Butterflies anyone?
I've a sudden craziness for butterflies.
Hence this theme for my phone's wallpaper.
Samsung 176" x 220"
I'm sharing them all.
Feel free to grab if you like.

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I spent almost half of my last drawn salary on groceries.
Till now then I discovered that I'm close to broke again.

A friend recommend me this job in the CBD area.
Which means no retail hours. No late night.
Working hours are from morning till late evening.

It's a shop selling ladies sleepwear and underwear.
LOL. -_-"
A total new experience.
Shall see how's the salary.

Promise are meant to be broken?
Last time I doubt so.
Now I believed it.
Neh ber mind.
I shall 以牙还牙
^-^v

Never go interview.
No confidence.

You see ah.
I haven't go k already kena splashed so much cold water.
Aka 泼冷水

A says: "You think you can do this job meh?
The place at Orchard leh! So high class. You?"

B says: "Don't work such long hours job lah.
Later you stress again how? Expect us go Orchard meh?"

C says: "You no need to work one lah.
Sure cannot work one! Go be tai tai lah!"

Me mumbling to myself: "Damn ass. All confidence gone in a flash."
They are my family and close ones some more. Sadden man!
Go for next week's counseling and next month's medical appointment first.

I got my last HN commission.
Not much. I abit sian off.
$100+ only.
Well, better than nothing right?

Now let's wait for Govt de $
Coming this July!
$250~ :D

Friends around me and me myself and I got problems.
Yet I don't know how to help them or myself.

Friend A confess to friend B that he likes her.
Friend B had a loving boyfriend and rejected A.
Friend A and B now trying to avoid each other.

Friend C found out something that maybe will lead a big change in his life.
And he's confused not knowing what to do.
Family problem, Sorry I cannot help.

Friend D seems like because of a failure relationship 自暴自弃
And I don't know how to help her.
Can only continue to watch her lidat.

I got an interview tomorrow at noon of the position SPA receptionist.
I'm afraid I can't take the challenge and will face tons of stress.
Don't know if I should go. =/

烦啊烦啊~

Went for my medical appointment.
Got to go back in a week's time as my mood ain't very stable.
Medication dose got increased also.
Need to see a social worker next week. -_-"
Seems they will assist me in getting a job.

Money keep flying out of my pocket. T.T

After that took the shuttle bus to KK hospital.
1 day go 2 hospitals. -_-"
Visited Jessie jie and her baby boy.
CUTE!
Now then I know babies so many things pang tang.
Had a great time there.
My heart melted upon seeing baby KaiJie.
Aww. An gu gu! :D
Photos are at the previous posts. Scroll down.

Going interview for the role of Customer Service Officer of some SPA.
I really don't know if I should find another job working retail hours not.
Afraid that I can't cope know?
Shall see.

Not good.
Not a good day.
Not a good week.
Not a good month.
Not good at all.

Medical appointment tomorrow.
And a job interview request by a SPA.
Customer service officer.
LOL.

I'm starting to smell money again.
$_$

Congrats to Jessie Jie and Ben Jie Fu on their new born baby boy KaiJie on 23/06/08!

下过大雨的天空
我的彩虹灰灰的
是否你还会记得
说过你会牵着我的手
乌云密布的天空
我的回忆湿湿的
没有你爱着的我
让我开始学着和孤单做朋友

我的心中还有太多话来不及说
我们还有太多地方没一起去过
say you love me 眼泪在求救
say you need me 别让我难过
我好脆弱不知道该要怎麽做
say you love me 不能再重头
say you need me 别把快乐通通都带走
我的心痛你不懂

是不是不够勇敢
我的心越飘越乱
忽然失了方向感
哪里能找得到答案
总是一个人守候
因为你习惯自由
等不到你来爱我
明明两个人却反而更寂寞

我的心中还有太多话来不及说
我们还有太多地方没一起去过
say you love me 眼泪在求救
say you need me 别让我难过
我好脆弱不知道该要怎麽做
say you love me 不能再重头
say you need me 别把快乐通通都带走
我的心痛你不懂

我的心中还有太多话来不及说
我们还有太多地方没一起去过
say you love me 眼泪在求救
say you need me 别让我难过
我好脆弱不知道该要怎麽做
say you love me 不能再重头
say you need me 别把快乐通通都带走
请你不要留下我

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

Mum's birthday.
Have not plan how to celebrate.
Ideas people?

