I'm Back

Wee~~~ Yay~~~ Ahh~~~ Woo~~~

WO HUI LAI LE!!!!

Muacks muacks!!!

Miss all of you!!!!!

I'm so sorry for dumping all of you these few days. Damn computer down. Windows corrupted. Had to spend a hundred to get it well. Damn angry!!! What the hell my computer ate? I didn't feed it virus hor. Only feed it tonics. LOL!

But at least my files are saved. My songs! My shows! My pictures! ALL!! Yay~~!! Now I had to get all my songs back to winamp before started to deejay again. Hope it'll be fast. So many songs leh. And in different folder now. Not used to it. Thanks to the technican who manage to save my files. If not I'll died terribly.

Kor today fever. So ''high'' today. LOL! But he happy I also happy. =D He asked me to find him a job in SG. Say SG technican damn hao zhuan. Say he very geng sure alot of company want him. Wahahaha.. Kor today sibei funny. So long never see kor like this le. Kor mai fever! If not I kena blamed. Take care my dear kor. So seldom see you liao nowadays. =)

Back to arrange my song file back to my winamp. I eat snake awhile only hor. Unlike kor. :X

Tata~~

Job Seeking Day

Went finding for jobs today. But you guess it. I couldn't get one. Sigh.

First stop Delifrance:
Manager: We're looking for full timers here miss. Are you a student?
Me: No, I'm not.
Manager: Can you help out with the kitchen chores and bake?
Me: I'm afraid not sir.
Manager: I'm sorry then. We're looking for kitchen crews and bakers.
Me: Thanks, bye.

Should have apply for full timers last time. Damn lah!

Second stop Sakura:
Manager: We need full time waitress. Age and cert please?
Me: I'm XX. Am afraid I don't have a cert.
Manager: I see. Education level?
Me: Primary.
Manager: Can you bring your cert next time? Wanted to know if you pass your english.
Me: Sorry Mdm, my mom dumped the cert.
Manager: ..................................................

My english of course pass. I got an A ok? -_-

Third stop XX Fast Food Resturant:
Manager: We're hiring full timers and part timers here. Are you a student currently?
Me: Nope.
Manager: Great, may I know your if you are a N or an O level holder?
Me: None.
Manager: Oh, secondary drop out?
Me: Primary drop out.
Manager: Well, then I'm afraid your pay will be low.
Me: Around?
Manager: We offer you $2.20 per hour.
Me: No thanks, bye!

Crazy! $2.20 per hour? Even the aunty that washes toilet gets more then me.

Fourth and final stop 7-11:
Me: Excuse me, are you hiring staffs here?
Supervisor: =O How do you know that? Yes, we are. Are you above 18?
Me: I am. *Shows IC* She didn't believe me at first. -_-
Supervisor: Ok, but the manager isn't here at this time. Why not you come again tomorrow in between 9am-5pm?
Me: Sure. May I know which shift are you looking for?
Supervisor: We needed more on the night shift which is from 11pm to 7am. But at this time, there's lots of drunkers and nonsense customers. Can you do it?
Me: Thanks. I'll consider it. Will come again tomorrow.

Should I go try this? Working in 7-11? More like 11-7. 11pm to 7am. -_-
Means working at night and sleeping in the day.
Will become an owl totally. Can I?
Those drunkers? They don't scared me.

Hee, waiting for CX to online. Wonder if he will be online at late night tonight? Such a nice guy. Won't ''dao'' us. So friendly. Glad I didn't support the wrong person.

Di asked me to KBox next week. Maybe I'll tag along and ask afew more peeps. But don't worry, I'm not singing. So you can be sure the glasses won't break. Lol.

The show is fast. Means I can sleep early tonight. Can't wait to watch it. Online watching is a tough chore today. Had to change another channel. And it's laggy and blurish.

Spend too much money these few days. $100 gone like that on myself and my family. Need to save it back. Accdiently saw mom's purse. Shocked that there's only $50+ bucks. And it's to tahan till end of the month. She still need to go hospital on wednesday.

I really need a job! Fast!

Jia you RongFang! You can do it!

=D

Kiasu

Nothing much to blog.

Went BP Plaza for the midnight sales.

Found that kampong residents are damn kiasu.

They actually flooded the whole shopping complex!

First floor = Can't walk fast, or else you'll bang into a wall or those kiasu aunties and uncles who are moving so fast as if there's someone behind them chasing them with a chopper.

Second floor = Full of people squeezing near the lifts till there's no space to move towards it! And at the other end. Kiasu shoppers are queuing up for the $10 electric rice cooker. When the rice cooker is only $19.90 yet now you had to spend $100 and pay another $10 for it. Worth?

Third floor = People are lining up at the corrider to exchange $1 drinks till you had to say excuse me to move past the long queue that goes around the whole shopping complex one whole round.

Fourth floor = This is the most peaceful level where you can move easily, freely and won't have kids screaming or balloons bursting. This is the level where the new Sambawang Music Center is. Large collection of albums here and you'll feel as if you are in HMV now.

Shopped for two hours and $80 flew out of my pocket. Spending on skin treatment, tonics, essence of fish and chicken etc. Imagine dragging 4 bags home.

Gosh.

That's the reason why I don't like to go out. I'm sure that I'll spend money either on myself or on my family.

Heart pain.

ZzZzZz..

A Nonsense Post

Recently love to use these emonticons.

=O

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=<

Aren't they cute? Aww!! I don't like to be the same as others. That's why I got myself an unique christian name. My chinese name is unique too right? Btw, if you didn't notice. My name RongFang is quite famous in China. It's a famous laundry shop's name!

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Imagine. RongFang Laundry Shop.

Speechless.

-_-

Been busy for the whole day. Helping litez reporters on some stuffs and the dry run timetable's planning. It's totally messed up! Well, I still can't stop myself from helping litez. It's the thing I did for full 8 whole months!

Deejayed awhile tonight. Shock that there's still listeners who supports me. But quite sad that Mei told me that I've dropped grades quite alot. I guess it's just the begining just now right? I'm getting better and better after getting used to the system and speaking again.

Sonya Jie asked me too try out a tounge twister on air. Luckily I didn't make a fool of myself. Si shi si. Shi shi shi. Blar. Cheem. I'm so glad Sonya jie supports me throughout my session. Thanks!

And

JunHao

Again...

Why must he always suan and bully me? Nearly laugh out and scold him on air just now. That's what he wanted. But nah, I won't do it then. What's the use of scolding him? He never changed a single bit since primary. He's a joker. Maybe I'm not used to playing a fool now. I've become quite a serious person.

