Glad And Not

I'm glad today today! Cos I got his letter!

I'm not glad cos his letter all about zenn. I abit jealous.

I'm glad he can be release on his actual date.

I'm not glad he kena the caning.

I'm glad I have a friend like Bryan now.

I'm not glad there's rumors about us.

-_-

Some funny stuffs

Yesterday night chatted with Bryan (again la duh) on phone. I don't allow him to dc me. So we chatted till 4am again! He was so poor thing last night. Cried wor. O.O Hush hush. Big guys don't cry. Then I sayang him lor. He finally stopped crying at 3 plus. Scared me to death. -_-

Sorry la. Partly my fault that he cried. We chatted again today morning! Till 1.30pm when his friend came then he dc me. He even talked to me when he went pang sai-ing. EEE!! LOL!!

We were like talking about nonsense stuffs. And he keep singing to me. Jay Chou's songs! OMG!

I think the reason why me and him so gham is cos he looks and behaves like my ex. =l

Nods nods. I don't know. I just found a sense of familiarness in him that allows me to chat freely with him.

We can be good friends. As well for, part time couple. LOL!!!
If I had no bf then... Groans!!

Interesting. Thanks Bryan for adding some flavors into my life. :D

Good life? Bad life?

Today already 28th. Yet I receive no letter. Sigh. When?

I'm back to my old life. Habbo-ed whole day. Stare at my computer whole day.
I started to mix back with Litez gang.
Started going to accompany Bryan at his room.
I don't care what people say of him. He's good to me I'm good to him then.
I just want a friend. That's all.
I just want to do nothing but stay idle at my computer.
Facing it I'll be glad. Cos time will pass more faster.

I don't want this kind of life. I can't adapt to it anymore. See? I'm so tired now.
Whole body aching after staying infront of computer whole day.
I wished I can be back to my working life.
Where I just concentrate on chiong-ing sales and earning money.
Everyday is money. Now? Although I didn't spend any money. I still feel jia lat.


I wan to go out. Wish to go Sentosa. Heard that the sunset there is really pretty.
All my friends are either married, attatched, or had a stable job.
Me? Doing nothing but habbo whole day. Useless me.
Even lijia now is a mummy. Me? Still mummy's ger ger.

I got upset by this kind of life already.

A new friend

I got myself a new friend.

Everyone said he's not nice. I was like O.O REALLY?

Then I tried to befriend him.

He's not that bad. Nice after all. :D

We had a great time chatting yesterday night.

Thank you Bryan for accompanying me on the phone.

PS: Letter still haven come. WAAAAAAAAA T.T

Mooncake

Deleted off my yesterday's post. Cos there's simply nothing for me to blog about.

Today's mooncake festival. No moon see see look look. Mine here drizzling. Moon ran to hide.
Only got an old mooncake to eat. No yolk de somemore. I was like zzz. No yolk means tasteless.
Still got another mooncake. Which is nuts de. Which I went like yucks. Simply very not tasty.

I spent lots of time in bed and habbo today.
Today already 26th. Still haven get his letter. I wonder what happened. But since his mom went to visit him that day and said he's fine. He should be fine then. Maybe the letter got delayed or something. I shouldn't worry so much.

My cousin jie said me and him got the couple look. I was like, O.O
Got meh!! But very glad to hear that. Lots of people said that too. =P

26 more days. I'm counting down to next month's 22nd. =)

Gotcha

Woke up to find that my bed was soaked red.

-_-'''

Get what I mean?

And I went like oh shit! Not again at this time.

Never mind, never mind. I know since this is here. Pms will be near too. But the whole afternoon I was in high mood. Disturbing lots of people including pikachu.

Me : Rawr how are you!
Pikachu : Havent die. You?
Me : Find one day we all go out la.
Pikachu : You treat la.
Me : On! I go hougang find you!
Pikachu : Why the sudden urge to find me?
Me : Cos I miss you? Cannot ar?
Pikachu : ..................

HAHAHA! Gotcha! See, I told you I'm high liao. LOL!

Later in the night, fuck. Pms come liao. No mood liao. Bye bye!

Rubbish

I dozed off while my computer was on just now.
To think I saw msn msg by C and mei. Sorry, reply later. -_-

My computer got a little screwed up. IE page keep going to a whatever china web 4318.com.
Giving me 4D no issit?
Let it screw. I'm lazy to reformat it anyway.

Still have not get his letter.
Waiting and waiting. Sigh.

Been busy chomping on moon cakes these few days.
I think I'm going to grow real fat.
Moon cakes rocks. =D~

Meow meow

Still have not get his letter. Sadden. So long already. Don't tell me it's lost?!??

