Litez it up

I'm feeling better. Not that depressed anymore. But having a terrible headache. Head freaking spinning and heavy. Had to lie in bed all times. Think it's my old problem again. Or maybe low blood sugar. Because my white blood cells is way much more than red blood cells. Will feel giddy and faint easily. So I really need to rest more recently to recover my health.

As for why my mood is better now. It's because I saw effort today. Effort that he put in. Glad that he's beginning to understand. Just hope that he'll be mature after this. Don't worry my dear friends. Who am I? I'm RongFang! I won't collapse that easily. I'm strong. Nothing can defeat me at all. Maybe?

The post about new Litez is released. Some how when I saw stick's post in staff news, I got a little upset. Perhaps he did meant something to me and I did respect him as a mentor after all. Think most of you know that I'm not close with stick. One reason is that he had a weird character and temper. Secondly is because of an incident last time. How I got suspected and blamed for things I won't even do. I dislike the way he find fault at me when he doesn't even bother to get things clear. I don't like the way he handle matters. But I must admit that he's a great guy. A senior that we can learn from. Thanks stick for what you've done for us. Thanks to bas da jie, fire da ge, jas jie and plato deer too. Litez will be brighter and better. We promise.

Ps to mei:
I want conf too! But you jio them! I'm lazy. =X
I want to go shopping too! You jio them too. Because I'm lazy too. LOL!
Mei~ I miss you so so so so so much~~
I'm sot liao. Pardon me. -_-

Some pictures to share. Firstly, something shocking. Qiao En! SCREAMS! Why did she sacrificed so much for her new drama? Why is she willing to? Oh man! Guys, you better prepare tissues in advance to wipe off your nose blood. I don't sponsor tissues. Don't drip blood on my blog. Poor qiao en.

Secondly, the show after wei xiao pasta is confirm. It's ai qing jing ji yue. Engagement of love. A story of love and promise? Staring alex toh, xu shao yang and lara of nan quan ma ma. Starting on 12 of nov. Wei xiao pasta's last episode is this week. No comments for this new SETV idol drama. Their shows are getting more and more boring. I'll just sit back and watch this one.

Emo tired

Went out with d jie to je. Met her for a shopping, eating and girls talk day out. Sadly, I don't feel much better after all the talk. Instead talking more makes me found out more things that I'm kept in the dark. Some stuffs that I'll never expected it to have happened. But it did. So this is what the phrase 大小通吃 means uh? I'm disappointed you can say.

Had a long chat with jie sitting in a cafe. Drinking hot choco. At that time I really hope I'm drinking liquor. Maybe I'll feel much better. Jie and me talked about everything under the sun. From guys we know to friends around us. Guys we know. Quite a number you can say. There's uncle, long time friend j. And the s guy. S guy= a** guy? I was laughing like mad when jie said 'that s guy'. Jie means snake instead of ***. Funny jie.

I trust my jie. So I know everything she said is real. And I'm opening one eye and closing one. Leaving it to fate. I'm waiting. Waiting for what I want him to become. Waiting for what will happen next. Hope he will be better after this. Jie and me are really close. We can talked about everything. Can share stuffs too. But some stuffs are never meant to be shared.

Effort. I hope to see him putting in more effort. I don't want to be the only one who did and save everything. Told jie about everything from the start. I admit I'm wrong at first too. I shouldn't have that kind of thinking. But now I've thought it through. I'm never mature. Never will I be too. But when it comes to serious stuffs. I really had mature thinkings.

Other than this topic, jie and me chatted about j too. He's a close friend of us. Whom most of my close ones know too. Including mei and ger. When I asked jie a question that I asked to most of mine and his friends. Jie's answer shocked me too. So it's real? The so call liking regarding me? Seems everyone can see that? Both of my jies and da jie had already told me. And seems I'm not aware of that? I can't believe how stupid I can be. But it's over now. I've just walked away from him after what I heard from all my jies. J is still a friend. But can't be a close friend I suppose.

Apart than talking about serious stuffs. Jie and me went shopping at this fashion. I'm mad to buy two skirts and a femaine top. Short skirts some more. I suddenly had a liking for skirts. Spent more than my budget today. Luckily I had jie to buy me a necklace I liked and pay for my food at the cafe. So nice of her. We bought simliar necklaces. Hers is green while mine is pink. Heart shaped. Thanks jie. I'm so blessed to have a jie like you.

Had jap udon at jec for dinner. Wonderfully delicious and cheap. But before that I got a call from him. Seems he's quite shock that jie and me are still so close and even went shopping together today. Don't know if he's afraid or anything. He sounds weird. But anyway, nothing will affect me and my jie's relationship. Although what happened was a serious one. We will still be close jie mei. Just hope that he learnt his lesson now.

Too tired to go on if more stuffs cope up. I'm not as strong as you guys think me to be. I'm a human too. I have feelings and emo. I'm not a silly robot who don't know everything. Wondering if the main person in this post of mine still reads my blog. But I really feel much better after blogging all out. To those who don't understand what happened, pardon me, but I don't wish to say.

Sometimes I really hope buddy is here for me to pour my woes out to. But I'm not troubling him with my matters from now on. My head is spinning crazily. Closed my eyes and saw those matters. Please don't let me collaspe. I can't afford to collaspe. RongFang! You've got to hang in there! You still need to continue walking this path you've choosen. Jia you!

我不是你们想象中那么坚强。
我也有脆弱的一面。
而我现在真的是很累了。
好累。好想睡。
好想就这样闭上眼什么都不去管。
一直到永远。

Emo night

Nice picture of Goong Princess Hours right? I'm not so smart to photoshop it myself. I found it online. Talking about photoshop, xiaxue is a great ps-er. Not pang seh er. Is photo shop er. Go and read her newest post to know why. It's funny. And please. She's not bored nor are her posts boring. The lady who said that sure had a screw mind. Pardon me for saying this.

Back to the Goong topic. Although I find the picture nice. But I'll prefer it more if it's cj and lu. Never liked shin much from the start. Lu is much more handsome. He should be the 1st main actor. Shin is nai kan. The more you looked at him, the more better and shun yan he looks. Anyway, I find cj and shin makes a great pair too. Don't you think? Both are nice. Cj suits both.

Been drinking myself silly just now. In a mood to have some drinks. Mum intend to get me some beer tomorrow. Of course I'll still be the one who is paying for it. She said that alcohol's too strong for my stomach. But anyway I still drank quite a lot just now. And the taste is not that nice. The liquor I had elsewhere taste much more better compare to this weird tasting one.

Maybe it's due to some emo. Got a shock today. A huge one. I'll just let it past and try to forget that. I've got a sister who cares for me lots. She's a great jie. Thanks for not hiding anything from me. Esp all these sensitive topics. And the guy who did that. At least he still dares to own up and admit he's wrong. So another chance is what he gets. No more than that I'm sure.

容忍言语上的荒唐出轨。
不忍行为上的可耻出轨。
肯请一切都点到此为止。

懂得认错，会取得谅解。
知错能改，会一切化过。
不知是否，会达成承诺。

世上没有人能预测未来。
一直傻傻慢慢的等待着。
希望失望不会再次降临。

Headache

Guess I will be mia online recently again. Don't know why I'm having this terrible headache when even painkillers won't help. Had been stuffing myself with painkillers today but it's useless. Now I can only got up from bed for a couple of hours to check online stuffs for awhile. Been in bed for the whole day. And now I'm already feeling so dizzy and head is damn heavy.

Better not be anything serious. I'm not allowed to go to a doctor now. Mum said it's a waste of money. Wait a few more days then see how first. What the? Forget it. I've got to rest more these few days first. Anything important or non important you can just reach me by my phone.

And talking about phone. Today I got this sms from a friend saying that YES FM933 is planning a Superstar DJ contest next year. Does this reminds you of Radio:Litez Superstar DJ? They got their idea from us? Haha.. Anyway, what does this 933 Superstar DJ concerns me? Nothing to do with me mah.

The princess is so helpless and sick. Where's her prince? Busy till nowhere to be seen and non contactable. Those 'pigeons' message doesn't seem to reach him at all. Knight is busy too. She shouldn't bother knight at all times although she knows he will be there for her when she need someone to talk to. The king and queen are only concerned about themselves, the country and wealth. Poor princess, she's so lonely every time.

Alright, I'm typing nonsense again. Oh well. Don't worry. I'll be fine. :)

Just a busy day

Here to blog a post at 3am in the morning. It's really late and I have not finish my stuffs. I need to rush. Chatted too much on the phone. Yesterday 4 whole hours with FiR. And msn with rasyidah for a long time. Discussing, gossiping and bitching about people and stuffs. We love to do that. LOL!

And today, keep online and trying to find what songs are nice recently. And msn with mei for quite long just now. Too bad she don't want to talk on the phone. So later simon called. And we talked for another hour. Hence the late time now and I need to rush. I need more time. Had a lot to blog about.

Wondering why darren's msn is set to away, busy and online. Keep switching! And isn't he doing his NS now? I really don't understand. Mei found it odd too. But the most funniest thing is my dad asked me is darren my bf today. I stunned there. And yelled back no! He's just a best bud. Then he poke around asking about simon's matter. What a funny dad I had. LOL!

Mum came back from Malaysia today. 'Saying off' (showing off) how her Port Dickson chalet's trip went. I was there red (not green course I want to scream soon) with envy. Just feel like muting her. It's not fair. They always got to enjoy the good stuffs and fun. I'm always not fated for all these. My uncle more evil. He wanted to call me right away when they just reached there to show off to me. Mum told me that and I was wth! Don't bully me!

But the most shocking matter is my uncle actually decided to marry an indo lady which is 25 this year. My uncle is double the age of her. Shocked me when I heard the news. Faints! But we all still respected my uncle's choice. Actually we are not really that alarmed when we knew that. Coz my uncle always wanted an indo lady as wife. And we got used to that. Even my grandma hack care about it already. I'm just kind of shock coz it's so fast?

Mum went to buy some tau poks for me from JB. Yummy! Twins had a share too. Mum go and 'deliver' to them. And went mart to bought the nougets I wanted for so long. Asked her to buy some chocolates too. In the end she bought back 3 packets! Wth. And ended up I paid for all. -_- Pity my poor pocket. And I really love nougets! <3 I love orange mints too! <3 Bought a box of hello kitty mint and I'm really loving it. Althought it cost damn expensive. But to me, it's worth the money since it tasted so nice.

