Done a good deed tonight. I'm feeling so good now.
Feeling terrible but not wanting those around me to feel this way too. So just help in which ever way I can. And glad all is perfect. Things should be better now. He's happy, she'll be happy, they're happy, I'm happy too. As long as I can bring happiness to the others. I don't mind being the one holding unhappiness alone.
Was feeling moody the whole day. Got quite a few blows today. Plus yesterday's less like shit commission and the scene and call I saw and received confuses me.
The commission was so damn less. Not what I expected. Not what I can even think it will be too. Just a mere $80 plus bucks for the whole January. I sold more than $9000 worth of products and the commission is just like shit. Disappointed. Very much. Commission plus salary is only less than a thousand. I can't believe I'm still doing this job.
Vincent wanted to get me out of IMM in March. To a far place such as Changi Airport or Tampines. I don't want! I only want to stay in Newstead. Low said I'm silly to have such thinkings. Because changing new surrounding means new friends. But I just so can't bear to leave all of them. Plus those places are so far. Kelvin suggested that I quited and join Newstead. But will be at Sim Lim or Funan. Don't know. I just want to stay with them. Childish me you might say. But I don't care. He dare transfer me I'll give him the cuttlefish. Sick and tired of the job anyway.
Recommend Sugi over to work at Newstead. Seems all is going on well. Uncle wanted him to help out at the IT roadshow this coming March. Hope all will go well for him. Maybe we'll be colleagues soon either at Sim Lim or Funan. Haha. Who knows? I'm sick of sucking that sucky lemon. Lol. Need a fresh apple to bite on.
I just want to live life happier. Can I? Why is that I can cheer those around me yet I'm still in a dull mood myself? Bless me to have everything sailing smoothly. Bless me to stay rooted in IMM for the coming months. Bless me to don't have to worry about his problem and trying to know what step he will take next.
The game is still not over yet.....
To be continue.....
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Don't know
He called. Unknown number.
Happy? Delighted? Don't feel any.
Had a long talk. Asked for a way out.
Confused mind. Can't help anymore.
Maybe disappear after this, forever. Rejected to help.
What to tell when ask? The same old thing?
Don't know and don't want to know.
It's still the same? Doubt so.
Maybe it's really time. To make a decision.
Bear to? Maybe? Perhaps?
Already used to this life. Yet back suddenly.
Changed. Totally changed. Life and self. But not the way.
Everything is just so different now. The past can't be back again.
I don't even know which is truth or lie.
Which is real or dream already.
Let's see how it goes for now.
Tired. Lazy to think and care. Need a rest.
How I wish all is just a nightmare. Wake up. Problem gone.
Awhile more. Just awhile more and it's the end.
Bang. Game over. You're dead.
Why did you came back?
WHY?
怎麼了 - VJ
走到看不見 我們說好了再也不見
你用一首歌 送走了我們愛的從前
我讓你的淚 靜靜的躺在日出之前
越來越遙遠 是不是黑夜忘了白天
在指尖 彈奏著思念
不過一轉眼時間分離感覺離開了身邊
怎麼你會捨得這麼走了就把一切忘了
在風乾了之後雨帶走了所有快樂
怎麼你說過的我們愛的這一切都碎了
愛已不能選擇 放手讓你走了 我到底怎麼了
想你的時間 全世界燈火為我熄滅
忘記你之前 讓我再好好看你一遍
你讓我的淚 狠狠的落在寂寞裡面
越來越遙遠 黑夜徹底遺棄了白天
在指尖 彈奏著思念
不過一轉眼時間分離感覺離開了身邊
怎麼你會捨得這麼走了就把一切忘了
在風乾了之後雨帶走了所有快樂
怎麼你說過的我們愛的這一切都碎了
愛已不能選擇 放手讓你走了 我到底怎麼了
Happy? Delighted? Don't feel any.
Had a long talk. Asked for a way out.
Confused mind. Can't help anymore.
Maybe disappear after this, forever. Rejected to help.
What to tell when ask? The same old thing?
Don't know and don't want to know.
It's still the same? Doubt so.
Maybe it's really time. To make a decision.
Bear to? Maybe? Perhaps?
Already used to this life. Yet back suddenly.
Changed. Totally changed. Life and self. But not the way.
Everything is just so different now. The past can't be back again.
I don't even know which is truth or lie.
Which is real or dream already.
Let's see how it goes for now.
Tired. Lazy to think and care. Need a rest.
How I wish all is just a nightmare. Wake up. Problem gone.
Awhile more. Just awhile more and it's the end.
Bang. Game over. You're dead.
Why did you came back?
WHY?
怎麼了 - VJ
走到看不見 我們說好了再也不見
你用一首歌 送走了我們愛的從前
我讓你的淚 靜靜的躺在日出之前
越來越遙遠 是不是黑夜忘了白天
在指尖 彈奏著思念
不過一轉眼時間分離感覺離開了身邊
怎麼你會捨得這麼走了就把一切忘了
在風乾了之後雨帶走了所有快樂
怎麼你說過的我們愛的這一切都碎了
愛已不能選擇 放手讓你走了 我到底怎麼了
想你的時間 全世界燈火為我熄滅
忘記你之前 讓我再好好看你一遍
你讓我的淚 狠狠的落在寂寞裡面
越來越遙遠 黑夜徹底遺棄了白天
在指尖 彈奏著思念
不過一轉眼時間分離感覺離開了身邊
怎麼你會捨得這麼走了就把一切忘了
在風乾了之後雨帶走了所有快樂
怎麼你說過的我們愛的這一切都碎了
愛已不能選擇 放手讓你走了 我到底怎麼了
Monday, February 26, 2007
Sunshine sunday
Stupid blogger. Since few days ago I can't access a few of my friends blog. Now I can't even create a new post. I believe the problem lies with my network connection. Guess I have to keep editing the previous day's post till this problem gets solve.
Not a bad day today. Spent the whole day reading my novel and finished it. Bought three Amy Cheung's novels from popular two days ago and finished one book per day. She's my favourtite author. Pity out of the three novels I only like one of it.
Bumped into Kelvin when I reached my workplace this morning. He's so not gentleman. Won't even hold the door for me and allow me to walk in since I'm just a few steps behind him. Mr Kelvin Chua just shut the door right infront of my face. Pissed. But when he asked me to help cover up his dinner first because he's serving a customer. I gave in again. Guess I'm just too soft hearted. I'm asked never to be too kind to guys.
Didn't manage to get any news for the job that I'm looking for Sugi. Hope uncle's coming over next few days so that I can ask him personally. Was dozing off the whole day at work mainly because of not enough sleep and the medication I'm on. Thanks Low for cheering me up today with his cheeky indian dance. Lol. So funny can?
Why are all good guys taken? Only sold 2 sets today. The last set sold was a last minute one. Darren's crazy to call me up at 4 plus am yesterday night. Making me lack of sleep. But still I did what I can to help him. Accompany him chat. Too nice of me? Maybe? Or maybe not? Am not nice. Because I don't know how to be a lady. A true lady. I rather be a guy. I hate to be a girl.
Went dinner-ing at Pepper Lunch with da jie, sp rasyidah and jes. Sp mei surprise me with a heart shape bracelet from diva. I love it so much. Thanks mei! Actually just planned to meet da jie for dinner. But since she jio-ed rasyidah and I jio-ed sp and jes wanted to join us. All of us had a great dinner and chit chat session together. I love Pepper Lunch so much. Not that ex since it's only slightly over 10 plus bucks. Must enjoy and pamper myself with good food once in a while.
Need to sleep early although it's my off day later. Going over to Sim Lim early to collect my commission and pass Vincent some stocks and documents. Wonder how much commission I'll have. Hope it will be around 200 bucks. Less than 100 bucks I'll go bang my head on the wall. After that will go over to Causeway for my treatment. And perhaps watch a movie. Fann Wong's movie seems interesting. Bless me with a great day later please. No unlucky matters and I'll be too glad.
Deleted off my previous post. I don't find it meaningful anymore. Guys are jerks. They expect you to be always there for them. But when we need their comfort and listening ears, MIA is what we'll get. They are so damn selfish. You can't blame me if I hate all the guys in the world suddenly one day. I'll like to be a guy in my next life. And see what if feels like. Should be a shiok feeling to use girls and just asked them to shoo off right?
Bad day at work. Lost a few customers due to crowds. Since they can't wait, just go off then. I don't mind not earning your few cents commission. You expect me be at the cashier to help Joanne with other customers payment, and at the same time serving you at my counter? If only you're able to split me into two. I don't see why not then.
Was through out quiet today. The guys were wondering if I'm feeling unwell. A big thank you to Low for always being there to care for me. But wonder why. The good guys are always taken. Leaving those bad and rotted or had already rotten ones to single ladies. Ended up causing so much pain to them. I hate being bullied. Time to stand up for myself.
Vincent was upset that I always got bullied and cheated by customers. Saying I'm his most cui ruo promoter. Lol. Perhaps, I'm just too soft hearted. That's why I fell for lies easily. Got cheated and hurt easily. This year's just so not my year. So many bad stuff happened. Can even got hit by a fallen thick tree branch and got a deep cut on my head while I was walking today. Can even dropped 50 bucks without noticing it yesterday. Can even let me know this kind of fucking guy.
How will my life be if I didn't know him? Maybe plain. But for sure it will be better than now. If he wants to carry on mia-ing. Go ahead. Just get lost from my life forever and don't ever come back. I don't mind losing what I've lost. Since I can earn it back. Just take it as a lesson learn. I hate being making used of. I'm not a stand in girl friend nor someone that you can cheat. I hate it!
Promised Sugi the job. But turns out they're not very interested in hiring student pass holders. Faint. The world is always unfair. It's a biased world. You need to give some before you can gain some. Actually wanted to make up to him for mistaking and not be friending him for the previous while. But guess this can't help him in any way. Wish you luck then.
Guys are weird humans who's dumb and won't catch any hints. Always those catch no ball type. Or they're trying to grab attention by doing some funny actions. Eg Kelvin today. He's the one who said wanted choco. Bought it for him he still can go huh? Dumb bell. Passed to you just put them in the fridge lah. Don't tell me put in your pocket meh? And the guy who works at the shop beside me tries to grab my attention by blowing into my ears when I walked past him. Plus the previous time when he just hugged me from behind at JE. I can't stand guys!
