Random

Just eaten supper. Dad bought home some breads which were on special offer. 3 for $2.50. I choose the chili pork floss. Mum ate ham and egg. And dad ate the pepper sausage. Mine was not bad. Luckily I didn't choose the others. Because they contain lettuce.

Made a cup of Campbell instant mushroom soup to go with my bread. Mum bought a packet of cream corn and cream mushroom each. Don't really like the soup's taste. A tad too thick for my liking. But still alright. I scooped the mushroom chunks out first and drank up all the soup.

Was at home the whole day. It's pouring today when I woke up. Too lazy to go out. Lie on my bed and thought about lots of stuffs. Mind was confused. I asked myself. Will it still be the same when he's release? I hope so. The feeling still stays I guess. Fine. I'll know it next week.

2 more days to go.

Facebook!

I'm addicted to facebook! Mei and me spent the whole night trying to learn stuffs from it. I don't like messy profile. So have not added some features in. My profile's still a bit shaggy. Will make it all perfect by tonight.

I don't know facebook was so fun until I chanced upon it last night. Thanks Bryan for spending hours teaching a stupid me! Those who have facebook. Add me okay! Search for RongFang Tan.
Or this link to my profile > http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=636083745

Had a long talk with mei on phone last night. We slept at around 6am. O.O!
Went to BPP to shop just now. Spent more than 50 on food and stuffs. Thanks mum for paying.
Tomorrow? Not sure? Maybe going doctor's. Maybe staying at home to online since my computer doesn't crazy with me recently.

I removed lots of blog links from my page. Due to some blogs that never update its post.
If you discover I removed your links by mistake, tag me again for relink.
Because I read every single link blogs every night. And I do not wish to see dead blogs. =l

I got a big shock tonight while web browsing.
http://le-mon.com
See how much my old company's website had changed. They even moved out of Sim Lim Sq.
Wonder if my old colleagues are still there. I missed them. Missed my old selling products.
LeMON.

I suddenly got a craving for Campbell's instant soup. HOW? =D~

3 more days. :D

Counting Down

Tomorrow is his last televisit. And I've decided not to visit him. Well, maybe because he'll be release in 4 days time. If I choose to visit him at this time, no surprise already right? So I'll just wait till 22nd.

I don't seem to have that feeling anymore. The feeling of him going to be release and the happiness. I don't know why is it so. Is it because I've waited too long? Or is it the bad which is the feeling really is gone forever?

My computer seems very guai with me today. Heng till can die can? Spent my day at home. Wanted to go out to BPP actually. But it's raining monkeys at evening time. So oh well. Stay home and be pig then.

I wanted to go out. But on the other side, I wanted to save more money. Sister and him still owe me money lor. Add together got 200 plus still. And talking about sister, I have no chance to go over east side to visit him still.

Monday come faster can? I wonder if there's anybody who will accompany me to fetch him.

4 more days.

Cheers!

I don't think my computer have life to last long already. I need to do something to it. It just keep restarting all over. I smashed it just now. Then it's ok already?! -.-

Lazy to reformat. Lazy to do anything. I just want to sleep. Just back from the hospital. It's currently raining now. Current time is only 3pm. And I want to sleep.

Doctor Melvin is so cute can. It's his last appointment with me. Because he'll be going to NUH by this month end. I so miss him. To him, I can talk freely. Unlike other doctors. Some are sibei stern. Melvin's so friendly can? Will miss him. Take care doctor.

My following appointment is in 3 months time. He said I'm recovering well. Even my medication reduced from 3 to 1 only. Hooray!

It's such a fine day till even Bryan sms me this morning. Shen mo and shen mo mah. = Wei shen mo lor. I'm so glad this friendship is back to normal.

Cheers. 5 days more.

Fun!

Today was really a fun day. As expected.

I went to meet mei and ger at woodlands first. Waited quite long for mei, spent another 10 more mins waiting for ger. Can't blame her. She stays in SengKang! I surprised her as she just alight the bus. Her face was like O_O!? LOL!