I'm hooked on the song Bu Ming Bai by K One and Qiao En. So damn nice. I like! <3 I always like one song each time and keep on playing it. Been repeating it for don't know how many times tonight. I love to talk on the phone too. <3 Provided that I'm not the one calling and paying. LOL! Mum wanted to link a cordless phone in my room and got rejected by me. I hate being woken up by phone calls. I'll screamed. Anyway, still need to call up singtel and asked them to fix another socket in my room for the boardband wires. The wires been hanging all over for two years and it's such a bug.

Saw jo meimei's news on lian he wan bao newspaper page 3. About how cham her mum and her are. Now then I know how tough she's been working and taking care of her mum and family since she's young. Poor girl. Sometimes she really need some one to be there for her to talk to. Don't look as if she's happy everyday. I believe she's having lots of problems and just staying strong to not her friends and family worry for her. Even my mum said that she's really a loving daughter and nice girl. She's my meimei. Of coz. :)

Long post tonight. Before blogging off. Here's a question and an answer. Answer to my lydia mei when I browse through her blog just now. Her question is do you believe in love at first sight? To me, yes I do. What about you? And now my another question about myself. To you all, am I?

1) Quiet, indoor type, didn't talk much person?
2) Outgoing, full of activeness, loves to ki siao person?
3) Both, depends on mood.

I'm so hyper tonight. Wonder what's wrong. Must be I ate too much chocos.

Take care buddy

A take care post tonight dedicated to my dear buddy darren pang. Aka the famous three letters that starts with F that you all know. I'm so going to miss him. Really feel sad that he's going NS for so long. What he told me was two weeks after and he's coming back for a break. But he's still not at home on weekdays. As what I heard, he'll only be back on weekends. Is that so?

Oh no! Now who is going to talk to me at night now? For the past year, he's the one that kept me company by joking and chatting with me at these wee hours. Life is going to be so bored and weird without him to talk to. I'm getting so not used without him online. Can't be possible that I bugged him on his phone every time. But he said he'll bring his hp there for me to bug.

I can said that he's the best friend I had other than darling sis. Plus I know him more earlier than sister. We had the same thoughts and understand each other really well. He can even know that I'm in a bad mood when I just talked or typed a word. He'll be the first one to be there for me when I need someone to talk to. That's why we both clicked so well.

Thanks buddy for being there for me always. He'll called me to talk to when I'm feeling bad. Yet a few times I just scolded him off. But yet he still continued to ask if I'm feeling better. Thanks for the care whenever I'm having gastric or headache. He'll msg and ask if I'm okay. And will just grab his hp in his hand to sleep so he's just a call away when I need him to talk.

He treats me well. That's why I treated well better. I'll always be there for him too when he needs some one to talk to. Such as when he's in a bad mood due to relationship's problem etc. But talking about his relationship problem did make feel bad. That matter shouldn't have happened after all. Partly my fault too. Sorry buddy. I really feel bad about it till now.

I wondered how he's going to cope without dyed hair. Some more it's short hair. Sure he finds it a torture. He's a guy who is precious about his hair. Can't live without having his hair dyed. He's the one who partly affected me to dye my hair after I saw how good he looks with dyed hair. I remembered that he dyed his hair BLUE during CNY. And the colour looks like habbo mode sofa's blue. FAInt! Because he sent me the picture of his 'nice' hair and clothes for me to choose for his CNY house visiting. Funny guy he is.

And never forgetting how he secretly made avatars for me. Four at once some more. He only asked for what colour I like and a cherry picture from me. And blended out such nice avatars. He knows what I like luckily. Really nice avatars that suit my taste. Thank you so much! And my avatar for his clan's website is also such a beauty. Smart guy. What more can I said?

Won't forget how he helped me in the game. How he asked me to joined him at his site to help him but I rejected. And yet he still helped me to explain matter and teach me so many things. Still feeling bad about rejecting his invitation. Thanks for all his understanding. But I admit I'm a bad friend. I don't even want to join him in other games after he left there. Because I don't like to play online games. And those games need to keep up levels.

A whole long post just for darren pang. Thanks for all that you've done for me. Thanks for being so understanding and stay some distance from me during these time. And the dos and donts you taught me about relationships. All the encouragement etc. All the ways you told me to stay happy. Only fun and no fan for me. Don't worry. Won't forget what you've taught and did for me. I'll know how to take care of myself well. Won't let you worry anymore.

My dear friend. Here's a big thank you for you. Without you, my life would be totally different. A couple of years will past by quickly. You'll going to be a great guy when you done your NS. Although lesser time to talk and joke with. We'll still keep in contact and of course still great friends. Our friendship will stay long. Take care buddy! Stay happy okay! Miss you friend. =)

As usual

As usual, I blogged at 12 plus midnight again. This time it's requested by FiR. This guy here ought to be sleeping at this time. He still got school tomorrow. But he's still wide awake checking did I blog a post or not. So here's one. I'm going to chase him off to sleep soon after he had read this.

And yes, I really regret not going to Malaysia. Found out that mum went to port dickson chalet with my uncle and cousin. Not fair. Everytime there will sure be good stuff when I'm not with them. I'm just not fated for all these.

So as usual. I rotted at home today. Hari Raya's a day that will always rain. Have you noticed it? Most of the time, it will sure to be pouring rain on Hari Raya and CNY too. Wonder why. They just love to drown us wet when we are going house visiting and trying to enjoy the festival. By the way have you noticed that this year's Hari Raya seems kind of quiet? Is it that I'm thinking too much or is it really is?

And due to this rain. I didn't manage to go out today. Just because someone said it's raining now. You sure you still want to go out? Said by the 'famous' mickey mouse. I mean it's just a rain. if you are lazy to go out just say so then. I'm not complaining okay. Just that I find guys shouldn't find rain troublesome or something. But anyway, I just stay at home and online for the whole day non stop till now.

Beginning to get a little active in Habbo and Litez recently. I mean hang around with Litez gang more. Hanging around with them is really enjoyable. We just had fun chilling, chatting and gossiping there. Real madness when we are all started to ki siao. DJing? Nope, still can't. Throat still have that weird croaky voice.

Maybe will go and try play dota just because I need to accompany darren playing it when he's back from NS after perhaps a few months? He asked me to join him in dota. Didn't really give him a promise. But said I'll try to. Guess he's really lonely in the game. It's really not the same as Habbo. He had fame in Habbo and he choose to leave. And he's trying to drag me to where ever or what ever he goes or play. I surrender to this buddy of mine. He's too smart for me to win him in any games anyway. He's a genius. Bored genius I mean. Well, I'm not evil because he said this himself.

Will be quite a short post today. Before I ended this post. I started to think of some songs which are very meaningful to me. One by one I'll just quote them out. But not many. Just a couple of them. And I mean really a 'couple'. Sadly all brings sad and bad memories. And they're all chinese songs.

1) Da She Tou - Wu Ke Qun
Reason: Because it's a song that is once and maybe now still 'that person' aka my EX kor's favourite. A song which he will always requested when I'm djing. Asking me to dedicate it for him. And hence so this is a the most sad and bad memory song. Always reminds me of him when I heard it. And I really tried not to play this song from that matter onwards.

2) We De Cuo - B.A.D
Reason: The first song buddy ask me to send and find for him. Some more ask me to translate it for him in han yu pin yin. Also a song that made me do so many tough chores that includes having to listen to him sing and play it on guitar. So is this considered a bad memory song too? Maybe? Don't know why. Just like and hate this song. Weird me as usual. Oh well~

Mama mia

From the time I'm blogging. You should be able to see that I'm still in Singapore. Lazy and tired to go to Malaysia. What to do? So stay at home and face a black face dad of mine. Preparing to go for a war anytime. World war 3 is going to start. Better don't get any ''bombs'' from him these few days. Or else I'm going to suffer badly.

Read and read like mad for the whole day. Then came online and browse at forums. Before touching those books I did online for a couple of hours too. And before all that I'm doing housework. My eyes is getting so tired. My whole body is tired too. This is how my whole day went today. Really need a good night rest later. Maybe will be going out in the noon. So bored of staying at home with my bad tempered dad.

Without mum at home. My meals are instant noodles, breads and biscuits all the time. Or even sometimes when I feel lazy and not hungry, I don't eat at all. Think I'm going to shrink a couple of kilos in these few days. With no one to keep track on me. My life style is in a whole mess. My aunt don't even know that my mum went into Malaysia. So she can't control and nagged me to eat my meals too. Freedom! But wait.

Mickey mouse aka hamster called to ''spot check'' me today. Asking me have I eaten. What am I doing etc. When did my mum hire a PI? A free of charge PI some more. I'm just joking. Okay, I know he cares. I know all of you cares for me too. But don't worry. I'll know what to do. Alright, you guys are going to tell me that my health's not in a good condition. That's why I need to eat proper and good meals right? I got nagged till I can even typed all these out now. All in my mind. No worries. I know how to take care of myself.

I'm going to enjoy these few days without my mum at home. Nobody's there to control me. Feels so relax. Time to go shopping and buy something nice to pamper myself. Time to treat myself to a good movie. Time to just lie in my bed doing nothing and blasting my mp3. Time to online at the wee hours and nobody cares. Time to... sleep? No choice. I'm really too tired and still sick. Will just give all these a miss and have a good night rest now.

A decision

Now what have I done? Blogging all those in my previous entry and making all my friends worried. I'm so sorry my dears. I promise that I'll be fine. Now it's just a little nose bleed and lost a tad sense of smell. But nothing serious. Perhaps my doctor is right. I really should get it cure before it worsens.

Had been stuffing myself silly these few days. Throat seems much more better. Finally I don't squeak like a mouse now. I can roar like a lion. But blame greedy me. Ate chocolates, prawn crackers and candies after I've just recovered. Hope my throat won't get worse. But what I know now is I've got a bloated stomach. Gastric hurts. Ouch! See, that's the results for being a glutton. I've got to control my diet! No more junk food. Yea, right? What did I said just now? More junk food right? (Can't stand myself -_-)

Today's a great Sunday. I feel much more better thanks to my friends. Today's party rocks to the core. We really should have more of these parties! I totally enjoyed myself there. Indeed, friends are the one who would cheer you up instead of family. And not forgetting mickey mouse (hamster? he wants to change nick. -_-) of course. He made an effort to call me and talked to me for quite awhile. With someone to talk to is really different. Last time there's buddy there for me, and now there's him. See, I'm already so blessed. What more can I ask for?

