Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Really tired

Think I must have been suffering from too much stress. I collapsed today.

彻彻底底的崩溃了。

Just cried non stop at Newstead. Luckily jes sense something was wrong and rushed all the way down here to accompany me. In the end I cried for quite long. Tissues after tissues. The guys all just stunned there.

Already can't hold it this morning. Whole person went blur and in a daze. Even low said morning to me I didn't notice. In the end he nearly tripped coz he keep wondering what's wrong with me. -_-

Slammed jes's phone and said don't know what horrible words to the poor girl. Straight away she knew something was not right. I just collapsed and cried in her arms when she reached and tried to comfort me. Don't care about what others think. Just cried and cried like I'm the only one alive. And keep saying I'm tired non stop.

Feel much more better after it. Too much stress is killing me. I tried to hide everything and pretend nothings wrong. But it's totally not okay. Making me having mental break down. Sorry to have given you people a scare.

He's not in charge of NEC. But for the whole morning he just stayed at NEC's counter which is just beside me. Thanks for the concern. I appreciate it. Sorry to argue with you for nothing. Was really in a lousy mood. Hope you won't take it to heart.

Talking about NEC. Window Vista had arrived for NEC models. Damn chio. Damn lag also. -_- Less than 2000 bucks you can get one home. Wait till I've save up some cash I'll go grab one back. Pay day is another few days later. And I'm totally broke. Vincent came over today and nagged me awhile. But was glad that the first question he asked was am I feeling better?

Meeting next week. Had to rush over to sim lim in the early morning. Uncle's pissed with vincent. Asking me to scold him and get fired. Then he can get me in to Newstead. -_- No thanks uncle. But think I'll ask for a transfer if possible. To best denki maybe. To get more commission. I'm desperate for money.

Congrats to myself. I lost the bet. I really can predict the future. Relived, disappointed and tired. Relived coz the matter ended at last. Disappointed coz I trusted the wrong person. Tired coz I still need to carry the burden.

I'm tired. Really tired. Let everything end can?

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

The mess

对不起。

I'm sorry.

Sorry for having doubts in you. Sorry for suspecting you. What I just want now is you to be fine.

It's already been a day since Monday. Totally no news. HP line dead. And the bad news is no news. After those funny stuff you said on Sunday. I can't help worrying. Come on. Don't just stay cheerful just to make me stop worrying. I already knew it all. How long can you escape? How far can you run? Face it. Face it!

I don't want to see any rainbow now. I just want to see you fine and well standing infront of me. Not with all those cuts and brusies. I understand that you don't want to drag me down. I understand it all. It's already a blessing if I can watch you from a far distance to know that you're well. But is that possible? I don't even know where you're hiding now.

Is last week's meal the last we can have together? No. It won't. It can't be. Just contact me asap. I know I'm not of much help with that little help of mine. But at least you won't be alone. You'll have a moral support. Please, let me hear from you soon. Just listen to me once this time.

What's the problem with all these things happening around us? Why have our surroundings changed so much? I just want the old us with a normal peaceful life back. Is it that tough? Spare us. Leave us alone. For goodness sake.

Just go and don't bother about me.

Sorry, I can't. I just can't.

Monday, January 29, 2007

What a mess

Guys -_-

Girls -_-

Off day =D

It's monday again. Fixed off day for me. No matter if I got an MC last week or not. I still got my leave. Thanks vincent. You're still not as bad as I think you are. LOL!

Busy working till I've totally got no life. Everyday wake up, go work, back from work, online awhile, sleep, wake up again, work. And the whole cycle starts again. Zzz.

No time for shopping, movie, watch DVDs or to even read a magazine. SCREAMS! I'm bored with this kind of life. I want 48 hours a day. 24 hours is just not enough. Came back from work parents already sleep. Go to work parents already went work/market. My life suddenly feels so empty. Seems like I'm living alone at home. -_- I missed my old life. And I mean it. How I wish life could still be that carefree and unstressful. I wish to turn back time.

But frankly said. I've almost adapt to this kind of lifestyle. Must slowly get used to it. Know it's not that easy. But not that tough either right? If I never work, how would I know those jokers at Newstead? How can life be so interesting each day? How can I slowly drift from him and got no feelings?

Mei came over IMM to watch Fahrenheit today. The queue was so DAMN long. Surround half of IMM's 1st level. Wu siao boh? Autographed for 4 hours still not yet finish. I from working waited for mei till I knocked off till Newstead close shop and SHE'S STILL NOT YET DONE. -_- In the end dragged her back at 10 plus with her mentioning bye-bye non stop. Bye more lar, and you'll say bye forever to your jie. >=)

As for why guys and girls are both -_- it's because they're both siao ding dong. How ''nice'' of jes to promote me to kelvin and promote kelvin to me. Pei wen also kpo with them. Jes go and ask kelvin, "You like Le-Mon ah?"
Note: Le-Mon = Me. Ben da xiao jie lar.
Then don't know whatever sai they're whispering. Then I got this alert from jes shouting Newstead got a new couple. Kelvin and Le-Mon.

Wtf? ME?!? I went one word. WHAT?! Julian rushed over and screamed, "Eh? Money fell from the sky?" -_-'''

WAH LAO EH. So cold.

Not cold. I sibeh hot. Hot with anger. Make until kelvin and me so pai seh till don't know how to face each other now. I still need to work in Newstead one okay? Nin lao hia. Thanks for concern people. Kelvin and me brudders okay?

Nitez.

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Guys

Guys are such BASTARDS. I'm screaming here for my dear friend can? Nin lao hia. What are they taking girls for? Something for them to play then ignore? Some more I know the guy. I know I'm going to hate that person forever. But sure will meet him everyday. Grr. How am I going to stand it?

I know I'm too bo liao. My own problem never solve still got time to care about friend's problem. But just can't sit aside and watch. I can't stand this kind of guys. I want to give him a slap right on the face. Damn it. Stupid guy. To think I actually think you're nice. No you're not!

Don't know how I'm going to face him. Avoid and ignore. You treat my girl friend this way. I treat you back double. Nin lao hia you make her so sad and take her for granted. She helped me to scold a some one today. I'm going to do the same too. I saw her waiting and holding her phone to sleep. I see can tear already. Why are guys so cold hearted?

Enough talk about the guy. My girl friend is spending the night at my place. Better off computer and let her sleep early. Have a good night rest then everything will be better. Don't bother about those stupid guys. Not as if girls can't do without guys. I'm tired also. Been sick for two days. That's why didn't blog. But thanks jeff and uncle for that day. I'll remember it. Thanks.

So many problems. To think I have time to care for others matter. Don't even know how to settle my own problem for now. Don't know what that some one is thinking. And wth my colleague is thinking. Nin lao hia. Give me the attitude and ignore me for what. Bring up the matter for what. I'm pissed with guys. Get them all away for now. I want to live my life. My own life.

Cheer up gal. Stay away from him. Forget him. I support you. Jia you!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

What a job

I'm getting closer and closer to my target. Yeah, as if. As what jes said, if target so easy to hit won't be called target already. So correct. $20000. You think $2000? EXCUSE ME, ONE MP4 IS ONLY 50 PLUS BUCKS. I can only hit $2000 per week. One month at most add this and that only $10000. How to hit $20000 you tell me? Unless you force customers with a knife on their throat to buy.