I've bought her a present.
Maybe just need to bring her makan.
Her favourite! xD

Sorry.
My attitude just sucks to the max.
I don't know why too.
But I know you'll forgive me right?
I promised to try control my temper.
:)

5am.
-_-"

Why am I still awake at this funny time?
Somemore I'm wawa-ing and habbo-ing.
-_-"

I'm back to my old times and days.
Need to get a job fast.
Indeed there are a couple of companies calling me for interview.
Either the location is damn ulu or the salary is damn less.

I applied for SO MANY admin jobs.
Yet the compaines asked if I want to do sales.
Me don't want die in sales line.
ESP IT!

Me tells you.
Switching line is SO tough.
Unless you get a chance fallen from the sky.
Grab it then.

6am.
-_-"

Some cuckoo is not yet asleep.
I heard thunder in the background.
Raining soon? Hope so.

Been repeating a few songs for N times.
Never will I get sick of them.
Some things you'll never get bored of them even though it's N times or N years.
Some things you'll get damn real sick once you get to know more.
The world and humans are so fucking complicated.

Bored till I go back Habbo and Viwawa to chat and play with teens.
And I enjoyed it. Speechless man.
I think I'm going to have more meimeis.
-_-"

I stayed at home for..
1
2
3
4
days already.

Someone jio me out!
Rotting to death~

Still not in good mood.
Not talking much.
Not sleeping much.
But eats ALOT!
-_-

This weekend or next week k?
Advance booking thank you~
LOL.

I suffered really serious insomnia.
Last time I only can't sleep at night.
At least I can still sleep in the day though.

BUT NOW?!

I can't sleep at night
NOR IN THE DAY!

It's just like munching on an apple.
And you found a worm! o_o
You're STUNNED!
But what's more jia lat?
YOU FOUND HALF A WORM!

~Jitao faint~

Bad PMS symptoms.
I'm like roaring at anyone and everyone.
-_-

No wonder pandas don't extinct.
I'm one of them and I'm not mati yet lor!

P.S: Guys nose bleeding yet?
*POINTS UP* =P

Itchy hands and fingers.
Hence the new layout picture of my blog.

DESTINY LOVE!
命中注定我愛你！

LOL.

Pain!!!
I hate that few days of every month.

Getting ready to watch.

命中注定我爱你！

陈欣怡！
纪存希！

If only cx is acted by mingdao.
Aww~~!!
=P

Getting used to looking at a slanting screen.
Hopefully my degree wont increase.
x_x once

How much I wanna go to the PC show at Suntec!
But seriously I'm on a tight budget.
And I mean real tight okay.
If there's a LCD monitor for less than 100 bucks I won't mind.
x_x twice

Have to wait till month end to see if I can have enough for a new LCD monitor.
Or next year's PC show. LOL.
Month end = Govt $ and my last bit of HN's salary.
Maybe even less than a hundred.
x_x thrice

Pathetic lar.
x_x last

I hate Friday the 13th like fish.

My monitor finally decided to die on me this morning.
I spent the whole day trying to CPR it.

Got another monitor from cousin for standby.
But ain't really used to looking at a 14"? 15".

I decided to screw my old one up.
No matter life or death for it.

Alright now. It works.
Perhaps just for now.
Just that...
EH?!



THE WHOLE SCREEN IS SLANTING!

Exactly like this alright?
Screen shot useless okay.
Cos it won't show anything wrong.

Now tell me what's wrong?
Ghost in my monitor HUH?

I'm hungry for food.
From don't know when again.
Instant noodles became my supper.

Different brands, different flavors.
Yet I never get sick of it.
I don't know I need food for the sake of my tummy.

OR?

Food keeps me stress free.
The more I ate, the better I feel.

No matter if it's bread, biscuits.
Snacks, chocolates, candies.
Ice creams, drinks.

OR?

Even an ice cube or two.

What's wrong with me?
Someone stop my craving for food just for once.

I'm having very bad insomnia too.
Damn.
Time checked 6.47am.
And I still can't sleep sia.

元若蓝 - 半情歌
词：陈静楠 曲：方文良

花 接受凋零
风 接受追寻
心的伤还有一些不要紧
我接受你的决定
你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空 什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停
你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的 总是未完成的
我只能唱着 一半的歌

你将会被谁抱紧
唱什么歌哄他开心
我想着天空 什么时候会放晴
地球不曾为谁停一停
你的明天 有多快乐 不是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的 总是未完成的
我只能唱着 一半的歌

我的明天 快不快乐 都是我的
我们的爱是唱一半的歌
时间把习惯换了 伤口愈合
也撤销我再想你的资格
你的祝福 一半甜的 一半苦的
像我手中冷掉的可可
最最教人残念的 总是未完成的
另一半的歌

世界上没有完美的人。
一个完美的人就不是真实的自己。

Nobody's perfect in the world.
If you're the perfect one, you're not being your true self.