Guys. Shoo. If only the world is left with only girls. Wah?? Lesbians all over? LOL!
Not a bad day today. Spent the whole day reading my novel and finished it. Bought three Amy Cheung's novels from popular two days ago and finished one book per day. She's my favourtite author. Pity out of the three novels I only like one of it.
Bumped into Kelvin when I reached my workplace this morning. He's so not gentleman. Won't even hold the door for me and allow me to walk in since I'm just a few steps behind him. Mr Kelvin Chua just shut the door right infront of my face. Pissed. But when he asked me to help cover up his dinner first because he's serving a customer. I gave in again. Guess I'm just too soft hearted. I'm asked never to be too kind to guys.
Didn't manage to get any news for the job that I'm looking for Sugi. Hope uncle's coming over next few days so that I can ask him personally. Was dozing off the whole day at work mainly because of not enough sleep and the medication I'm on. Thanks Low for cheering me up today with his cheeky indian dance. Lol. So funny can?
Why are all good guys taken? Only sold 2 sets today. The last set sold was a last minute one. Darren's crazy to call me up at 4 plus am yesterday night. Making me lack of sleep. But still I did what I can to help him. Accompany him chat. Too nice of me? Maybe? Or maybe not? Am not nice. Because I don't know how to be a lady. A true lady. I rather be a guy. I hate to be a girl.
Went dinner-ing at Pepper Lunch with da jie, sp rasyidah and jes. Sp mei surprise me with a heart shape bracelet from diva. I love it so much. Thanks mei! Actually just planned to meet da jie for dinner. But since she jio-ed rasyidah and I jio-ed sp and jes wanted to join us. All of us had a great dinner and chit chat session together. I love Pepper Lunch so much. Not that ex since it's only slightly over 10 plus bucks. Must enjoy and pamper myself with good food once in a while.
Need to sleep early although it's my off day later. Going over to Sim Lim early to collect my commission and pass Vincent some stocks and documents. Wonder how much commission I'll have. Hope it will be around 200 bucks. Less than 100 bucks I'll go bang my head on the wall. After that will go over to Causeway for my treatment. And perhaps watch a movie. Fann Wong's movie seems interesting. Bless me with a great day later please. No unlucky matters and I'll be too glad.
Deleted off my previous post. I don't find it meaningful anymore. Guys are jerks. They expect you to be always there for them. But when we need their comfort and listening ears, MIA is what we'll get. They are so damn selfish. You can't blame me if I hate all the guys in the world suddenly one day. I'll like to be a guy in my next life. And see what if feels like. Should be a shiok feeling to use girls and just asked them to shoo off right?
Bad day at work. Lost a few customers due to crowds. Since they can't wait, just go off then. I don't mind not earning your few cents commission. You expect me be at the cashier to help Joanne with other customers payment, and at the same time serving you at my counter? If only you're able to split me into two. I don't see why not then.
Was through out quiet today. The guys were wondering if I'm feeling unwell. A big thank you to Low for always being there to care for me. But wonder why. The good guys are always taken. Leaving those bad and rotted or had already rotten ones to single ladies. Ended up causing so much pain to them. I hate being bullied. Time to stand up for myself.
Vincent was upset that I always got bullied and cheated by customers. Saying I'm his most cui ruo promoter. Lol. Perhaps, I'm just too soft hearted. That's why I fell for lies easily. Got cheated and hurt easily. This year's just so not my year. So many bad stuff happened. Can even got hit by a fallen thick tree branch and got a deep cut on my head while I was walking today. Can even dropped 50 bucks without noticing it yesterday. Can even let me know this kind of fucking guy.
How will my life be if I didn't know him? Maybe plain. But for sure it will be better than now. If he wants to carry on mia-ing. Go ahead. Just get lost from my life forever and don't ever come back. I don't mind losing what I've lost. Since I can earn it back. Just take it as a lesson learn. I hate being making used of. I'm not a stand in girl friend nor someone that you can cheat. I hate it!
Promised Sugi the job. But turns out they're not very interested in hiring student pass holders. Faint. The world is always unfair. It's a biased world. You need to give some before you can gain some. Actually wanted to make up to him for mistaking and not be friending him for the previous while. But guess this can't help him in any way. Wish you luck then.
Guys are weird humans who's dumb and won't catch any hints. Always those catch no ball type. Or they're trying to grab attention by doing some funny actions. Eg Kelvin today. He's the one who said wanted choco. Bought it for him he still can go huh? Dumb bell. Passed to you just put them in the fridge lah. Don't tell me put in your pocket meh? And the guy who works at the shop beside me tries to grab my attention by blowing into my ears when I walked past him. Plus the previous time when he just hugged me from behind at JE. I can't stand guys!
Guys. Shoo. If only the world is left with only girls. Wah?? Lesbians all over? LOL!
Friday, February 23, 2007
What a life
Painful day today. Ouch. Foot hurts like crazy. Ouch ouch. Mum went to collect my X-Ray films. I see here see there never see anything wrong. Doctor also said all is alright. Then why is it still fucking hurting painful? I even had to hop bai nian-ing to uncle. Got quite a fat ang pao from him. Used it to buy Amy Cheuny's new novel. Some more today shop closed early for CNY dinner. Can slack a bit. Eat ice cream, went shopping awhile also.
But it's still a bad day at work. That guy is back to work. And all the unlucky matters started to happen. I really believe that he's my jinx now. I was hopping around in the shop. He warned me to be wary of my electric cables. I noticed it already but ended up he's the one who tripped over it. And dragged me along down. So I just fell on top of him squashing him flat. The pose is so the wah piang eh. Anyway this cause my foot to hurt even more.
Went to buy beer to kill the painfulness. Then Jes and me quarreled over the beer. And I nearly slapped her for stopping me from drinking. I don't drink it at the shop. Why should you care? I'm already suffering in hell. Controlling myself not to smoke. Now still need to control myself not to drink? I know I've changed a hell lot. Previously I'll scold Mei for smoking. But now I smoked a hell lot myself. Not that a lot. Just when I feel stress, then I'll go puffing and drinking.
Well, things do changed. Surroundings etc. Now people around me are my colleagues. Couple of months ago I'm still laughing and smiling all day. Now I'm frowning and crying and maybe sometimes having a fake laugh to go along with the others. Today I even called Darren up and cried to him. He's already vexed with his gf's stuff yet I added on a burden to him. Sorry but I'm too tired to hide everything to myself. All because of the matter. If I don't get an answer for it, I won't give up. Still waiting. Not given up hope yet.
你相信吗？
我相信。
因为相信比较幸福。
But it's still a bad day at work. That guy is back to work. And all the unlucky matters started to happen. I really believe that he's my jinx now. I was hopping around in the shop. He warned me to be wary of my electric cables. I noticed it already but ended up he's the one who tripped over it. And dragged me along down. So I just fell on top of him squashing him flat. The pose is so the wah piang eh. Anyway this cause my foot to hurt even more.
Went to buy beer to kill the painfulness. Then Jes and me quarreled over the beer. And I nearly slapped her for stopping me from drinking. I don't drink it at the shop. Why should you care? I'm already suffering in hell. Controlling myself not to smoke. Now still need to control myself not to drink? I know I've changed a hell lot. Previously I'll scold Mei for smoking. But now I smoked a hell lot myself. Not that a lot. Just when I feel stress, then I'll go puffing and drinking.
Well, things do changed. Surroundings etc. Now people around me are my colleagues. Couple of months ago I'm still laughing and smiling all day. Now I'm frowning and crying and maybe sometimes having a fake laugh to go along with the others. Today I even called Darren up and cried to him. He's already vexed with his gf's stuff yet I added on a burden to him. Sorry but I'm too tired to hide everything to myself. All because of the matter. If I don't get an answer for it, I won't give up. Still waiting. Not given up hope yet.
你相信吗？
我相信。
因为相信比较幸福。
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Had a bad day
My close ones will know that when I fell in love with a certain song, I'll keep repeating it non stop. My previous favourite song was Xu Jie Er's I Wanna Be With You. Been repeating it for more than a 100 times on winamp. Currently I fell in love with VJ's Zen Me Le which is in Jungiery's Ai De Qi Ji 3's album.
First day of work after CNY. Newstead was plain boring. The new admin is nice. A friendly Malay lady. Kelvin was suppose to come back today. But we didn't even see his shadow. Filled with anger and yet worried for him. But guess worrying is extra. Coz I saw him logging into Friendster. Just wonder where he gone to. Why he didn't report to work today.
Ended up Newstead short of staffs. Even with the help of Jes. There's still not enough people. Only Julian, Jimmy and Jes. The three J's. You think that's enough? So no choice I had to help with the odds and ends too. I keep running from Toshiba's counter to HP's counter and back to my Le-Mon counter. With my hurt foot in heels. Can die man.
Sold a voice recorder today which made my day filled of joy. Not bad for CNY open sales. Trying to get myself numb in work to forget everything unhappy. What past is past. What matters now is the future. Since my doubts are cleared. Shouldn't I be much more happier then before? Lose a little gain back so much. As in friendship etc. A came to find me for dinner today. So glad that she came. At least I won't feel that lonely and feel that there's only me alone in this world.
Been worrying for my foot. Medical report out. My doctor called to say nothing is wrong. Then why is it so fucking pain then? He suspect something serious. Eg: Bone cancer. Have to go for a blood test on one of my free day. In the meantime, I need more painkillers. Lastly, I'll still be here for you buddy no matter what. If only things still remain the same. How nice can it be? Wishful thinkings again.
First day of work after CNY. Newstead was plain boring. The new admin is nice. A friendly Malay lady. Kelvin was suppose to come back today. But we didn't even see his shadow. Filled with anger and yet worried for him. But guess worrying is extra. Coz I saw him logging into Friendster. Just wonder where he gone to. Why he didn't report to work today.
Ended up Newstead short of staffs. Even with the help of Jes. There's still not enough people. Only Julian, Jimmy and Jes. The three J's. You think that's enough? So no choice I had to help with the odds and ends too. I keep running from Toshiba's counter to HP's counter and back to my Le-Mon counter. With my hurt foot in heels. Can die man.