BUY OR DIE!

How nice. -_-

Last week's sales was 2000 odd bucks. This week must aim for at least 3000 bucks. Quite lucky these few days. Must have been the bracelet that helps. Today anyhow also can sell 4 mp4s. Win liao lor. So heng. Everyday work no pay OT till 9.30pm just for the sake of selling more mp4s. Why be so tough on myself? Go out and enjoy lah. If only I can.

Newstead's mood is so dead today. Kelvin's still in a sian mood. Used choco to cheer him up. Guys also like sweet stuff?! I'm the one who need to be cheer up still go and help others to be happy first. Win liao lor. I missed low. It's his off day today and the whole newstead seems so bored. The others only know how to bully me till uncle glared at them. But still, a special thanks to julian. You're such a great leader.

This morning police came over to my house to check on some matter. Landed me late for work. Come on lah. Is it my business? So stupid one. If I said I'm the one who did it. Will they believe? Smart then go find proof. Don't dua pai here and there. Still want to 'nvite me over to the police station some more. Win liao lor. Super suay day. Whole day mood ruined.

Lunch time he came over to find me. Silly silly just looked at me having my porridge. He eat air enough liao. I eat like a baby yea yea I know. During lunch time I can't rest also. Eat fast fast rushed back to shop to collect stocks. Phone ringing non stop here and there till he also got a shock that I'm actually so busy. Then while chiong back to the shop I keep bang and pushed him for fun. Too bo liao. I need a break to relax also. Back at shop the delivery man arrived already. Stock taking till late late. Came home late late also. I want orh orh. Don't worry my dears, I'll always be fine after a good night rest. =)

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Leave me alone

As I said in my last post. Things do changed a lot. Last time, I hate smokers and don't touch a crig at all. Now? I can finish one whole packet of crig in a day. ONE WHOLE PACKET FOR GOODNESS SAKE! I really don't know what's happening to me. Stress is killing me. I'm really tired with life. Not enough time. Not enough money. Not enough rest.

Today I had a mental break down at work. Jes and all the guys were shocked. I went screaming. And keep hitting myself non stop and slamming my fist against the glass and wall till it bleed also no feeling. Jimmy asked me to stop work and go home have a rest. Can see that he's quite scared. Jes asked me to cry out. It would make me feel better. But no matter how hard I tried, I can't squeeze out a drop of tear.

Rushing with time everyday. Aiming to hit the target. Come on! $20000 per month. One mp4 is only 50 plus bucks you tmd de damn shit. How to hit? Hit hit hit, hit your si lang tao lah. Trying to keep myself cheerful. Smile non stop to the customers. As they said, sales line are mai xiao de. Sell smile. So correct. Nearly slap an unreasonable customer today. Quarreled with next door's OGAWA's salesman. Till I nearly throw the penknife in my hand to him. My stupid idiot bad temper is sure to create trouble one day.

I need money! I need money lah! How to clear my stupid shitty debt? Damn salary still need to wait SO LONG. Money haven come in all flow out already. I don't know how I landed up in this mess. You think you're the only one who need money? I'm stress myself too. Argh! Work, money, family, so much stress. Let me play my mia game again. Just leave me alone. Fucking hell world this is. Die also won't lugi.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

The past and the future

In a few months, things can changed a whole lot. Last year at this time, I'm chatting with darren online and on the phone almost everyday. Helping him to walk out of his broken relationship. He'll be there to share my problems too. That's how we became close friends. Our thoughts are the same. As he said, great mind thinks alike. Now? We totally lost contact. It's amazing how things can changed so much in just a few months.

After darren drifted from me because he went dota and I didn't join him in it, I started to hang around with darling sister dreamze and got to know kieran through him. Everyday sure skype with them till the wee morning. Then kieran gets lesser and lesser online. Sister got a girlfriend. Hence my close friends all drifted from me. I guess the only one who is close with me from the previous time till now is only mei. Hahaha. Right mei?

As I started to go job hunting at the second half year of 06, I know him through ning jie during end of july. Aug is a month where he did all those crazy stuffs. And sep is where I first met him and get to know him better. Oct's a month full of memories. Nov's a month full of problems. Dec's the month where all things started to cool off and drifted. And I spent the month getting ready for work. Jan's the month when I start work. Which is till now I'm still amazed that I could get a job and is coping well.

Jan should be a month to sort out some thinking. Some things if you don't let go you can't go further. You'll just be stuck at the same place forever. And I have two such matters to consider. One of it which is online matter which I don't think it's possible for me to fork out any time for it anymore. Not fair to the others if I just stayed idle there. But I can't bear to leave a place where I've been for a year plus. Another is about the matter which drives me crazy for the previous few months. I don't think if I let go, I can just walk out of it easily. Not possible. I'm a human and I have feelings.

My life changed so much this year. Work forced me to sleep early and wake up early. Which till now I'm still not used to it. Keep looking forward for the once in a week off day. Wondering how many products I can sell per day. Trying my best to hit my sales target. Hanging and joking around with Newsteads's guys. Everyday is a brand new day. I just hope that life gets better for me this year. Looking forward to my first pay cheque in a week's time. The money that drives me to work harder. The future is in my hands. I have to walk out the correct path on my own. And I'm sure I'll succeed. :)

Monday, January 22, 2007

I love mondays

Been such a long time since I stayed up till 4am in the morning. The feeling is so damn shiok! But I can only stay up late on monday mornings. Off day! Don't intend to go out later. Want to watch hua yang shao nian shao nu's DVD. If jes drag I won't go out also. Unless it's him who ask me out. But I can confirm plus chop stamp, this won't happen. Still got a smack from A coz of his matter. Don't want to say about the matter anymore. Let it past.

So tired. Everyday keep hoping that mondays will arrive soon. It's finally a rest day for me. I want to sleep late and wake late. Already busy on weekends, monday's really a great day to have a good rest. Got so many surprises today. Mum came over my workplace to visit me. I screamed like WAH! Super loud. Think the whole newstead shaked. LOL! The guys sure thought my mum came over to spot check. Uncle a bit gong when he saw my mum. Hahaha.

After mum came, I still got another shock from shipei mei and sugi. Both came along hand in hand. So sweet! Really got a big shock when they pop by today. Esp when I saw sugi. Very unbelievable that he came too. Coz I saw shipei mei first. But when I saw sugi. I went WAH again. Sure IMM's newstead shake for the second time of the day. LOL!

Mum and them left quite early. Then A came. I ''forced'' her to come every sunday. So that we can have dinner together. Jes and her super gham also. First time meet got so many things to talk about. I feel neglected. Cry! Hahaha. So went off with A after dinner. Leaving jes they all at the shop. I blur till forgot to say bye to jes. Sorry girl!

A and me went walking at JE's pasar malam for awhile. Chatted there for a few minutes and to my another surprise, you can't say cao cao. Coz cao cao sure will appear. Was talking about newstead guys. Who is yan dao etc then saw the guys and jes walked pass. Win liao. Lidat also can. But I don't agree with A. I find kelvin better looking than ah low. Coz he nai kan. Low look more you'll sian. LOL! Sorry low zai.