Moral of this post?

I still love deejaying.

I'm not giving it up easily.

I'm loving it!

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My Life

Thanks to BN meimei for helping. Now I can set pass for my blog too. Wondering if I should password protected my blog? I need comments please.

Regarding my approval and decision. I've decided to give myself some time to think. So recently I'll just be rotting around. I need to give myself another chance. Never say die nor give up so easily.

These days had been bored. Hanging and chatting with my guy friends such as Fai and JunHao etc. Where's all my girl friends gone?

Listening to Junhao's so called deejaying online where he never even spoke a single word. Excuse me? Is this call deejaying? This is streaming! But I really must admit, I like those songs he played. Perfect to listen at night. Soothing and nice.

Chat awhile with Francis tonight. Glad he's working fine. But am I too naggy? He's not my real bro and I nag him alot.

And about Fai, well, I guess all guys won't stay long in habbo. Is Dota fun? All are hooked on the game. Maybe I'll try it too. It's a great way to escape from habbo.

Suddenly notice that the new version of MSN didn't save my message history. Wanted to post those meaningful words by Fai. Guess I can't. Will see if I'm able to save those messages.

A long post after afew days huh? At last. Due to I'm not able to sleep and that's why came here to blog at the wee hours.

I'm afraid my relationship with them are tense. I can't cope much longer. Gambate! That's what Sonya told me. Thanks.

I'll get on happily with my life. RongFang jia you! You can do it oh~ =D

Accepted

Everyone left.

One by one.

Time for me too.

And,

I guess,

it's been accepted,

at last.

=)

Fan And Fun

Friend: You online just to have fun and enjoy not to have fan (vexed) right?
You want fun rather then fan right?

Me: (Got hitten the nail on my head)
Yeah, you know me too well.

Friend: Learn to kan kai. If you are not happy there, just leave, don't bother about your responsibility and all.

Me: Maybe you are right. I'll try.

Friend ah friend, what can I say about you? You really know me too well. What can I do if you're not there for me to talk with?

I know I should just leave here and went over to help you. But I can't put it down.

I'm glad you don't mind and understands me.

I'm glad you told me that if I'm not happy, I should just leave, but if I don't want to help you, it's totally alrite.

I just want to say thanks buddy. Thanks for being my side always when I'm vexed.

Undergoing lots of decisisons to make recently. Tons of should I or shouldn't I?

What can I do?

''Learn to kan kai. Have fun but not fan.''

Orh.

=)

MIA

I'll be inactive from blogging now on. Since I find that there's really nothing much for me to blog. An apologize to all whom it may concern that read my blog. I'll cut down on my online time too. You'll seldom see me online. Which means I'll go MIA for simple. No reasons indicated. Just plain tired and need a break to catch a breathe. And don't bother to ask me why.

Monday Greens

Today's Earth Day I suppose. The whole habbo is turning green. Most of us are dress in green. It's a weird colour. Suddenly found that we are like walking plants.

Currently Kor Kor and me are dancing in my tele room. Slamming both my table away. Habbo is turning deadly day by day.

Come to blog daily. But seems that's nothing much for me to blog. Ran out of topics. Ran out of ideas. Ran out of breathe. Just plain tired. I need a break again.

Bryan won the Star Idol. Knew it. How could Leo win with this style of him? Anyways, I still support Leo. His acting is getting better and better. To think he could actually let his tears flow down naturally. I'm totally impressed by him. And he dances well unlike a couple of days before. His improvement is more then Bryan.

As usual, it's Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi's day. This episode is much more better and exciting then the last 5. This show is getting interesting. I can't afford to miss it. So that's all. Back to a repeat telecast to the show again. And I saw Kor Kor bullying me in my room. Hmph! Bye bye then.

Moodless Sunday

I thought my eyes saw wrongly when I saw the list this early morning. Everyone, all got promoted. And I mean the whole team. More then 10 of us. All seniors and juniors. And I'm the only one that didn't get anything. Nope. I really didn't saw my name on the list at all.

Shock and disappointed. Saw that my name dropped a hell lot on the list today. The last of the seniors and some juniors. Gawd. Can't believe it. What had happened?

All I done for them is taken for granted. I better disappeared then. Since it doesn't matter if I'm there anot. With or without me is still the same. Their life still goes on.

Was still on the phone with mei and kor when this happened. Cried alittle cos of disappointment. Kor's phone low batt and hence he vanish. Pro kor. Really didn't talk at all. Only hear some laughter. -_- Kor kor very lame. Plus, he don't understand chinese. Not bad lor. We scold him he also won't know then. :X

Mei don't know how to comfort me. Can only listen to me nagging non stop and weeping alittle. But still thanks mei for accompaning me till 7 in the morning on the phone. Love you mei~ You're the best. You're the only one who is still close with me. Others, I'm drifting from them.

Darren's trying to comfort me. And he does helps alot. At least I still can laugh alittle. He's great. Thanks. What can I do without him to cheer me up and listen to me?

He told me if I'm not happy there I can just leave. And go your side to help? No thanks. If I leave, I'll leave totally. Disappointted. He said that I've told him I'm going to hack care them. But I just can't put down. I can't right? I've been here for more then half a year. Somehow there's some feelings attatched.

Thanks is what I can said to this greatest friend of mine. He said that when he's feeling now, i'll be there for him. So hence, it's the same with me now. Silly guy. He don't want to go to bed when I chase him offline non stop. I know, mei and you cares about me alot.

He's silly till that he holds his hp to sleep. Saying if I need someone, he'll just be a call away. *cry* I'm so touch buddy. Really. But I'll be fine. As he said, perharps crying out I'll feel better. And I really am now.

Glad I control myself and didn't go ring his phone. Don't want to wake him up although he said he'd wait for my call in dreamland. Somemore plus what beside the river etc. Friend ah, I guess he's already sleep talking. (Shuo Meng Hua) -_-

Told mom about it this morning. And she was like huh? How can be. All got? You didn't only. She knows I've done quite alot for them. Only that I'm inactive recently. Mom advised me to keep my nose out of their stuffs from now on since they take me for granted. Well, I'll do that now. Never soft hearted now. Need help? Count me out.

Stick's playing soft music right now. Makes me feels so sleepy suddenly. Going to stay awake the whole night today for the magician's show. Who's going to accompany me?

8pm's the show time for Star Idol. Wonder if it's Leo or Bryan that will win?