Sold a voice recorder today which made my day filled of joy. Not bad for CNY open sales. Trying to get myself numb in work to forget everything unhappy. What past is past. What matters now is the future. Since my doubts are cleared. Shouldn't I be much more happier then before? Lose a little gain back so much. As in friendship etc. A came to find me for dinner today. So glad that she came. At least I won't feel that lonely and feel that there's only me alone in this world.
Been worrying for my foot. Medical report out. My doctor called to say nothing is wrong. Then why is it so fucking pain then? He suspect something serious. Eg: Bone cancer. Have to go for a blood test on one of my free day. In the meantime, I need more painkillers. Lastly, I'll still be here for you buddy no matter what. If only things still remain the same. How nice can it be? Wishful thinkings again.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Time to chiong
I can't believe it. CNY's holiday is over.
AHHHHH!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
Nin lao hia. Why so fast one? T_T
Starting from later onwards it's another 11-8 day. 11am to 8pm working hours again. I don't want man. I want to laze at home like today and sleep till 3pm. Wishful thinking. No more 3pm for me from now on. It's 9am again. The worst nightmare is I have to handle all those freaking unreasonable customers again. I hate it.
I'm so tired of working. Since I started work I drifted from all my friends. Esp those best friends of mine. Think I really got to play Dota in order to keep in contact with Darren. Must learn dota-ing for the sake of him. See? I'm such a nice friend? And also need to play er er, what game is darling sister playing now ah? Piangz. =.=
Went shopping today and spent around 200 bucks. Jitao all my ang pao money gone. Bought a bag for work, the J-Star album, some woman's stuff and tons of stay pretty stuff from Watsons. Better can collect my last month's commission soon. If not I'll be dead meat. Don't care already. Tomorrow wearing 3/4 jeans to work. Although Vincent will scream if he knows. Who cares. Not as if I didn't wear anything.
I'm still in CNY mood. Ate too much CNY foodies. Now my throat hurts. I've gobbled up more than 3 tins of CNY foodies. Excluding bah kua and chocolates. Think I've gained a few kilos from them. Still waiting for my medical report. Hope everything turns out well. I don't want to stay in hospital during CNY. Although I really wish to fake MC soon.
I need to spend more time to accompany Darren more. He's still not in a stable mood. Although he keep ensure me that he's perfectly alright. Guess I'll rush home soon after work. To just have a little chat with him everyday. No more time keeping the Newstead guys company anymore. I'm already scared of the IMM building.
Tomorrow can see Jes and Kelvin again. So happy can? Time to chiong for more commission. The few days of CNY holiday really is great. Boosted up my energy level again. Can't wait for another long holiday. Since I've boosted up my energy it's time to boost my sales too. Chiong for the 20000 bucks target! I want the 4% commission! Rong rong jia you!
AHHHHH!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
Nin lao hia. Why so fast one? T_T
Starting from later onwards it's another 11-8 day. 11am to 8pm working hours again. I don't want man. I want to laze at home like today and sleep till 3pm. Wishful thinking. No more 3pm for me from now on. It's 9am again. The worst nightmare is I have to handle all those freaking unreasonable customers again. I hate it.
I'm so tired of working. Since I started work I drifted from all my friends. Esp those best friends of mine. Think I really got to play Dota in order to keep in contact with Darren. Must learn dota-ing for the sake of him. See? I'm such a nice friend? And also need to play er er, what game is darling sister playing now ah? Piangz. =.=
Went shopping today and spent around 200 bucks. Jitao all my ang pao money gone. Bought a bag for work, the J-Star album, some woman's stuff and tons of stay pretty stuff from Watsons. Better can collect my last month's commission soon. If not I'll be dead meat. Don't care already. Tomorrow wearing 3/4 jeans to work. Although Vincent will scream if he knows. Who cares. Not as if I didn't wear anything.
I'm still in CNY mood. Ate too much CNY foodies. Now my throat hurts. I've gobbled up more than 3 tins of CNY foodies. Excluding bah kua and chocolates. Think I've gained a few kilos from them. Still waiting for my medical report. Hope everything turns out well. I don't want to stay in hospital during CNY. Although I really wish to fake MC soon.
I need to spend more time to accompany Darren more. He's still not in a stable mood. Although he keep ensure me that he's perfectly alright. Guess I'll rush home soon after work. To just have a little chat with him everyday. No more time keeping the Newstead guys company anymore. I'm already scared of the IMM building.
Tomorrow can see Jes and Kelvin again. So happy can? Time to chiong for more commission. The few days of CNY holiday really is great. Boosted up my energy level again. Can't wait for another long holiday. Since I've boosted up my energy it's time to boost my sales too. Chiong for the 20000 bucks target! I want the 4% commission! Rong rong jia you!
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Not a happy new year
Thanks. You're still the best. Was so glad that you asked me to call you. Coz I'm really worried about you. The 1 hour phone conversation we had was good. Although there's like more than 30 mins of dead air. But as what you said, at least we won't feel lonely. You'll know there's a company just a phone call distance away.
Guys, when they are having problems, they drink. And drink till dead drunk. From the way he typed and talked, he's indeed seriously drunk. How I wish I can drink too. If only there's some extra bucks for me to spend. He's kind of shock that I actually drink and smoke so much. Said I did changed. Said maybe it's coz I went through a lot.
He's still the one who understands me best. Regarding that matter, he's the only one who didn't scold me for it. Instead he comfort me. Saying all will be over soon. Asked me not to think about it since it already happened. Well, I'm so fortune and blessed to have such a buddy like you. If only your troubles will be freed soon. Haiz. Our life sux.
Don't understand why his gal don't cherish such a nice bf. Always making him so vexed. I can't even help myself now. How can I help him? I still have so many problems to clear. Think I'll collapse first before I settle those matters. You must be there for me okay? I'm going to depend on you again. Once again I've to trouble you. Sorry buddy.
Don't mia on me please. You know you're important to me. Funny indeed. Both of us are having so many problems. Maybe at least we can have a support for each other. Not that bad either right? If only I can spare a little more time to have a chat with you. Guess you'll feel bettter then. Sorry, what a bad friend I am. But please, you better don't drink so much le.
I'm tired. And he knows it's mentally tired although he doesn't even read my blog. See, that's what a true buddy is. Someone who can understand you really well and reads your mind.
Darren, wo hen lei le. Why are both of our life so tough always? Haiz.
His msn personal msg, very true indeed.
(Love, a simple word.. yet full of abstruct meaning..)
I tmd damn hate the L-O-V-E word and some guys now. I'm so afraid of being alone.
Guys, when they are having problems, they drink. And drink till dead drunk. From the way he typed and talked, he's indeed seriously drunk. How I wish I can drink too. If only there's some extra bucks for me to spend. He's kind of shock that I actually drink and smoke so much. Said I did changed. Said maybe it's coz I went through a lot.
He's still the one who understands me best. Regarding that matter, he's the only one who didn't scold me for it. Instead he comfort me. Saying all will be over soon. Asked me not to think about it since it already happened. Well, I'm so fortune and blessed to have such a buddy like you. If only your troubles will be freed soon. Haiz. Our life sux.
Don't understand why his gal don't cherish such a nice bf. Always making him so vexed. I can't even help myself now. How can I help him? I still have so many problems to clear. Think I'll collapse first before I settle those matters. You must be there for me okay? I'm going to depend on you again. Once again I've to trouble you. Sorry buddy.
Don't mia on me please. You know you're important to me. Funny indeed. Both of us are having so many problems. Maybe at least we can have a support for each other. Not that bad either right? If only I can spare a little more time to have a chat with you. Guess you'll feel bettter then. Sorry, what a bad friend I am. But please, you better don't drink so much le.
I'm tired. And he knows it's mentally tired although he doesn't even read my blog. See, that's what a true buddy is. Someone who can understand you really well and reads your mind.
Darren, wo hen lei le. Why are both of our life so tough always? Haiz.
His msn personal msg, very true indeed.
(Love, a simple word.. yet full of abstruct meaning..)
I tmd damn hate the L-O-V-E word and some guys now. I'm so afraid of being alone.
Monday, February 19, 2007
The CNY journey
CNY day one is always the day to rush. First to aunt's house. Next to uncle's house. Lastly to godma's house. Arranged to meet cousin fenni at aunt's house. We both arrived at about the same time. Stayed for less than 15 mins and we're off to uncle's house. Coz we can sense that aunt's still not in good mood. She's still upset about her son my cousin who passed away in an accident last year.
And yes, her ang pao shrink 30 bucks. No choice. We feel ke lian for her and my cousin's wife too. She got 3 young kids to bring up. How can she survive? How is she able to feed herself and her kids? Haiz. My poor family, all my cousins left us one by one. First it was uncle's son who passed away coz of cancer. Now aunt's son also. When can our family have a bit of luck and fortune happenings?
Stayed quite long at uncle's house due to the pouring rain. The whole house was so crowded and warm. My jie jie and all her 4 sons came. Think her eldest son got gf already. Stress. He's the same age as me but as his aunt I'm still single. Luckily they didn't ask me this question. Chatted with fenni for the whole noon. Coz we just don't know how to mix in with the others.
Collected quite an lot of ang paos there. Seems they know I'm working. Ang pao jitao shrink like mad. Nvm man. It's the thought that counts. Parted with fenni and went off to godma's house soon after. Stayed for dinner and chatted with my twins cousins for a long time. Bought a 3/4 pants and a puma jacket from cousin jiayi for 30 plus bucks. Got 2 pairs of shoes back too.
Counted all my ang paos total amount. A total of 250 bucks plus what my parents gave me. The most least amount I've collected ever. Normally it's 300 to 400 bucks. When you're getting older and started working, the ang pao automatically shrinks it's amount. Paid for the cab fee also. I'm so broke now.
Home and it's time to rest. All the family we have to go had already chiong over. Finally can slack at home for another two days before I start work. Sister said he'll come over with his gf for visiting later. Not sure if he will ps me. Chatted with darren awhile and told him about all the things that happened around me recently.
Thanks for holding your hp in hand and let me have a 24/7 company again. You know I won't call to wake you up. But I feel the warmth given by you again. It's always you who treated and understand me the best. I'm so blessed to know such a wonderful buddy like you. Thanks for everything. I'm ashamed of myself for being such a lousy friend though. I'll be a better friend for you. Just for you. Promise. Friends forever.
