Never go sitex @ expo.
Was like thinking go there also window shopping.
Why should I go and squeeze my ass out of there?
Never mind, either tomorrow or next year's IT show.
I'll have time to wait.

Been feeling moody and lazy.
Don't feel like going out, talking, walking.
Basically don't feel like doing anything.
*Brushed lazy worms away*

Thinking how will my 23th birthday be.
Hope I won't be a pathetic soul on that day.

Been feeling moody whole day.
Maybe it's the weather, or maybe it's myself.
Don't really feel well today, had a bad headache.
But luckily I'm not sick until that sotong blur.
Was able to delete those emails which consists of virus links.
Like hello? Why suddenly so many people kena virus today?

Yesterday already was not feeling good.
Still had to go accompany him.
And kena disturbed by 3 bengs asking me for contact.
Darn it. Darn the bengs too.
I must have caught a flu on the way.

Weekends already.
So fast, yet so near!
I wanna go Sitex! Hopefully!

Late I know.
Better late than never right?

Some memories seems to be flowing in my mind.
Two years ago when everything is just a dream.
A princess thought she met her prince.
Ended up the prince cheated the princess.
He is not a prince after all...

Two years later, I found out the truth tonight.
And the sad part is most of the time truth hurts.
My dream from the start to the end is a nightmare.
I'm glad I'm not the worst of all the princess.
I tried to forget but the memories stays as a scar.

我想哭但是哭不出来。。。
你为什么要这样对我？
I don't understand...

One's life will never be perfect.

My previous birthday wishes all came true.
Well, maybe at least half true already.
That was to be healthy.

This year. I'm wishing for another H.
Happiness. Very important to me.
Money cant buy happiness.

What I wished for in the past mostly failed.
*screams in annoy*

So it's a MUST to make this wish on my birthday.
I want my happiness to arrive now now now!!!

Never go into a relationship if you have no courage to face what's going to happen.
*points finger at myself and him*
Fucking irritating to quarrel every single day.

I rather give up on this relationship if it keep on affecting my family, friends, and work!
This thing is not gonna work if he keep on poking his nose into everything I do.
I need my privacy and his respect too.

Interview tomorrow.
Hope he will not be the one who mess it up AGAIN.
I need to think what I must do ASAP.
I HAD ENOUGH! *blood boils*

I chanced upon a Facebook group which is a job opportunity.
Ibis Hotel Singapore Bencoolen.
Opening in Feb-Mar 2009.

I threw over my resume last week.
For the position of receptionist.
And they called me today!

Omg omg omg!
Am I dreaming? *slaps self*
Hope for the best on Wed morning!
Going over to Novotel Clarke Quay for interview.
^-^v

Not much time to yak here today.
Tonight is Sunday night = 偶像剧 time~

Just now's Mediacorp's channel 8 birthday show interesting.
Saw many many old senior stars.
Reminds me of how old I am already.
Officially 23 in 1 week's time.
First time I don't want my birthday to arrive.
$&#^@&#$&#$&$*$&$%*!!!

Hungry moody RF want food.
Get me my tidbits here!
I finished all and forgot to replenish. -_-"

Presenting you my pre birthday present!
It rotates and changes colours! ♥
Such a chio babe when darkness fall.

Sakae at bugis for dinner.
Cos there's still 20+ sakae points left.

Oreo double delight for supper.
Peanut butter + chocolate.

Tell me how can I don't get fat?!
But trust me, I slim down already.
5 layers tummy gone! Hehehe!

My method works wonder!
Don't tell you how. =P

Having insomnia. Can't sleep.
Today never nap lei. Wonder why.
A lot of things runs through my mind.
Wondering and wondering.
But in the end still no answer.

BAKA...

I suddenly had an interest in teaching the kids.
As a childcare center assistant.
Am I kidding?
No, of course not.
3 min passion? Don't think so.

Hope I have the chance to try an education career.
Applied quite a couple already. But don't know got chance?
Cos of my qualifications.
*wonders*

Hope this will be my right career path.

You know? Sometimes I can't help but to envy others.
Envy that they had endless money to spend.
Envy that they had no illness and healthy.
Envy that they had a lovely family and lovely friends.
Envy that they had a caring partner to show concern.

Been wondering why my luck had been damn bad since I'm young.
Leave the studying matters past first, say about when I grow older.
I wish for my illness to be gone, find a guy who can care about me.
And at least don't have to worry about money.