Btw, Msn 8 isn't very great to use after all. It doesn't support msn plus and hence it shucks.

Offs then..

Saturday Oh~~

The oh trend is still here oh~~ -_-

Actually wanted to blog yesterday night. But then all of us are busy with litez BB SS and all. So I'm helping them and leave poor mei alone. Sorry hor mei. I don't know eLitez can be so hardworking to work at 3am in the morning.

Accompany mei and ger awhile yesterday. Ger came back habbo to visit. Ask me what furnis I wanted cos she didn't habbo anymore. Of cos, I didn't take any as usual.

Then is mei, I really feel like bobba-ing sulake for her. She said that DoeLee is on holiday, still can't ask about her account on why she can't log in. Ask her to reinstall shockwave and try. She have not done it yet. So oh well. -_-

The worst part, she use another account, bought hc for that account. When it dc-ed her. She can't log back in. -_- Our conclusion. Those account that have hc can't be used. -_-

In the end, create another account lor. Wonder which zaxway with or without - and = de she have not create. Later no more choices use . and : liao. -_-

We are actually in the free BB with O kor kor. Then she keep suddenly disappeared. Kor asked where is she. Mei asked me to tell kor that all her zaxwayS are dead. Lol. Poor mei.

Her habbo really pro. My litez room she can actually saw nothing! No furnis at all in the room. A totally kosong room. -_- Win liao lor.

Had a fun time with kor and the other litez gang. In BB making the HL. And then I found out this emonticon ----> -_- is kor's favourite. Gosh! Kor copycat! Or is it you qi ge bi you qi mei? Ahahas!

Mei told me, in fact is alot told me that kor don't look like his age. Some even thought that I'm older then him. Do I look so old? But I must admit that kor is yan dao and looks really younger then his age.

Suddenly so many news to comment on today. Regarding new and old staffs. Feel that it's not the same anymore. I guess we can't stay in a virtual stuff forever. Some may leave sooner.

Finish typing quite a long report regarding someone. I need to view out my points of views. Try my best to help a junior. Hope it helps. Will leave his fate to the admins.

Just received the mail. Yay! Hope it works. Going to be busy now and test it. Ta da~~

Cos Of Her?

Serious lor. Don't all cos of her don't want to stay le. What's the point? All leave and let her be ah jie? No thanks, I'll rather stay. Afterall, I don't think she can stand the strictness here.

There's this new dj, a young kid. Who is like dj-ing for 4 times per day. Pro. -_- But he's blur blur and like yawn on air and all. :S Jia lat.

This so called Dear Dear keep creating trouble here. Looking at her words, don't need to see also know that she's a young girl. Chi bao mei shi zuo come disturb. -_-

Why are there so many people adding me in msn today? Who the hell is spreading my msn add again? Don't let me find out, you'd get it from me terribily.

It's been so long since I ate an ice cream. This one is like sweet like honey. Don't like it. Bought some stuffs from the mart today. $20 gone like that. Heart super pain!! Sigh.

Lazy to type alot lah. By the way, guess you'll never see that ''dear dear'' in my tag again. Meanwhile, who can't leave a message do tell me. And bear with it for awhile. Pardon.

PS: Got show see also not bad don't you agree? Let's see how that dear dear make a fool out of him/herself. :) Stay tune~~ LOL!

Speechless

That girl actually can get more then 40 listeners at around 12mn. Indeed is someone not simple.

No worries, we are different from her previous site. Don't believe she'll be the same as last time. Us is strict. Monster training and coaching. Hope she had changed and won't cause anymore troubles. Anyway, jia you bah. If people don't like you. Prove that you are likeable then. Then you'll be treat better.

My friendster is only left with 1 f/r to being accept. And it's chicken wing. Nvm, since Irene had accepted my f/r.

Staff news got a weird news. We all got to reply to the post. A no notice news. Stick is weird. Think he want to know which staffs are active in litez. If he didn't post this news out, I'm sure lots of them didn't reply. Like me so free meh? Reply to every post in litez regardless staff or public news.

I wonder who that ''Dear Dear'' is in my tag. Should be a girl by the way those phrase are. So girlish. Want les go elsewhere. This is not a place for you.

In an anger mood tonight. Wise, don't bother me recently then.

Blog Blog Loh

Nothing to do, just come blog awhile. Seems we had some new hardworking djs who dj everytime. But I'm afraid it will just be awhile. As usual de. Sian liao then won't be dj-ing so much le. This kid here seems young. But he's still not bad. Let's wait and see those other new djs bah.

Sulake seems to strike rich. Lol.. Gave around more then half the habbos a blue pillow. Alot of them got more then 1. Cos those clones loh. Mine? None of my 10++ clones got it. -_- Sibei lucky hor? But I really like it lah. Quite nice. But prefer green. xD

Meimei seems to be in trouble. She must really be careful. Hope she's alrite and everything is settled. I'm worried for her. A young girl go and meet those gangs isn't something simple. Somemore she's chio. Don't bully my meimei. I'm waiting for her message to ensure she's alrite.

Won't be online till late night tonight. Maybe won't be blogging so much too. Don't have much stuffs to blog. Going off to read i weekly then it's tv night all long. Online = Bored. Everyone says that now. Sigh.

It's not Lively Anymore

Suddenly find that there's so many djs who are inactive going on air today. Including me. Jajajaja. <-- Litez's special. Lol. Dj for 2 hours today. Then dump mic at 8pm and chiong for dinner and Star Idol! I support Leo! Woohoo~
Don't piak me please

And now, BN meimei is dj-ing wor! Miss you and your voice. T.T Sigh. There will be lots more new staffs coming. We, the senior staffs will be like last time. Ding jing jing them. Lol. Must watch closely and teach them stuffs le.

Wonder if that person will join us. If that person did, I'm afraid there will be more problems. Think lao da all don't know bah. But us, we all know. So bao zhong bah. I no eyes see liao. x.X

Reach around 40 plus listeners today. If not holiday hor, hard loh. Not us only, other stations too. Seems that habbo is no longer that lively and active as before. All half dead or into maple de liao.

The 10pm show da chang jin is nice. Won't be online early now then. Watch the show with mum. Btw,

WHO IS THAT DEAR DEAR IN MY TAG? OWN UP NOW!

Seems that my blog is causing alot of problems to my friends. My links lah, tag lah etc. Maybe I will shut down the blog or changed a new address. See how bah. That's all. :)

I Had Enough!