Got dragged to Malaysia by mum. All because of my crazy uncle who wanted to go back to Malacca at the last minute. Most probably I won't go. Because,

1) Too tired after being sick for these few days. The haze in Malacca is damn scary now. Don't want to be sick when I just arrive there. And guess what darling sister said. He said I'm always sick. I don't wish to be sick okay!

2) I'm lazy. Really wish that I can sleep for the whole day. Although I've applied for leave. But think again. If I don't go this time. I'll be busy starting from next month onwards. Still got chance to go and visit my grandmother?

3) Scared of human jam at the custom. Holiday okay! Damn packed with sardines humans one! I don't want to stand there queuing and waiting for 2 whole hours just to have a freaking passport stamped.

4) Miss all my dear friends here but most importantly my precious computer. Ouch! I heard some one's heart broke. And also I can't use my phone that much in Malaysia. Last month's bill scared me to death already. A whopping 70++ bucks for all that roaming charges!

5) My buddy. He's the one who always asked me to stay because he needs some one to talk to. But not now anymore. Seems he's much more better. He'll be going NS on Thursday. Think we really should have a long talk or perhaps meet for supper or something these few days. Otherwise guess we'll all be busy after this.

6) I can't afford to miss an episode of Goong! Help me! I rather you kill me than ask me to skip watching the drama. It's so damn nice okay! A die die must watch show. If not you'll regret!

See, so many good excuses reasons. So will I be going or will I not? I don't know yet. As usual I can't make up my mind now. So if I'm missing means I'm in Malacca. And I'll only be back on Thursday. Easy to know right? But I've learned my lesson. Never pack your bag and rush like a crazy person at the last minute. If not, most of the time I got fed up and ended up not going. -_-

Feelings and more feelings

If you know me well, you should be able to know that I'm a person that tends to hide my feelings. Esp sadness within me. Don't want my mood to affect others. Will just try to put up a force cheerful front in front of others. But not anymore. Because I broke down. I just want to cry so much now. I'm totally weaken by my surround happenings.

Trying to stay cheerful doesn't work. It will only made you more upset. I tried to pretend there's nothing wrong. Went shopping with my family today, chat with cousins, joke with them etc. But alas, it doesn't help at all. And yes, it really made me feel worse now. I shouldn't hide my feelings at all. Just let myself break down would be better. At least I won't feel so terrible.

So many stuff happened. Firstly one of my best girl friend got admitted into hospital. Reason?

She got beaten up by her boyfriend!

FUCK!!!!!!!

Pardon me but I can't stand guys who beat up their girls. What are girls to them? Some punching bag for them to vent their anger on? I hate this kind of guys. And what have I seen? Not one okay, but two of my girlfriends had abusing guys as boyfriends. And they are so damn stupid not to leave them. Not to even make a police report. One after one, my two poor girlfriends got abused. Times after times. Admitted to hospital again and again. Right. It's just a fall. So smart to fell so badly right? I admire you for it.

I'm washing my hands off them now. From now onwards. Don't ever come crying to me saying that you got beaten up or what so ever. Just let them punch for all the fuck I hell care. And shut up. Suffer in silence if you can.

Next, one of my best guy friend whom I had known for years got into an accident. And was admitted into the hospital now. Although he's not that badly hurt. But what he needs now is care and concern from friends and esp his girlfriend. But what the hell his girlfriend did? Turn one eye and walk away. Pretend she didn't even know him. Because he gotten some cut on his face and his bimbo girlfriend thought his handsome look would be gone forever. And now choose to leave him. Fine! Good. Very good. He can live well without his girl. We as his good friends would be there for him. He don't need this kind of girl as a girlfriend.

To protect my friends, I won't reveal out who they are. But they're not online friends whom I know. They're my real life best buds. Friends whom I had known for years. Perhaps you would ask why am I feeling so down just because of my friends. You're wrong. Because I'm having health problems.

My throat does seems better after those strong dose of medication. But not my nose. My nose keep bleeding these few nights. Doctor had already told me there's some problems with my nose. Better to get it cure quick or it may lead to cancer. Cool! I told him I'll love to try having cancer. And got scolded. Tried to act there's nothing wrong when he checks my nose. Was like not pain at all! But then, it hurts. Because I know once I told him it's fucking pain, sure I'll get send into hospital for a check up. Now what? Wait for it to be heal like the previous time? Will I be so lucky every time? Hope so.

No worries. I always had lady luck to shine on me when I'm having health problems. Stages after stages, I've passed them didn't I? I'm sure it will be the same this time. Sometimes just hope that there's a close someone there for me to talk to. My parents hack care about my health problems. Their famous sentence. Sick go and die then. Poor people can't be sick. Right. How nice. Death is the only option.

Even mickey mouse's not here for me most of the time. He's always busy or tired. And in the end I told him nothing. It seems so tough for me to find someone to talk to. Someone comfortable to pour out my problems to. Last time there's buddy who will be there for me 24/7. But now? Even he's avoiding me. And I know the reason too well. Well, never mind. Maybe leaving me alone will be good. I'll just love to be alone for awhile. Pardon me.

Something new

As usual tonight's post will be a short one. Because I'm still sick. And it's getting more worse than ever as compare to the previous few days. My medicine is running out soon! Help~~!!! :(

But didn't sleep at much as the past few days. I'm not a pig! Seems everyone I know are sick. Including my parents and mickey mouse. See for yourself. What a bad weather it is. All because of the damn stupid haze. Doctors should be smiling a lot recently. It's the time where they earn more than usual. $_$

If you have a great eyesight. You should be able to spot something new in this blog of mine. No no! I don't mean the picture. Look carefully again. Saw that? O_O!!

It's a bird! It's a plane! It's superman!? What the fish!? -_-??

Of course not. It's the Radio:Litez bar! ^^

Introducing the new Radio:Litez bar! Now you can tune in to Radio:Litez anytime, anywhere. See how cool this bar is! Thanks to our deer deer! It's smart platodino who did this. So do remember to give him a hug maybe plus a kiss? LOL! when you see him to thanks him for this wonderful masterpiece.

A pity this thingy here's not FireFox friendly at the moment. But it supports almost all versions of Internet Explorer. Including the newest Internet Explorer 7. You can even send in your shoutouts and requests though here. Wow! Simply too cool to be missed!

Now do enjoy great music when you browse through my blog. I'm loving it! Don't ya? :D

See? I'm killing two birds with one stone. Advertising for both the bar and my blog. LOL!

Short short post

I still can't help but type a blog post. Maybe it's been my daily habit for a couple of years. Not that easy to get it kick. A short post for tonight. After that I'll be going to bed. Really too tired to do anything. Totally lost my voice. Now I can only squeak like a mouse. Sad right?

I'm having a runny nose too. Seems it's more worse than yesterday. Having a headache and giddy spells. Lots of stars over my head. Twinkle twinkle little star~ Had to stay in bed for the whole day. Woke up to watch goong only. Can't afford to miss that wonderful show.

There's really nothing much for me to talk about tonight. Because it seems that I just woke up and it's my bedtime soon again. Just came online to check some stuffs. Most of the time I'll just rest. So perhaps will mia a couple of days more. Do remember to miss me. LOL!

Time check 12mn. Time for my lovely bed. But before that, I've really got to remember to take my medicine. A real strong dose of medication helps me to sleep better and recover more faster. Miss you all. I'll bug you guys in a few more days time when I'm feeling better. Muhahaha! >:D

A sickly post

Won't be able to blog a long post tonight. Feeling too sick to even walk and stand. Let alone type. Went to my family doctor today. Been several years since I last visited him. His medicine, damn power. Those strong dose of medication is making me freaking sleepy. Slept for almost the whole day yet it's not enough. My eyelids still keep shutting on me.

Dr Neo said that I had throat infection. And it spread till my nose. Wanted to recommend me to a specialist. But I rejected. Where can I fork out the money to visit a specialist? I'll just have to try not to talk much recently and let it heal by itself. Yesterday night's conference murdered my throat. Been chatting with matthew and FiR. Now totally no voice. And I can only nod and shake my head just now at the clinic. But the worst thing is I'm suspected to have Dungue Fever! Is like what the fish! I'm asked to check my temperature regularly. If this continues, I've have to step into the clinic or hospital for a blood test.

Now every one's sick. Including my parents. All because of the damn haze. But because of me, they're not able to go to a doctor. 30 bucks per person. We don't have so much money to let every single one of my family to visit the doctor. So in the end my parents sacrificed. And I'm the only one who went to a doctor. Just hope that they will be alright pretty soon.

Feeling too tired to type. Whole body's as weak as jelly. In a drowsy mode and brain seems so empty. My energy's gone. Soul's empty now. Darren's correct. Every time I'm on strong dose of medication, I'll turned blur. He said I'm damn easy to be cheated in this way. =.=
Well, maybe even when I'm not on medication, I'm blur too. Lol.

Do pardon me if I didn't blog for a couple of days. Don't bother to contact me anywhere. No matter if it's msn or phone. Most probably I'll go for a mia break. So will just appear offline in msn and maybe will even shut off my phone. I need plenty of rest right now. Had already took a long leave in Litez. Don't wish to bother about anything for the moment. Now I just want to concentrate getting my precious health back.

Ps: The skype button's cool isn't it?

I am hungry post

I'm so hungry now. After trying to find information about food outlets. 24 hours food outlets or stalls that opened till the wee hours. Selling teochew porridge. Coz simon's dad want to eat that. And I try to help as much as I can. But I'm not a person that goes out for supper always. So it's quite tough to find those information also.

But thanks to matthew! He's the one who asked me to try searching for it online. Then in the end I find out lots of information and those pictures of food. And those pictures are killing me. Maybe I'm gonna eat supper later too. Damn hungry after all these food stuffs. Matt says called 6777-3777. COUGHS! Not mac again! LOL!

Matt don't want me to say about him. I die die want to blog about him. This teen here talks sense. Very cheem sense. You totally can't win him. I feel as if we are debating. And I'm always the one giving up and losing. Very mature thinkings. No wonder I thought he was 22 years old last time. Haha!