Took the same train with brian and chatted with him for the whole journey. His stop is bishan. Is like omg! So far. And he's always so poor thing to take the train alone. Told him I'll accompany him home everyday. So that we can have someone to talk with. He said that will be late for me. As if. If I followed julian they all it's more late. Anyway, stupid brian bluff me that he's born in 87 year. Actually he's born in 81 year. I jitao faint.

Weekend's sales was not bad. 5 each per day. I need more promotion stocks. Running out. I love mondays. Such a carefree and unstressful day. If got time maybe I'll go for a haircut and dye my hair. Borrowed money from mum first just in case. Still need to do stuff like transfering songs to my SD mini. Then it's time to watch the DVD. Orh orh time. 4am liao. Help!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

The usuals

It's way past my bed time. Normally I'll yawn and yawn at this time. But still I'm trying to stay up awake to finish some stuff. Dozed off in front my computer just now. That's why I didn't reply all MSN messages.

My desktop theme really suits the night life I'm living now. Blinking stars as wallpaper and silver bars. How nice. I missed the night time I used to online last time. Online till the wee hours. Don't have to care about anything. Now I can only do this during Sunday night which is Monday morning. I can only sleep late once in a week.

My off day's coming soon. But for sure I'll drop off dead in bed by 2am sharp tomorrow. Too tired to online and browse through forums and my favourite websites anymore. I feel so outdated. Don't even know Tank's new album is already released on the 19th. He's not considered my idol. Only my favourite singer. Because I only like the songs he sing instead of him. Very soothing and tends to help me relax. His rapping's nice too. Not like some J guy who raps like rojak. No offence to the J guy fans.

Nothing much happened at work today. Jes came and helped me sold a couple of mp4s. Which makes my hit 5 today. Not that bad. At least it's better than best denki's new promoter which is just a FEW STEPS AWAY. Mad Le-Mon to get two counters just a few steps away. Snatching own self's business is it? Crazy man. Luckily it's only on weekends. Uncle's angry over this too.

A very bad news to share. I won't be getting my salary that early. Stupid vincent said he can only pay me next month. I went like wtf. Then what can I live on for another 10 plus days? I've only got 10 plus bucks in my wallet. Eat air for the next few days is it? When I told julian about it, he said he can fork out some cash for me first. How nice of him. But don't worry, I'll settle it myself. I know where to get money.

Bed time. Another 6 hours of sleep. Definitely not enough.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Everything's fine again

I think I must have deejayed too much last time. Suddenly I only know how to use winamp. Windows Media Player I'm totally an idiot to it. Don't even know how to use it. Just went blur while using the computer there. WMP's sound is so much more better than winamp. Think I will stick to it more often.

Loved the looks of the laptops there. Very plain and simple. Came home and changed my computer's colour scheme to silver. Been using blue since I got this computer. Think it's time to change. I love silver and grey. Wallpaper also changed to just a simple Windows XP Pro background only. So troublesome for what? Comfortable to look at can already.

Very freaking sleepy now. Everyday sure reached home at 12mn. I just wish I can reach home at 10pm just for one day. Then I'll be glad. Don't know what I worked so hard and save so much for. Spent a lot on food today. Bought this and that. But in the end dumped all the food to jes. Still waiting for my salary. Hope vincent will pass it to me later.

Guess every thing's okay now. I think we all think too much already. Talked on the phone with him today. But I'm way too busy till keep slamming his call. He sounds much more better. Another few hundreds to go. Asked me for it. But told him I'm not able to help anymore. Just chat awhile with him. He's worried that I don't have time to eat and my gastric will act up.

Must get used to it. Being in the sales line you can't have your meals on time. Sold 8 mp4s today. Thanks to the guy of IMM management who bought 4. And thanks jes for helping me sell a couple. But commission's not that high. Last year's rate will be much more better in fact. No choice, just hope that my basic pay is enough. Time to sleep. Need to chiong for the weekend.

Friday, January 19, 2007

So tired can

Every night came online for an hour plus then off to bed. I'm really so tired. 10am leave house go work. Say 8pm knock off. But most of the time served customers till around 10pm till their shop's closed. Then wait for them to go back together. Which is around 11pm till they settled their stuff. Then julian will tompang us to cck.

Back home by LRT is around 12mn. Washed up, pack tomorrow's stuff, read newspaper already 12.30am. Go online rotted till around 2am then off to bed. That's my daily schedule. So tired can. What I hope most now is I can have at least 8 full hours of sleep. Just one day also can. But which is totally not possible at all.

Brian and jimmy off today. Jimmy came back in jeans and tee. I jitao shock. First time saw him wear lidat. Normally he'll be in formal. Poor edmund still sick. Whole day blur blur. Aww, poor guy. *Sayang* It's the first time I noticed that Lieu's not that bad after all. He's actually kind at heart. Just that sometimes he don't know how to care for others.

Kelvin said I'm acting weird today. Of coz. Coz I want to jio him. LOL! Jkjk. Maybe it's coz I want to hide my fears. Julian asked me don't cry secretly. Low and me still the same. Super gham one. He know I like S.H.E and in bad mood today. So whole day played S.H.E's songs. Really thanks. And thanks julian for the car tompang. He said he'll wait for me in the car, tompang me back. So nice can?

''Lao gong'' jes came today. I missed her so much. So sweet of her to come visit us and poured me warm water for my gastric medicine. So we chatted till late night then she went back with low and kelvin they all. My mood's so far so good. I called and he got answer just now. Guess he should be at MOS. Super noisy background. Jes said today foc at MOS. Jio me go also. But I'm too tired.

Pei wen, which is low's gf came over. And me, jes and her had a girls talk while the guys are serving customers. Then got a customer said we 3 waiting for our bfs is it? Pei wen of coz claimed low as her bf. Jes took kelvin. Leaving lieu to me. =.= Anyway, we three de girls talk super scary and funny one. Underage siam away please. We giggled all the way till customers looked till gong gong. LOL!

I wore ning jie's bracelet and it brought me luck these few days. Sold 5 mp4s today. My peak so far. Thanks to best denki's promoter for ''giving'' me 2 customers. Must jia you more. And I'll continue wearing the bracelet to bring me more business. Uncle glad for me also. The young girl whom went training with me dropped by today. Think she'll cover esther's duty at challenger this weekend.

I really need my salary asap. Ate beansprouts with rice for dinner only. So cham right? They all see till heart pain. Haiz. What to do? Need to save in order to save up more money to return asap. Kelvin asked is it my first time. First time what? LOL! We all glared at him for this sala sentence. Seems he meant first time loaning money. Of coz no. I very kind one. Who need help I can help will just help. As if. Hahaha.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Always busy

I actually loan him money. And it's a huge amount some more. Now I'm the one in debt and trying to clear it off. Still got another of my debt to settle. So many thousands. How how? Super cham. Think also tired. Salary haven get yet. So slow. Everyday save save save. Don't dare to eat. I need money badly. Do whatever things I'm also willing. Man, money really kills.

But I don't mind forking out the money to know the truth. After so many months, it's time for the final. Just take it as a gamble. Win or lose we'll know soon. I hope things is not as bad as I think. But from the way I saw him today. I got a big shock. Is that even him? My oh my. Just 1 month plus never saw him he changed so much. So qiao cui. So lifeless. Tsk tsk.