Wa lau eh, cannot believe my eyes when I log on today. She actually came over? Seems that nobody knows her story. Troublemaker. And loves to act. Totally a faker. I've seen too much of her. Pro loh. We'll see how she make it here. We're strict. See if she can stands it with the character of hers.

Family is jia lat too. So many sides problems. And money! Sibei hate it. So what if uncle de daughter is working lah? So what if she's younger then me lah? So what if she comes to SG to work lah? I go malaysia work then you happy? Forget it! What a day.

I really cannot stand what's happening here. Those ideas and suggestions are never think before then luan luan said de. What's this? Do you think we can handle it? Who's going to clear the mess if something happens? I'm not going to be the scapegoat again.

Bought a hammock in habbo. Used finish my creds and I'm off. What a place. A scary place. I'm out of here. Don't care what applications open or what. None of my business le. Help also useless. If only I can go. Why don't you let me find my happiness? Do you think I will be happy here? Argh!!

Time Changes Everything

I discovered that I'm online lesser and lesser. Blogging lesser and lesser too. Everything changed in my life. Friends around me changed too. Everything is not the same anymore.

Quite surprise that I came online at 2am. For a couple of hours then I'm off to sleep. Asked Fenni over as usual today. And we the gila cousins attack again. Snapping tons of pictures. But all not nice one. As we both are not shang jing. So in the end, all got deleted expect for 2 which I place them in friendster.

Almost all my friendster's friend's request got accepted in just one day! Wee! Except for chicken wing and Irene de. Hope soon bah. Wish to keep in contact with my old classmates. And you know, I can't believe that MeiRong is a mom of 2 soon. She's 1 year younger then me. And her daughter is so cute!!!!!!! Should ask her out one day with her kid lor. Baby girl girl leh.

Got to find a job soon. Delifrance need full time workers, maybe I should try again. I've learn to let off my online and habbo life. It's time to do something else un useless.

Mom came back from malacca. Regret I didn't went in! So much fun this time with my small aunt there. They all got go farm and visit some relatives leh. Hmph! Everytime I go in is stay at home de. They go in got programes. Not fair lah!

Seems there's some happenings there as usual loh. Also glad I never went in lah. Later kena too. But I'm not to be bullied de ok? Don't think I won't scold like my mom. Our ''powers'' are pro de loh. Step on my tail lah. This is what you can get. RAWR! =D

Nothing to blog liao lah. Fenni was laughing so much at my previous post. It's simply way too funny by the way I blog loh. Yah lah. I keep lose to people in suan-ing one. More lemons and limes please? Lol..

Fai just msg me that he accepted me in friendster le. Thanks hor. I really never talked much to friends nowadays. Jeff is online now we also boh talk. I always rot rot awhile then go off de. Now also the same then. Tata..

I've Never Wanted So Much To Murder Someone Before!

This is the conversation going on between me and my friend. A guy named XX.

XX: Hey RongFang! Long time never see you, never talk to you le, a few years le bah.

Me: Yaya. Hi! Hope you are doing fine. How did you get my contact?

XX: From another friend loh.

Me: Orh, icic.

We talked and talked and talked.

I was being suan all the way. -_-

XX: Blar blar blar blar blar blar blar.

Me: #$^%&*%^(&amp;*)^!%#%$*&^*(%^&$&$&$%!!!

Friends beside us because they called too and we are in a confrence.

Friends: Oi, you both don't bicker liao leh. Couple bickering non stop when talking. -_-

Us together: Diam lah! Then is $#^%*&^)^*$&$!%^*%*& again.

At last I still lose le.

XX: Lose de must Yi Sheng Xiang Xu de leh.

Me: !!!!!!!!!! What the hell!?! $#&^%(&^*$&$&$!%$&^%*%*%* (<--All those vulgar come out.) Then I slam the phone. Angry!!!!! >:(

End of story. -_-

Old Classmates

L.A.M.E lah! Don't know what am I doing again. Blogging an early morning post. Just back from friendster hopping trying and hoping to find some of my old classmates. And ahahas! I'm smart. Saw Irene, MeiRong, Anthony and lastly, Chicken Wing!

Gosh, nobody told me they all link here and there de. Kind of shock with Irene's look. Wondering if that's her. But saw hmm, woodlands de. Then some other old classmates added her too. So should be. Try, try loh.

Next is MeiRong! Lian MeiRong! Never will I think she is MARRIED! Really I think. Still got write what busy with her house de. Wah lao. She's younger then me leh. Kena shocked till want to mati. First look I know it's her. Never changed much. But she's real chio now.

Then is my arch enemy! Red bean milk aka ang tao ni! Anthony shi yea. He looks like francis di leh! Wo de tian arh! Also first look know it's him. Never changed AT ALL. He got grown shuai mei? Who said de? Chris? Shaun? Or Junhao? Sama sama to me mah. And goodness me! He actually likes Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa too!?! Somemore said he Senwell Co GM or what? Ahahas.. Funny guy.

Chicken Wing! I found him! My P5 classmate leh. Other guys classmates I don't know who is who le. Only him. Why leh? Because of his nick Chicken Wing mah! Muwawa! When you tell them about the name ZhiRong. All goes huh!? But then when you said Chan Chee Weng or Chicken Wing. All goes orh! LOL! He never changed much since the last time I met him at our gathering. But then! He is getting married!? Not another one! Why all so fast one? Shotgun arh? =X

Jia lat arh, suddenly find that I'm old, and is VERY old. -_- Trying to find somemore old classmates. Zhiwei lah, and Zhiming lah etc. One is a close classmate while the other is an enemy I'll never forget. Lol.

Time do flies fast, some of them are married, some studying overseas. Last time our gathering only us went. I said hor, next time they bring their wifes and husbands, not bf and gf hor. Then a couple of years later, their kids tag along too. Oh my tian!!

I shun bian see see look look till ah Fai de friendster. Nearly jumped too. Thought he don't like friendster de. Why make till so nice de page? Got infected by his gf arh? Haha.. Btw, saw their pic, his gf real chio sia. O_O

Kind of hyper tonight. Wonder why leh. Lol.. I hor MUST change my friendster's pic somedays. Damn ugly one. I want a swee swee one. But wo bu shang jing. Don't smile fierce, smile still fierce. Forget it. -_-

Friendster will be better if it isn't laggy like crazy everytime. Can only browse it at mid morning. Go koon liao lah. Hope my friendster's friend requests all got accepted fast. Time to sleep now. ZzZZzZz..