Still sick today. So I really need to sleep early later. Provided that there's no roaches in my room! Is like wth! There's this damn big roach crawling on my bed and on me last night. I screamed like there's no tomorrow and woke mum up to squash it. Then asked mum to keep me company the whole night. Was too afraid to sleep. Seems like a kid yea? No choice. Told you I'm scared of roaches that damn much and they keep coming out to piss me. What to do?

Sometimes I'm also not sure did we drift anot. Maybe yes and maybe no. Time will tell. Since he's not free so I'll just hang around with my friends more. Darren actually msg me to ask why did I keep dc-ing just now. And I goes wah! You even notice that I tio dc! He's the one who keep notice my personal nick also. To check how's my mood. My great buddy indeed. Really glad he and his girl's much more better now. To think I even notice the dp he changed that day. That's his girl. Don't worry. Got alarmed for nothing.

Can't stand it anymore. I need food! I'm a big eater mind you! Ask my ger, mei, francis and xi0ng and you'll know. They sure got this big shock. Coz I ate up xi0ng's unfinished potion of food that day. And I still feel hungry. Can say that I eat to destress. Will feel much more better after eating. Food rocks! You guys rocks too! Thanks for the concern. I'm fine. No worries!

Depression strikes

I'm too tired to go on ahead anymore. Been sick for a couple of days. And my energy's dying out on me. Too weak to keep on continuing. I need a rest. Sleeping early tonight. Don't want to think and bother about anything else.

How did all came over to my blog today? By links? Da jie said we all linked each other. That's why it's easy to find everyone's blog. Now it's as half of the habbo knows about my blog. Gave me a shock. I wonder who are those secret ones who visits but never tagged. Seems to me there's a few more secretive habbos. Don't suddenly scared me by tagging and say surprise! I read your blog too. I'll straight away heart attack.

Been bugged by lots of roaches recently. They're attacking and crawling all over my kitchen! And nothing seems to kill them. Killed one, one more appeared. Non stop killing of roaches. Just stepped on one just now. And the feeling is damn disgusting. Screamed like a mad woman and woke my dad up to murder it. Can anyone get those damn roaches out of my house? You know I'm super duper afraid of roaches.

Buddy! Don't keep playing dota. Spare some time to talk! 1 more week before he goes NS. And 4 more days before I go Malaysia and went mia for a couple of weeks. He knows I'm having a bad mood. Coz I'm like bugging him to talk to. And yes, he's a friend whom understands me very well indeed. Asked me what is wrong. But I just told him I'm too bored. Don't want to tell him I'm feeling damn sick and moody.

It seems the whole world had suddenly gone quiet. I've nobody to turn and talk to. Mickey mouse? He's too busy. And I don't wish to disturb him. Let him finish all his stuffs first. Now I'm really not used to being alone without anyone there for me. But guess I'll just continue to rot alone myself. Maybe I'm really acting weird today. Perhaps I'm sick. That's why. Do pardon me. But I'm really very afraid of being alone.

Remembered that day at causeway. Wanted to find someone out for dinner also that damn tough. In the end I rotted my day away just sitting at the fountain staring at the water. Having a packed rice alone there coz I just can't even find a seat at the food court. Eating and thinking, tears just rolled down. Nobody bothers about me. Sending tons of sms but none replied me. Family hack care about me. Friends don't have time for me.

Pardon me again. I'm just going crazy coz I'm too lonely. Can anyone just spare a couple of minutes to talk to me? My dear friends? And my dear family. Can someone just bother about me for a little while? It's as if the whole world just left me, myself and I. The feeling is just so terrible and horrible. Maybe a good night's rest will do me good. The haze better get lost soon too. It's one of the reason that is making me moody.

Damn bad mood. Hp bill flying. Everything need money. Everytime in lack of money. Fucking lonely and helpess. I hate the feeling of being ill. Esp when it steals my voice and I can't talk for days. Sux to the max core. Sickness sickness go away. Don't you ever come again another day. Or I'll whack you and squash you like a roti prata and burn you till you cry mama.

Update at 3am: Singnet sux!! It crashed on me for 2 whole hours. Landing me not able to sleep at an early time. So many things to do yet it crashed! IT CRASHED! WTH!! I just so want to blog this out! I hate singnet!

Ps1: I feel better now. I mean my mood not health. If only health's better 2.
Ps2: Didn't heard from that person for a whole day. Waiting and still waiting.

Sick of falling sick

Bleh. I'm sick again. This time don't even know what happened. Woke up and found that I'm having a sore throat. Then slowly tiredness came. Whole body went weak. Bones aching. Head spinning. Heart beating like no tomorrow. And can only rot in bed. Walking is such a tough chore. So just spent half my sunday in bed. And wasted a nice lovely sunday.

Got woken up by mickey mouse at 4 plus am. He called at such a ''nice'' time. Anyway chatted awhile. Then off to sleep again. Got woken up by twins call at 8am. Chatted for a long time with a sleepy voice talking about the korean drama ''goong''. About how handsome the 2nd lead actor is. ^^ Discussing if it's ming dao or him who is more handsome. Due to my suaning saying that her computer is down and asked her over to use mine. Keep shouting computer here and there to her. My cousin cannot tahan my ''computer temp'' so it's the end of the early ''morning call''.

Msg di and asked when he's free to come over my house again. To return the nemo vcd and maybe borrow a couple of pieces more to watch during his holiday. Bed time again in the morning till evening. Woke up feeling sian the whole day. Night is the only time I feel much more better after chomping a panadol down. But think I made my parents and mickey mouse worried. But sadly my parents still lazy to bother much when I'm sick. Used to it now. Learned how to take care of myself already.

Mickey mouse called for don't know how many times till mum buay tahan and answer the call. She said I'm making him damn worried without answering his call. But think shock that mouse when my mum answer it. He was like eh? Wrong number? And ''karp'' the phone. I went roflmao when he told me just now. But the second time was better. He called, mum answer the call and he went hello auntie eaten le ma? *Coughs* Very ''nice sentence'' to start off. Think mum told him I'm not feeling well blah blah blah. And he said he'll called again tomorrow. But in the end when I feel better I ended up calling him back. And let me count. I've received 6 calls from him today. Wow!! O_O!!

Watched tons of shows just now. Starting off with cyndi's wei xiao pasta episode 14. Ming dao's xing ping guo le yuan episode 3. And zai zai's silence shen qing mi ma till late midnight. Don't really like zai zai's show. So turned it off quite soon. To think francis know I like wei xiao pasta? He shoved me the wei xiao pasta book when we went orchard that day. Mei only pointed xing ping guo le yuan's book to me. Well.. Can say that I love almost all popular taiwan and korean shows. Coz popular shows got ''nice'' actors and actress.

Buddy msg me just now. Starting off with sianz. Saying that his dota dc. Later asked about mickey mouse and me. The whole conversation lasted not more than 3 mins. Our shortest talk ever. Win liao. Dota dc then come and find me. I've been trying to msg him for 2 whole weeks and get no reply at all. Now what? Back from mia? Still promise me when he mia will contact me. 10 more days before he goes NS. Still don't want to treat kieran and me supper. With this kind of buddy. My life can be shorten by don't know how many years. Darren Pang! You owe us a treat!

I just remembered I'm still sick. And now on the air con plus fan together. Later tomorrow don't have to crawl out of bed already. Double blast man. Somemore a sick person can blogged so much. And the most interesting part is I don't sound like I'm sick as said by mickey mouse. *Coughs* Is it? Oh well. Don't even dare to tell buddy I'm sick. Otherwise the nagging starts. Really wondering who is the older one. FAInts! And lastly today's the 1st year of wang zi bian qing wa's last episode. Means I've been liking the show and ming dao for 1 year already? That's fast! Time flies fast too. 2am now. Bed time soon. I'm still sick remember? ~.~ <-- Not copyrighted hor francis?

Habbo history

Tonight I'll talked about my habbo history. Coz of someone I've decided to blogged out what happened to my habbo life now and then. Habbo's a game which I've been playing for coming 2 years. Maybe I'm not considered the first batch of habbos. Coz I don't skip over from other hotels unlike some. I only get to know habbo when saw it's advertisement on TV around Nov 04.

But guess I'm still considered the early batch of habbos whom swift over to register a habbo account after watching those advertisements. Joined this game since the end of Nov 04. Been a hc club member since Feb 05. The best about habbo is you've gotten yourself tons of great friends. In which some even become your best real life buds. Now who says habbo is virtual and full of pixels? Nope, it's not. It's not a game. It's just friends typing to friends behind the computer.

When I first entered habbo in Nov 04, I dress up in green from head to toe. A green jacket. Green pants. Green shoes. With a black pony tail hair. The first room I made was my humble house which I used to invite friends whom I just know for a chat. First furni I bought was the TV deal coz I just loved the cute little red pod. And then I painted my whole room green in which now the room becomes my kopitiam. 1 credit left after buying all these.

A couple of months later. When I spent more on habbo buying more furnis. Which is around in Jan 05, my kopitiam was born. I still remembered how it bloomed from an unpopular room to a popular room among my friends and those regular customers. The question almost ALL habbos would ask when they first enter is do they need to pay by credits to buy food? Of coz not! Kopitiam is a place for friends to gather and chill around chit chatting. Not trying to earn your credits.

My kopitiam staffs aka helpers are friends and habbos who are kind enough to help ''entertain'' the customers. To those who have helped before, a big thank you to you people! Without you, my kopitiam won't be such a success. But sadly, more and more habbos followed the trend. More kopitiams opened and I totally lost interest in continue the kopitiam anymore. So now it had become HabboLitez Kopitiam. Where I just opened it when friends request.

Thanks to kopitiam, almost all my habbo friends I've known is through there. Eg mei. Her famous ''lao sai chilli'' rocks to the core. Scaring everyone out of the tiam. LOL! Through kopitiam, I've met arghni di, highrider and a lot more close friends. Then more friends brought their friends along and hence more friends. Those old friends such as Booniee aka nieeniee was known through kopitiam too. Still remembered how she always requested for 2 ''bak changs'' steamed with diamond water. That was such a trend! And I love to chill at her trading room when having my breakfast. Together with flintdagger and firestarter da ge. Though I don't know them well. It was after I joined Litez then I know them well more better.