Today won't get scolded. Sold 3 mp4s today. Heng si liao. I die die forced the customers to buy. Finally learnt how to say white lies. I got teacher teach one. But I feel really bad. Guess no choice. For the sake of more commission. Since anything they can go to our company to claim. LOL! One uncle even said he bought one spoilt one. But still want to buy coz it's cheap. Buy le spoilt also happy. I was like =.= Lidat also can.

The guys bully me! I ''complained'' to julian. Asked me buy 2 different food court's food. Ran 2 different floors. In the end after I served my customers then go ta bao theirs and my dinner. My gastric already acted up. Please! 9+ pm already. What do you think? I go back jitao throw kelvin and brian my super pissed off face. They kind of shock that I will actually angry.

Wednesday's always the most busy day of the week for me. Worked till about 10pm then can rest. Since so late, I tompang julian's car. New stocks will arrived on this day. Still need to do stock taking. Count also count till siao. Heng vincent gave me those stocks I wanted. If not I'm going to murder him already. Hope I can reach a higher sales with these stocks.

Working I'll face stress. Stress I'll smoke more. Health's failing already. I guess I must learn from kelvin. Be guai. Today we both talking about a topic. Then he said wah I so good, treat ''him'' so nice, lidat also can. I disturb him saying lidat if you want ah, be my bf then. And he said can ah. Super funny can? The topic's about money btw. Don't think till whatever sai. LOL!

I really get along well with the newstead guys and the boss. Uncle treated me really well. Know I'm stress will joke with me. Kelvin will worry if nobody accomany me home so late. Low will try to make me laugh when I'm feeling down. I doted on brian since he's the youngest. And he shared me food.

To kill stress, I need to be busy. Eg, watch dvds and online. Bought a dvd player for only 40 bucks. Let mum watch till happy also not bad. But the bad thing is my computer seems to be dying soon. Cannot on it just now. Got to ask julian to help me fix it. My bed's calling me. 2pm is my bedtime every night. 7 hours of sleep is not enough. Help!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

The haiz post

Yesterday night cannot blog. Blogger down. I feel so weird not blogging for one night. Monday's my off day. Went to doctor's there. For my gastric and sprained foot. Most of the time I save like mad. Either eat the $1 fried bee hoon or just plain rice with curry or braised gravy. If not is don't eat lunch and dinner. Hence my gastric went real bad. But at least my foot's better after the tui na yesterday.

Thanks mr low for your concern. My leg ok liao. He even wrote me a friendster's testi because I asked him to. And he remembered it. So shocked to receive his testi just now. So touched. He's always the one who shared food with me. Thanks ah. They treat me well. I must treat them doubly well. I mean low and his gf lah. Really glad that I've met a group of wonderful friends at work who helped me a lot.

My mind's kind of confused lately. Mainly because of his matter. Everyday because of his sms I made mistakes at work. I'm so tired of helping him le. But yet I just can't sit back and watch show. So just help with whatever I can. But I can't even help myself. Bank account left only $1.61. How nice. Salary still dragging along. I don't even have money for transport and food. And vincent's haiz at me for selling only 1 $250 voice recorder today. Haiz.

I'm so stress. Have to try reaching the sales target. Still need to save up money to buy a laptop. My computer's dying on me. Julian promised me to help me settle all for less than 1000 bucks. Less than 1000 bucks can get a laptop. Mai hiam eh sai liao. Later's going to be another tiring day. Just hope that everything goes smoothly for me. Haiz. Say I'm happy is of course lying. I'm just trying to put up a strong front. When will all these end? I'm tired.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Off day again

Off day later. I can sleep till noon at last. No more hp alarm ringing non stop at 9am. And rush like siao then off to work at 10am. I love mondays. I'm the one who requested for leave on mondays. But most of the time I'll go back to my workplace to disturb the guys. I really love and hate off days. Every week work like an ox just to have that one day off. Awaiting it. But when it arrived, I'll feel sian. Rather want to go to work. More fun.

My luck was good today. Managed to sold a total of 4 mp4s. The highest so far. Esther's very disturbing. Came over and trying to snatch my customer. Knew she's joking. But just feel kind of pissed. If best denki's promoter is her. I can die already. Best is just beside us and we're setting up another counter there. Is like siao? 3 LeMon counters on imm level 2. How to sell?.

Twins and A came today.Twins bought a 3 in 1 hp printer home. And low said will sell to them cheaper. It's only 10 bucks off. For goodness sake. I faint. Low's the best guy at imm newstead. He's always the first to notice I'm in trouble. Eg for today. My sprained foot hurts like siao. And he offered to bring those yao jiu to me on tue. Offered to help buy my dinner. But he's busy. So no choice had to ask A helped me ta bao porridge. And he will give up his seat to me. Super gentleman. Today he at last admit pei wen. Think ytd night sure kena scolded for claiming that she's his mei instead of gf.

Was really caught by surprise that A actually came to imm. I missed her so much! She spent a long time keeping me company there. And chatted with low. Low's friendly right? Don't know why yi said to qi till low so ugly lidat. I saw the sms laughed till peng. Low went blured there. LOL! A and twins actually brought me luck and helped me promote my mp4s. Thanks ah. If everyday my sales is that good. I'll happy till fly to the sky liao.

Disturbed kelvin saying since he's off later also. Asked him to accompany me to the sinseh. He jitao shocked. Really funny to see the O_O!! look on his face. So cartoon. LOL! Actually I'm just joking. I prefer to be alone on my off day. Maybe after going sinseh will go and visit them awhile is my foot is better. Bryan also super cute not to be miss. I was asking him where's the computer mouse and he said the store got a lot. Alot of real mouse. Lao shu! I was asking about hua shu. The joke made twins and me brust out laughing.

My mood's actually not that good. But we're in the sales line. You can't let your mood affect your work. Applies the same to deejaying too. Don't deejay if you're not in good mood. It will affect your listeners. I won't let my mood affect my colleagues. That's why I'm putting on a brave front. Actually I'm really tired. But just don't want to let go. I know if letting go I'll feel better. But forget it. I just want to leave things this way for the moment.

Got this when I'm weighing my weight. "You are the sort of person who sticks to high ideals even in the face of great difficulty." True, very true indeed. And at last I saw a 4 infront of my weight already. More please. Bed time now. I miss my bed. I miss it badly everyday. Night.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

It's weekend

I'm awaiting weekend. Because weekend = more customers = more sales = more commission. Too bad I just sold 1 today. But better than esther I guess. She sold none. I missed esther. After one whole week, she's back. I'll find her for makan on weekends. Then after these two long days, it's my off day. I've already told vincent that I want to off on every mon. Approved!

Mon = Kelvin and my off day. They keep asked us to go out together. Siao. Low even tried to ''promote'' kelvin to me. Nice length hair. Walks with style. Handsome. Etc etc. I faint. But kelvin really quite yan dao. Low also. Brian also. Others hor, don't tell them I didn't write their name out. LOL!

Really tmd de bad day. Fell into a long kang while walking. And sprained my leg. Wobbled to work. Asked the guys if they found anything wrong with me. Lieu aimed at me for 30 secs and said no what, slim enough. Fish him lah. Kelvin smart, he noticed that I walked strangely. And then eeyer. They don't care one. Only low cared.

Ah low asked how I am. Need to send me home today anot. Thanks ah. But cannot be too close with him. Later his lao po beat me then I know. He die die don't want to admit his gf. Keep saying she's his sister. I can see pei wen's face changed already. Esther said last time she kena questioned by pei wen asking why low and her so close. Wah lor!