Monday Blues

Hmm, think mom is going to be back late at tuesday night. Which is today lor! No more takeaways! Song arh! I really eat till scared le. Everytime chicken, egg, egg, chicken. Eat till will shout pok pok geh liao. -_-

Fenni came over today, yesterday to be exact, to do her SP's stuffs. So many steps lor. Step 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 blar blar blar. See till gong. Print a couple of stuffs too. Online enrolement shucks. Can't the goverment think there's some students who doesn't have a computer at home? Toopid.

We watch Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi after her matter are settled. Fast forward all lor. What do you think? 5 episodes, 5 hours, we chiong till 2+ hours watch finish all of them. Only watch the interesting parts lah. Tell you lor, it's a great show.

So sian you know? Wake up, eat, bath, online, read newspapers, watch tv, online, sleep again. Everyday sama sama one. I want to go out!!! Wonder if Fenni is free to accompany me out later. Don't know she got go out with her friend anot leh.

Aiya, nothing to type today lah. Habbo also sian. Everything also sian. What else can I do arh? Who wants to accompany me out!!! But hor, stay at home also not bad. Can save money. I save quite alot for this month le. MP3 here I come!

End. Nothing to type liao lah. Ar bo then? -_-

Memories Again?

I now then discovered there's so many stuffs in blogger. -_-

Anyway, Dad went to work, leaving me home alone as usual in this early morning. So then, I can't sleep. And started to think of the past, again.

I was asked why my primary 6 life have so many classmates, I only remembered a few such as Junhao and Qiuhui etc. Reason? Because they treated me well. Like a friend. Not an outsider.

I was treated like an outsider during my P5 days. Mainly because I don't come from the same class as them. But glad they accepted me fast. And we all became great friends. Some even wrote me letters asking me why I didn't go to school during P6.

They treat everyone well. Such as when Meisheue join us during P6, we all gave her a warm welcome. Unlike the other class of mine. Both are 6D, only at a different year. Why is there so much difference? This is the Dear class I've got. The other one we call really called it donkey as named by our principal.

Firstly, Junhao is the first classmate I came across during P6. I forget to bring papers. Asked so many people to lend me. And what they reply? One said, ''Sorry, I didn't bring too." Then what are you using to write at now? -_- The other said, "Sorry, I don't have extra." Then what is the pad of papers on your table? -_-

Junhao is different. Asked him for a piece of paper, he said sure. "If not enough, I still can lend you more pieces." He introduce himself too. Asked me my name and says, "Welcome to 6D." Suddenly I feel warmth and touched. Finally I smile alittle.

As for Qiuhui. She came forward to join me at recess when I have no one to eat with. Introduce herself too. And we had a nice chat. That's why I remembered afew girls like Irene, Xuefang and junhao most. Other P6 de friends, I'm not really close with them.

Being called "Lao Zha Boh" and "Sang Bi Ba" and said that I lick the teacher's boots isn't a nice feeling. Being cursed that I'll fall ill everyday is a more worse feeling. I torelate with them. Hoping this will end soon and I can leave them. Forcing myself and stressing myself everyday to score good grades, don't want them to look down on me.

Everything I torelate le. Give them an inch they take another. They can actually dump away my most precious journal! Which is the only memory I have of my dear 5D. Those words of encourage my dears gave me. Which lets me stays on and bear with everything. Search the rubbish chute whole day. Level from level. Still nothing. Cried the whole day. Who knows about all this suffering of mine?

Tried to jump down the school building from the 4th floor when fell ill on PSLE english day. Principal don't allowed me to take the english exam. Ask me to stay for another year. NO! I don't want. What am I working so hard for? I've already wasted one year. I don't want another. I need to be more hardworking then others. Prove them wrong and prove to myself I can do it too. But.. Perharps if I really jumped down that time, all my sufferings will be gone now.

Luckily the teacher which I hate the most. Mrs Irene Tan actually helped me. Managed to go for the english exam in a private room where she stays to accompany me. At least I still got a more then 60 for that. Thinking to myself. If I take all the subjects, having more then 60 marks per subject, I might get more then 240-250. Which is the grades I stress myself for to be able to go Bukit Panjang Govt High.

Perharps this is just fate. I can't changed it. But I can't wash my memories away, can I? I hate 1998. I hate being alone. The feeling isn't good. Everything and anything alone and lonely. Don't have anyone to talk to. Pitch dark surroundings. Lots of weird stuffs. What are those?

Being accdiently locked up in a toilet in the evening once during lower primary started my fear. No matter how much I screamed and shouted, there's no one to help me. Suddenly, I find that being alone isn't good. Lie by my classmates to the sports store and locked me up there. The place I hated the most. Dark and scary. What a place. Alone again.

My friends said my encounters if written to a book or flim it sure popular one. Hahaha.. Don't know. I only know after so much happenings, I've turned more mature. That's what all my friends said. I'm not the timid and scardy cat Tan Rong Fang anymore. Not anymore. I know.

Shun Shun Li Li

Finally all is better today. Napped awhile just now after listening to GI shi di dj. I didn't dj again. Lol.. Thinking tonight will be a long night waiting for Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi episode 5 to be done. So went to koon awhile. Woke up from my nap and rush up online at 9.30pm.

For the first time I tried online tv. And it works very well. It's very clear without much lagness. Won't hang nor pause for a long time. Yeah! So get to watch the episode 5 of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi with taiwanese. Will continue this every sunday night.

Episode 5 is really funny like siao. Can't wait to watch episode 6 liao. Seems that they only shoot one episode around 2 weeks before it was out. Qiao Qiao is not bad lah. Mai hiam buay pai. She's only 18! Please lor! Used her picture as my computer's wallpaper. The more I look, the more I find her shun yan.

After the show, there's still Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi Te Ji. Featuring their newest 3rd MV of the song, Magic Room. Saw how they shoot it etc. Ming Dao is so funny in there. Compared to Shao Wei, Yu Rong, Jacky and their leader Xing Shu, I still find Ming Dao is the cutest in 183 CLUB. xD

And now it's time for episode 5 of Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi to be mine! Process quite smooth. Fast connection tonight too. It arrived early. 11 plus today. And takes around 3 hours to be completed today. Think around 2.30am all can be done le. At last, I can sleep early on a monday morning.

Hope all will continue to be shun shun li li for the coming weeks. Don't know still need to chase the show for how long. It's really a wonderful show. Die die must watch. I will said that it can be compared to Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa or maybe even better if Qiao Qiao can acted more natural. Problem lies with the female actress.

