from a 2nd man overnight becomes a nothing.. this fall is damn pain.. still aching over it after a month.. it's really tough to put it down.. even more tougher to stand back up..

keep thinking what can I become if allt this doesn't happen? I can still live my 2nd man life happily.. enjoying grilling promoters and ordering stocks..

my passion is still there.. just that I don't have the courage anymore.. the bad fall took my courage away.. I'm so afraid to repeat the same mistakes again..

people say failure is the mother of success.. i don't even know if I can succeed this time round.. dear god.. please bless me with courage to overcome all things.. 我好怕..