Didn't went to feed my meow meow today. Here's a picture of 'my' pretty cat.



Cute hor!! Shh. Dnd. It's sleeping.

Got woken up by lots of calls today. My cousin messaged me at 6 in the morning.
#%^#$^#$%@#&^#%&$%&#!!!
Fish her. The it's Matt who messaged me at noon. Followed by Zenn.
Later at night it's C and Jeff who messaged me.

I want to go into hiding also cannot!!

Bad mood cos letter still not here yet. Hmph. Bye bye!

A good day

My computer seems to be unstable these few days. I think it's gonna crash any moment. So if I didn't online for the following days, you're going to know what's wrong. *Cries*

Went Zenn's house today. And over to batok to visit his mom. Bought a box of mooncake for her. But she didn't accept. Asking me to bring it back and korp it myself.

His mom said she just went to visit him today. I was like wth. Such a coincidence. I should have give her a call yesterday. Then I'll know. Argh. Missed the chance of visiting him. He's gonna blame me for this.

But I'm glad to know that he's going to be release on his actual date. And his mom's glad that Zenn and me went over to visit her too. That's good.

Waiting for his letter. And feeding our meow meow everyday. Today my meow fought with another meow for food. O.O
I nearly ended up getting scratch too. x.x

That's all. Hope my computer don't died on me. *Prays*

Just like that

I woke up today. Feeling bored. I think I felt bored almost everyday. x.x

Waited for Zenn to come over at night to join me for dinner. Before dinner I bought a packet of cat food and feed our meow meow. It gobbled up everything seh. Hungry cat. O.O

So right now, I'm typing my blog while Zenn's sleeping. Oh well, napping la. -_-

Intend to go visit his mom tomorrow with Zenn. I think I should brought a box of mooncakes along. So lidat lor. Hope tomorrow will be good.

Waiting for his letter now. Slow slow slow.

Blogging's so bored now. =(

Yawnz

I woke up early today! Before noon okay! Cos I got woken up by Zenn. Boo. Bad gal woke me up then flew me plane. Sad sad. C more worse.

Said will go with me to my sinseh's there. End up I ON BUS LE I KENA FLY PLANE!

Bish them. x.x So ended up I was alone today.

Then I went to my doc's there myself lor. Nothing much to mention. No yan dao watch there. -.-

Came back msg buddy. He said he's busy doing school stuffs. Asked me to get something to do also. Our conversation... so short.

Tomorrow night char boh coming my house. I don't know why I found her quite like jes last time when we're good friends. Really similar! But hope our friendship won't turn out lidat ba.

Lastly, today's my dad's birthday! Happy Birthday papi!

Getting boerd

Romantic princess is nice. I'm watching like 3 Taiwan idol dramas per week.

公主小妹
恶女阿楚
樱野3+1

Spending my time watching dramas ain't fun at all. It bored me to tears. So I went out for awhile today. Bought back some daily stuffs. And it burned a hole in my pocket.

I slept very early everyday. Yet woke up very late always. = ='''

No no, I don't like this kind of life. I prefer my old work life.

Wake up at 10am. Out of those house at 11am. Reach workplace at 12nn. Lunch or dinner at 4-5pm. Knock off at 9pm. Shopping till 10pm. And back at 11pm. Online at 12mn.

I missed the times. How I wished I can turn back time.

To work or not

Spending my whole day watching tv and online. I'm totally bored to death.
Can someone jio me out please? I spent my whole weekend at home! Don't want to rot for 5 more weekends.

Can I work? I don't know. Mei recommend me an admin job at posb bank. The in charge's named vincent too. What the.
But I don't think I wanna try out. It's a once a week job, on Saturday. Which you need to work for at least one year.
What if, I wanted to get a full time job during this one year? And most of the sales line require you to work on weekends.
So I think this job doesn't suit me. x.x Sorry mei. I need to think of the future.

And I don't think I want to work for now. I'll re plan everything after his release.

Bored

I have no interest to online, no interest to blog. No interest to do anything. I only am interested to sleep. That's right. Sleep is the only thing I can think of now. Another 5 more weeks. For goodness sake, I'm going to become a PIG!

Blogging just seems so boring now.

My life is so dull. Help!

Random

Why 樱野3+1 become so complicated? Got that Fan Zhi Wei? My Ming Dao how?

Why 爱上公主小妹 so interesting? Wu Zun handsome. Angela cute. Must watch!

Looking forward to this Sunday.