Seldom can see all 183 CLUB's members acted together in a show. If Xing Shu acted in the show too. It will be perfect. Agreed that Shao Wei's parts are too less. Seems that Ming Dao is the 1st leading actor. Thinking if Qiao En also acted in this show, then yay! It's a wishful hope never be able to come true. Keep on dreaming bah. -_-

Hooked on listening to FM 9.33 via online. At least I won't get bored of my songs if no djs are on litez. Somemore still can learn how to dj more better and get the lastest news of what songs are best and newest. So back to browsing webbies time. SETTV's forums are not ok yet. Still lagging badly. Sian..

Boring Sunday

Alone at home is bored, bored, bored! Rotting and stoneing. Saw that the radio hasn't been on after bas log off in the wee morning. So jia lat ar? Today sunday leh. Haiz.. I don't feel like dj-ing too. Suddenly lost all interest in dj-ing and litez and habbo le. Saw that I didn't bought anything from the cata from around 1 mth liao.

Sat on my rollers and yo ar yo. Saw bad comments on my stickes. Feel like locking up all my rooms in a sudden. Without anyone knowing the pass and remove the linking teles. I won't stay in habbo long for now.

Perharps I should go walk walk. But nobody accompany me leh. Alone again? Boring lah. See how bah. Maybe will dj awhile. Maybe will read forum's stories or wrote a story myself. Dad won't be back home early.

Here's 3 simple ways to reject a guy who is pestering you hard.

1) Get closer to a girl friend, ask her to help and pose as your Girlfriend. Pretend to be a lesbian and scared that guy also not a bad idea mah hor? Then tell the guy.
''I'm not interested in guys. I like girls only. You like me huh? Go change your gender lor!''

LOL!

2) Get someone to pose as your boyfriend, like your bro if you have one, cousins, or guy friends. Then tell him straight.
"I have boyfriend liao lah, siam lah! Shoo off if you are wise."
But provided he doesn't know who the guy is.
Later he said.
"Wah lao. Want pose also ask someone better mah. Think I don't know he is your blar blar blar?"

-_-

3) Just drift from him lah, he will know you don't like him then. Plus scold him if you like.
"Don't come bug me lah! Everytime stick to me like super glue. You know you very fan anot?"
"!$#^%$&$*$&*!&^%*%"
And goes on and on till he buay tahan and left.

?!?!?

Like that also can.

-_-


That's just my few very lame methods of rejecting a guy. If you use it, you bear what happened after hor. LOL.

The End. :)

Crazy Long Night

Crazy loh. At this time still online. Listening to FM 9.33 live. Ran loo for more then 6 times today. Want to die le. About to tuo shui liao. Never see docter. Mom asked me to eat those ''poh chi'' pills. Results = Useless. -_-

Nearly laugh out my guts just now. Litez gang were so funny when habbo went down awhile just now. Flood the comments regarding simi Er Cheng and Mu Hou then qing an and blar blar. Still got drag fire out and chop his head! LOL! I'm more pro. I wrote in drag Er Cheng and Mu Hou out to chop! Cos I'm Lao Fo Ye! Muwawa!! Buay tahan they all. And me too. All hyper le. Cos it's a sunday morning!

Browse through all the forums of frog and magician. Got more pictures! Wee wee woot! More Ming Dao and Ming En's pictures. Sho de happy! My computer's space is so large loh. Don't use wasted. Ehh? I sot liao? Why tonight so Fan Chang one? -_-

Just now saw mom's most important's medicine is still here. Did she forget to bring in again? Don't later passport also forget. Without me helping to pack her stuffs, I'm real scared loh. Keep forget this and that de. Hope all is ok bah.

Changed the skin back again! Don't like the all in 1 de. Although can play song lah, but very troublesome. Can't see the words clearly too. Prefer this one. Trying to see if I can make a new blog skin soon. Too bo liao liao. -_-

My chinese blog is not yet ready yet. All knew it right? Cos I'm super lazy mah. Pardon. Think I'll made it into an entertainment plus novel blog. Will post some stories there. And those pretty pictures I've got to share. Plus news and pictures of both the shows.

SETTV forum is crazy recently. Not able to go in the website. Sian 1/2 le. And I do wonder why people are addicted to the show. Must kay poh artises real life matters too. Who him or her is with etc. Ming Dao must only be with Qiao En. Shao Wei with Xiao Qiao. Poor Qiao Qiao become both's third party. -_- Don't know the fans like the show's characters only or the artises.

I found out hor, everything regarding her, he'll show concern. He even linked her blog too. How does he know that? The rumors and gossips are true huh? Paparazzi is here! Hehehe.. xD Is kay poh fang in action! LOL!

It's going to be a long post tonight. Suddenly have so many stuffs to share. You know hor, moms are weird. I've got a girlfriend, her mom keep nagging her to get a boyfriend, don't keep sticking to mama. Now she've got one. Her mom complained why she doesn't have time for her. Everyday boyfriend de. -_- Weird right?

Told mom about the christian name I've got. She goes o.O! Not bad lah hor. I really like A lor. Thanks to my teacher last time. Now, I'm trying not to think too much about my past. Read the letters my friends send me last time. Most of them are from Ting, BeeBee and Ah Jia. Seems now I only keep in touch with Ting. Sad lor. Where's the others? Missed them all.

You see if you've got a childhood, primary life was so cham. Classmates keep on bullying you. Got scald by them cos they poured hot soup on you. Right on the face straight down. And got lied to room and locked up. Isn't it terrible? Now I've told myself. Never ever let anyone bullied me again. As you can see, I've become quite ''hen'' now to protect myself. Not believing anyone easily le.

Anyone cares to accompany me out tomorrow? Msg me okay? Bored to death home alone leh. Sunday staying home alone is eeyer loh. Tried to ask Fenni over on mon and tue. She need to print stuffs too. And unbelievable that my printer still works!

Oh bah, ending here. Sleeping soon. Msg me if you wanna go out next few days. ZzZzZzz..

Alone Again

Mom went into malaysia. I mean tomorrow. But she's not at home now. Gone to Twin's house. Twins are going aboard tonight. Left me alone these few days. Dad should be out, as usual. Anyone cares to accompany me?

Sick of online. Will just do those html stuffs for my blog. Sibei hiao. Change a different style of skin again. Do tell me which you prefer yea? This one at least don't need to retype you name when tagging and can play songs.

This song is by of course, you guess it right! By 183 Club. Who else? Named Zhe Mo. Their old song which is in the soundtrack of Tian Guo De Jia Yi. I find it's quite a nice song.

