like my talk show.Both din say anything much.Haiz..Should go look for a job lah.My cousins are going to work too.But really bu she de.If work will not be online much le.Like weikai MIA de.I still miss habbo.Haiz..

I feel alittle giddy now.Must be din sleep much last night.Jeff keep chasing me go rest.He angry sia.Zzz.Sorry lah.I know i always make ppl worry.Dun loh.I'm fine de. =D Should really listen to my friends sometimes.Go rest awhile bah.Shooing off now.Tata guys~~

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Goodbye I'm Tired

Suddenly had this thoughts.Actually not sudden.I have been thinking about this long ago.Due to much consider.I've really decided to quit.Online stuffs is coming to an end.I'm really tired.Habbo is driving me crazy.Somemore all these probs can get into msn.As for maple?Killing monsters is more bored.

Perharps one day i may return.With a total different idenity.No one will knows it's rongfang.I want this name to totally vanish from the online world.Msn will be gone too.I really am tired.Really is.I cannot stand it anymore.Those probs are killing me.

I really cant let go.It's hard.Been habboing for almost a year.It's tough to bid goodbye.Dun treat me so well.If not it will be more hard for me to say goodbye.Cant bear to part with my habbo family and my dear litez gang.What should i do?I'm really so confused now.

Maybe i'll hide elsewhere.Hide in a place nobody knows me.Maybe i'll still be online but msn will be gone.As for other online games.Maybe i'll be in a different idenity.Why can't i be straight forward?Just end it quick and simple.Dun drag it on anymore.I can't possible be in habbo for my whole life.

Habbo is getting liveless.I can just stone in hotel view for 6 hours straight.If not i will be in my room stoneing till get auto kick.No place for me to go.No one pei wo.I can stare at my computer screen just plain stare doing nothing at all.I rather dun online.Isn't this pathetic?Really had enough of this le.Go anywhere sure will have trouble.Hiding lor.What to do?

All my old pals are gone.Soon i will be next.Dun worry for those who still have my hp no.I'm still alive with my hp.Maybe this will be my last post on blogger.Maybe it will not.Whatever i did.I do consider it well.Farewell.Take care.It's all maybe.I still cant put down.Maybe i will be back.

Maybe i just need a break.A rest is what i want.Dragging this for so long.I'm tired.

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Super Bad Day

Today is bad lah.Woke up to find my whole face kind of ugly.Those blemishes.Eww..Turned into pus.Stupid lah.Then is whole day bad and mad.I hide offline for so long wait for jeff's sms and watch frog.Then he still din reply.Something is wrong la.Haiz..

Just received jeff's sms.Seems he's not feeling well.Poor bf.Take care la.Dun always online till so late.Haiz..Health not good still want chiong.My health ytd night was in bad shape too.Super bad gastric.Dunno swollow how many medicine le.Then ah ha.This call from him sure does help.Chat chat awhile din think of the pain and ta da.Better.

But later is chest pain.Zzz..Terrible one.Mum keep ask me go for a scan.I dun dare.And the pain is getting worse.Haiz..Giddy and headache now.Having some stupid prob online.Go maple hide and kill monsters better.

Am i too fierce sometimes?I sure i am bah.If not those guys wun be so scared of me le.And mei and ger also.Am i making all worried for me?Why does all try to cheer me up?Hmm..i'm not suited to be sad de.Lots of friends around me care for me.Thanks guys.

Going to maple to find my another batch of friends.I miss mei.Din saw her whole day.Haiz..I really had enough of habbo prob.Making me headache.Old de young de all dunno how to think.Tml maybe going out with jeff.Go eat ah!Dun wan care le.Shoos now.Tata~~

Friday, November 04, 2005

Outing Day

Recently i'm seldom online.Been going out and trying to save alittle electrictly.So sometimes at home also wun be online.Today went out again.Woke up quite late.Is everyday woke up late la.Lol..Went to see doc.3 weeks liao.After that woah!So late le so rush over to meet friends for dinner at chinatown.