A moment of nonsense

Suddenly, I just don't feel like online anymore. Even if I'm online, I'll appear offline. Although C and my mia together plan was call off. But what is the meaning of you being online and talk to people yet people don't even bother to fucking reply you? I know some will say, Sorry! I'm away. Then put away la for goodness sake.

I tried to message a few of my close friends. Buddy had already dao me for like so many weeks. Call him no answer. Sms him no reply. Msn him like talking to dead air. J also. Walao guys. I'll always be there when those guys need my help. But they always play dead on me whenever I just need a someone to talk to.

The most happening matter now is about the earthquake shake which sg also exp. But I feel nothing leh. Though Zenn said she felt unconfortable during evening yesterday. Which I believed was caused by the stupid shake. Zenn went home late night yesterday. And I slept at a terrible time of 4am.

Xiao yi went for her op. Wanted to accompany mum to msia to visit her. But was afraid that his mum will call and ask me to visit him together. Been a long time since his mum last called me. Does that mean she won't call me again anymore? No more visiting of him for me? Sian.

Bored the whole day. Gastric's acting up again. Lazy to go to my sinseh. Slept my time away. I napped 3 times today. Been wanting to catch up on my vcds. Always know how to talk but forget to watch it. End up it's still left unfinished. = ='''

He came online today.I don't hate anyone previously. But now I hate a guy by the name of SK. SK, I don't know if he's still reading this. But I just want to tell you I HATE YOU! I sent him a =) Do you understand what is xiao li chang dao?

Phew, I feel better now after a round of blabbering nonsense.

Friends day

Today was nice. Well, sort of. If only he's by my side. Then my life will be completely wonderful.

Went out with Zenn today. We train-ed from cck to woodlands for MOS burger, head towards amk hub after, amk got nothing one, alot of couple things only. See le jitao sian 1/2. Then we went to novena sq 2, there only hello kitty shop nice. Back to kranji's this fashion later. It was quite a fruitful trip. With a birthday present for my dad and a I got a short from this fashion.

Zenn and me home-ed at mine afterwards. Chat la, eat la, gossip la, giggle la, every girl's things la. Ced came and fetch her home at 2am. Which was so sweet. Made me envy.

Had a fear. Feared that he might not be able to release on oct. Cane him please, cane him! x.x

Ouch, my bank's drying out on me soon. How how how?

Sigh. I need a job. A part time one maybe. Lobangs anyone?

Family day

My cousin and uncle surprised me with my ding dong bell. Doorbell la duh. I was like. He early release and come visit me? I jumped up. Only to hear my cousin shout "shen shen". =.=''' CHEY! I thought who. LOL! No la, actually I was very glad they came over. So I washed up and get myself awake.

Had a very nice afternoon with my cousin. We chatted, giggled over girls stuffs and of cos not forgetting to do girly stuffs. Manicure! I showed my cousin the things he bought for me. So sweet. Another 6 more weeks aka 40 days then he'll be release. I shall wait. =D

RongFang has left HabboLitez. We would like to take this opportunity to thank her for all her effort that she has put in in the past and wish her all the best for her future endeavors.

There, about yesterday's post. I quited Litez. Been having this decision for like a couple of months. I feel good now. Cos I know what's best for me. Real life is more important. =)

I shall be a little piggy now. Oink!

Left

I've been considering this for a very long time. It's been part of my life for the past 2 years plus. Quite a bad turning point for me recently. Till I don't have the courage to speak and continue with what I've been doing for so long.

After all. Everything died down ever since I started working. I don't have the interest anymore. So let it be. Since he start to message me first, I'll just tell him my decision. After all this, I feel so much relax. Don't have to bother about virtual stuffs anymore. I can concentrate on real.

No regrets. I only regret I never leave earlier. It only adds on to my burden. Not part of them doesn't mean I can't hang around with them anymore. I was told by C last night. Regarding my past. I then know it's been such a bad feeling. Which I never notice earlier.

Now I just want to sleep more. And wait for him to be release. Then continue walking my reality path. As for virtual. Don't think I want to depend on it too much now. Virtual is just like a dream. Which things I can't do in reality I'll be able to do it in virtual. Stupid thoughts actually.

Hey. I feel so good now. =)

Beauty sleep

I think buddy played mia on me. It's been like a few times I messaged him. NO reply! I don't know if he's avoiding me or what. But for what reasons I don't know too. And for sister, he seems super urber busy.

For my mei and ger they, they're back to studies as exams are approaching. So I've been feeling a little bored these days. Zenn was busy sleeping instead of accompanying me. So lidat, I decided to spend my time on bed. Slept till 5pm today. Ignoring all calls and smses.