Then we proceed to Cold Storage to buy snacks and stuffs. Not forgetting vodka. And sotong's beer. Bought a whole basket full of snacks, vodkas, ice cream and instant noodles for lunch. I spent a total of 40 bucks. Wow. Amazing how much we can eat huh? Damn the cashier check my IC when she saw me buying beer. And she was like blur? 85 year one ar? -_-'''

Cabbed back home after that because we were carrying, I mean my ger and mei were carrying heavy stuffs and it's raining pretty heavily. They paid for the cab because I paid for the food just now.

Sotong reached soon after we reached home. I don't think the gals were shock to see sotong though. They were like oh, you're not an alien. LOL!!! So we ate our lunch and have some rounds of dai dee. I joined in at the last few rounds. Finding myself still ok with the game.

Went downstairs and the stairs area to have a breathe of air. I wasn't feeling very comfortable so we walked back soon. Well, they also almost kope up all of mine already. Wow, pro gals. Later your mama catch I'll laugh real hard. =X

Dinner was on sotong. Mac was what they had. I didn't join in because I want to diet cut down on fried stuffs. Fast delivery service I can say. Reached in around 30 mins. I joined in eating some fries and nuggets. Then we went to the room to have some laughs.

Damn it. I was in the toilet when I heard some sibei loud screams from mei. She goes, "Jie jiu ming ah!" (Jie save me!) In a shock I really thought sotong went after her with a parang!? But later to find that actually it's sotong and ger trying to pull mei's pant down. -________-'''

They went home soon. Before that we snapped a couple of pictures.
I shall sleep now. Tomorrow's my medical appointment.


Mei, me, ger! Family photo!


Mummie and daughter!


My two darlings.


Me and my mei!

Happy!

Counting down.
1 more week and he'll be release.
Just 1 week. 7 days. 168 hours. 10080 mins.

And later will be the day where we'll all have fun at my house.
I can't wait can?
Ger, mei, me, maybe sotong also.
I SO HAPPY CAN?! :D
We're going to have LOTS of fun!

Oh ya, Habbo having lots of bots problems recently.
Luckily I DC last night. Otherwise there's a clone RongFang today at matt's room.
All of us were in purple. Then most of the bots today are dressed in purple.
So funny can?!
Note: Picture kope from mei.

I Feel Good

Was on the phone with my mei and ger till the early morning for the past few days. Discussing about serious stuffs, gossips, relationship things and of cos our Monday gathering! We broke our record. It was like 6.04am when we 'karp' down our phone.

Oh my. I can't wait for Monday can? We're going to have lots of fun. First I'll go to Woodlands and fetch my ger and mei. Then we'll buy lots of things from cold storage and go to my house after that. Where then sotong will come to join us.

I'll be quite busy next week. Monday gathering. Tuesday medical appointment. Thursday maybe I'll go and visit him via the tele visit. Weekends again! Then it's another few days and he's release. Beginning to count down. Just another 8 more days. I've waited this day for 4 months.

Mum fried a total of 13 chicken wings tonight for dinner. I ate 6 of it. Yum yum.
*Points finger and laughs at mei* LOL! =X

I feel so good can? Conf again tonight gals? =D

Boring Weekend

I have nothing to do this weekend. Karen jie is going Msia. I can't follow. Why? Cos my medical appointment is on Tuesday! And she will only be back on Tuesday noon. Guess I'll be spending this weekend staring at my computer again.

I deleted all my videos. Cos I suspected some contains virus. I was like having lots of unknown programs install out of nowhere into my comp. I deleted every single one of them. And my comp still have lots of unknown error. Bless my comp. Please. I swear I don't dare to go China websites again.

Waiting for Monday. We can smoke, eat, drink and play like monkeys all day. Poker! Uno! Habbo! Chit chat whole day long. Eat snacks and watch videos. It's really been a long time since I last had fun. And everybody was like asking me when was the last time I wen out. Err, 3 weeks ago I guess?