Knowed a lot of jies and meis through FF aka Falling Furnis game. I just so love to play FF. Coz I lack of furnis. And FF's a good game to earn more furnis. Mei and me always played or hosted FF together. Know weikai when I just pop by his room for a chat. And through there, I know jasbunny jie, starlyn jie whom we 3 are the flowers of weikai. Aaryn was known through weikai's room too. And not forgetting my xiaorannie aka babylovy jie. Through her I know jeff and later basbaby da jie. Then doughnut jie and jiayan jie came into my habbo life soon after.

These are the few friends I know before I entered Litez. Not forgetting washywashy's maze when I become a helper there. Know dreamze through the maze. He still remembered how I teached him. And I still remembered how he dj in habz which is k-radio with zhen jie for the first time. It was 10+pm. And I was laughing till the whole block can hear my laughter upon listening to dreamze djing. Lost touch with him for a long time. It's when we met at a trading room and he approached me then we became great friends.

Fai's also one of the old friends I met before I entered Litez. My kopitiam was still having a roaring business at that time. And I was busy checking if there's anyone who opened a kopitiam to ''snatch'' my business. And hence found Fai's room. The simi simi kopitiam. Straight I went in, go there chit chat fake fake disturb. Then he saw my mission. Kopitiam boss. He quickly apologize and said he don't mean to snatch business. The room is only a chill place. But strangly he use kopitiam too. Fate I suppose? So we hit it off well straight. Chatting about everything under the sun. I don't even know he's the boss of k-radio aka habz at that time. It was after he's back from the long mia break then I begin to remember his name and how we chatted last time. Approached him and we're great friends till now.

Radio:Litez just started when I begin to know there's actually radio station webs in habbo. But choose habz due to the popular ness and Litez's old songs at that time due to lack of djs. Mei and ahshen are my gang of radio crazy. Listening to k-radio always. Did flip through Litez web at that time browsing news of habbo. But didn't caught my attention coz I'm not very interested in habbo news compare to radio. Know jensen and niee are the Litez gang. It was when jasbunny jie joined Litez then I begin to notice it. And hence noticed that they are hiring djs. Sent a voice clip of mine straight. And got shortlisted in.

Tough decision to choose between being interviewed by fire or bas. Choose bas coz thought girls to girls would be more comfortable to talk with although I know fire more better. Know a few more friends in which they become my dj partners soon after. More close with ikia as we really get along very well. Always sit beside each other at every interview session in fire's room. Don't really know Fudgey well at that time. Only know that she's a usual gang of jas jie and lyn jie. After getting in Litez then it's when I've got more friends.

July to Aug 05. My habbo life begins in Litez. More friends, more work, more busy, spending more time online. Slowly and slowly all my time are spent online and on Litez. Drifted with non Litez gang. But still we keep in touch. Then it's mei's matter. With algren. Although algren's in my friend list. I don't know him well. Through mei, we all become close. And become jie di now.

Another di of mine. TS. Only know that he should be in the same dj batch with us but he withdraw due to some reasons. He approached me in welcome lounge asking me to be his jie. Accepted and it's when he came to Litez then we become close siblings. GI was another person I know him when he's not in Litez yet. That's the only 2nd batch of djs I know before they entered Litez.

Kio kor was know through xiaorannie jie. Only then I know he is jie's real life bro. Know twofold through dreamze. We're best buds now. The above are all the things I wish to remember in my habbo life. Other matters such as him/her stuffs and O-'s korkor stuffs. I'll just let it past. But will always remembered how korkor chase a habbo in bas's room when he snatched my seat. He called me baby mei and since that we are kor and mei. But now? Forget it. Some stuffs are better not to be mention out. Otherwise sadness.

The end of this long post I guess. Time to move forward. Still in habbo. With some different friends from the time I started to play habbo. New friends and stuffs coming on the way. Still waiting, still continuing. My journey in habbo continues. With a different taste from the past. Some things are meant to let off. Other than Litez, guess I must learn to let go a lot of matters. Let them be past and look into my virtual future. More fun and laughter are waiting for me.

''Family'' outing

This family don't stand for my real family. It stands for my another family instead. ????????? What do you mean? LOL! *Blur* Make it simple. It means all my darlings. My mei, my di, xi0ng, my ger and ger's bf. See? This is also a family right? We all went out together today. An official family outing. The first family outing we had. Because most of the time either ger or francis didn't join. Today! It's all of us! :D

Don't think I'm high tonight. I'm feeling bad. Bad mood although there's a conference going on. The usual gang again. Di and mei and of course myself. Didn't talk much tonight. Maybe it's a bad choice for me to come online and saw something that killed my mood for the whole night. Just feel moody upon seeing it. Don't know why either. Just sian sian over it. But saw what mei wrote in her blog. ''Do things don't regret.'' I really must learn this from her. Time for me to learn how to put down.

Back to the outing topic. Met them at bugis. Walked walked at bugis. Really hate it! Friday 13th!Sibeh suay! There's really something unlucky that happened. My shoes! Walked walked walked. The side of the shoe broke. Spoilt! Okay fine, it's just a shoe. But then minutes after, another shoe went piak and spoilt! There, now it's a pair of shoe. -_- Had to find a new pair of shoes at bugis. Walked around a few shops. Saw a few pairs of nice shoes. But wth! None of the shops had my size! Kaoz! See? How lucky I am right? But still ''luckily'' manage to find a quite okay pair of sandals after roaming for a long time. Say a couple of hours. -_- Make me feel damn pai seh.

Went to the arcade. They played a few games. I stared at them play. -_- Keep gossiping with ger about mei and someone. Coughs! We all agreed. Then blar blar blar. Can't say too much. Otherwise will get killed straight. =X Ger's bf not bad. I like this future son in law. :D Rotted in arcade. They ''catch'' sweets for a long time. Spending don't know how much on it. Sibeh wasted. But we did earn fun and happiness in return. And I earn the whole bag of sweets. LOL!

Actually I missed playing arcade games. I did chiong arcade when I was young. But maybe too old for that now. Don't really like it liao. And I get along very well with ger though I just met her. Called me mummy here and mummy there. LOL! I got a few hard stares from the passer by. They must be wondering why I've got such an ''old'' daughter. Coughs again! And the most funny thing is ger's bf think that francis and me are a couple! Coughs more! Very funny. -_-

All of us are mad. Chiong over to orchard soon after. Walked around orchard. Ate dinner at ramen ten which is at far east. Not costly and delicious. I'll recommended it to everyone. Francis wanted to treat us. But ger's bf is gentleman enough to pay for themselves first. I gave mei and xi0ng a hard stare. LOL! They guai guai pay francis back. :D Ger and her bf parted with us after dinner. :(

Mei, xi0ng, francis and me still went roaming at orchard. Walked over to taka. Look at books. -_- Then walk here walk there in taka. Got a show at taka. New paper's contest. I didn't bother to look more. It's too damn noisy there. So went to look for a lady's jacket with francis. He wanted to get one for his gf. And bought a 50 bucks nice jacket. So sweet of him hor? No wonder he asked us to go shopping today. Got motive de. Tsk tsk. LOL!

Rotted at mac after all those walking. Eat eat drink drink chat chat. Time to go home soon after. Because the teens parents are calling to rush them home. I went to take bus and them train. Always lidat when I go orchard with friends. My direct bus more faster. 20 minutes reach home. I rather take bus. And now, home sweet home. Conference time. Not sure till what time tonight. Guess I'll still be going out tomorrow. So should be sleeping quite early too. In the end, you know. I still ended up awake at 6 am. x.x

Friday the 13th

I really need to have an early night tonight. Later still need to go out for a ''family gathering''. Coughs! My so call family includes mei, ger, francis di, and xi0ng. They're also my usual conference gang. Funny right? There's age gap and yet we get along so well. Been a long time since we meet. Going to bugis to buy di's stuffs. Pai seh to say. I never go to bugis before. =x

Mountain turtle right? Coz most of the time I just shop around my neighbourhood. Sometimes if want to wonder a little more far the most I'll go is town. Never go to bugis before coz it's very far. And mainly due to I'm a lazy person. But things are different if you got friends to keep you company. Hope it will be a great day later. Unlucky friday! Hope nothing goes wrong! I'll always had bad stuffs happening on unlucky friday! Bad luck shoo shoo!

They better don't quarrel like the last time. Guess won't bah. Coz their relationship is different last time. Coughs! But now there's no more stress and I won't be sandwich. Yay! I wonder if this is a good or bad thing. Ger will be going along with her bf. Cool wor! Time to meet my son in law? LOL!! Gosh. I'm old! And hope ger won't actually call me mummy on the street. It will be so weird?

Nearly 2am now. Currently steaming streaming some songs on litez. No listeners? Nice one. For 2 whole hours I've been streaming for not many listeners. Think oto tune in just now. Night time are always like this. Peacefully quiet. Just want to listen to soothing songs tonight and thought I'll share it out. But jia lat. All's sleeping. I'm the weird one to be awake at this kind of weird hours.

I don't wish to quarrel with him. My cousin kor. He's asking me to help him look for a job in SG. But the problem is I don't have this kind of lobangs and don't have many friends to seek help from. And he started asking me to go look up from the newspaper for him. In a bad tempered way. That won't help. I look up the papers, called the company and tell them my cousin's looking for a job? Weird right? Coz I don't know much info. What if they asked questions? I'll just straight away stone there.

The teens are asking me to ask simon out along later. Cannot lah. He's busy. And he's nice to actually say they can give him a call to chat for a while. Try to mix in with my close ones. That's really nice of him. He knows they are way too important to me. Maybe will be going to the movies with him on saturday. He owe me a movie treat! I want to watch jackie chan's movie! Been saying that for two weeks and I still have not watch it. Going to my doctor's there too. Keep being lazy and hence my health's failing again.

Some guys are just weird. They just appear out of the blue and try to ask you out. There's this guy on skype. Been messaging me for a couple of times. And the problem is I didn't even add him. How the hell does he message me? My settings are set to private. Sometimes I really hate skype. And this insurance guy keep calling me lately. Trying to find a time to chat with me since I'm asked to do a survey 2 weeks ago and he got my contact no. He had a weird name. Suria. He told me it's the malay channel. =.='' Funny. I don't like to be friends with people whom appear out of the blue.