I think I'm really feeling a little too bored already. Should I get a job? It's another 6 more weeks before he's out. What should I do in this 6 weeks? Don't tell me I'm going to sleep my time away. I didn't even bother to watch those vcds I bought. Was feeling lazy.

I'm feeling weird. Wanted the company of friends yet feel like being alone. Don't like crowded places also. So that's why I ps matthew today. I don't feel too well at crowded places. Suntec visit da jie plan was canceled due to me.

Didn't even watch my show tonight. Think I'll wait for it to be on youtube then watch. He asked me not to sleep too much in his letter. Later I become pig then he don't want me. -_-'' Am I really sleeping too much nowadays? I think so. But who cares? Sleep now.

Today

Today got his letter. In his letter he said he will be release on his actual date. Cos he got himself 6 strokes of caning on 4/9. Which is ow. Cane on him, pain on me too. I don't really understand why. He's not doing any serious crime why must give him such a heavy sentence?

Suan don't want to say anymore. I've very glad that he can be release on his actual date. 44 more days. 1 more plus month. 6 more weeks. Very fast I guess. I wonder how is he now. Is he awwing in pain? I bet he can't even sit properly now.

Today's a bad day. 8 of Sept. Which me and that guy got together last year. Where like one year later. We became like this. In another one year, what will we become?

Di came over just now to cook spaghetti for me and mama. Ok la, wasn't that bad after all. A tad salty. A tad too creamy for my liking. Overall not bad. Wanted to learn and cook for him some days. After lunch, di stayed for dinner and left at 10pm.

Today just happened like that. Nothing much.

Day out

Today went out. Weets~ I feel like I'm a bird. So carefree. Went to my twin cousin's house. Talked crap. Mei was emo. Yi talked to me then. Had lunch at their house. What the thing mee goreng. Taste weird. But looks nice. LoL. Rotted at their house after that.

Went to imm after that. Home sweet home. But they don't really seems to welcome me alot leh. Except for some. Some gave me fucking attitude. Then was like ok lor, sua, never mind. I hack care them. Continue to walk walk shop shop with my cousins etc. Bought nothing back. But don't know why. I'm pleased with myself for not spending any cents on useless stuffs.

Had dinner there. Then back home. On my way home saw my meow meow. Mating with another cat. Wtf. LOL! Nothing much la. Simple day, but really nice. More family day please! Tomorrow di said coming over my house cook spaghetti for me and mama to eat. Another family day? Guess so. Hope it will be good.

I think I'm typing the same style as matt tonight. LoL.

High high high

Everybody's high tonight.

I've been high for the whole day. Talked non stop about his matter whole day.

Tonight I high till go deejay. And listeners high also.

Then now after deejay listeners still high.

I just want to ask.

Today's only Friday.

Why all so HIGH?

=.='''

A letter

Dear,

Do you know that the guy is harassing me again? I'm feeling so troubled recently. How I wished that you're beside me right now. So that you can share my problems with me. But too bad you can't. The worst is I can't even tell you how I'm feeling now. To think I need to blog it out and let you see next time. It's such a foolish act and thought of mine. But I really can't think of anything else more to do anymore.

My mood is well, in fact very bad recently. I throw tons of tempers. Luckily my cousin and darling sister are here. Sister comfomt me via the phone while my cousin came over. It's been such a torture when you're not here with me. To think I need another few more months then we can be together. I do wonder what life will be without you. Think I depend on you way too much now. It's not a good thing.

Without you by my side, I need to do everything by my self. Settle every single one of the problem alone. Without you to help me. Not even without your comforting or scoldings. I missed the times when you take away breakfast for me everyone morning. It's such a sweet feeling to eat those porridge you bought for me everyday. Cold or warm. It warms up my heart instantly. But now? I can only look at the stuffs you bought me. And pin my thoughts on them.

Please, be release earlier. I can't bear being alone anymore. It's such a torture.

I miss you.

Monday not blue

Was playing around with my Friendster. I think my Friendster got hack or something. There's always something funny in it. Including weird messages etc. Next time must see carefully where I typed my Friendster password to. Cos I heard there's a fake Friendster website that asked you for pass. Once you typed sala place. Means gone case.

Buddy logged into Friendster. = =
It's been like 1 year plus since he last logged in. I was like omgwtfbbq? O_O!!
His new photos are still as handsome as before. xD
Have some confidence in yourself la buddy. He always said he's not yandao looking enough. = =
If I'm not attached hor, I'll chop you first place. =P

Mama got some free 1 night stay at Genting hotel or something today. Guess I'll be enjoying myself in Genting a few weeks more. Papa and her said ask him along too if he's released at the exact date. Then we can have an enjoyable honeymoon holiday then. Wee! Can't wait. Hopefully all is what I expect.