Had fried bee hoon as usual for lunch. The uncle add a ngoh hiang for me foc. So nice can? Then went shopping after work and bought the guys a box of van houton choco. I got $$ today by uncle goh. Quite a lot. Can last me till my salary arrived. Vincent said will rush it to me asap by next week.

I got a shock by vincent. He looks so different without glasses. Much more handsome. And some more I was bending behind my counter. The guys said if suddenly a guy appeared. Then I fated to marry him. And tmd sibei suay vincent came knocking at my counter. I went like stunned and shouted wtf to him. He went blured. LOL! So funny can?

I love my working life. New happenings everyday. Don't know brian can be so cute. He come and teh me. So yang oh. Said I today didn't ask him want eat dinner anot. I wonder what's next tomorrow. Monday off day. Whose free to accompany me out? I mustn't be too high. Although I'm trying to hide my feelings and qiang yan huan xiao. I won't admit defeat that early. Won't.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Disturbing guys

Now I went out at 10am everyday and came home at 12mn. Although busy but I'll make it a point to blog something short everyday to let you all know how I'm doing. Wonder why I'm not tired. My colleagues said I'm mad to don't want to go home. I rather stay back with them and waited till the shop is closed. See if can sell a few more mp4s. But most of the time is no. -_-

Sold 2 mp4s today. Those on promotion one. Kelvin really got great idea. He asked me to wrote the promotion list and stuck it on my counter. And really got a lot of people asked. Better then the last time. Totally nobody asked. The boss aka uncle said he'll need to shift my counter if I still didn't sell any. Coz of bad feng shui. LOL! Lidat also can.

Had a really great lunch today. Those guys recommend a delicious chicken rice. And I went to try it. Since mum quite heart pain I eat also need to save. Might as well get something good today. Otherwise for normal days I'll just eat the $1 fry bee hoon or rice + curry. Cheap cheap, $2 only. Imagine having to eat two meals there. $3++ each. It's so expensive. Can die.

Waited for julian and tom pang his car to bukit batok. In the end reached home so late. Say really, I don't want to go home. Kelvin asked me to sleep in the shop. Faint. Usually I'll just rot there and learn more about computers. As for today I went shopping after I knocked off. And bought the guys a box of ice cream and candies. Got myself come clothes too. Now I'll think about them first whenever I'm buying food. They treat me good. I treat them good good. LOL!

It rained for the whole day. And I hate it. It's so cold in the shop. And so far I know only julian, low and kelvin will show concern for me. So I'm more close with them. Others nah. Bo chup one. Kelvin will pass me umbrella, asked me cold anot. Low and julian will try to cheer me up. Julian's smart. He knows I'm feeling down. Said I'm weird. So quiet these few days. Really I am. Coz bothered by some matters. But don't feel like talking to anyone about it. I still haven finish the game. Which position is he to say want to end it.

Low's very disturbing today. Julian said he didn't show concern for me. He said he did. Will miss call me every night to check if I've reached home. So ''concern'' hor ah low? LOL! Actually it's just a joke we made. And I think julian believed it and said sure low got what motive. LOL! But I did get cheered up a little by them. Thanks guys.

But no more of your nonsense Mr low. He copied all the sentences I said. Making me buay tahan. I complained to julian that low bullied me. And he got a thrashing. Yeah! Deserve it de. Low's super king eight egg. Don't want to admit his gf and said she's his meimei. I was like wth. Who will believe it? Whole company knows about it. Where got treat meimei so close one? Whisper stuffs, giggling and hugging. As if I'll believe. Guys. -_-

Weekends are for me to chiong. I need my beauty sleep. Ytd night didn't sleep well coz of a someone who sms me all those matters. If he's looking at my blog let him be. I'm lazy to change link too. Bed time. Don't think I'm so free to care about other matters now other than job le. He take care himself then.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Siao liao

I'm going to sleep soon. Too tired to hang on. Bones are breaking. Went to work so early. Came back home so late. Coz I accompany joan. The guys went to play. As kelvin said, played in the room. LOL! Kidding. They went to cyber cafe to play dota. A few of them left really early. In the end, I had to help with serving the customers after my LeMon work time.

Shipei mei came to find me for lunch. A little late though. But I'm really glad she fork out time to keep my company for lunch. Gave her the present I bought for her. The D necklace. Coz don't know what alphabet to buy. So bought her a D. I also got a very nice heart shape necklace from her in return. Thank you mei! ^^ I'm so glad the guys didn't disturb her. Esp Low. But as what mei said, Low's really cute when he smiled. His gf sure kena hooked on his smile. Evny them. He sheltered his gf when we walked back and it's raining heavily.

Julian asked me don't go back so early and eat more for lunch. He's really a nice supervisor. "Kiaps" out my SD card which was stuck in my phone for me too. And cheer me up when he knows I'm feeling moody. He ''scolded'' Low for playing those sad songs. Then he himself went to find a cheerful song. In the end, the song he found was more sad. LOL! But anyway, I burst out laughing at this. He said at least this makes me laughed. I know he did it purposely. Thanks Julian. I appreciated it. *Winks back* LOL! Coz he always winked to me as a form of hello. His wife is really blessed to have such a nice husband. *Envy*

As it rained for the whole day. I totally had no customers. So no sales today. The shop's boss aka uncle said I win liao. Didn't manage to sell one. Really pai seh. Maybe I'm not suitable for being in the sales line. Or maybe I got distracted by the matter. The stupid money and debt matter. Don't want say what is anymore. As what kelvin said. Single rocks. I joking go and asked kelvin recommend me bf. He jitao pointed to edmund and brian. Help!

Kelvin and me super interesting. He will just walked past me and hit my forehead with his finger. Took me for a baby lidat. Then went to da bao food for him. Stall also told me sala. I had to run back to ask again. Came back pass him food and julian said to him don't sweet talk with me at the corner. And drag him over to discuss work matters. Then he took his food and swing here swing there. I buay tahan and told him off. Then you know what he said? He said sorry LAO PO. -_-'' I jitao stunned there. No way am I going to off with him on the same day. Although he asked me why. LOL.

Really interesting workplace and colleagues I had. I'm so loving the place and people there.

2am. Orh orh time. *Yawn*

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Happening matters

Today's also a happening day. Seems almost everyday at work got new happenings. Saw bryan wong and patricia mok today. They're so TALL. Pat really brush her make up real thick. Brian, edmund and me were like staring at them all the way. Like never see artistes before. Mountian turtle us. LOL!

Managed to sell another mp4 just before I knocked off. A non promotion item at last. Seems all my customers are malays. And vincent dumped some new stocks to me. Plus a super big board. The guys have to pick up another of LeMon's huge stuff before they can close shop. Pai seh ah. New stocks of mp4 cheap till siao now. 512MB at $59 ONLY. I faint.

Now my name become LeMon or LeMon girl. The guys can't remember my name. Either called me LeMon or xiao jie or mei nu. Only edmund can remember. He calls me rong. They even joked and said perhaps I should consider using LeMon as my english name. I rather use apple or orange.