And seems bad luck had already arrived before the 13th. On ming ming. Poor boy. He got hacked on habbo. That idiot hacker only left him a snow poster. Wtf! How dare the hacker lay his hands on my di!! $^%&%R&amp;amp;amp;amp;$%^%$&$&*$%&!!! But seems ming kana keylogged. Sibeh suay. That's what he said. But I'm glad this incident didn't affect him seriously. That's my strong di! Way to go! Haha, weird. I find that I dote on him more than i dote on ym. Biased! Hehe! xD

My boring day

I can't blog a long post tonight. My modem? Computer? Or even perhaps singnet is crashing on me. I keep getting dc-ed. I hate it! Stupid! Luckily I don't have to do any quiz or survey tonight. Heng ah! Don't sabo me liao okay? I'm getting quite tired of typing those long quiz and survey.

Will just blog a little of what happened today. Hmm.. Spent some time on habbo today. At last go habbo liao lor. It's fun after all. If you log in once in a while. I don't know why. And who started saying it. All come around asking me about my bf. Coughs! Give me a break. But still thanks for concern. Fudgey's so cute. She was kay poh-ing some *coughcough* stuffs? And I goes wth? Her that question is errr so funny? -_-

And I saw ysl di's blog. It seems the whole habbo know about my matter or something. -_- Help lor! I can get scared off. Even he can get scared off if you people seems so curious about the mouse. Wanted to see his photo some more? Faints! Ps: He's born in the year of mouse. Mickey mouse! Wahaha! :D And pss.. Ysl di, I don't blog like xiaxue! I blogged like xiayu! Raining arh! LOL! But what you said is true. I'm sort of those da jie jie type. And you can only find me online at weird hours when everyone is asleep.

I feel bad leh. Mickey mouse called me coz I hiam him too busy lately. We don't have time to chat. But then my whole mind is blur coz he called at the time when I'm chatting on habbo. He talked I just go huh? Simi? -_- Pai seh ah. I can't muti task one. Talk can't type. Type can't talk. Similar when I dj lor. But he's nice lah. Called me again just now. And rawr! He caught a flu. Again? Wth? Seems his health more jia lat than mine. I won him anyway. My health's better! He better take care oh~

I'm getting so hooked on korean and taiwan dramas. And of coz korean show's songs. Damn nice lor! Korean songs are much more better then Japanese songs. I like lar! Esp those slow soothing romantic love songs. Omg! *Melts* But normally I only like those theme or ending song of dramas. That will caught my attention. If not I don't even know what songs they are.

Ting failed her test. Sigh. She's pinning so high hopes on it yet all turns out this way. Poor gal. But don't worry, have more confidence in yourself. Believe in yourself that you can do it. And most important is don't be nervous. She's always nervous when it comes to important stuffs since school last time. Silly gal. Wish that you'll pass in the next try. Good luck! :)



Since all of you wants to know how he looks like. So hence I'm presenting!

Mr Mickey Mouse!!!

Pardon me for exposing your photo. Who ask you to be so famous? -_-

New domian and quiz

New Domian: http://www.rongfang.co.nr/

Leads to this blog too. Easier right? You guys won't forgot my blog add and go around thinking is the add...
an ever lasting dream?
a never lasting dream??
simi sai dream??? -_-

Okay back to tonight's topic. I got saboed!
Not again. -_- This time by qing wa.
So here's another survey / quiz?

Here goes!

1. Full name: Tan RongFang

2. Name backwards: gnaf gnor nat (Wth? -_-)

3. Were you named after someone: Don't know leh.

4. Meaning of name: Also don't know. I never bother about knowing the meaning of my name.

5. Nickname: Long kang aka drain. (Wth!!!)

6. Screen name: Still RongFang loh. What else?

7. D.O.B: 02/12/85

8. Place of birth: Singapore

9. Nationality: Singapore

10. Current location: Bukit Panjang (My home sweet home)

11. Star sign: Sagittaruis

12. Religion: Buddhist

13. Height: 163cm (Should be around that?)

14.Weight: 40kg (Around that?)

15. Shoe size: 6

16. Hair colour: Black previously. But don't know what colour is that after I dyed it.

17. Eye colour: Black

18. Who do you look like: Myself loh! Who else?

19. Innie or outtie: What is that??

20. Lefty or righty: Righty loh

21. Gay, straight, bi or others: Straight of course!

22. Best friends: Elizabeth! She's my great friend for 10 years!

23. Favourite pals: My all those meis and dis and jies and kors and a lot more lah.

24.Best friend of opposite gender: Darren, dreamze, kieran.

25. Best buddies: Aren't all these almost the same questions? Still the usual gang loh.

26. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: BF! BFs! GFs! (Many Boy Friends and Girl Friends plus a BF)

27. Crush: Do you mean crash again? It's that SMU....... (Diam lah. Hear till sian liao. -_-)

28. Parents: Mr and Mrs Tan :)

29. Worst enemy: I don't have enemies.

30. Favourite online guy: Darren Pang aka Ah Fai

31.Favourite online girl: A lot lah. Mention out sure long list.

32. Craziest friend: My mei and di? *giggle*

33. Advice friend: Darren, dreamze, kieran.

34. Loudest friend: Can I say myself? LOL!

35. Person you cry with: Normally I cried alone. Don't want to affect my mood to others.

36. Any sisters: Nope.

37. Any brothers: Nope.

38. Any pets: Last time have. Now nope.

39. Any disease: You want to know if I have any mental problem or cancer?

40. Pager: Who still use pager now?

41. Personal phone line: My hp no lor. Unrevealable though.

42. Cell Phone: Cell phone model or no? Model is nokia lor.

43. Lava lamp: Simi?

44. Pool or hot tub: Don't have and don't want.

45. A car: Don't have. Want to have one though.

46. Your personality: Ask my friends and family?

47. Driving: Hope to take up driving course soon.

48. Car you want: I know nuts about cars.

49. Room: What do you mean? Which room I'm in now? Bedroom lor.

50. Whats missing: Seems nothing to me leh? Everything seems perfect. Maybe just lack of $$ bah.

51. School: The damn Zhenghua with the damn principal.

52. Bed: Queen size bed that I sleep alone! Muhahaha! Shiok!

53. Relationship with parents: Not bad loh.

54. Believe in myself: Yup!

55. Believe in love at first sight: YES!

56. Good listener: I believe that I'm one.

57. Get along well with parents: Isn't it the same question as above? Told you ok le loh.

58. Save e-mail convos: Nope.

59. Pray: Sometimes.

60. Believe in reincarnations: Maybe bah?

61. Make fun of people: Always! >:)

62. Like to talk on the phone: YES!!

63. Want to get married: Yup. But not that soon lah. Maybe in a few years time.

64. Like to drive: Sure would like to if I have a license.

65. Motion sickness: Yea.

66. Eat stem of broccoli: Not really. Depends on my mood.

67. Eat chicken with fork: You use your mouth don't you? Don't tell me you use a fork to eat instead of your mouth? :o LOL!

68. Dream in colour: What kind of question is this? Mine's not 60's dream lah. Not black and white one.

69. Type with your fingers on home role: What's this?

70. Sleep with stuffed animals: You mean soft toys? Who sleep with animals other than pets? And pets aren't stuffed.

71. Next to you: A lot lah. Mouse, hp, mp3 etc.

72. On the walls of ur room: 183 Club's poster!

73. On ur mouse pad: I don't have a mouse pad. I use an optical mouse.

74. Dream car: Isn't this the same question as the previous one? You're wasting my time.

75. Dream Date: Dating venue you mean? Or guy? Seaside lah! I love the beach! With bf of course to make it perfect. :)

76. Dream honeymoon spot: Japan, Korean, Taiwan. All asia countries.

77. Dream husband / wife: BF? Hahaha..

78. Bed time: Morning till evening. LOL!

79. Under ur bed: Nothing at all. Maybe some spider webs and dust?

80. Single most impt question: When can I be rich!!!???

81. Bad time of the day: When I'm too busy to online. I can't live without my computer!

82. Your worst fear: Dying?

83. The weather is: Not bad. At least there's no haze now.

84. Time: 2.43am

85. Date: 11/10/2006

86. Best trick did on someone: I'm not that evil to play tricks on people. *acts innocent*

87. Theme song: Don't have leh.

88. Hardest thing about growing up: Coping with stress, problems, family, friends and adult life.

89. Funniest experience: Don't know leh.

90. Scariest experience: Don't wish to say.

And now!!!!

Choose 0 people to do the quiz!!!

??????????

I don't want to sabo people liao lar. So don't worry my dear friends. :)

Monday blue

So many things happened recently. Sometimes I do wonder if my eyes are playing tricks on me? Or is it just a dream? I'll woke up eventually? I don't dare to think of what will happen. I can't believe what I saw. It's a bad thing to stay awake at the wee hours. Shock is what I'll get. Been a couple of times already. Hope this time be just like the previous times. Just a dream.

Don't go around guessing what that means in my first paragraph. Not what you think or imagine it is. I'm afraid some will go guessing that I've seen a ghost or something. =.= Nope, nothing of that sort. Rest assured. Just trying to blog out some matters that had been in my mind for a long time. And yeah, I do feel better after this. Hooray!

Been waiting. I don't know it's such a torture to wait. Waiting for a call is such a pain. My dear phone, when are you going to ring? Suddenly I'm reminded of S.H.E's song ''Ring Ring Ring''. The lyrics suits perfectly on what I'm thinking and waiting now. What a weird day. Full of Monday blue. And for goodness sake, it's already Tuesday morning right now. Can I wake up?

I'm hooked on the Korean show ''Princess Hours'' shown on Channel U now! Can I buy the DVD? The guy which acted as the second lead actor is just so handsome! And the lead actress is just so cute! The show is so funny! Definitely must pester mum to buy the DVD! It's a must watch show okay! Channel U weekdays 7pm! I feel as if I'm advertising for Media corp. =.=

And I'm hooked on one of Fish's old song which is 有你在. It's a song which I've been looking for. For quite some time. But can't manage to find it because I don't know the title. Finally! Thanks to Elizabeth! She recommended me this song! And was shocked to know it's the song which I've been looking for! Thanks so much my dear friend! You're great!