Saw ting's blog. She and her bf are so happy now. How I wished I can be the same as them too. Sort of envy them. Jealous also. I don't know why am I feeling this way? I just know 2007 has never been a good year for me. Buddy also faced a lot of problems. But his problems can be cleared. Well, except for his love life I guess.

What's in for me for the remaining months of 2007? I don't know. Neither do I wish to know.

Another 50 days more.

After yesterday

Time sure pass fast. It's already a few days after Sept now. I do hope Oct will arrive asap.

Been noticing my blog always are about the same old stuffs. No wonder I found it bored to blog nowadays. Rather spend my time sleeping. Slept till 5pm today. Didi called me at 10 plus am and let me scolded till kns. Poor didi. = =

Tooth still hurts today. Can't bite anything using my bunny tooth. And I'm afraid that too much stress on that tooth will case it to shake. Then omg. Had some soft food for lunch and dinner today. I only ate two meals per day now. Find that it's already more than enough for me.

My right cheek is swollen like a quail egg. How to go out like this? Tell me? Seems like I kena box by people like that. And the skin on the bruises on my arms started to peel off. Bleed! Walao. Pain. I think I accidentally rub against my blanket or something yesterday night. Better spend the following few days at resting at home. Time to catch up on my vcds too.

Wanted to go comex. But was afraid that I might faint again. Been having dizzy spells these past few days. Forget it. Why should I go comex? To visit my old companies staffs? Don't like the sight of them. Jeff is staying at comex tonight to clear up the mess. I'm bored cos nobody pei me argue online.

I'm bored la. Someone help. = =

Curse day

Think today is cursed. Nothing good seems to happen.

Was on my way to meet mei and exchange those ppc for C. I actually feel dizzy and fainted and fell off the platform at Yishun station. Luckily got people save me. Kind souls thank you. Lucky the train just left the platform. Otherwise I'll be mince meat now. Still be typing here meh?

I had a small part of chipped tooth. My bunny tooth! T.T And some bruises over my arms and face. Because I smacked my face and knocked my head against the don't know what also. Walao pain la. Some more I pity my poor tooth. Not cute cute anymore. T.T

Blood, blood. That's what I heard when I kena save. I thought to myself, dead meat. This time sure die already. If not also sure need go hospital. Heng ah! I'm perfectly alright. Now then I know life are so fragile. Can end anytime. One minute you can be chatting here, the other minute you can be lying there.

Mei was like damn blur when I told her I'm feeling unwell. She saw me kena surrounded by mrt staffs. The pass mei the ppc. Asked her to change. But seems those things are out of stock. A waste of our time. The mrt staffs are so nice. They actually brought me over to the cab stand and flag a cab down for me. Think they scared I might faint again. LOL!

Went over to Zenn's house after I reached home and rested for awhile. After chatting with her I felt better. She also said the chipped tooth's wasn't that obvious. Which I goes heng. Her mum so cute can? Her grandma also not that bad as she told me she was. Had dinner at her house.

After back from her house I went my cousin's house. LOL! Busy busy. She also told me my tooth wasn't that obvious. Double heng. My uncle and aunty were shocked la. But still nobody's more shocked than my dad. He said I must have been drunk. LOL! Maybe?

Kk, my supper noodles is here. Time for food.

Don't worry la people. I'm ok. Maybe today's just a cursed day.

Nightmares

Yesterday night I had nightmares of 22/10. I found myself waiting for him outside for the whole day. Yet he didn't came out. The next day to my horror when I asked, they said he can't be released.

!!!!!

I hope it's only a dream. Because most of the times my dreams do come true after all. Otherwise it will be totally opposite.

Heart thumping a little too fast recently. I guess I must have worried too much. Learn to relax myself for goodness sake.

Tomorrow going out with mei to exchange those ppc things. Hope we don't get lost there. I'm still not familiar with that place. Although I went there for like one week once the previous time to collect my pay. It's not the same place. But still consider quite near. So let's tikam tikam. =l

Evening might be meeting Zenn. I miss the girl so much. We're so close now. Sometimes I think if she's really his sister then how good can it be. Because I don't seem to get along well with his sister. Rather I get along well with Zenn. Which is so call his god sis.

Had a lot on my mind to blog out. But then it suddenly became blank. So that's about it.

Well, I guess so? Two pictures and that's about it.