Not feeling very well recently. Keep having the runs for 8 days already. Nothing seems to cure it. And keep having giddy spells. That's why I'm not going to malacca. Stay at home rot better.

Blogging lesser and lesser. Don't know what to blog. Ending here bah. Sigh.

I Love Green!

Woots! I simply love this green background to bits and pieces, don't you? This is my favourite colour. Light apple green! Don't think I like hello hitty must also like pink hor. Lol.

Spend the night searching for tons of pictures of the frog's show, ming dao and qiao en. Of cos, got loads of them. More then 1GB. :S Including lots of hello kitties too. Surprise leh.

Am lazy to type long post nowadays. Wanted to find a time to change the navigator buttons. Not very nice. Wait till I go search for more pictures first lah. So wait long long bah. =.=

Waiting for Ting to send me my old class's family photo. She said that she will scan it in and send to me. Can't wait. Last time saw the picture before from LiJia. Really miss them all alot.

Ok for now, the shortest post since I started blogging. Maybe I should learn from some of my friends. Just blog a couple of sentences and ta da! Lastly, give comments on the skin please.

Friday Loh =.=

Can't think of a title loh. What else? =.=

Just back from causeway. Went to meet Ting to window shop for a couple of hours before going to doc's there. Envy her. She could go driving lessons. I'm not allowed to. Anyway, it will be quite long before we can meet again. She's going to work for her attachment.

We were talking about our old classmates. And I've told her my very bad primay 6's stories. Ting was shocked. Yes loh. That's what happens that you all don't know. Why I suddenly MIA after a couple of weeks when with you all in primary 6.

Went walking around causeway. Saw Nokia's shop having kind of a sales. They are actually having sales everyday to me. =.= Saw that! That! That! The pink nokia 6111. WOW! Nice leh. After upgrading and trade in, I only need to pay $88. Mum ask me to think wisely. My final desision. Don't buy lah. Save money more important. New hp can wait.

After parted with Ting, went over to doc's there. She gtg to her daughter's school awhile. So I roam again in causeway, msging friends on the way. Fai lah, Curze lah, Mei lah, BN mei lah etc. Fai said that glad that I'm cheerful. No loh! Is try to keep myself happy. Better then sad sad, dull dull everyday right?

Don't know what to said Curze. Here, let me use what Fai has said. Everyone will also have problems, is see how you treat it. Rather choose to be cheerful then to be upset. Vexing and all doesn't solve the problem. So what's the point? You'll only upset those around you. So stay cheerful lah! :)

Litez suddenly have lots of news. Da ge said about my album review again. I got to do another album review soon. Trying to find a nice album to do my review on since I didn't dj much recently. Try more in reporting stuffs ba.

Lastly, I'm sleepy. And hor PS: Why my blog and tag like dead today? =.=

''New'' Blogskin

If you are smart and you have noticed, I've changed a ''new'' blogskin.

Actually it's the Ming Dao's blogskin. I changed the background picture and the navigator's buttons. Made the button's pictures myself. Hope this skin is better then the previous black one.

The background picture is actually my favourite picture from Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa. Which Dang Oh piggy back Tian Yu when they climb up from the Mo Gui Cao Yuan. Not a bad one.

Do remember to type in your name in the tag now. Don't want later all anonymous here and there. It doesn't remember names cos you need to click on the tag button. The tag isn't on the same page, so yea. Kind of troublesome.

I've added and removed some links. Inactive blogs links are removed. Think I won't be adding anymore links unless close friends.

The new tag board colour is nice. A new one. Transparant wor! I've reduce the size too. Perfectly nice.

Don't ask me to add songs in. It's really not a great idea. Think of you are browsing the blog and playing your own songs. Somemore you can't turn the song in blog off. Double songs. Not good right?

Ok then. Remember to leave comments on this skin hor. :)

New Blog Skin?

I know lah. Alot has been complaining that this skin is too or lu lu. (black) Ok loh, don't like right? I bian bian bian! Make my own skin. (plus copy abit here and there lah) Give me some time, I'm going to make an unusual one. Must wait hor!

What's wrong with me today? So many SG slang. -_-

Ytd night super pek chek. Modem keep DC here and there and can't reconnect. Recently always like that. I suspect my modem about want to pai liao. :S Hope not.

Habbo I really find it no point to stay. Waste of money nia. Spending more time browsing websites, going neopets and maple better. A change of taste isn't that bad after all. I'm giving myself a couple of weeks without much habboing. If it's alrite. I've leave totally. Sorry.

Back to do the skin liao. Don't know can one anot hor. Don't pin so much hope on looking for a new change skin. :)

A Long Post

Sigh, actually don't feel like blogging, but guess I'll feel better after blogging it out.

I admit CX isn't that great as Leo. But I don't want him out from the show! My whole family supports him. Esp my dad. He's pining high hopes on him. Never did I saw my dad supporting a contestent in any of the shows before. My dad says his acting skills are pro.

Feel kind of sad. Lots of our online pals support CX. I guess mei and di must be quite upset now. Me too. He got the highest chance of winning. His votes should be the most. I guess something is wrong here.

When Bryan Wong ask him how is his chance of winning, he said since Leo curse him out, he would surely be out. I think I heard something fishy here. He had no confidence today. That's so unlike him. Leo and Bryan said something weird too.

I already knew that it's tough for CX to stay to the final 2. So sad. He's such a young guy. So sad, he cried. But guess he would have a better future if he continue his uni studies. I can see that my dad was half sian and keep saying ''I said he would in want what. Why he lose?''

The whole star idol forum of CX is flooding now. Seems the whole SG buay song. Guess I can only pin my hopes on Leo now. He's really a dark horse. As for Bryan, he need to improve on his acting skills. Good luck to them in the finals.

I supported Lincoln and CX at first. Cause Lincoln can make you laugh. He had already succeed. And as for CX, cos he is shuai lor. But slowly I turned to support Leo too as I can really see the great improvement on him. His acting as a vilian is bravo. As for Bryan, as what the forums said. He is mu mu de.

Very shock that Bryan can make it back to the finals. His acting did improve a lot on the next episode. But now, it's back to normal. But Leo is getting more and more pro. CX still remains the same. Some he acted well, some not. Hmm.. So my guess is Leo is the final winner. He mustn't ate instant noodles again. So poor thing. Quitted his job for this contest.