Weekend ended

15 mins more for me to blog before my dad wake up and I kana murdered. Chiong ar! Will just blog about what I did this weekend. Tried to blog some album reviews out but it's damn troublesome. In the end? I gave up. Deleted the post straight. If I did stuffs I'm not satisfied with, I'll rather X them up.

Saturday: Not feeling well so sleep lor. Woke up again in the evening and went chatting on msn with rider. He asked me where's mei. Told her mei mia lor as in habbo. So the whole evening just chat with him about lots of things. Trading etc. Thanks rider. He helped me a lot in trading. A nice young chap. But the bad thing is he remind me of him. Went discussing about someone whom acts like him in rider's room. Someone whom I hate to hear his name now. Someone whom I respected but hated? now. Kor? That's what I still called him. Rider said I'm so nice to still put in good words for him. I don't know. Maybe I'm just stupid? or softhearted to still regard him as my kor.

Night time was spent chatting with ting on msn. Asked her to download skype. And chatted a lot about fish's new album qin qin. We both agreed that this is her best album ever. Ting's really a die hard fan of liang jing ru. In this album, fish tried to sing a hokkien song. And what's most surprising is she actually wrote a song. And it's a very nice one some more. The whole album songs suit her vocal and style. Will be buying the album from ting although I've listened to the songs. I just so want to keep her best album.

Sunday: Woke up by mickey mouse's phone call. Learned that he's tired and busy with lots of family matters. Me? I can't do anything to help. Regarding medical things, I'm quite sensitive to the topic. Didn't sleep much after the call as mama's going to the dentist. And I got bugged by her for the whole day just nagging about the dentist's stuffs. To think she can still talk so much after having two of her teeth pulled out. Pro and funny mama I have.

Sunday night was of course as usual glued to the computer to watch Taiwan idol dramas. Pasta and star apple. Tonight's not too lag. Still alright to view. The show damn interesting and funny. I laughed till mama came into the room and complained. -_- After pasta, continue to watch ming dao's new show star apple. But it's damn blur. So in the end gave up and went forums browsing. Then hands itchy go and changed the blog's picture and song.

Been waiting. Waiting for mickey mouse's call or msg. Had a feeling knowing he will either call or msg me tonight. And woah! Aren't I pro? He actually called me at 2.30am. So ''early'' hor? Luckily I'm still not asleep. Otherwise I don't know how jia lat he will kana. LOL! Chatted awhile. Asking him how he is. Ask him to take care this and that. Busy guy lah. What to do? But I'm really okay with it. I'm understanding and reasonable right? Tsk tsk. Bhb sia.

And okay, this bhb char boh needs her beauty sleep liao. Having a terrible headache now. Wonder when ting will ask me out and pass me the album. I can't wait! Have not seen her for more than half a year since her birthday. Really miss this 10 years good friend of mine! Sure we'll have a lot to talk. Bedtime! It's already 4 in the morning! WAH! :S

Survey

I'm so lucky to get choosen by lydia mei to do a survey. x.x
So here's it. :)

1) Do the following. O_O
2) Choose 5 LUCKY people to do this after you've completed yours. >:)

ARE YOU READY?

GO!

Favourite colour: Light apple green

Favourite food: Tough question. I just love to eat everything!

Favourite movie: I Not Stupid Too (That's such a new movie yea? -_- )

Favourite sport: Eee.. I hate sports!

Favourite day of the week: Sunday! It marks the end of a week!

Favourite ice cream: Sweetcorn and strawberry

Favourite TV shows: I don't really like to watch TV.

Current mood: Tired and lazy.

Current taste: Huh? What a weird question. I'm not a lizard that sticks out my tongue and tastes every single thing. So my answer equals nothing? -_-

Current clothes: In pyjamas now. It's midnight! What do you think? Don't tell me in bikini meh?

Current desktop: Ming En. Ming Dao & Qiao En. As usual. :)

Current toenail colour: Light pink.

Current time: 1.30AM!

Current annoyance: The haze. What else?

Current thoughts: Bored. Thinking and doing nothing except for the survey.

First best friend: Youting aka Elizabeth. :D

First crush: Clean forgotten about it. It's dinosaur years ago. But if you mean crash then there's one. The SMU wall's matter. First crash. Banging into the SMU's wall. -_-

First movie: The Mask!

First lie: Who will remember lies anyway?

First music: Who will go and remember that? Some kiddish songs maybe.

Last cigarette: Last week. Damn bad mood so went for a smoke. But I must say I don't smoke much!!

Last drink: Keep having sips of plain water from my mug now.

Last car ride: Last sunday. Trip to malaysia. I don't travel by cars in SG.

Last crush: Are Hello Kitties counted? Or do you mean crash again? Okay okay. It's time for the SMU's matter again. -_-

Last phone call: Mickey mouse's call last night. Other than him and my family, I never get many phone calls. If you asked about sms, then it's A LOT!

Last CD played: 183 Club. Who else? I never get bored of their songs.

Have you ever dated one of your best friend?
Of course not.

Have you ever broken the law?
Is buying pirated discs and chewing gums considered? =x

Have you ever been arrested?
NO!

Have you ever skinny dipped?
Wth? Of course not! -_-

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know?
YES! Are babies included? LOL!

Have you ever loved and lost someone?
Tell me who don't?

Single, taken or crushing?
Considered taken? =x

Are you happy with your life now?
NO! I hate my life!

When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him / her fast?
No I don't. I need time to know him well first.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Who don't?

Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Two letters. NO!

Would you take someone back if he / she cheats on you?
I don't think I will forgive him. So most probably won't.

Have you ever talked about marriage with another person before?
Yes I did.

Do you want children?
Maybe? I'm still young to think of this.

How many?
Maybe a boy and a girl?

Would you ever consider adoption?
Maybe. But I know that there will be chances the child having problems with you.

If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his / her feelings?
Can I skip this question?

Do you enjoy getting into relationship?
So far so good.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
I do. :)

Are you romantic?
Not really?

Do you believe you can change someone?
I believed that. Because I changed a few of my friends already. Their thoughts and characters.

If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
Can I don't answer this? Because I've never thought of this before.

Do you give in easily when you are fighting?
YES! I'm very softhearted. Is it a good or a bad thing?

Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Yes of course. Haha.

Have you ever wish that you could have someone but you messed it up?
I don't mess it up. I just gave up.

Have you ever broken a heart?
Unfortunately yes.

If one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with, what will you do?
I don't know. Maybe I'll just let go? Or fight for it?

The five lucky people are:
1) zaxway mei (Too bad, but you're my top choice! xD)
2) TS di (Lalalalala, but guess he don't read my blog anyway. -_-)
3) Platodino (My turn to prank on you!)
4) Kieran (Sorry ah! Drag you in! Hehe!)
5) Zixuan (Help rong po okay? :D)

Because to me, I think they're the only few who bothers to read my blog often. So hehe. Kana loh. LOL! xD
Happy doing the survey! :D

Haze haze haze

Always had a habit to blog just after 12mn. But as what I've noticed. Mickey mouse always view my blog at 12 plus am. So I decide to blog before I sleep today. Just to let him make a wasted trip coming. And need to pop by my blog at a later time again. LOL! (See lah! I'm so damn evil hor? Tsk!) But anyway, maybe he's too busy to come by my blog tonight so didn't kana this. I'm really glad that he made an effort to call me though he's busy today. ^^

What a haze. Just what the hell is indo government doing? Aren't they going to do something to stop all these? It's getting so smoky tonight that the smell kills. Shut all the windows and hide in my room for the whole night. Daytime's still better. But night! Buay tahan I tell you! My eyes are red and swollen. Keep coughing and sneezing. I sense a sore throat and runny nose coming soon. Don't even dare to step out of the house recently. Unless I run to take transport and hide myself in a mall straight. But I want to go out lah! When is the haze going to siam from SG? :(

It's Mid-Autumn Festival! Ate LOTS of mooncakes! Double eggyolks lotus paste mooncakes from crystal jade given by one of a family my dad worked for. Someone famous and from the government. Thanks to them. We've always received gifts during festival. Eg: CNY, Mid-Autumn Festival, Christmas etc. But crystal jade's mooncakes not to my liking. It's not even sweet and the paste's not nice. Too soft. Not chewy at all. I prefer tong le's. (Got mooncakes to eat still hiam. -_-'')

Maybe I ate too much sweet stuffs today. 2 mooncakes and almost half a box of almond chocos. Made me so hyper tonight. Can't even sleep now. Keep ki siao ing and went crazy for the whole day. Till I think mickey mouse got a shock when he called me just now. Coz I always ki siao when I ate too much sweet stuffs or drink too much. Don't really like sweet stuffs the last time. But not sure why I'm addicted to sweet food now. Weird me hor?

Found out something and confirm it from R. There, told ya. I never suspect anything without proof. But see loh. It's the truth. I kana blocked by him. Don't know for what. I've done nothing wrong. Forget it lah. This is what R told me. I feel like hack care. But it's really rude to block me in msn for no reason. I didn't even done anything wrong! If you don't want to add me the previous time. Don't then. Don't try to draw such a clear line between virtual and real. Well, never mind. Since he had always dislike me. So who cares? :)
(To prevent any unnecessary trouble, I don't wish to reveal the name here.)

Got a shock tonight. From junhao. My nearly 10 years friend and an old classmate of mine. He's in camp and damn bored maybe. Sms me to wish me Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!? And said that he's lonely in camp. Aww? Poor guy. Spent his festival in camp. Then I told mum we'll win 4D tomorrow. Coz he seldom never sms me. LOL! Msn also not much lor. Seems he's waiting for lights out. So that he can sleep and go home later. Chatted awhile and he reply with a message that ask me not to reply as he's going to sleep. Win liao lor. But still glad. That he still contact me. I really don't wish to lose contact with old friends due to both parties lazy to contact each other or something. It's really a pity if old friends lost contact just like that.

Chatted a lot with jie and kor today. Added jie fu in msn too. So long never talked to jie fu and yet he still remembered me! Wow! Unbelievable sia! It's more than one year already since we last met. So nice of him to ask me how I'm doing. So the whole of my festival is spent online chatting with old friends and habboing. There's always sad news when I habbo. Don't want to say about it. I rather spend my time reading blogs and viewing forums more. Habbo is kind of a sad place. And please my dear friends! Update your blog! I've 37 friend's links. Yet less then half of them are active blogs! Help! I don't wish to look at dead blogs! You guys should know who I'm referring to. Should know what to do liao right? Hehe. xD

Out out out outing

Whole body's aching. Bones breaking. I sense a flu coming soon. :(

Been going out for two days in a row. And that kills me. Maybe I really need to go out more often. To get some fresh air?! *coughs* Is there any fresh air for us to breathe now anyway? Curse the haze. Making all of us sick.