Now my illness are gone 7788. But need regular check ups for other stuffs.
Eg sensitive skin and psychosocial. Still need to throw money for medical stuffs.
A guy who can care for me, okay found. But not 100% perfect. This nvm.
Don't have to worry about money? I always have to. Not cos I spent a lot.

I can live a simple life also. No need good food and brands.
I just hope my whatever illness can be alright totally.
And that I can get a job that pays at least 1k.
Family and friends to be happy and healthy.
Is it even so difficult? I'm already 23 in 2 weeks time!

I'm munching on almond m&m's.
2 packets in my stomach already.
No wonder I'm gaining all the fats.
Face the mirror today and shocked to see that I have 5 layers of fat meat on my stomach. People 3 layer meat already horrible. Me is 5 layers meat. Yikes! Help!
My fats are all growing on my stomach and thighs areas. Those bottom areas. Zzz.

Finished the cream that I applied on my sensitive skin.
Went clinic for a new dose. And ka ching 30 bucks gone.
Just for only 2 bottles of cream. -_-"

Munching on snacks again.
Korean black sesame candies. ♥
Plus a packet of green tea = my life.
OMG how can I lose weight lidat!?

Sunday was always not a good day for me.

His mom just back from Korea and bought lots of snacks.
I had my share too. And I ate almost all already.
Fattening! So sinful. Bet I'm gonna gain more kilos after.

Went shopping and bought some stuffs.
Okay lah. I'm trying to save instead of spend.
But sometimes somethings are a must. -_-"

Friendster is crazy already.
I'm gonna hop from it to Facebook.
One thing good about FS is its horoscope is accurate.

Busy night. One thing good about Sunday.
偶像剧 time~
无敌珊宝妹，不良笑花，我的亿万面包。
How am I suppose to sleep early lidat?!

I think this is gonna be the worst Sunday I have.
I pray for everything to be smoothly well today.

It's the first time he cried so hard on the phone.
It's the first time he told me how he feel.
It's the first time I don't know how to comfort him.
And even a little afraid of him...
Afraid of a guy crying to me.

Why and under what times do guys cried?
I thought guys shed blood instead of tears?
Are they really very stress if they cried out loud?
I need an answer to all these questions man.

Boring day till I kept on and off my computer.
Friendster and facebook kind of nuts.
Could not load properly. Pissed la!

Boring day till I go paint my nails.
Toe nails I means. And stamp them with stickies ♥
Like so long never do pedicure already.

Had an interview tomorrow at Suntec.
Surprised that they replied me so fast.
But I'm not sure worth or not.
3 hours per day as a part time receptionist.
15 bucks per day and have to go all the way to Suntec.
Still considering if it's worth to go so far for so little.

Accompany him out for his medical check up.
I hate going out on rainy days.
So darn lucky the rain stopped when I stepped out of the house.
Now who still says I'm a rain baby? ^^v

Went to the newly opened mall Central at Clarke Quay.
The concept and design quite alike to square 2.
Deserted mall. Totally no customers at all.
I wonder how those shops do their business.

Went back to Lot 1 for Sakake as the member card arrived.
Used up those points and vouchers that rounded up to 30+ bucks.
Saved a lot. So I dare to eat a lot.
The outlet is quite different from the others.
Menu also different a bit.

Stomach fulled and homed.
Something is still on my mind.
Which I don't know what to say and do.
Just hope for god's bless.

I have a friend who is having some problems in life recently.
And he is having suicidal thoughts!
Advise me on how do I help him?
I'm really very worried about him!

Seriously he need counseling!
But he don't intend to go for it.
And I don't wish for anything bad to happen to him.
Tell me what can I do to help?

Received a present today!
Wonder if it's my early birthday present?
Presenting you HELLO KITTY handphone strap~
Oh that's my few fingers LAH.


I ♥ this too!
Scented candles which can helps you to relax.
Green! ♥

RF is upset.
RF can't stop tearing for 2 whole hours.
RF don't wish to reveal what happened.
Cos she don't wanna get anyone tense up.

Just, life has its ups and downs.
No matter which, hang on tight!
It's alright to fall, but it's not alright to not get up when you fall.

Complicated world we're living in.
Why can't life be much more simple?

好委屈。。。苦水都往肚子里吞。。。

(Picture from www.shaw.com.sg)

Went to watch Madagascar Escape 2 Africa.
Was a last minute decision to watch the preview.
So rushed over to Lot 1 at 5.15pm for the 5.40pm show.
Luckily just in time for the starting part.