Luckily din lost my way.Transfer via north east line.First time saw so many passengers de.More scarier then normal lines.I was stupid la.No need transfer north east line also can.Gong me.Not again!Haha..Dinner was zi cha!WAH!Love it leh!It's been 2 years ago since i last ate zi cha.Lol..Really de leh!Pai seh sia.Haha..

Dishes were my fav!Hotplate tofu.I'm still drooling at the thought of it.And prawn paste chicken.Hmm there's sambal kangkong and hot and sour soup too.First time taste the soup and i'm hooked.Too bad.It's sourish so can only have a scroop.Aww.. =(

Then was chatting whole night long.3 girls =market!Lol..gossip about lots of stuffs and discuss a couple of matters.Leave there about 10pm.Would sure to go there again.It's quite convinent and the food was tasty.I'm just back not long ago.And am feeling hungry again. :S

Board the bus and hmm.the air con FOC de issit?Cold like siao.Then there's this ger ger here who seat beside me and her mum was at the opposite.Funny wor.Keep sms each other.So cute.Actually i dun really like kids.Esp naught ones.Find them noisy.But guai de i love lots lor.Gers better.Fun to play with.Some very sweet mouth de.Keep jie jie me.Haha..

Just a short update.Still got lots of things to settle.I'm now sneezing.Should be the air con too cool earlier.My face!Argh!!So many blemishes.Aww..Not mei mei le. =( Ok bah.Shooing off for my newspaper time now.Tata guys~~

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Busy Holiday

I'm busy everyday.Just come back to update a short post.Litez having a event tonight.So i guess i will be busy till quite late.Morning got woke up by lots of sms.Aayrn and my niece yunsu.She got msn at long last!Lol..Yeah..Easier to keep in touch.

Holidays are the most scary days.I will got bug by alot of ppl.Eww..Busy lah.Haiz..Some dun understand.From now on.No more msn contacts i'm going to add.Once bitten twice shy.So that is why i online late today.Lots of stuffs to do and wanted to hide.Lol..

Hide into maple just now.Haha..When i'm bored and there's nothing to do.Will go mapleing and kill those mosters.Aww..Too cute to be killed lah!Help!And tmr's going to be another busy day.Wun be online till late night i guess.Going to see doc and hmm.Having dinner outside.Mum's not cooking.Will be asking friends out to join.I'm bored stiff!It's a friday!

Hehe..I'm now eating snake to update my blog.Just now blogger gone crazy.Can't go the webby and all it's blog.So i got to update now.All's crowded for tonight's event.Cool!Boo!Lol..I gtg now.Still need to dj at 9.Busy night.Had enough of snaking.Tata guys~~

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Busy And Exciting Wednesday

Why did i say today is an exciting day?Cos kena shock till can die.Still in blur blur mood tio a nearly died news.My ATM card tio eaten up!Waa..Scary.Lao pa la!Dunno how to use the atm machine.My card tio swollow up. :S Run to bank lor.Get a new card.Luckily all the money safe.Never going to let dad touch my atm card again.Scary.Also change my chen to tan.Wonder why last time my surname used han yu pin yin.Haha..Dun care le.All is fine.Yay!

Then went to plaza later.And find out ppc is out of stock.Got to run elsewhere again.Roam awhile in plaza.Go chat with uncle francis and find out need register for prepaid sim.Ask dad bring mum's sim card over.Then go find aunty eng.But then popular also out of ppc stocks.Zzz..

No choice but got to run to lot 1 lor.At last catch some ppc in world of JJ.Seems there only left about 5 cards.Lucky me.Shop around lot 1.Walk pass the watson and seiyu.Lol..Keep thinking.Keep laughing.All must have thought i siao liao.Haha..Cos there is pengz.Dun say le.Buay tahan.Keep thinking of the hide and seek.