Went out today. To collect the nokia starlight cinema tickets with dreamze, lao di and ruben. Do you know that going outdoor is damn jia lat? It's still alright if you're in an indoor venue such as a mall or something. But the haze is damn bad when you're walking outside. I'm having difficultly breathing when I smell a gasp of the haze. Shucks I tell you.

Luckily we still have sister aka dreamze to lead the way to the shop house today. It's at a place where anyone will probably notice it. He's really a di tou she there. Such a cheem place yet he managed to find it within a while. It's confusing trying to walk to that place. Stanley street? Where the hell is that? Near to maxwell food center I know. The rest I don't know.

Told them I wouldn't be able to lead the way there. Although I'm the oldest lah. Coz you'll see me banging into a wall. Eg: SMU's wall. Wth.. Long time story liao. Still want to bring that up for what? I've already being teased for 1 year coz of this. -_-''

Thanks to sister for forking out some of his ''precious'' time and help to lead the way there. Some more bringing us to maxwell for yummy meals. Though I never eat anything coz of bad gastric. But the aroma's already able to kill. What to do? Too bad. Blame myself. So can only look at them eating those food and me being left alone drooling there. :(

Ruben's cute and not bad looking. That's what all said. Of coz including me lah. But too bad these words don't come from XY's mouth. Otherwise we'll saw a flying deer. Happy till fly loh. LOL!! Sibeh suay lah. Ask him to ask XY to the movie. He called me SJB. Shen jing bing!?! T.T This is called hao xin mei hao bao. I'm just trying to create a chance for him kay poh. xD

Anyway, we're so honoured to be the first group of people to meet him. Mandai zoo's famous deer. There's only a 0.01% chance for you to meet him only. Unless you go to mandai zoo. xD He looks much more better in real than his picture. Nice young fellow. All of us get along very well. By the way, he don't sound much like desmond koh. He had his own unique voice. Very ang mo-ish when he spoke english. No wonder is our admin. Pai ma lu pi. =X

But the silly joke that blur guy created out today was a funny one. He actually ask if he should tell his real or FAKE?! name when collecting the tickets. He meant his nickname lah. -_-'' Making me, di and sister just went roflmao there. Blur ruben! Always forget this and that. Hmm.. Don't see him like a guai guai kia type. He's damn pro in suaning people also. I kana from dreamze, him and di for a few times. Time need to brush up my suaning skills!

We went chatting outside maxwell after the heavy meal. Sister keep smoking like hell. Damn heavy smoker. One day one packet of cigg. Jia lat lah. Not good for health! But I can't say much. Otherwise as what he had told me. I'll kana from him till very cham. Another hao xin mei hao bao. Forget it.

The outing ended after ruben need to go home for a meeting. Gave sister a hug when we are at the train station. I can see that di's and ruben's eyes were popping out when they saw that. Come on lah! It's just a goodbye hug! He's such a nice sister. Can come from bedok to cck to meet me. Keep me company till around midnight. And bring us over to collect the tickets today. Thanks ar sister. But don't treat me too well. Otherwise I'll feel bad to ps him always. LOL!! But hor, next time please don't treat me like a baby please. Sometimes I really do wonder who is the older one instead. -_-''

I really need to be VERY careful when blogging. Always tend to blog the correct stuffs in the wrong way. Jia lat sia. Misunderstanding always comes from that. Kana thousands of times before liao. Do pardon me if I blogged anything wrong. Coz this is me as usual blur as always.


Happy Mid-Autumn Festival 中秋节快乐

Sister hood

Recently got lots of feelings and deep emoticons. Esp after chatting with darling dreamze. Although he's younger, he's way more mature than me. I admit I still don't know how to think. As in my thinking are far more younger than my age. He's a great friend. Esp since I seldom talk to darren now. He's the one who has been hearing my naggings. Kieran's nice too. But maybe I didn't met him before. So I'm not as close to him as compared to ah dream.

I'm more closer with my guy friends. Can even call ah dream darling. I don't feel stress calling him that. Coz he's more like a sister or brother to me rather than a friend. We can play like mad. Suan and tease each other like crazy. Others saw us will just go orh we're siblings. We can be very close. But it's easy to give others an impression that we are close siblings or friends. Coz we just don't act like a couple. And we won't. So no more nonsense stuffs.

He's also someone whom can I can trust, share my feelings and thoughts with. Talk serious and sensitive stuffs to. Coz he'll understand and talk sense into me. Knowing my character, it's easy for people to get along with me. I'm actually someone who is easy going and a person whom my friends can know my character well easily. And I'm someone who will feel more comfortable talking to a best guy friend rather than bf.

Darren drifted from me real lot. I can't believe that I can be close buddy with ah dream too at first. Coz to me, he's way too mature for his age. Sometimes I don't even understand what he's saying. But after knowing him for a longer time, you'll know he's really a great friend. Someone who will stand by you if you are having problems and need someone to talk to. Someone who will keep you company when you are bored. Someone who actually understands me other than darren. Thanks sister! For being there for me always. Here's a post just for you.

Why did I blog so much about my darling sister tonight? Coz I'm just back home. After parting with him after a real serious talk at cck. We talked a lot. Most are about relationships matter. He's really mature. His gf is fortune in having such an understanding guy. No friends and family topic tonight. But not comfortable in talking about my past when he asked me. So sorry sister. I really don't with to bring up those old sad memories.

He can even get along well with simon. Two guys talking about maple stuffs on phone all the way. Who did simon called? Sister or me? Faints! I'm jealous! LOL! Maybe coz I don't play maple, I felt left out. Most of the time ah dream will know if I feel left out or something. He'll be the first to ask. But just now he don't. Two guys talk about maple can talk non stop. Guys are weird right?

Thanks dreamze aka darling aka sister for this talk tonight. I really learned a lot from all those exp he told me. My first blog post dedicated to him. I know I'll never be alone. Coz other than simon, I've still got a great friend who will stand by me. And someone whom will scold them back if I got bullied by others. I can't blame simon for being busy. I'll understand but yes I do mind a little. But I know no choice. Coz when I'm busy, I'll tend to get serious too. Damn real serious till you can't find me.

Got to rest early tonight. Had a busy day. Di came over my house today and I went out with dream and joyce just now. Joyce's a nice girl too. Remember crazysick? I've always had a bad impression on her. But now I found that she's sweet. And she actually apologize to me just now for the past misunderstanding. Now I'm damn freaking sleepy and tired. Later still need to go out with di, dream and ruben to collect the tickets. They better don't ps me. I miss dream liao. I mean his ears. Pity his ears. Keep letting me nag at. But hey! That's what sisters are for right?


My darling sister dreamze! Thanks for being there for me always!

Bad day

Bad day today. Rushing everything like mad. Got to sleep early tonight. Tomorrow still need to go out with di to collect the tickets. Ruben might be joining us too. Coz we all don't know where the hell the place is. Quite a far distance from tanjong pagar station I think? So the more people going the better it is. Coz lost way we all can get lost together mah. LOL!

My plan is like this. Tomorrow morning wake up and call di. Or he call me when he wake up. Then meet at JE to take train over. And try to find our way there, collect the tickets and come back home for lunch at BP. Duck rice! Bet someone's drooling now. I don't know leh. The duck rice here got so yummy meh? It tastes normal to me.

But all these must provided that I'm able to wake up early first. Otherwise just drag di over to my house and ''rob'' his microsoft office 2003 cd rom. LOL! Ruben also don't know free to go along with us to collect the tickets anot. They really damn lucky. Won the tickets. Not cheap you know? Di thinking of don't want the tickets. Foc one leh. Don't want so wasted.

Talked a lot with ruben tonight. We both long time never talked liao. He's sick. Poor guy. **** never take care of him well is it? LOL! Asked him to ask her along to the movie. He LOL! -_-'' So funny meh? I'm helping him lor. **** sister bringing bf home on sat liao. When is their turn next? =X Lalalala~ Take it that I didn't say anything. xP

To those who knows who I'm talking about. Don't go and tell them what I wrote hor. Otherwise you'll find me murdered. LOL! Ruben asked me to take leave. I told him alot. He explained alot too. Maybe it's just a misunderstood. Forget it lah. I'm not that petty. Resend can liao. Told him about what I'm thinking. He's not sure too. It better not be what I'm thinking.

Mickey mouse's so busy lah. Sick le still need to do so many stuffs. All these work makes us drift liao. Is like that one lah. I'm busy, he's not. He's busy, then I'm not. So totally no time at all. I should better spend some time in litez also. Provided my computer's stable and I get back what I lost first. Friday's going to be busy day I guess. Need to brainstorm now. Kills brain cells! Hai~

Ah dream's friend is weird. Sms me to ask if I know him. That's the problem when he use his friend's phone to call me and save the no up as rf somemore. Now that person's trying to dig out so much info from me. I feel like killing dream now. Don't save my no in other people's phone! Now that guy said he's taking interest in me. Will msg me again. Wth! Si dream! I'll murder you!

Don't know what weird day is it today. Bad day lah. Told you all. I got this scary msg that pops out in my skype. By a guy. There you go. Have a look.

Hello :)I know I must have startled you by messaging u out of the blue.No offence for I am just trying to befriend you It must be abit too much for you at the moment.True enough I do not know you at the moment,but I am trying to know you, and my first attempt is to msg you this in hope that you can reply and we can chat, know each other more and in the near future. I can be given the chance to date u out for dinners, movies etc ?Do you have a spare moment to chat at least ? Thanks

O_O!! Siao right? Guys.. -_-''

But kieran and I find he looks okay. He actually looks like someone I know. But forget who liao. Some far distance relative or something. Someone familiar and I've met before. Coz I kay poh and went to his friendster. Got a shock. Let me think. Who is that? Hmm.. Don't know. Lazy to bother also. Now talking to kieran. And ignoring dream. Who ask him so #%$^#$^#$^ LOL! xD