And yes, her ang pao shrink 30 bucks. No choice. We feel ke lian for her and my cousin's wife too. She got 3 young kids to bring up. How can she survive? How is she able to feed herself and her kids? Haiz. My poor family, all my cousins left us one by one. First it was uncle's son who passed away coz of cancer. Now aunt's son also. When can our family have a bit of luck and fortune happenings?
Stayed quite long at uncle's house due to the pouring rain. The whole house was so crowded and warm. My jie jie and all her 4 sons came. Think her eldest son got gf already. Stress. He's the same age as me but as his aunt I'm still single. Luckily they didn't ask me this question. Chatted with fenni for the whole noon. Coz we just don't know how to mix in with the others.
Collected quite an lot of ang paos there. Seems they know I'm working. Ang pao jitao shrink like mad. Nvm man. It's the thought that counts. Parted with fenni and went off to godma's house soon after. Stayed for dinner and chatted with my twins cousins for a long time. Bought a 3/4 pants and a puma jacket from cousin jiayi for 30 plus bucks. Got 2 pairs of shoes back too.
Counted all my ang paos total amount. A total of 250 bucks plus what my parents gave me. The most least amount I've collected ever. Normally it's 300 to 400 bucks. When you're getting older and started working, the ang pao automatically shrinks it's amount. Paid for the cab fee also. I'm so broke now.
Home and it's time to rest. All the family we have to go had already chiong over. Finally can slack at home for another two days before I start work. Sister said he'll come over with his gf for visiting later. Not sure if he will ps me. Chatted with darren awhile and told him about all the things that happened around me recently.
Thanks for holding your hp in hand and let me have a 24/7 company again. You know I won't call to wake you up. But I feel the warmth given by you again. It's always you who treated and understand me the best. I'm so blessed to know such a wonderful buddy like you. Thanks for everything. I'm ashamed of myself for being such a lousy friend though. I'll be a better friend for you. Just for you. Promise. Friends forever.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Starting afresh in the new year
Happy CNY to all.
Every year's CNY means nothing much to me. Perhaps only those ang paos means something to me. But I admit I'm too old for ang paos now. My family doesn't eat reunion dinner. You hungry you eat first. That's it. After dinner parents will pass me an ang pao each. Then they will watch their TV and I will face my computer.
I don't watch Mediacorp's countdown show since don't know which year onwards. Find it utterly lame and boring. I rather spend my time sleeping. Since now I'm busy till I don't even have the time to have a good night rest. I just want to enjoy my time sleeping, eating, online and watching DVD these few days. Don't wish to do or think anything else more.
Thought I'll be able to rest today. But nah, still need to go over for X Ray at Jurong East. Seems there's a slight crack at the bone. They'll pass the report back to my family doctor. And let him decide if I'm going to continue my injection and medication or go for a minor op. Things changed so much recently. Without him by my side, everything seems to be in a mess.
Went over to Newstead to look for the guys. Low's esp handsome today. Helped them ta bao food as usual. And shopped at Giant with Jes for more CNY goodies. Before reaching IMM, bumped into the Ogawa guy at JE. And he actually hugged me from behind. Got a huge shock. Nearly screamed molest. Told ya nobody treated me as a lady. Newstead guys and him called me brother. "Yo, brother where are you going?"
I'm so lucky to know the Newstead people. Although lots of matters happened recently but no worries, I'll survived. I'm a pa buay si cockroach. Maybe just need to find another guy who can kill cockroach for me. Haha. As uncle said, anything I still have Kelvin to protect me. Yea, so true. =.= Julian's right. New year's here. Unhappy things that happened the previous year should be gone with the old year. And I've promise Julian that I'll be a different self when I go back after CNY. Their brand new cheerful xiao mei.
I've awake. It's already a new year. Time to let go those unhappy past. Holding on to them is useless. Will only make myself miserable. No matter what happen in the future, no matter if there's a chance to meet him again, I'll just continue my path now. Which is concentrate on work. Called M1 to ask about his hp line. Seems he deactive it. Since he's MIA, no point for me to keep his memories. If there's ever a chance for me to meet him, I'll only treat him as invisible. He's forever gone from my world. I don't remember someone whose name started with that letter anymore.
Every year's CNY means nothing much to me. Perhaps only those ang paos means something to me. But I admit I'm too old for ang paos now. My family doesn't eat reunion dinner. You hungry you eat first. That's it. After dinner parents will pass me an ang pao each. Then they will watch their TV and I will face my computer.
I don't watch Mediacorp's countdown show since don't know which year onwards. Find it utterly lame and boring. I rather spend my time sleeping. Since now I'm busy till I don't even have the time to have a good night rest. I just want to enjoy my time sleeping, eating, online and watching DVD these few days. Don't wish to do or think anything else more.
Thought I'll be able to rest today. But nah, still need to go over for X Ray at Jurong East. Seems there's a slight crack at the bone. They'll pass the report back to my family doctor. And let him decide if I'm going to continue my injection and medication or go for a minor op. Things changed so much recently. Without him by my side, everything seems to be in a mess.
Went over to Newstead to look for the guys. Low's esp handsome today. Helped them ta bao food as usual. And shopped at Giant with Jes for more CNY goodies. Before reaching IMM, bumped into the Ogawa guy at JE. And he actually hugged me from behind. Got a huge shock. Nearly screamed molest. Told ya nobody treated me as a lady. Newstead guys and him called me brother. "Yo, brother where are you going?"
I'm so lucky to know the Newstead people. Although lots of matters happened recently but no worries, I'll survived. I'm a pa buay si cockroach. Maybe just need to find another guy who can kill cockroach for me. Haha. As uncle said, anything I still have Kelvin to protect me. Yea, so true. =.= Julian's right. New year's here. Unhappy things that happened the previous year should be gone with the old year. And I've promise Julian that I'll be a different self when I go back after CNY. Their brand new cheerful xiao mei.
I've awake. It's already a new year. Time to let go those unhappy past. Holding on to them is useless. Will only make myself miserable. No matter what happen in the future, no matter if there's a chance to meet him again, I'll just continue my path now. Which is concentrate on work. Called M1 to ask about his hp line. Seems he deactive it. Since he's MIA, no point for me to keep his memories. If there's ever a chance for me to meet him, I'll only treat him as invisible. He's forever gone from my world. I don't remember someone whose name started with that letter anymore.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
A series of unfortunate matters
I've been waiting for so long, thinking CNY will be an excellent time to relax and chill at home, watching my favourite DVDs. But my dream's trashed. Later CNY eve. Schedule: Go Jurong East for Xray on my foot. My family doctor at last sense something serious and finally decided to send me for a scan. Got a crack in the bone. Yet I don't know how this happened. =.=
I sense something serious too. Which is my pocket will have a big hole. My whole month's salary is almost gone. Had already gave half to mum. The other half used to buy stuffs for work and some other stuffs. I've withdrawal all my money from the bank, again. Can only put some hope on CNY's ang pao now. If not I'm going to spend the whole month eating bread at work.
Had to dress formal office code dressing to the stupid you know where place later and on CNY day 1. So tired can? Really feel like waving white flag soon. This is a job so not right for me. Julian keep sayang me today. Said I ke lian oh. A pat on my shoulder is enough to give me some encouragement. Thanks julian. You're then the best, not me. =)
Newstead seems so dead today without lieu and kelvin. Edmund's going back to msia tonight. Which means tomorrow will be more quiet. Might have some time to go back and visit the guys. Julian promise me a big treat for lunch. Coz I keep buying food for the guys. Drinks, candies, ice cream, chocolates, etc. If they're happy why not? Since they all treated me really well.
That someone keep came to seek my attention these few days. Walked over to my counter and talked nonsense. Wonder what's wrong with him. Wonder what's wrong with me too. Chatted with jimmy about chio bus today. We discuss what ''cup'' the lady had. Jimmy said F but I disagree. Then we keep looking at the lady non stop. LOL! We're such perverts. Hahaha.
Die le, I'm turning into a les soon coz of the bad incident I had? Suddenly no guys can interest me. LOL! Better forget the bad incident after new year. Old memories and bad past will be gone together with the doggie year. I'm still single and available. But wah piang, I don't need any bf. I'm getting tired of Newstead's famous matchmaking session.
Orh orh time. These few days will be great I suppose. Hope so ah. Ang paos. =D!
I sense something serious too. Which is my pocket will have a big hole. My whole month's salary is almost gone. Had already gave half to mum. The other half used to buy stuffs for work and some other stuffs. I've withdrawal all my money from the bank, again. Can only put some hope on CNY's ang pao now. If not I'm going to spend the whole month eating bread at work.
Had to dress formal office code dressing to the stupid you know where place later and on CNY day 1. So tired can? Really feel like waving white flag soon. This is a job so not right for me. Julian keep sayang me today. Said I ke lian oh. A pat on my shoulder is enough to give me some encouragement. Thanks julian. You're then the best, not me. =)
Newstead seems so dead today without lieu and kelvin. Edmund's going back to msia tonight. Which means tomorrow will be more quiet. Might have some time to go back and visit the guys. Julian promise me a big treat for lunch. Coz I keep buying food for the guys. Drinks, candies, ice cream, chocolates, etc. If they're happy why not? Since they all treated me really well.
That someone keep came to seek my attention these few days. Walked over to my counter and talked nonsense. Wonder what's wrong with him. Wonder what's wrong with me too. Chatted with jimmy about chio bus today. We discuss what ''cup'' the lady had. Jimmy said F but I disagree. Then we keep looking at the lady non stop. LOL! We're such perverts. Hahaha.
Die le, I'm turning into a les soon coz of the bad incident I had? Suddenly no guys can interest me. LOL! Better forget the bad incident after new year. Old memories and bad past will be gone together with the doggie year. I'm still single and available. But wah piang, I don't need any bf. I'm getting tired of Newstead's famous matchmaking session.