Saw lady boss. Not very scary what. I even bumped into her in the ladies. Jitao bumped right into her. -_- They all got free lunch treat from lady boss. Only me got nothing. So ke lian. Still have to ta bao food for them. But kelvin is really nice. He will wait at the corridor and ran up to help me carry those food when he saw me walked back. Gentleman him.

Buay tahan kelvin. I was doing stock taking. Suddenly he just came over and touched my hair. Don't know for what. I jitao shock. Looked at him and he smile cheekily at me. -_- Sjb. We keep looking at each other for quite a few times. Don't know for what also. Till I feel the ''electric'' and ran. LOL! He super got charm. Malaysians are really jokers. I asked kelvin where are they all going to play tonight. He said go room play. Kbox's room he meant. LOL!

Low off for two days, kelvin and me very gham already. Others I feel the gap. Esp brian. He super quiet one. Will only give me the diao look if I teased him. But he's cute for his age. Maybe it's coz that low and kelvin are the same age as me. So we can chat more freely. My ''lao gong'' jeslynn ta bao herbal chicken for dinner. We shared it and she's really like my bf lidat. Everything make till okok let me eat. So sweet of this new friend of mine.

Later shipei mei is going to find me for lunch. I hope the guys don't disturb her too much. She got bf one okay! Mai play play. And she's really smart. I sure got surprise for her one. Can't wait for tomorrow. Low's back. More fun. My turn to take revenge on kelvin also. For ''molesting'' my hair. LOL!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Busy work day

After waiting for so long, blogger's finally up. Luckily I used the new blogger. Alright, today's a happening day. Back to work after yesterday's so call ''leave''. Manage to sell 1 mp4 today. Only 1! Vincent called, told him about it. And he expect my sales to increase soon. Hence I feel stress.

It's not that I don't want to promote. It's coz ur products are having problems. Today opened a box of mp4 for a customer. That one jitao hang. Nvm then, opened up another one. That one can't even on even if I charged it. I was so damn pai seh. The customer said our brand sia suay SG. Ya lor! Local brand lidat one. But heng he still bought one coz I throw in freebies.

Today's a busy day. Low, Edmund and Julian's on leave. Jimmy was sick till I keep seeing him walking past me with bags of things he puked. Poor Jimmy. He didn't even eat much. The fish porridge was left untouched. Julian off. Jimmy sick. Without the two bosses, it's already in a mess. Some more Low and Edmund's not here to help. Brian? Don't know mia to where at 6pm and never came back. So I just help with whatever I can. Jes was three too.

Ended up I stayed back till 10+ to kpo. And went home with Lieu they all. Lieu asked me if I want to switch to Newstead. To help him with the sales of NEC notebook. Nah. I can't handle IT stuff. But if LeMon really having problem, then I'll just jump over. Newstead de staffs siao one. Eg, Kelvin.

He said,"Say really I'll woo you. But you ming hua you zhu le." -_-'' Coz he's 2 months older than me. Come on lah shuai ge. Not funny lor. Help! LOL! But that's what make our days interesting. Kelvin's really not bad. He will came over to help me carry those food I ta bao for them. Help me to drag the door up etc. Super gentleman. Gals, I heard he's still available. Grab him!

Da ge came over to disturb me today. Suddenly I got this sms from him saying don't keep looking at my fingernails. I was like wth! I am testing the mp4! Where are you da ge! He said he walked past me. At challenger. So I went over check there the LeMon stocks. I saw him but I didn't know it's him. Da ge changed so much. So yan dao! Had a short chat and off he goes.

Today *he asked me to fork out money. Needed around 400 bucks I think. As if I have the money? Lazy to care about *him anymore. I want to concentrate on my work first. Vincent said I'm mad to OT till 9.30pm. LOL! Fun mah. Go home also bored. So rot there. Won't be going that early later. Newstead got wed war. The nin nao hia thing. LOL! I better siam first. I wonder how's tomorrow.

Lastly,

Happy Birthday Shi Pei Mei! ^^

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Off day

Today's my off day. Yet I went back to the shop. As I said. I miss ki-siao-ing with the guys. So since Jeslynn wants to go. I went over too. Was late and I think Jess waited at Newstead till want to koon le. But till now I still don't know what's her relationship with Newstead.

Anyway, we went for a little shopping trip. And I bought a belt. Jess bought a top. But she was too ''wei da''. The top jitao so squeeze at her ''top''. LOL! Then she suddenly grab my hand and touch her ''top''. Saying today no padded. I was like O_O! Power sia. If it's those guys, I think they faint already. Those ''tiko'' guys in my shop. LOL!

I wore a short skirt and tank tee they can stare until lidat already. Esp Lieu. Jitao screamed sexy and stared at me all the way. -_- Asked me out for movie also. He got rejected of coz. LOL! Brian and Low those shuai ge are better. Not so ''tiko''. They young and innocent. Julian more power. He gave me the ''Is that you'' look. -_- And I gave him back the wtf look. LOL!

Had fun there. Although went back to be foc worker. A customer came over to complain about mp4. Changed a new one for him. And my poor knee got cut by the cupboard. Deep cut some more. The outer layer of my skin got slashed off. Who the f pushed my counter till lidat. Let me find out he mati.

Tmr Edmund and Low off. The 2 most cheeky guys off. Sure sian already. Some more Low off for 2 days. I missed him lah. Miss him to take care of my counter. Miss him to help me promote my stuff. Mr Low come back soon! I very pro in making use of him one. LOL! Evil me. Today took 2 very ''cute'' photos of Low. But don't dare to post on friendster. Later I got scolded the most popular word in Newstead by him. Nin nao hia. LOL! Low saw salmon's photo and said he's more yan dao than him. -_-

Jacky from Sim Lim came over today to teach me some tricks in gaining more customers. Thanks Jacky. Why all thought I'm waiting for O level results? Do I look so young? You must be kidding! Another work day later. I'm bored. Anyone wants to go IMM and join me for makan? Sick of eating alone.

Cheeky Mr Low with his *Ithinkitismymostyandaopose*.

Win liao. This photo cause the whole IMM Newstead to faint of laughter. -_-

Monday, January 08, 2007

The fun never end

Last time I thought work was scary. But instead it's fun to work. Esp with a group of guys. Today's my off day. Yet I'm going over to disturb the guys later. Coz I just miss working. Julian said I'm mad to miss work. I even worked FOC OT just for the sake of staying there longer. And they keep asking me what's jeff and my relationship after learning that I know jeff.

Sold 2 mp4 today. With the help of previous promoter Esther. She's now at the opposite Challenger. I just wonder why we can ownself fight ownself. Our counters are so close. -_- Anyway, Esther and me went lunch-ing and dinner-ing together today. The guy who sells chicken rice still wanted to get my no. I got extra serving of food and free food from him. Told Low about it and he thought of a brilliant plan to keep the food and X him. Smart!

I'm most close to Low. Coz his HP counter is just behind me. But not that kind of close you think we are. He got lao po one lah! We're just very brother brother. I think none of the guys treated me as a lady. LOL! Low and me slap a high five when I sold a mp4. So interesting. Just know that brian is a year 87 guy. And at last I know Low is the same age as me.

That yimin look alike girl Jeslynn came over again. We both very sisters. Exchanged nos and maybe will go out together later. She's just 1 year younger than me. A few of us walked to JE together. I don't know Edmund can be so caring. Asked me to be careful when we parted. Weird thing is Lieu give me this weird attitude suddenly. Wonder what's wrong.