Super interesting. Freaking funny like hell.
I was like LOL-ing non stop there.
If you asked me I would say it's ALOT more better than part 1.
Do catch it when the show start preview on 13/11.

I rate it ★★★★

Never go her wedding. Since not really familiar with her also.
So might as well stay at home rather than face people I don't know.
Mum went though, never mention anything interesting, so I'm not interested to probe also.

Want to watch a movie today. Madagascar Escape 2 Africa.
Noon was quite packed and nobody wants to accompany me.
Night even more worse, made an effort to fetch him for movie ended up both of us went home sleep instead. Like wtf. Waste of my time. So much for my surprise.
He plans to bring me to Genting next week. I'm still at a lost to go or not to go.
Cos we really cannot communicate at all now! :angry:

Desperate for Facebook's pet society credits.
I want a bathtub, sink, and much much more!
Money really is not enough no matter in real or virtual.
-_-"

杨丞琳 - 带我走

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说带我走
某个角落就你和我
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐
每个背影 每个场景
都有 发过的梦

带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

每次我总独自远走
抱持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐
每个背影 每个场景
都有 发过的梦

带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨
蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏

带我走 到遥远的以后
带走我 一个人自转的寂寞
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走
带我走 就算我的爱 你的自由
都将成为泡沫
带我走

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How interesting.
Just in a short 1 week everything is back to square one.
From jobless > florist > IT > jobless.
What sin have I did in my previous life?

Happy when I got the job as a florist.
Upset cos I'm allergic to flower pollen.
Happy again cos I got another IT sales job.
Depressed now cos I failed in this job again.

Resigned due to some complicated matters.
Don't ask if you are my true friend. Thanks.

Laugh at me if you people want.
Call me stupid and useless.
Cos I really am one. -_-"

I know a lot will say, wah! This job 1.3k + comm. So good pay.
I agreed it's good also. But it comes with a price.

The rules are quite simple actually.
No need to punch card, cannot dine out. No need uniform.
You can play psp, read books, watch videos there, whatever you want.
Like even our boss also watched videos and laughed with us lor?
-_-"

Very relaxing. Till too relaxing.
Not many customers, slapping flies. Colleagues don't talk much to each other.
And worst of all, nothing to do at all! Time past so slow!
I prefer harvey, can chat, can eat, can do everything.
Once you're busy, time past fast lor! So unlike pc zone here.
I kinda miss my days in harvey. Here no pc and laptop sell! Only accessories.

If you ask me, frankly speaking, I don't like this job, not even abit.
But neither do I dislike it either. Just can it be more exciting abit?

Once in IT.
Forever in IT.

生是IT的人。
死是IT的鬼？
-_-"

Report to work tomorrow instead of today cos of some matters.
Yesterday too tired after accompany uncle and his "god daughter" to esplanade.
Had our dinner yesterday evening at lau pat sat "old market".
But I was not happy for the whole day.
Maybe something is still bothering me in my heart.
I guess so? :)

RF is happy.
RF is very happy.
Cos I'm going back to IT line again?!
-_-"

Like after one big round, I'm back to IT line again.
So I'm like why should I bother to switch lines last time?
But it's okay lar, this is a small company with high $$$.
11am-9.30pm 6 days $1.3k + commission.

Starting work tomorrow.
Wish me good luck okay?
Tomorrow will be at Lot 1.
PC zone. I wonder how the work is gonna be.

Cousin Ping staying over at my house tonight.
She da lao yuan came from Malaysia okay? :)

Day 1 already KO-ed by flower pollen.
Sensitive nose ah choo-ing all over.
Results = Job failed.
I'm really not suitable for florist.
Manager asked me go back IT line suan le. -_-
Made me super pai seh lar.

But never mind!
Got an upcoming interview tomorrow.
IT line. I wanna get back!
My harvey colleagues all support me go back IT line.
They said small PC shop not that stress as harvey.
And it's beside harvey some more.
Try lor, since my interest is still in IT.
Gambatte RF!

I seriously believed that popo is looking after me in heaven.
My life has been seriously smooth. Thanks popo.
I teared when I think of popo. I miss her. =(

Finally the month of November.
And it's the starting of my new job today!
A kind of experience that I've never imagine I'll be doing it.
Cos since young I'm not a gal that is very lady like.
So flowers are quite out of bound to me.

My only interest is only in IT and sales.
Since I can't do well in IT sales, might as well have a change.
I admit I'm still missing the days when I'm in Harvey.
But I don't find it a bad thing to sell flowers instead.

Wish me have a smooth day ahead.
JY RF! ^^