Orh orh time. These few days will be great I suppose. Hope so ah. Ang paos. =D!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Break broke broken
He's not in a good mood. Wonder why. Talked to him also can feel the coldness he gave me. *Shivers* Everything keep it to himself and not saying it out. Guys are really weird. Don't know what else more I can do already. Take care buddy. Learn to let go and put down then you'll feel better. =)
Today's really a peaceful day. So nice. How I wish everyday can be like this. Although no sales but at least there's no complaints. Nothing weird to have no sales on Thursday. It always happened on Thursday. So funny can. 4th time till I've get used to it already. Who cares anyway? One more day to go before the CNY break. I can't wait. I want to sleep like mad.
Feels weird without Kelvin at Newstead. Missed him. Really did. Coz I missed someone to argue with. Missed someone to suan me. And Low is so far away from me. Nobody to talk to. So just spent the whole day listening to the mp3. So damn bored. But still I like it this way. Peacefully quiet. Can even finish my meal in peace.
Lieu went back to Msia today. Lesser and lesser people at Newstead. Means more and more boring. I'll be going back to work on the 4th day of CNY. Together with some others. Hope my foot have already recover by then. It's hurting me way too much. Everyday took cab there and back. I need more injections. The pain and the pain in my heart for those treatment fees and cab fees kills. I'm totally broke. Hope can collect the commission cheque soon.
Went to buy a suit of formal office wear from G2000 coz Vincent said need to wear something more formal when we go for our monthly meeting. Cost me hundred plus bucks. When can I earn all those money back? Everything had to buy buy buy. But money doesn't come back in to me. Really very tired of this. Hang on. I'll tried. But believe me, I'm way too tired.
I'm broke. My heart's broken from all those money I forked out and another reason. And my foot's breaking soon from the way it goes now.
I need a rest.
Today's really a peaceful day. So nice. How I wish everyday can be like this. Although no sales but at least there's no complaints. Nothing weird to have no sales on Thursday. It always happened on Thursday. So funny can. 4th time till I've get used to it already. Who cares anyway? One more day to go before the CNY break. I can't wait. I want to sleep like mad.
Feels weird without Kelvin at Newstead. Missed him. Really did. Coz I missed someone to argue with. Missed someone to suan me. And Low is so far away from me. Nobody to talk to. So just spent the whole day listening to the mp3. So damn bored. But still I like it this way. Peacefully quiet. Can even finish my meal in peace.
Lieu went back to Msia today. Lesser and lesser people at Newstead. Means more and more boring. I'll be going back to work on the 4th day of CNY. Together with some others. Hope my foot have already recover by then. It's hurting me way too much. Everyday took cab there and back. I need more injections. The pain and the pain in my heart for those treatment fees and cab fees kills. I'm totally broke. Hope can collect the commission cheque soon.
Went to buy a suit of formal office wear from G2000 coz Vincent said need to wear something more formal when we go for our monthly meeting. Cost me hundred plus bucks. When can I earn all those money back? Everything had to buy buy buy. But money doesn't come back in to me. Really very tired of this. Hang on. I'll tried. But believe me, I'm way too tired.
I'm broke. My heart's broken from all those money I forked out and another reason. And my foot's breaking soon from the way it goes now.
I need a rest.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Pissed off
I'm really so tired. So tired of the life I'm living now. So tired of the job I'm working now. So tired of the friendships I'm handling now. So tired of the customers I'm facing now. So tired of myself now.
Damn it. I really hate Valentine's Day. Saw couples walking hand in hand. Hugged here kissed there this and that. Esp at IMM. So many couples dating there. Jes and me see till pek chek. I'm still suffering from the pain. Scar have not heal see all these jitao sian. In the end bought a rose for Jes and myself. Who says single won't receive rose? Gfs also can you buy for me I buy for you lah.
I hate Valentine's Day coz it's such a sucky day. Got slapped by an unreasonable customer today. Tmd de lor. We promoters are for you to fuck your anger on? Everyday sales not good coz products like shit. Complaints are more than the products I can sell everyday. Some more today I pms lah. So the whole IMM Newstead shaked lor. I was throwing my temper every where. Kelvin said I lidat the lights will shake one you know. =.=
He then good. So fast can run off already. Gone back to Msia tonight. The guys all hugged him like mad. Even Jes ran up to hug him. Low even like ai kao ai kao. Want to cry lidat. Please lah. One week never see him only. So kua zhang. =.= But I also will miss him. Miss someone to argue with. I need to wait till Friday then can run. Another two more days to suffer.
Called up Vincent today and just cried over the phone. I really cannot stand all these anymore. Actually wanted to quit. But got persuade back. He got a shock from me tonight. Keep comfort me. And in the end I was granted one more day of CNY leave. Forget it, anything then. Suffer also suffer before already. Just continue with the pain then.
Tired. Hope these two days will be a peaceful one.
Damn it. I really hate Valentine's Day. Saw couples walking hand in hand. Hugged here kissed there this and that. Esp at IMM. So many couples dating there. Jes and me see till pek chek. I'm still suffering from the pain. Scar have not heal see all these jitao sian. In the end bought a rose for Jes and myself. Who says single won't receive rose? Gfs also can you buy for me I buy for you lah.
I hate Valentine's Day coz it's such a sucky day. Got slapped by an unreasonable customer today. Tmd de lor. We promoters are for you to fuck your anger on? Everyday sales not good coz products like shit. Complaints are more than the products I can sell everyday. Some more today I pms lah. So the whole IMM Newstead shaked lor. I was throwing my temper every where. Kelvin said I lidat the lights will shake one you know. =.=
He then good. So fast can run off already. Gone back to Msia tonight. The guys all hugged him like mad. Even Jes ran up to hug him. Low even like ai kao ai kao. Want to cry lidat. Please lah. One week never see him only. So kua zhang. =.= But I also will miss him. Miss someone to argue with. I need to wait till Friday then can run. Another two more days to suffer.
Called up Vincent today and just cried over the phone. I really cannot stand all these anymore. Actually wanted to quit. But got persuade back. He got a shock from me tonight. Keep comfort me. And in the end I was granted one more day of CNY leave. Forget it, anything then. Suffer also suffer before already. Just continue with the pain then.
Tired. Hope these two days will be a peaceful one.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Lonely valentine
Tomorrow got MC from my family doctor for my hurt foot. So shiok. But don't think I want to use it. Can go work then go. Rest so much commission less also. But think again, exp today. Sold 2 mp4s. Commission only $1.95. Tmd fcuking less. Yesterday off day Vincent still sent stocks over. Made me blur today. IMM's management that guy's replacement mp4 also sent sala. 2GB he go give people 512MB. =.= Win liao. Had to go Sim Lim exchange it for customer.
So tired of the job. Thinking of switching to Newstead. But problem one is Mindy. Another is I had to start everything from scratch. Some more I won't be in IMM. Sure will miss them. So hang on and work selling mp4s first. Computer stuffs are much more cheem to learn.
My foot is hurting badly. Took cab to work and back today. Mum paid for it. Went doctor and got some medication and injection to put it under control. So swollen and pain. But don't know how long the medicine effect can last. Today just cried out at Newstead coz it's too hurting. Uncle asked me to rest till after CNY. If only that's possible. I want also then.
Uncle said if Vincent don't let me off go over to work at Newstead after CNY. I will feel pai seh if uncle treat me so good. I'm not his staff. Kelvin keep asked me to go Newstead work. That silly guy, if work also won't be in IMM. Gong kia. Uncle said anything kelvin can settle for me. And asked both of us funny questions. Eg, you and him/her together one ah?
Omfg?! =.=
Don't know what to say already. Tired of this. I just want to rest my hurt foot now. The medicine's really strong. I'm drowsy and sleepy already. Spending this Valentine alone as usual. No difference every year. Thought this year it will be slightly different already but, oh well.
Happy Valentine's Day people. And of coz not forgetting to wish a Happy Birthday to my dear cousin Fenni. =)
So tired of the job. Thinking of switching to Newstead. But problem one is Mindy. Another is I had to start everything from scratch. Some more I won't be in IMM. Sure will miss them. So hang on and work selling mp4s first. Computer stuffs are much more cheem to learn.
My foot is hurting badly. Took cab to work and back today. Mum paid for it. Went doctor and got some medication and injection to put it under control. So swollen and pain. But don't know how long the medicine effect can last. Today just cried out at Newstead coz it's too hurting. Uncle asked me to rest till after CNY. If only that's possible. I want also then.
Uncle said if Vincent don't let me off go over to work at Newstead after CNY. I will feel pai seh if uncle treat me so good. I'm not his staff. Kelvin keep asked me to go Newstead work. That silly guy, if work also won't be in IMM. Gong kia. Uncle said anything kelvin can settle for me. And asked both of us funny questions. Eg, you and him/her together one ah?
Omfg?! =.=
Don't know what to say already. Tired of this. I just want to rest my hurt foot now. The medicine's really strong. I'm drowsy and sleepy already. Spending this Valentine alone as usual. No difference every year. Thought this year it will be slightly different already but, oh well.
Happy Valentine's Day people. And of coz not forgetting to wish a Happy Birthday to my dear cousin Fenni. =)
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
The rainbow is back
He suddenly msg me again. For so many months we never contact. Sms him didn't get reply also. Was really caught by surprise that he msg me. Was just about to msn him when he won me by a couple of mins earlier. Why is it that we're always able to read each other's mind?
He said he's well. But I don't think that is true. Saw the friendster profile. It's indicated single once again. Sure there's some problems between them again. And he'll always come to me when he and she's not stable. I'm just maybe a standby? His best buddy? Or just someone who can be there for him. Just a someone who can make him go haha and lol on msn and go quiet on phone.
Anyway he's still the same old him who is able to cheer me up easily in no time. Only he's able to do that. Why? Coz he understands me best. Just a couple mins of chat and I feel better. Thanks buddy for being here for me again. You asked if I got think of you. Yes of course. Really I did. You're one of the important person in my life. I really treasure this friendship lots.
Can sense he's trying to act cheerful. Same goes to me. Why is our life so tough? Didn't tell him about the problem I'm facing now. Don't want to add more problems to him. Instead I nagged to darling sister. Missed him lots too. Sometimes I wish I can hug sister and cried out loud. I feel so tired. Felicia won't mind hor? Hah.