Someone take pity on me and jio me out this weekend please! =D

The Good And The Bad

My computer seems a little crazy again. So if I disappear online. Means, oh well. =S

Had received some good and bad news. Good news is I got his letter! *Muacks* =D

Bad news is I can't be god mama liao. Zenn confirm isn't pregnant. I was so damn sad can? More sad than her. Because I thought we can have a baby to play with w/o me being the one pregnant. Sigh. Next time then. Ced and cha boh jia you alright? I want a baby to play with. =X

His letter today is something that makes the worried gone. He's going to be release on his actual day. Which is 22nd this month. Which means another 10 more days. Woohoo! And he said his wounds had healed. And there's another coming televisit at 18th which is next Thursday. But don't think I will go and visit. As on 22nd. I'm more lazy please. It's like 9 plus in the morning. *Cries* No thanks. Unless there's anyone whom is so good to accompany me go.

*Hints at mei, ger and sister.*

I'm waiting for Monday. Which seems sotong, my ger and mei they all will be coming over my house. Some to ton. W00ts w00ts! I can't wait for that day. Guess we will have lots of fun that day. And hopefully I can meet my kio kor recently. Been long since I know him. But never had the chance to meet him before.

I LOVE ALL my friends!

Oops! Drunk!

Woke up today and still had that drunk feeling today. Had a little too much with sotong yesterday. Although sotong drank much much more then me. But that was the first time I drank up a whole can of beer by myself. And I can't take beer compare to other wines. Wonder why I can't take beer and red wine.

We were on a phone conference with my mei, ger and lilian till the early morning. Sotong left at 1 plus. And I was on phone again. This time it's with wenqian. She was crying. So I did all I could by comforting her. Hard though but I manage to cheer her up. She left the conference which me and mei were in at 3 plus.

Talked to mei till 5 plus without knowing it! My goodness! It was then I feel so tired. Dozed off in bed straight. Woke up today and keep going back to sleep because of the drunk feeling. Till I finally awake at 10 plus pm feeling refresh. I feel so good now. Going to ton the night!

Had lots of Christians friends. My dad was even asking me if I wanted be one he don't mind too. I'm thinking. Because I too believe in god. Sort of a free thinker I suppose. Friends are trying to get me to church. Maybe I'll go someday. Take it ask learning something new. Might be interesting yea?

Mei yesterday night told me about my future things. I was like ya, together with him no future. Should I chang tong bu ru duan tong break with him first? Feel like writing in to ask him. But it's sort of cruel. So well. Sigh. Don't know. Let time tells.

I Feel Good

He so WAH BIRD eh! LOL! Derek teach me de. He said next time I'm angry with someone just wah bird him. =)

PS: Wah bird = wa lan. :giggle like siao:

That wah bird guy really blocked and removed me everywhere. Sua lor. Fine lor. If he's happy. I don't mind being the upset one. Only to know that friendships are so fragile. It can be ended in such a torturing yet easy way.

I've learned my lesson again. NEVER EVER play with fire. Fire burns and kills instantly.

Never believe and trust anyone. They can be good to you this minute and stab you the next. Ouch. And I admit it hurts. I'm bleeding now.

Smoked with my dad today. I had 3 crigs in a row.

Later going out with C to drink some chilled beer. I feel good.

Don't worry people. I'm still fine off and without that person.

The Difference

I guess I need to learn the difference between
喜欢 and 习惯.
and
喜欢 and 爱.

To him, is it a feeling of 喜欢 or 习惯? I myself still not sure about that. Ever since I worked, I've been getting used to the fact that he actually fetch me to and back from work everyday. Without him by my side. It still feels the same. Not much difference. So is it 喜欢 or 习惯?

By then what's the difference between 喜欢 and 爱? Like and love. You can like your friends but you can only love your partner? No no! We can love our friends too. Love doesn't mean and don't need to involve sexual stuffs.

Come on for goodness sake. What's my feeling towards him then? I don't even know if it's 喜欢 or 习惯? Then now it's another complicated one. 喜欢 or 爱?

Please spare me la. I still don't understand and don't know. -_-

I'm a noob.