Overall, I love the job and hanging around with the guys. Off day's totally a torture for me. I rather work. But I'll try to enjoy my day off. He's not free. Seems he's having financial problem or something. Called him he sounds blur. In the end I flare up and scolded him. And the guys got a shock that I can be so fierce. LOL! I really don't know what to do about him anymore. Let him be. I'll chiong on my work for the moment. Bed time. Brain having shutdown.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

My interesting workplace

Work at Newstead Technologies is great. Chilling, chatting, joking and eating. Never a job as carefree as this. I can roam around freely. Getting familiar with the guys there. Finally manage to remember all their names. Julian, Jimmy, Edmund, Kelvin, Brian, Lieu, Low. Kelvin, Low and Brian are esp cute and yan dao. But brian is way too quiet. Cool to be exact.

Just found out that kelvin's same age as me. But he's 2 months older. Guess I'm the youngest there? Kelvin's better than Low. At least he tells his real age. Unlike si Low. Everyday said he's 18. -_- Who will believe? Esther told me Low is 20+. Got lao po some more. I asked him and he said got lao po so what. Is like wa lao eh? He even looked at a a lady's back and wonder how she wore her bra coz her top was like so short. I faint.

Esther's the previous promoter. She taught me a lot of stuffs today. And she's only sec 3! Omg! So young. We had lunch together with my cousin jiayi who went to find me, but ended up got tease by the guys. Esp Low! Mai jio her lah. LOL! Guess I sort of neglect my cousin while gossiping with Esther. Sorry ah gal. And thanks Esther for helping. She's really nice.

Vincent came over today. He's happy. And I GOT A PAY INCREASE! I'm happy too. LOL! And so heng I sold 2 mp4 today! 2 at one go. The guys were so happy for me. But blur me forget to give the customer the charger for the mp4. Heng the malay lady's nice. She said will come over later to collect again. Make me so damn pai seh lor.

Think it's my cousin who brought me luck. She came I straight sold 2 mp4. She's always a lucky gal. Thanks Low for helping me with the customers too. But he very bad one lor. Keep disturb my cousin till she don't dare to go anymore. Brian also. Said he missed her sia. -_- Anyway, maybe I'm really too happy till ki siao today. Rotted at the shop till 9.30pm and went off with Low. Worked no pay OT also fun. Edmund said I'm sot. LOL!

But overall the guys are really nice. Worried for me coz I always walked over to JE alone. Low even waited for me for A LONG TIME outside the shop and walked over to JE station with me. The others teased that I'm his gf. Very funny guys. LOL! Low asked me to be careful when we parted too. Very nice lor. Who dare to say Malaysians aren't nice. I'll slap his/her ass off. Had a nice long chat. But still can't dig out his real age. Argh!

I'm looking forward to meeting them again later. Now who said work life is plain boring? There's always something new that happen everyday. Life's never bored. I'm off on Mon. Can go shopping liao. Mon's 8th also. The day. But guess it's just a normal day for me. Maybe will just go back to the shop and disturb the guys. I just love working. Asked me rest one day I'll feel weird. Chiong! My aim is to sell more mp4 day by day. Jiayous!

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Another working day

Another tiring working day. Found out that I can still come online for a couple of hours at night. So yea. I'm appearing online at my usual hours. Most probably 11pm-2am. Then sleep for a few hours till 9am wake up. I really must get used to this schedule of mine. No more sleeping till 3pm anymore.

Didn't manage to sell out any mp4 today. Been working for 3 days didn't even sell one yet. Thought Vincent will be fuming. But instead he was very encouraging and supportive. Asked me to relax and believe that I can do it. Thanks! That's really a strong support for me. I really met a wonderful boss.

But one thing that irks me is the problem with our mp4. One lady came and said her daughter's mp4 screen broke. I sent her off to Sim Lim. LOL! Then a guy came with his gf. I found her gf really familiar. Anyway, he got his mp4 through his company's lucky draw. But it's dead. So he came all the way with the receipt and wanted to exchange for a new one. But no more stock. So he argued with Vincent using my HP. My poor bill is going to fly again. BUT! I want to say that the customer My Tay is really a very understanding person. He's only pissed with Vincent.

I keep calling Vincent non stop to check this and that. The name that comes out first from my mouth now is Vincent. Boss ah! I really need to pay my bills. Fly till high high already. Can't keep calling him to ask about all those customers problems. Nowadays that name that starts with S is slowly disappearing. I guess in a few weeks if we didn't contact or meet. This guy will be totally gone from my mind. He can even forget what day is the 8th. Since this way, no point then. I'm really tired. No time to bother about this anymore. I guess it's time to reconsider about it.

Today is Low's off day. Without him to cheer up all our mood, the whole shop seems pretty bored. Every one's kind of lifeless. His HP counter got ''re renovated'' by Jimmy. His ''masterpiece'' rocks! Sure Low's going to scream later. LOL! And I just noticed there's really A LOT of cute guys in our shop. Kelvin's one of them too. All very ke ai. No wonder their sales so high. LOL!

The guys asked if I've got a bf. I asked them back is there any couple that meet once a month? Ridiculous right? But I've got myself a ''lao gong'' there. The in charge's gf so funny! She called me lao po coz she forgot my name. There, ended up I've got a lao gong from nowhere. LOL! Still not used there. But guess I'll mix in with them real soon. The boss of the shop is also very nice. I've got a pipping hot and crispy old chang kee's curry puff from him. Warms my heart instead of stomach. The people there are really nice. So I've got to work even more harder! Jia you neh!

Friday, January 05, 2007

Lifeless work

This is going to be some bloody hell post. So beware.

Work was really horrible + terrible + just a little tiny winy little bit fun.

Waking up at 9am definitely murdered me straight. Everyday crawl my way out of bed. Brush teeth. Bath. Breakfast. Change clothes. Pack bag. Make up. Off to work.

Take LRT at 10.10am. MRT at 10.30am. Walk to IMM at 10.45am. Punch card at 11am. Work.

Wipe counter. On lights. On speakers. Check stocks. Charge mp4S. Walk here walk there. Sit like a statue. Joke and chat with the guys. Play play with those lappies. Buy lunch at 4pm. Help the guys da bao snacks. Lunching. Peeing. Back to stoneing. Home at 8pm.

Walk back to JE. Take MRT. Take LRT. Back home. Wash up. Dinner. Unpack stuffs. Watch TV + read newspaper. On computer at 11pm. Do work + play play abit online. Sleep at 3am.

What a BORING schedule. I'm getting sick of it already. And I want to sleep at 1am instead of 3am. 6 hours of sleep is not no way enough for me.

For 2 days totally no business at all. Vincent's going to blow his top soon. To think the previous xiao mei mei promoter so pro in selling mp4s. Mine is totally bo lang. Wu lang also bo stocks. Fuck. No commission. Edmund asked me to sell smiles. Mai xiao. Mai siao lah you edmund. -_- But I think I looked like an info counter lady instead. So many people asking me where's the TOILET. WTF. Do I look like a TOILET BOWL? Keep asked me where to pee. -_-

REN! Tahan. For the sake of a miserable pathetic 30+ bucks per day. WO REN! Luckily got those 5-6 funny guys there to cheer up my day. Low, liew, edmund, jimmy, boss, eh who else? I forgot. -_- They keep chasing me with a balloon. I went screaming around the whole store lor. Si ginna. But I esp have impression on that ah boy low. He's only 18! VERY cute and yan dao. Entertain us very well. Keep singing. He said he's japanese? Don't know real anot though. I only know he's cute. Hahaha. Ke ai neh. Means wo ai. LOL!