Seems things are going on quite well for darling. Felicia and him. His company. And the event he planned. All blasting well. Well done sister. I'm always supporting you with moral support you should know. Hah. Jia you. You sure can make it big this time. I'm really grateful for the help you're trying to give me. No worries. Really am fine. I've already said I won't make you worry for me anymore and I mean it. Trust me.
Buddy and darling. Thanks for cheering me up again. Both of you are just like my left and right arm. I can't afford to lose anyone of your friendship. You're both important to me. Suddenly I found the long lost rainbow again. Ah. I missed it man. =)
He said he's well. But I don't think that is true. Saw the friendster profile. It's indicated single once again. Sure there's some problems between them again. And he'll always come to me when he and she's not stable. I'm just maybe a standby? His best buddy? Or just someone who can be there for him. Just a someone who can make him go haha and lol on msn and go quiet on phone.
Anyway he's still the same old him who is able to cheer me up easily in no time. Only he's able to do that. Why? Coz he understands me best. Just a couple mins of chat and I feel better. Thanks buddy for being here for me again. You asked if I got think of you. Yes of course. Really I did. You're one of the important person in my life. I really treasure this friendship lots.
Can sense he's trying to act cheerful. Same goes to me. Why is our life so tough? Didn't tell him about the problem I'm facing now. Don't want to add more problems to him. Instead I nagged to darling sister. Missed him lots too. Sometimes I wish I can hug sister and cried out loud. I feel so tired. Felicia won't mind hor? Hah.
Seems things are going on quite well for darling. Felicia and him. His company. And the event he planned. All blasting well. Well done sister. I'm always supporting you with moral support you should know. Hah. Jia you. You sure can make it big this time. I'm really grateful for the help you're trying to give me. No worries. Really am fine. I've already said I won't make you worry for me anymore and I mean it. Trust me.
Buddy and darling. Thanks for cheering me up again. Both of you are just like my left and right arm. I can't afford to lose anyone of your friendship. You're both important to me. Suddenly I found the long lost rainbow again. Ah. I missed it man. =)
Monday, February 12, 2007
A brand new beginning
My foot's hurting badly. The sprained part of it is killing me. And to think I can still act hero plus walked such far distance and buy lunch and dinner for the guys. Acted hero coz my junior mei got bullied and we can't reach Vincent. She got slapped by an unreasonable customer. Rushed over to Best Denki to help settled the matter. Don't want to say too much of the matter anymore. Past is past. Pissed with our tao and the stupid aunty who think she's so great.
Really don't know if it's good or bad. My counter got shifted to the other far end. Which is so near to Toshiba's counter. Which is so near to him. And all those news made us really pai seh already. Can see that I'm avoiding him and he's avoiding me. What's the use of trying to pair us up at first? Only to make both of us pai seh.
Really not used to it after my counter got shifted. Missed ah low this buddy and his HP corner. At least I'm still able to hide and have some privacy there. And ah low and me can helped each other. He'll be able to cheer me up too. For Toshiba's side it's totally open space. Squeeze like hell some more when customers flood in. All coz of mindy's word my good old corner got shifted.
Now my whole mind is totally on work only. No time for what ever relationship thingy. Lieu asked if I'm single. Asked me to be his gf. Slap him. Got gf still come disturb me. Hate flirty guys. Yes I am single now. Ain't I? The him is as good as mia. Even if he's back one day. We won't stay the same too. He had changed, I've changed, surroundings changed too. So do you think we can still the same as last time?
Still trying to get used to my new spot in Newstead. Made more and more friends while working there. Best Denki's promoters and Ogawa's boss. All of them are so nice. Always told myself I'm so blessed to have such great friends but will still keep thinking of the past. Those unhappy memories. If only I can have a brainwash after I woke up. Totally forget everything. How nice can it be?
Time to sleep. Although Monday's my off day. Still need to go doctor's there and buy CNY's stuff with mum. Let me forget the past few months matter k? Erase my memories please. Trying to start a brand new beginning.
Really don't know if it's good or bad. My counter got shifted to the other far end. Which is so near to Toshiba's counter. Which is so near to him. And all those news made us really pai seh already. Can see that I'm avoiding him and he's avoiding me. What's the use of trying to pair us up at first? Only to make both of us pai seh.
Really not used to it after my counter got shifted. Missed ah low this buddy and his HP corner. At least I'm still able to hide and have some privacy there. And ah low and me can helped each other. He'll be able to cheer me up too. For Toshiba's side it's totally open space. Squeeze like hell some more when customers flood in. All coz of mindy's word my good old corner got shifted.
Now my whole mind is totally on work only. No time for what ever relationship thingy. Lieu asked if I'm single. Asked me to be his gf. Slap him. Got gf still come disturb me. Hate flirty guys. Yes I am single now. Ain't I? The him is as good as mia. Even if he's back one day. We won't stay the same too. He had changed, I've changed, surroundings changed too. So do you think we can still the same as last time?
Still trying to get used to my new spot in Newstead. Made more and more friends while working there. Best Denki's promoters and Ogawa's boss. All of them are so nice. Always told myself I'm so blessed to have such great friends but will still keep thinking of the past. Those unhappy memories. If only I can have a brainwash after I woke up. Totally forget everything. How nice can it be?
Time to sleep. Although Monday's my off day. Still need to go doctor's there and buy CNY's stuff with mum. Let me forget the past few months matter k? Erase my memories please. Trying to start a brand new beginning.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Happy with work
Work work work. And more work. Weekends are really the best time to chiong. Today sold about 1000 bucks of products. All non promotion stocks. But the damn commission is only about roughly 20 bucks. Sibei bo hua. Last time the commission for non promotion stocks will be $8. Now? Roughly count is only $3. Jitao cut half. Some more today best denki's part timer came over. Said her salary is 50 bucks per day. Wth. Mine only less than 30 bucks per day.
Bear with it. Ren ren ren. For the sake of money and to clear my debt. Everything also must tahan. CNY off from eve till chu 3. Only. Go back Newstead sure need to help. Coz only kelvin back from malaysia. Some chu 6 or 9 then back. Win liao lor guys. How I wish I can go back malacca too. But guess really no time for it. Should be happy that I'm still able to spend CNY without having to work. Must learn to zhi zhu.
Really mixed in with them really well. Can't imagine CNY without them. Sure bored to death. Esp with kelvin there. Sure quarrel till siao. Today saw him use the water to drink to wash hands. Super not happy so nagged at him. He purpose go and washed leg some more. Wth. Guys are so stupid. Treat them good got complained too fan. Bo chup them also tio complained said why bo chup. Working with a group of guys sure need to know guys character well.
Brian you treat him good. He treat you good good. He's a very nice bro. Same goes to julian too. Except that he's quite childish at mind sometimes and tends to be blur. He can actually chase after me to complain he's tired. Lieu he's harsh at words but soft hearted. Edmund cares for everyone like a care bear. Jimmy loves to ki siao but tends to have a strict side while working. Joanne's really nice. A da jie jie type. Did everything perfectly. Wonder how IMM's newstead will be without her. Low's the only one who cares for me lots. Really best buddies. He's friendly plus ''automatic''. Things don't have to say he'll do it for you. Kelvin loves to tease people. His suan ness pro. But he don't mean it.
And to you, don't look at me this way till low had to come cut off the electric volts. Really will shock si people one. Zzz. Other than that, really love working here. Thank you guys for making my life bright. As for the him. Well, just treat that he don't even exist in the beginging. It's all a dream. Only a dream.
Bear with it. Ren ren ren. For the sake of money and to clear my debt. Everything also must tahan. CNY off from eve till chu 3. Only. Go back Newstead sure need to help. Coz only kelvin back from malaysia. Some chu 6 or 9 then back. Win liao lor guys. How I wish I can go back malacca too. But guess really no time for it. Should be happy that I'm still able to spend CNY without having to work. Must learn to zhi zhu.
Really mixed in with them really well. Can't imagine CNY without them. Sure bored to death. Esp with kelvin there. Sure quarrel till siao. Today saw him use the water to drink to wash hands. Super not happy so nagged at him. He purpose go and washed leg some more. Wth. Guys are so stupid. Treat them good got complained too fan. Bo chup them also tio complained said why bo chup. Working with a group of guys sure need to know guys character well.
Brian you treat him good. He treat you good good. He's a very nice bro. Same goes to julian too. Except that he's quite childish at mind sometimes and tends to be blur. He can actually chase after me to complain he's tired. Lieu he's harsh at words but soft hearted. Edmund cares for everyone like a care bear. Jimmy loves to ki siao but tends to have a strict side while working. Joanne's really nice. A da jie jie type. Did everything perfectly. Wonder how IMM's newstead will be without her. Low's the only one who cares for me lots. Really best buddies. He's friendly plus ''automatic''. Things don't have to say he'll do it for you. Kelvin loves to tease people. His suan ness pro. But he don't mean it.
And to you, don't look at me this way till low had to come cut off the electric volts. Really will shock si people one. Zzz. Other than that, really love working here. Thank you guys for making my life bright. As for the him. Well, just treat that he don't even exist in the beginging. It's all a dream. Only a dream.
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Just another crazy day
So tired. Although only worked half day today but more torturing. Had to rush over to TTSH after work at 3pm. Waited for the IMM's bus till 3.30pm. Rushed all my way to TTSH right on the dot at 4.40pm. And mum's still waiting for her turn. Ended up we waited till 5 plus. Wth. Made me rushed like siao for nothing. Almost die of bo breathe.
Really hate TTSH. Go once sure got one more problem. This time said there's something wrong with mum's liver. Need a blood test and scan. Not again. Today's medical bill already blasted us. Still need all these. Seems like the more medication she ate the more problems she had. Buay tahan. Stress. So many things for me to worry about.
Money, health, parents, work and him. Feel like there's a building collapsing over me anytime. Luckily there's the guys to cheer me up everyday at work. Esp cheeky low. We shake hands like mad today and everybody went gong. Shh. Cannot tell. It's our secret. If not he won't help me anymore.
No lah, just joking. Where got secret? Just that coz we keep snapping Newstead's staffs photos and posted them online. Snapped so many lidat will have a IMM Newstead friendster's profile soon. LOL. Even Julian saw camera he will siam fast now. LOL. We are the paparazzi.
