dear jianlong,

today i screwed up. i purposely scolded you and your mom. i purposely want to make you leave me. as a friend. i said i want you as a friend. but i know it's not at this point of time. i deleted all regarding you and your contacts. i promised i won't go to your fb or twitter anymore. ask yourself. do you really think i'm this kind of person that scold you and your family? NO! I JUST WANT YOU TO TOTALLY GIVE UP ON ME! but please continue to think i'm this kind of person ok? think that your ex is such an idiot ok? it will make you feel better.

i know i scolded till very cannot listen. i told you i have someone else in my mind already. i thought when i lie to you i'll feel better. at least i can don't cling on your for a while. i want to make use of this time to change everything. including my future. after then which i will HAVE THE FACE to contact you again. even if we're strangers the next time we meet. even if you hate me. it's okay.

my heart hurts. but i have to be brave. i'm sorry i said till so 狠 and  绝 . this kind of stuffs really cannot drag anymore. the more i hold on to you the more upset i will have cause you. i want the best for you. i want your life to be better than mine. sorry. forgive me. even if we might not have the chance to meet forever. i'm glad. cos i FINALLY PUSHED YOU AWAY. YOU WILL HAVE A BETTER LIFE NOW!

很痛. but i have to learn to live my life without you. cos this is what you want. love does not mean to have that person all by yourself. it means giving the person a better life even if it's without you. if this is what the other party wants. I MUST BEAR MY TEARS. but why does it keep flowing down? 忍! 忍! 忍!

i hope you don't see this post forever.
对不起. 我爱你. 却不配拥有你.
you deserve someone better.
祝你幸福................................................

让我自己一个人承担就好 ok?
毕竟我始终是做错了............