Haha..Dun say le.Say what i bought ba.I grab a DRESS?!?What?Lol..Unbelievable sia.RONGFANG WEARING A DRESS?!?Ok i siao le.Cos really very seldom wore dress.I look skinny in dress but this one dun.Bought it at more then words.Haha..$10 nia.I love flowerly dress.Looks nice.Dun wan be tomboy la!Mei mei! xD

Bought a hello kitty calculator.Mum nagging.Says u got alot of money to count?Zzz..My old one spoilt le mah.If not i buy for wad?Nvm..She nag enough le.Haha..All mums are naggy.Hmm..Listening to fish's new song.Lu Hua.Not lu cha la!Nice one.Love her soothing songs.Btw u all might have notice.There's song in my blog!I'll be changing songs quite often.Keep a lookout.Actually wanted to change blog skin too.But lazy so leave it alone first.

Old K radio is back.With their pro dj colours.She's still as great as ever.Stress lah.Their sounds quality so good de.Tough rival liao.We got to jia you!Yup yup..Dun worry.Relax.Each has it's own style.Somemore we have gone international.Stress.Lol..Ang mo listen to me is huh?What?Lol..

Ytd night creep online again.Dad coughing too much for me to sleep.I tio infected le also.Whole family coughing la.Help la!Then come maple with jeff lor.Walk here walk there in maple.I can even lost my way there.Pro -.-'' Offline soon after i level up.Maple bo liao leh.

Habbo got a new furni again.Lodge lamp.I prefer pura de.But of cos still bought it la.Haha..Today is lame day round 2 again.Lol..Siao one la.What talking us?Hmm anymore rounds?Lame round 3?Lol..Fun fun!But bills will fly.Mai la!Shh =X Dun tell u all wad is this.Force me lor.Lalala =P

Last thing.I'm fine really fine.It's all over.Relax.Nothing will happened.Yay!Cheers!Haha..I'm siao recently la.Hey!Youting update her blog le.Yay!Cheers ger.Everyday wait for update leh.Must do it always k?Gosh i'm hungry.7.30 soon.Frog frog!And i'm hungry now.Shooing off for dinner and frog frog liao.Long update today.Tata guys.Pss..Dun copy my tata la.Got copyrighted fee to pay de u know?Lalala. =P Tata again~~

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Dang Wo Men Tong Zai Yi Qi = TROUBLES?

Yup yup no wrong.When all are together=troubles.Habbo family are the same as real.Xiang chu hao tong zhu nan.Din even live together can get a war le.I hate being sandwich.Since i last join habbo till now.I'm always a piece of ham or tuna.KIAP in between.Afew friends even dun befriend me cos of it.Some quit habbo le.I thought yeah the end.But it's not.A new batch of war.

Like this song dang wo men tong zai yi qi.Litez gang!My habbo family.Too many habbo siblings can die.Really wonder what will happen if i have real siblings.And all starts a war.Straight jump and kill myself suan le.The most thing i hate is tio sandwich.From young till now.From real to now in habbo.Zzz.Why am i always the middle man?Pass msg also me de.Kaoz lah!Bu yao lah!

Just ran off to hide awhile.No eyes see le.As my msn nick says.Zi wo cui mian.Leave my mind blank.Wu shi=wu shi!Yeah!Count me out of all those wars.Can die.I only want peace between all.Live in hamorny.But guess it's hard.This is the world we are living in.Must learn to adapt.

One job gone.CASE de.Aww..Now the most better one is jie's there.But it will be a tough one.Dunno if i can handle it well.Dun want to burden others again.I keep giving ppl troubles since young.With me this burden around.All things sure unsucessful de.

When i'm angry or sad.Sure to find jeff.He can let me scold.Fu le ni.Can tahan my temper.My sandbag! *bish* Alot of other friends is angry make me more angry and quarrel with me.Win liao loh.But i really hate this temper of mine.Niu pi qi.Hey?Ppl born in ox is like that de? xD

Algren di says de dui.Give myself a break from habbo lah.Mai go habbo lah.Yeah!Sometimes i online also not in habbo de.Esp holidays and weekends.That's when all the WW3 starts.All like eaten huo yao.If not is step on di lei. *kaboom* Dead!Haha..Shooing back to habbo bah.Not again. *groan* Lol!!I still can't live without habbo.Got to stock my ppc again.Tata guys~~