Anti Social?

I feel so neglected by my gang. Last time I could join in any outing they went. Now? I don't even know they have an outing. That was before I started working. After I starting working, things changed. My gang just don't feel the same anymore. Is it because I'm not officially part of them anymore?

I don't know. I only know friends don't call me when they have a gathering or meet up session. It's like I'm invisible. Or have they think I've become anti social like the two letters guy? I've not! I'm still waiting for the day where we could go out in a group again.

I admit now I hang around more with other friends. But that doesn't mean I don't need my gang anymore. I felt so upset.

Even sister and buddy don't hang out with me much now. Is it really that I'm anti social now? I missed the k session with uncle they all. I missed the tau huay buddy and me went to buy. I missed the speeding car I traveled in. I missed all the outings I went with my gang. I missed every single thing I do with my friends.

I missed the drinking session I always did with my colleagues. We will always went out to have a drink after work. I haven't been drinking for months. Even Zenn jio me I don't go. I want to drink now! Someone jio me go drinking please. I miss the feeling of being drunk.

Bad, I feel so damn bad now. Might be getting myself some chilled beer later. Haven't smoked for weeks. Suddenly I had the craving for a crig tonight. Blame it on my mood. My dear Marlboro Menthol Light! I just want to distress myself totally.

Tell me, have I become anti social? No right? I tried to meet up with friends. But everybody will say they ain't free. I tried to go whatever outing I know. But they just don't inform me anything. What can I do? TELL ME!

DAMN.

Yum Yum

Pictures blog tonight. FOOD!! =D

I'm hungry at 11pm. O.O
Creped into the kitchen to find something to bite on.



I found a box of OREO White Chocolate WaferSticks.
O.O!!



And a packet of Toblerone!
Yum yum!!

So I ate both of them. Greedy right? Keke.


My OREO!! He bought for me de!! =D


Damn yummy I tell you. Go for the white chocolate one instead of the chocolate.


Toblerone!! Mmm...


Too sweet for me. -_-!!!

I found something else again. O.O!!


Mentos sour mix. Is it really that sour? Let's try ok?


Wa piang!!! Damn sour la!! -_-

Let's find something sweet to digest.


Apple pudding. Ego brand. Looks nice.


Taste nice too.

Burp! Very full. Are you? =)

Confused Mind

The moment I woke up today. I saw stars. Dizzy is what I felt the moment I got up. Looking at the time. It's like 5pm already. No choice. Got to drag myself out of bed.

I feel cold. Yet it's such a hot weather. I think I must have gotten the flu bug.

Been having nightmares last night. Ain't no surprise if depression decide to come back and haunt me. Because I've been thinking way too much recently. I feel tight in my chest. Wanted to let go of it but can't.

Guess I must have been staying too long at home. It's been 2 weeks plus since I last take a walk to the outside world.

I just feel very troubled. Troubled over what? I asked myself this question. But I can't find the answer.

Just want to spend more time in bed. Computer is making me sick. Eww. Virtual world sucks.

I don't dare to think. Luckily my medical appointment is arriving in 10 days time. Phew for that.

Wanted to get a job. But on the other hand thinking of what happened last time. I do not wish to work again. Maybe going to get enough rest for this whole year.

Nobody ever appreciate what I've done. What's the use of me chiong-ing so much for company and when they earn enough I got fired? Not fair.

Still feeling not very well when I typed this blog at 10.30pm. Nobody's online. Nobody will even notice if I did not online for a day. I guess nobody will even notice if I'm dead.

Can someone just care for me?

I want to escape. Not into the virtual world now. But to Malaysia. Maybe I should go and relax a bit before my medical appointment. If not I'll hear my Doctor Melvin screaming again.

"Why why why you lidat again ar?! Give me some face leh. Recover faster leh please."

-_-

Sorry

I think I made the joke too big. And cause more newly friendships to be unstable.

I just want to let go of myself. And be a different myself in virtual. I don't know I can hurt the real self.