Accept me for who I am.
And not for what I am.

改变会塑造更完美的自己。
过度的改变会使人认不出自己。

Changes will revolves a better you.
But if you over change, people will unrecognized you.

Had a day out today.
Went shopping with my ex colleague.
Intend to shop for a pretty dress as she needs it.

But then we both found out we over spent
w/out
buying that dress yet.
-_-

Got mom a birthday gift.
And pampered myself with a nice pendent.
Both from SK.

Blame it on the GSS. (Excuse I know)
My bank straight jitao minus a big hole.

Know more about the guys through her.
Am glad they're still doing fine and coping well.
Suddenly I feel a sense of lost and finally I smiled.
Glad perhaps? Glad I made the right choice. :)

I don't feel good.
In fact I feel weird.
A sense of emptiness fills me.

好强的空虚感。

I just want to be a normal person.
Work, home, eat, slack, sleep.
Just when I'm beginning to rejoice and screamed hooray.
I'm out of job again. Damn it.

Serve me right for bitching about him for not working. 恶人有恶报。
Now the fact is he's working tomorrow and I'm slacking at home.
Fish right?

Feels weird.
Jealous? Envy? Depressed?
I don't really know.
Maybe it's one, both or all.

A few months can changed a whole lot of things.

But why is it after a couple of months?
Surroundings around me changed.
Friends whom I used to think were buddies were not with me anymore.

Yet.
I'm still me, myself and I.
The same old me with my same old boring life.
No work, no life, no nothing.

I need some changes in my life.
Something happening and challenging.
Something that can bring me the 新鲜感.

And not the same old boring tune.

Movie tonight.
Kung Fu Panda.

LOL till I want to die.
If you want to watch something for a laugh, try this.
It works!
My stomach is still aching from the laughters.

Still busy finding jobs.
Had a tough time finding.
If only there is a job that drop from the sky~
Dreaming sia. -_-

Yesterday night was a bad night.
Shall not talk about it anymore.
I hope there won't be anymore of this.

Terrible sore throat.
Pain pain pain!
=(

Having weird mood swings lately.
I'm so sorry to make everyone worried and angry.
Maybe I'm too free le ba?
Heh.

Been searching for jobs online everyday.
Some companies did call me up for interview.
But those ain't the jobs I applied and I'm not suitable for it.
-_-

When can my dream job arrive?~

Psst, I got my POSB GO! Card already. :D

(Image by mac delivery)

Hungry at night.
So ordered Mac delivery.
And I'm so pai seh to say that it's my first time ordering.
=X

Anyway, I tried their new menu.
Only had the spicy mcnuggets and onion rings.
I waited a long 1 hr 15 mins for that.
And ended up paying $12.40.

Nuggets was nice.
A tad too spicy for me though.
I simply love the onion rings.
Crispy outside and juicy inside.

Shall try the green tea mcflurry soon!

I want to apply this.
Is this good?

http://www.dbs.com/posb/cards/posbgo/

Seems that you just have to upgrade your ATM card.
Is it as simple as that?
No terms and conditions?

But look at this.
Please note: The POSB GO! Card cannot be used for internet or mail-order-telephone-order purchases.
-_- Sian already.

I'm still sick.
Went doctor with mum.
The bill sibei chor sia.
$60++~
OMG!

Received some news of $ already.
Finally saw the amount processing into my bank account.
Finally can have a peaceful night of sleep tonight.
:D

Medicine time~
Bed time next~

I'm fucking sick!
=(

Just watched 命中注定我爱你~
I cried so badly.
For the sake of poor XY and the forever lost 纪念品.
Life still goes on.
加油！陈欣怡！

Emo again.
~.~

♥ 小猪~

I'm back!
Seriously I had lots of complaints for this trip.

It's like urgh!
Why must I be sick?
Coughing and sneezing.
Ended up the whole family fell sick too.
-_-

My coughing spoils all the mood.
Other than that, some stuffs are meant not to be say. :D

Damn Tired.
More tonight or tomorrow ok?
Someone just don't want to meet me in anyway.
>:( + T.T

命中注定我爱你~