Throw something heavy at low coz he whistled at me for nothing. Normally I wore uniform there. Today wear differently coz going out. And all like huh. Now I feel weird when not wearing uniform. Got customers even said our uniform's nice. Speechless.
Keep tio bullied by them. I've already sprained my foot and was asked to go 3 different floors to buy food for them. Came back and uncle scolded them for me. Hahaha. They deserve it for bullying me. Kelvin and brian gave me the omg you sprained your foot again look at me. Even uncle pengz when I told him I sprained it while walking?!
So just spent the whole night resting my injured foot at home. Slept awhile but was woke up by mum. She's afraid I can't sleep later at night. Lidat also can? Sleepy again now. Every night not enough sleep still got shocks to handle at work everyday. Stop giving me that kind of funny look. Really will shock si one.
Weekends = Time to chiong. Nitez.
How I wish I can jia zua sometimes. Really very tired already.
Really hate TTSH. Go once sure got one more problem. This time said there's something wrong with mum's liver. Need a blood test and scan. Not again. Today's medical bill already blasted us. Still need all these. Seems like the more medication she ate the more problems she had. Buay tahan. Stress. So many things for me to worry about.
Money, health, parents, work and him. Feel like there's a building collapsing over me anytime. Luckily there's the guys to cheer me up everyday at work. Esp cheeky low. We shake hands like mad today and everybody went gong. Shh. Cannot tell. It's our secret. If not he won't help me anymore.
No lah, just joking. Where got secret? Just that coz we keep snapping Newstead's staffs photos and posted them online. Snapped so many lidat will have a IMM Newstead friendster's profile soon. LOL. Even Julian saw camera he will siam fast now. LOL. We are the paparazzi.
Throw something heavy at low coz he whistled at me for nothing. Normally I wore uniform there. Today wear differently coz going out. And all like huh. Now I feel weird when not wearing uniform. Got customers even said our uniform's nice. Speechless.
Keep tio bullied by them. I've already sprained my foot and was asked to go 3 different floors to buy food for them. Came back and uncle scolded them for me. Hahaha. They deserve it for bullying me. Kelvin and brian gave me the omg you sprained your foot again look at me. Even uncle pengz when I told him I sprained it while walking?!
So just spent the whole night resting my injured foot at home. Slept awhile but was woke up by mum. She's afraid I can't sleep later at night. Lidat also can? Sleepy again now. Every night not enough sleep still got shocks to handle at work everyday. Stop giving me that kind of funny look. Really will shock si one.
Weekends = Time to chiong. Nitez.
How I wish I can jia zua sometimes. Really very tired already.
Friday, February 09, 2007
The guys and girls post
I got half a day leave later. So happy can? Don't know why suddenly Vincent so nice. Let me took half a day off to accompany my mum go TTSH checkup. He's not that bad after all. Ai si ni le tao. LOL! Thanks boss.
Note: Vincent = My tao aka boss.
Will work till 3pm later. Then rush over to meet mum at TTSH to listen to Doctor Loke singing opera. Worried if mum goes alone. Coz dad and mum always blur blur upon those medication thingy. So no choice have to take leave.
Feeling better today. Not that mentally tired. Didn't puff a crig today. Even Jes asked me to accompany her smoke I rejected too. Finally can quit a bit. Did a lot of stock check till I blur of those digits. Totally no sales today. Ate egg lor. Same as Kelvin. He dragged me down one. Bleh. For me it's always eating egg day on Thursday. Wonder why IMM always bo lang on Thursday.
Note: Eat egg = No sales. Kosong.
Note: Jes = My best girl friend I know while working.
Sprained my foot again. Sibei pain. Fault lies on Kelvin. Asked me to take sliced chillies but I forgot. Then he disturb me asking me go back kopitiam take. Walked here rushed there in the end ended up with a sprained foot. Then some more all shocked I treat Kelvin so nice. Partly my fault. So have to go back take. I treat everyone that nice also. Eg brian, julian and low. But why no news about us? Coz they got gf or wife? Kelvin single then can spread the kaya on us? Wth.
Note: Kelvin = My colleague.
Don't know why a shop full of guys also can be so kay poh. When they see a guy and a lady together sure said couple. Cannot be pure friends? Very funny right? I'm sick of those scandals. Just leave it alone. Since I don't want anything to do with all these whatever bgr now. He now mia. Back anot I don't know and don't want to know too. Bother so much for what? For more white hair is it?
At last can sleep early. Dozed off at work today. Heng no customers saw that. Coz previous night rush whole night printing the tags and cutting them out. Only slept 2 hours. Can't wait for later. At long last can have half a day for me to breathe outside other than Newstead's oxygen. Monday hurry come. I want to have a break again. Work until very tired already.
Note: Vincent = My tao aka boss.
Will work till 3pm later. Then rush over to meet mum at TTSH to listen to Doctor Loke singing opera. Worried if mum goes alone. Coz dad and mum always blur blur upon those medication thingy. So no choice have to take leave.
Feeling better today. Not that mentally tired. Didn't puff a crig today. Even Jes asked me to accompany her smoke I rejected too. Finally can quit a bit. Did a lot of stock check till I blur of those digits. Totally no sales today. Ate egg lor. Same as Kelvin. He dragged me down one. Bleh. For me it's always eating egg day on Thursday. Wonder why IMM always bo lang on Thursday.
Note: Eat egg = No sales. Kosong.
Note: Jes = My best girl friend I know while working.
Sprained my foot again. Sibei pain. Fault lies on Kelvin. Asked me to take sliced chillies but I forgot. Then he disturb me asking me go back kopitiam take. Walked here rushed there in the end ended up with a sprained foot. Then some more all shocked I treat Kelvin so nice. Partly my fault. So have to go back take. I treat everyone that nice also. Eg brian, julian and low. But why no news about us? Coz they got gf or wife? Kelvin single then can spread the kaya on us? Wth.
Note: Kelvin = My colleague.
Don't know why a shop full of guys also can be so kay poh. When they see a guy and a lady together sure said couple. Cannot be pure friends? Very funny right? I'm sick of those scandals. Just leave it alone. Since I don't want anything to do with all these whatever bgr now. He now mia. Back anot I don't know and don't want to know too. Bother so much for what? For more white hair is it?
At last can sleep early. Dozed off at work today. Heng no customers saw that. Coz previous night rush whole night printing the tags and cutting them out. Only slept 2 hours. Can't wait for later. At long last can have half a day for me to breathe outside other than Newstead's oxygen. Monday hurry come. I want to have a break again. Work until very tired already.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Mentally tired
Really very tired. Really need 48 hours a day. Always came home so late. Then still need to do this and that. Now it's already 1am and yet I have not start working on my work document. Just simply too lazy to do anything. Want to sleep. Only want to have a good night rest. Give me 6 hours of sleep at least please. Let me do finish my things faster please.
Don't know when I'll work till later. All those things I've to DIY them myself. Eyes really closing. Nearly dozed off at work today. Can't even go home early coz uncle wants me to learn some computer stuff. Asked julian to teach me all those I don't understand stuff. I'm really tired with Le-Mon and work. No challenge job still need to handle so many faulty items complaints everyday. Stupid products. Sell one spoilt one.
And I'm too busy till sick at last. Coughing and sneezing. Slight fever at work today also. Whole body weak. Why can the other promoters be so relaxing? Why only me? Sim lim de got main company to settle. Posted to best denki de can ask best to help. Me? Everything do alone. Anything call call go over sim lim. Why always me? For this miserable pay of 800 shitty bucks have to do so much.
Mum going to hospital on friday. Borrowed money from people to give to mum. Another couple of hundreds gone. Her medicine so de damn ex. Lidat so little need 300+ bucks. My debt is getting more and more. And don't know where the hell he's gone to again. Today is 8th. Again. So tired. So tired of handling all these matter alone. Can only reduce stress by smoking. Smoke smoke smoke. Think I really depend on crig to kill stress.
Woman today told me those things I really hate to hear. Who cares if you look down on me anot. None of my biz. I live my own life. I will plan. I'll know what to do. Maybe switching job soon. Selling insurance. Suria asked me out on monday to talk. If good lobang I chop. Sorry newstead's guys. Always making you people worry. Sorry kelvin, just now at mac must have scared you. But I'm really so tired. So tired.
Don't know when I'll work till later. All those things I've to DIY them myself. Eyes really closing. Nearly dozed off at work today. Can't even go home early coz uncle wants me to learn some computer stuff. Asked julian to teach me all those I don't understand stuff. I'm really tired with Le-Mon and work. No challenge job still need to handle so many faulty items complaints everyday. Stupid products. Sell one spoilt one.
And I'm too busy till sick at last. Coughing and sneezing. Slight fever at work today also. Whole body weak. Why can the other promoters be so relaxing? Why only me? Sim lim de got main company to settle. Posted to best denki de can ask best to help. Me? Everything do alone. Anything call call go over sim lim. Why always me? For this miserable pay of 800 shitty bucks have to do so much.
Mum going to hospital on friday. Borrowed money from people to give to mum. Another couple of hundreds gone. Her medicine so de damn ex. Lidat so little need 300+ bucks. My debt is getting more and more. And don't know where the hell he's gone to again. Today is 8th. Again. So tired. So tired of handling all these matter alone. Can only reduce stress by smoking. Smoke smoke smoke. Think I really depend on crig to kill stress.
Woman today told me those things I really hate to hear. Who cares if you look down on me anot. None of my biz. I live my own life. I will plan. I'll know what to do. Maybe switching job soon. Selling insurance. Suria asked me out on monday to talk. If good lobang I chop. Sorry newstead's guys. Always making you people worry. Sorry kelvin, just now at mac must have scared you. But I'm really so tired. So tired.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Tired of working
Finally survived till pay day. Got the basic pay today. Commission still need to wait till 15th then can collect. But who cares about the commission? It's only a small shitty amount of 2.5%. Might as well don't want it. Even uncle goes nin lao hia. Is the commission even for staffs? Used to it can already.
Not going to reveal how much I got. Can only say the amount is able to let me survive for another 2 weeks before I get my commission of around 100+ bucks. Mum collected 600 bucks from me for the money I loan from her and some extra cash for her to spent on CNY stuff. Now I jitao pok gai.