Thanks guys. Back home jitao miss you all liao lah. Missed bullying you all. LOL! But seems I'm the one who got bullied instead. -_-

My whole mind is on work till I didn't notice cars when crossing the road. Just a little more and I'll kena hit le. The car is just right in front of my face. Heng the driver stop in time. If not I become roti prata liao. So dangerous yet I still didn't notice it until someone shouted. Thinking too much while walking is a bad idea. But what to do? Stress lah.

No work = sian. Work = more sian.

Help!

Indeed I predicted correctly. Something bad is really going to happen if this life of ours continues. Oh well. Concentrate on career first. Get busy bah. Sigh.

Ps: Calling for my bao bei zax mei. Kindly drop me a msg at my tag. I miss you so. xD

Thursday, January 04, 2007

First day of work

Stock taking is making me dizzy. I can spent so many hours on it. Perhaps I just want everything to be perfect. Over perfect. -_-

What a blur sotong I am. Guess vincent must be puking blood just now. I'm so over nervous till everything gong gong blur blur. Luckily he's not mad at all. Explained till so nice some more. Asked me don't nervous. Chase me off work when it's time. Rushed back to help this help that. Thanks ah. I'm so bless and fortune to work with you.

Everything went quite well today. Busy stock taking as I said. And ''playing'' with those mp3 and mp4. The keys and chargers are making me super blur. Lucky lucky got 3 very nice yan dao colleagues to help. Guess they're Malaysian from their accent. Must try to stable my mandrian. Later become that accent too.

Just finished all the paperwork. I brought all home to learn and redo the stock taking stuff. So sleepy yet feel so energetic. Some how I love the feeling of being busy. He can be busy why can't I? I busy so won't think too much and stress myself till whatever the shit mental problem okay? To think he can even think of this. I'm mad, yea lah. -_-

Alright. I'm lying about being not tired. I am alright? Dozed off just now while doing work. Bed time.

I'll be at IMM Newstead technology #02-20/21, LeMon counter. Selling LeMons of course. LOL! It's the brand. Permanent staff there. Won't say how much is the pay. Later all come and ask me treat then I die. LOL! It's a very reasonable salary. In thousands instead of hundreds. Go guess it. Flexiable job. Can go eat anytime. Use hp anytime. And 3 yan dao helpful colleagues. I like. I'm staying there. For sure.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Just some feelings

I can't imagine what will happen later. Already starting to have butterflies in my stomach. Work, a whole new horrible experience? I don't know. Just see how it goes. As what he said, if I CMI, can't make it. Just quit and find another job. Speaking is easy. Doing is another. I'm not like him, a rich brat. Nor did I study much. I need money to support my family and myself.

Saw so many of my cousins online just now. Bet they're trying to ask me how my work goes. Appeared offline till all of them are gone. I feel so stress. Haven't start work can feel the stress already. Didn't join uncle and the rest for movie and dinner tonight. Was too tired. Mentally tired. Need to sort out a lot of my thinking. Maybe I'll feel better after a good night sleep.

What I needed now is support. Moral support counts too. But someone just don't know about that. He only knows how to say some very not encouraging things. Which I'm disappointed. I'm stressed till I feel suffocating. Lack of oxygen to breathe. I hope all will be better after work. Vincent's not a scary boss. Suppose we can get along well if all is okay.

Controlling myself. Not going to Darren anymore. Not possible that I depend on him for support for all my life. He had his own life. I had mine too. But why is it that he's always the one that understands me? Not him instead? Not trying to compare the both of them. I just don't understand why some guys must be so bei dong instead of zhu dong. And I'm not a person that is too difficult to understand am I? He just don't know what a girl wants and need.

Care, concern, encouragements and TIME. Is it so hard to ask for even 1 min from him? Just to have a chat on the phone? Why must our conversations always end in less then 1 min? Am I too greedy to ask for all these? Feel so tired sometimes. He asked if I'm still blogging. Of course I am. He said he didn't come to my blog for long. Not sure. Don't know. Perhaps he did come. And did see what I wrote here. Yet he didn't do anything. Speechless. Tired. Till next time. Meanwhile I'm concentrating all my energy on my career. I'm going to make it big and not giving it up easily. Promise.

If only there's rainbow everyday. Sure it will brighten up my dull life. I must be lucky to catch that rainbow. Maybe 2007 will be a great year for me?

If there really sunshine over the rainbow? I. hope. so.

=)




PS:
Update at 9.30am: LOL! 2007! Whose the lucky one? =P


Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Happy new year

Happy 500th post to my blog and a belated?? Happy New Year to all.

Sorry that I went mia for so long. Went to Malaysia for a break. Malacca + KL. Nearly Genting also. But gone case as usual. The few days trip was good. Came back can use internet already. Not that laggy anymore. But doubt I have the time to online anymore. Starting work on wed.

Vincent called me when I just reached KL. Arrived at my aunt's doorstep the next min my hp rang. Asked me go work on sat. Got posted to jurong's IMM. But please it's fri already. Told him I'm in Malaysia, back next week. So he said tue. In the end tio drag till wed then start work. Also not that bad. Can rest one day more. Feeling so damn tired from the trip.

I'll explained why I rush over to Malaysia and ps the vivo trip on thur. Coz my uncle called on thur morning, asking if we want to go KL. So mama and me packed luggage and chiong over to JB. Malacca stayed one night, then KL the next day. Cousin kor and me had a long chat in the room on thur night. Heart to heart talk. No matter what, I support and love my kor always. He'll always be a great kor. Coz he understands me. Kor jia you!

Fri morning went over to KL. Actually not KL. It's selangor. Not consider kampong but it's not the city either. I only know it's my aunt house and sua ku me never go before. Since I thought vincent never called me for work so went for a trip. How I know so coincidence? But anyway, had fun there. Tired is coz of the car journey. 5-6 hours back. My butt can die already.

Plus I slept on the living room's floor with my cousin ping for 3 days. While maid sleept in the room. I jitao backache now. Not enough sleep also. Esp last day of dec. One by one my cousins went out. One by one they came back. One by one walk past me. One by one disturb me. One by one accidentally step on me. Faint. Countdown was bad. I only watched tv. Didn't went to town to countdown. Only can hear fireworks but can't see.

What a week. Last wed after meeting and celebrating twins birthday with them. I met a flasher at JE. No time to response to that incident I'm in Malaysia already. Their birthday we went to watch night at the museum and took neoprints. Just a simple birthday. Seems uncle wanted to ask all of us out for movie later. I'll try to go if I'm not that tired. Germs flying around in the house. Dad's sick. Poor him.

This whole week not that bad regarding his matter also. Although he suddenly went mia for 2 days now again. But at least he still shows concern for me when I'm in Malaysia. He scared I caught a cold while sleeping in the living room. And he predicted it correctly. Poor me, I need my bed. Won't be updating much from now on I guess. I'll only come online provided that I got the time. Anything just reach me by my phone.