I admit I have some hatred towards guys ever since that guy's matter happened on me. The me now just like to fool around with guys and made them taste their own medicine in return.

To me all guys ain't good. They're flirts. So the only way to win them is flirt back with them. Till Zenn asked me to stop being such a flirt. It was then I woke up.

I guess I won. The misunderstanding arrives. And I can just slap my butt and get out of the ass hole like nothing happened.

I'm sorry for friends I hurt during my fool around mood. I just want to be friendly. Not knowing another Darren's matter would happened again.

Sigh. I feel so damn bad now. Esp towards my him and my dear friend. Just leave me alone for now. I feel so ashamed to face anyone.

Sigh

Fast. Today's already the 4th Oct. Another 18 more days. I'm starting to count down.

News about me and Bryan started spreading in Habbo. Which is nonsense. I just laughed it off. He's just like Dreamze and Fai. My buddies. That's all. I'm glad things started to cool off today. Wonder why when two well known people are close, news about them spread damn flying fast. But when two normal people got together as friends, there's simply no news about them at all. This world. Sigh.

Had a big quarrel with C yesterday. This matter about C and me had been disturbing me recently. I called up my doctor to tell him. Which he goes like.
"You want to get depression again? Learn to let go of this friendship."
Well, I can't. I treasure friendships a lot. Esp mine and C's. We've been friends for like 2 years plus.
I don't know everything now. Sigh.

Been getting nonsense calls from that person again. I feel threaten. Can't you just leave me alone? You have a wife, a family. Me, nothing. Kindly just leave me alone. I know you're still reading my blog. Just please, let me off.

Sigh. Everything is just so...

The Not Funny Joke

The joke isn't funny okay? It's making me go T.T

And I don't even dare to step into Habbo. I'm afraid of all these. My gang, go on, tease me childish if you think it is. But frankly, I'm being bothered by it very much. Although I tried to behave like nothing happened, but I just can't.

Sorry, I just don't want another Fai's matter to happen again. Remember how Fai and me avoid each other last time. All because of scandals and gossips and rumors. It's more worse the previous time. Habz and Litez were involved.

Anyway, time to stop it. Otherwise it will cause more of my friendships to be gone case. Since C and my problem haven't been solve yet. I wonder when can everything be alright.

I slept my time away again. Just trying to waste my life away. I told ya, I've lost my direction. So just let me remain being lost for the time being. Someone, shine a torch on me please. All I can see is total darkness in front of me.

I'm lost. Totally lost.

Belated Children's Day

I have nothing to blog tonight. Forget that yesterday's Children's Day. Oh well, I've long forgotten the day ever since I left school. It's been like 10 years since I last celebrated this holiday for the kids.

Slept till quite late today. 5pm. =x
I got up, shocked.
Ate my late lunch and I got online. Only to find out nobody's here. -_-
Luckily a sms and my DEAR DEAR's here. LOL!
Just joking. :D

I'm still feeling sleepy now. Had to wait for my show to be completed before I can head off to bed once again. Another 3 more weeks. I just hope to spend my time on bed and online more.

Got a call from his friend just now. Asking if he's release yet. Scared me to death ok? Why so many people know my phone no suddenly? -_-?

I want to go out already. Tired of staying at home everyday. Going to find my darling sister if possible. And my dear mei. I'm so worried for her please. Maybe I'll go visit her one of these days. Mei take care kk! Love you muchie muchie!

Oct!!

It's already Oct today! Another 3 more weeks and he'll be release.
Hooray for Oct. I have never like Oct in my whole life before. But this year I love it so much! Muacks!

Been having the company of Bryan and mei these few days. So time passes by easily. Actually wanted to went out for some shopping trip. But was trying to save up more money. So yea. I didn't go out for like 2 weeks already. Been staying at home for 24/7.
Oh man, someone just ASK me out please?
Don't want to spend too much. Just a walk around, eat, relax and back home.

I wanted to go ECP again. Changi Airport too. I love the east side of SG. I don't know why. Just love it somehow.
*Hints hints* LOL! :D