Not enough money still can buy two boxes of ice cream for the guys at Newstead. Just feel that I'm close with them all. Like a family. So buy some for them to eat. Bought 2 boxes coz know they will finish within a day. Don't want to be so ke lian to share an ice cream with kelvin like the last time. Some more it's yam ice cream. I hated most.
Sold quite a few mp4s recently. Average sales around 400 bucks per day. Our mp4 all less than 100 bucks. Got this average can laugh already. So of coz I won't aim for the $20000 sales target. That one only siao lang can hit. Today some more top up 9 bucks from my pocket for customer coz vincent don't want reduce price and customer don't want add another 9 bucks.
Frankly say, I'm tired of the job. Need to take stocks from sim lim myself. Deliver the report and faulty items back to main company myself also. Really can die. Uncle keep asking me over to Newstead. Actually Newstead's not that bad after all. Can consider. Since lady boss mindy and me okok also.
Tomorrow Newstead's meeting day again. Can go later again. Means can sleep longer. Shiok ah. I maybe changing shift working till later soon. Coz crowd only comes in after 8pm. Today's meeting at sim lim really funny. Die of laughter. Interesting meeting provided management alex don't ask me to sell 80 pieces of mp4 per day. SIAO LAR!
Salary already gone more than half. Bought some tonics for mom. Bought a S.H.E's DVD to reward myself for being able to work for more than 1 month. LoL. I'm so so so tired. Can get off on weekends also. I want a good rest and sleep on a sunday. Eyes closing now. Never have enough sleep every night.
Really missed the days when I'm not working. But of coz we can't turn back time. Only can move further ahead.
Nitez.
Not going to reveal how much I got. Can only say the amount is able to let me survive for another 2 weeks before I get my commission of around 100+ bucks. Mum collected 600 bucks from me for the money I loan from her and some extra cash for her to spent on CNY stuff. Now I jitao pok gai.
Not enough money still can buy two boxes of ice cream for the guys at Newstead. Just feel that I'm close with them all. Like a family. So buy some for them to eat. Bought 2 boxes coz know they will finish within a day. Don't want to be so ke lian to share an ice cream with kelvin like the last time. Some more it's yam ice cream. I hated most.
Sold quite a few mp4s recently. Average sales around 400 bucks per day. Our mp4 all less than 100 bucks. Got this average can laugh already. So of coz I won't aim for the $20000 sales target. That one only siao lang can hit. Today some more top up 9 bucks from my pocket for customer coz vincent don't want reduce price and customer don't want add another 9 bucks.
Frankly say, I'm tired of the job. Need to take stocks from sim lim myself. Deliver the report and faulty items back to main company myself also. Really can die. Uncle keep asking me over to Newstead. Actually Newstead's not that bad after all. Can consider. Since lady boss mindy and me okok also.
Tomorrow Newstead's meeting day again. Can go later again. Means can sleep longer. Shiok ah. I maybe changing shift working till later soon. Coz crowd only comes in after 8pm. Today's meeting at sim lim really funny. Die of laughter. Interesting meeting provided management alex don't ask me to sell 80 pieces of mp4 per day. SIAO LAR!
Salary already gone more than half. Bought some tonics for mom. Bought a S.H.E's DVD to reward myself for being able to work for more than 1 month. LoL. I'm so so so tired. Can get off on weekends also. I want a good rest and sleep on a sunday. Eyes closing now. Never have enough sleep every night.
Really missed the days when I'm not working. But of coz we can't turn back time. Only can move further ahead.
Nitez.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Finally back
Finally back online after so many days of mia ing. Computer was down. Tried to format but seems useless. So brought it over to Newstead for Julian to repair today. At last Monday's here again. But I can't even have a good rest. This few days rush documents for tomorrow's meeting and repair computer till only have 4-5 hours of sleep everyday. I'm collapsing soon.
Really owed Julian a favour. He helped me to repair my computer although he's sick. He can actually go on MC today but coz I've already told him I'll bring the PC over on Monday, he went to work today. Some more he's the one who paid for those upgrading fees of my computer and never charged me anything for the repair of computer.
Thanks Julian. Must really give him a treat when I get my pay later. Seems my computer got a worm and modem faulty. Vincent said he'll pass me the pay cheque when we go meeting later. Says the bank is just beside Sim Lim. So I can get my salary by later. Then I need to bring so many documents and faulty products over to him. So troublesome.
Mum wanted the 800 bucks I owed her by Thursday. Coz she need to go hospital on Friday. Stress. Give her 800 bucks I'm left with nothing at all. Maybe just 1oo+ bucks. How to survive for another month? Everyday transport and food cost me 10 bucks already. Loan from uncle Phillips again? I still owe him quite an amount.
Although despo for money. I still went to hiao. Dyed my hair today. Newstead's guys got a shock. Esp low. He was wowing non stop. Lol. What to do? CNY coming. No time and no money to shop for clothes. So have to make my hair nice nice. Today off day just spent at the salon and Newstead. Off equals no off.
Uncle asked the guys to teach me sell computer. All shocked. Thought I want to jump over to Newstead. Well, maybe? You never know. A surprise may happen anytime. ;) What to do? I'm really despo for money. And I'm tried of the complains from customers due to faulty sets everytime. Later still have to go for an early meeting.
Sleeping soon. If not will doze off at meeting. No more worries now. He's back and doing fine. Every matter will just be settle slowly. I really worry too much last time. Computer fixed too. Was shocked myself too that I managed to carry the PC over to Newstead. And who says SG's cab drives ain't nice? Both helped me to carry the heavy PC for a distance.
Tired. Offs.
Really owed Julian a favour. He helped me to repair my computer although he's sick. He can actually go on MC today but coz I've already told him I'll bring the PC over on Monday, he went to work today. Some more he's the one who paid for those upgrading fees of my computer and never charged me anything for the repair of computer.
Thanks Julian. Must really give him a treat when I get my pay later. Seems my computer got a worm and modem faulty. Vincent said he'll pass me the pay cheque when we go meeting later. Says the bank is just beside Sim Lim. So I can get my salary by later. Then I need to bring so many documents and faulty products over to him. So troublesome.
Mum wanted the 800 bucks I owed her by Thursday. Coz she need to go hospital on Friday. Stress. Give her 800 bucks I'm left with nothing at all. Maybe just 1oo+ bucks. How to survive for another month? Everyday transport and food cost me 10 bucks already. Loan from uncle Phillips again? I still owe him quite an amount.
Although despo for money. I still went to hiao. Dyed my hair today. Newstead's guys got a shock. Esp low. He was wowing non stop. Lol. What to do? CNY coming. No time and no money to shop for clothes. So have to make my hair nice nice. Today off day just spent at the salon and Newstead. Off equals no off.
Uncle asked the guys to teach me sell computer. All shocked. Thought I want to jump over to Newstead. Well, maybe? You never know. A surprise may happen anytime. ;) What to do? I'm really despo for money. And I'm tried of the complains from customers due to faulty sets everytime. Later still have to go for an early meeting.
Sleeping soon. If not will doze off at meeting. No more worries now. He's back and doing fine. Every matter will just be settle slowly. I really worry too much last time. Computer fixed too. Was shocked myself too that I managed to carry the PC over to Newstead. And who says SG's cab drives ain't nice? Both helped me to carry the heavy PC for a distance.
Tired. Offs.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
To live and forget
I think he'll never be back.
BUT
关我屁事啦？
My business meh?
I'm still me. I can still live well without him. Although sometimes thinking of it will feel kind of sad. Maybe tears will even roll down. But who don't have unhappy memories? As what jie said. He belongs to the past. If this matter and he exposed his true colours. I don't mind paying the price. I'm happy with the outcome. =)
Ning jie really bad bad. Talked about it for what. Now I sad sad. Haha. Just let tears flow down awhile and I'll be okay. Don't worry. I won't remember a matter for too long. That's my character. Cry cry then all things over. Sleep then wake up tomorrow and everything will be as good as ever.
I'm focusing my whole energy on work. Maybe will tend to puff more. I do smell smoky already. Must cut down on it for my health's sake. There's still a lot around me who cares. My dear colleagues. A big thanks to you guys. Esp julian. You're always like a big bro who will always be there for me to have a support. And ah low for trying to cheer me up as usual. Thanks for the testi, although it seems very weird. -_-
[when u having a bad day.i will be silent.sit close by and muzzle u gently.]
?!?
Jitao blur. Faint lah ah low.
And ah low's gf pei wen who talked a lot to me. Girls talk will make me feel better. As for kelvin? As long as you don't give me those funny reactions I'm glad already. Pei wen said I'm lucky to being in a scandal with a yan dao kelvin. For goodness sake. I rather don't want any whatever scandal and let me have a peaceful day with smooth sales I'm happy already.
I'm tired. Time to sleep. Sleep and forget everything. How nice. =)
BUT
关我屁事啦？
My business meh?
I'm still me. I can still live well without him. Although sometimes thinking of it will feel kind of sad. Maybe tears will even roll down. But who don't have unhappy memories? As what jie said. He belongs to the past. If this matter and he exposed his true colours. I don't mind paying the price. I'm happy with the outcome. =)
Ning jie really bad bad. Talked about it for what. Now I sad sad. Haha. Just let tears flow down awhile and I'll be okay. Don't worry. I won't remember a matter for too long. That's my character. Cry cry then all things over. Sleep then wake up tomorrow and everything will be as good as ever.
I'm focusing my whole energy on work. Maybe will tend to puff more. I do smell smoky already. Must cut down on it for my health's sake. There's still a lot around me who cares. My dear colleagues. A big thanks to you guys. Esp julian. You're always like a big bro who will always be there for me to have a support. And ah low for trying to cheer me up as usual. Thanks for the testi, although it seems very weird. -_-
[when u having a bad day.i will be silent.sit close by and muzzle u gently.]
?!?
Jitao blur. Faint lah ah low.
And ah low's gf pei wen who talked a lot to me. Girls talk will make me feel better. As for kelvin? As long as you don't give me those funny reactions I'm glad already. Pei wen said I'm lucky to being in a scandal with a yan dao kelvin. For goodness sake. I rather don't want any whatever scandal and let me have a peaceful day with smooth sales I'm happy already.
I'm tired. Time to sleep. Sleep and forget everything. How nice. =)
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