Ok then, topic is back to myself. Mom and kai ma comfirmed about going to malacca. Don't know for how long again. Alone at home. Twins not in SG also. Bored. I really don't wish to go to malacca. What I heard from mom. Loan sharks are there. Kai ma was saying later the house kena burned. :S

Used to it le. I'll screamed back at those sharkies. Saying the person you find not here lah. Char simi. Get lost. Want to wait? Stand outside the gate then. Suit yourself, nobody is going to serve you tea. They fierce so what? Don't test me. I can't stand them.

Had enough of this. Having the runs recently. Eyes blurish and giddy. Prof Ong says that my mom's illness can ''yi chuan'' de. Won't so zhun bah? Am tired. Going out with Ting on fri after going for my regular doc's session. Another day out. Yay!

Read a wonderful and sad post of frog's story. So de touching. *sobz sobz* Taiwanese are great in their articles. This one is the best yet ever. Sometimes a novel or show is the same as real life. Some of the people we known them as mr nice guy. But they are actually not what we think they are. Hmm, will kena shocked when you knew that.

Just discovered that JunHao linked my blog. Thanks friend. Linked yours too. And hor, where did I get around 50 hits per day to my blog? Who come visit never tag? Smack you arh! Lol. My 3rd edit for the night. Last one too. That's all liao lah. Har nah. Know you all buay tahan the long post liao. Ok loh. That's all. Class dismissed! !?!?!?!?! -_-''

Here's a poll. Who do you think is the final winner of Star Idol? Leo or Bryan? Cast your vote in my tag.

Lastly, not forgetting, Happy Birthday to my dear friend. Elizabeth aka YouTing!

The Hidden Truth Of My Past

Suddenly had the urge to blog at this time. This will be my last post. After that I'll be resting for quite long. Don't bother to ask me what's wrong or where I am. I'm fine, just tired. I can sense depression coming close to me. So that's why I need a break. Just wanted to be alone and sort out my thinkings.

Recently I keep having nightmares. Nightmares of my childhood, my school days. I will wake up in cold sweat with those pictures of the past pestering me. Hence I've decided to blog it out. Maybe I will feel better. This is the incident that huant me for around 10 years. Story of my school days. Guess not many of my old classmates come visit my blog. So I guess that will be alrite to blog it out. This is the hidden truth.

School days in ZHPS isn't very well for me. In fact, it's bad. And I hate it. My future is ruined there. Primary 1 and 2 were still not bad. School grades are well. With a strict form teacher Mrs Choy, who dares to be lazy and keep having MC? But starting from primary 3, life started to be in a mess.

I'm posted to the best class which is A class with a couple of my classmates. Life was stressing there. As the best class, I try to do the best too. I'll try to get the best grades. But with this weak health of mine that I had to absent from school all times, my grades were way too different from my lower primary days. Primary 4's streaming was stressful for me too. Luckily I got a wonderful teacher Miss Fauziah. She taught me alot. So at least I still can make it to EM1's A class in primary 5. But mom choose EM2 for me, afraid I might be too stressful. So my life changed totally.

But I'm really glad that mom choose EM2 for me that allowed me to go into 5D. My dear class. Best class I had in my school days. Those classmates are friendly and heartwarming. Unlike those proud classmates of EM1. So I don't have many friends in my previous class. But this was not, the whole class are my friends. I've got a great teacher too. A male teacher, Mr Chia. Who understands me and my problems well.

I thought I would continue the joy in Class 6D soon after. But no, it's not. My nightmare continued. Huanting me non stop for all these years. I began to proceed to 6D. I collasped totally of my bad health. I was asked to stop school for a year.
As if you believed I was asked to, instead nobody knows I'm forced to rest for one year by our Mr Principal saying I'll burden the school if I'm not.

So that's the end of my dear class. We were sepreated. My dear classmates sent lots of letters to me. Telling me how they were and they missed me. Evny is what I can do. What else? I can't join in the joy and fun with them anymore. I'm really very grateful to them for not treating me like an alien since I'm not from the same class with them previously.

Waited and waited, till my classmates completed their primary studies and continued to secondary. At last, I'm back in school. With totally strangers. Just as what happened when I'm in Primary 5. This time, I never received warm welcome from my new classmates, instead fear came. My worst nightmare ever.

I'm still in 6D. But it's one year after. The surroundings are still the same. But not the people. Arrived in my new class with our Vice Principal Mrs Kanan. She introduced me to my new classmates and form teacher Mdm Niwarni. My new teacher is a kind young malay lady. But not my class. I just got a few ''hello''s from them when I said hi.

The teacher let me sit with a guy. Junhao! I only remembered people who treated me well. He's nice. At least he chatted with me. So after that, got introduced to more friends by him. Qiuhui and Xuefang etc. Getting better and better. Was posted to a chinese class and the teacher is Mdm Lim. My dear teacher of Primary 2 who understands and treats me real well.

All was still fine till one day. I wonder who spread and leak out that I'm one year senior then them. Which makes them I'm a retained student and still can be in EM2 instead of EM3. Then some classmates changed their views of me. Suddenly, they become very fake. And drifted from me.

Got bullied by a guy, 2 of them in fact, real terribly. Was being scolded, cursed, abused and they keep saying I lick my teacher's boots. That's why the teachers like me. Got locked in the class cupboard and toilet before by them too. I guess not many know that right? I really suffer hell that year. Complains were useless.

Lastly, I made up with one of the bullier. He's treating me better after he understands what's going on with me. But not the other one. I was still hurled abuse at. I kept quiet and torelate. I had to complete my Primary studies! So I was forcing myself hard everyday. But being keep absenting, my grades still dropped.

Finally Prelims came. I scored quite well. Around 240++. And choose BPGH as my first choice. I wanted to make it to that secondary school. So I was forcing myself more and more. Putting stress on my head. Friends advised me to relax but no! I can't allow myself to be retained.

Till the day for PSLE. Guess I stressed myself too hard. I fell ill on that day. Junhao, Irene, Qiuhui and Xuefang were encouraging me to hang on and go for it. Hence I gave it a try and completed the english paper.

Next day was maths paper and I've not fully recovered yet. Mom called the principal up and asked him what to do. He advised me to rest at home. Saying he will request to the MOE for a retake of all the following subjects. Thinking it will be better. I agreed.

It was then I discovered that it's all fake. He didn't went to request to the MOE. Instead he asked my mom over and said that I'm a burden to his school, it will be best if I withdraw from school and rest at home. This way will do both side of us best.

You know what? My mom was crying and begging the principal to help me request for a retake. What he did? Nothing! He only said either I had to repeat Primary 6 again. This time it will be EM3 for me. Or drop out of the school immediently.

And he keep repeating to my mom that I burden his school so so much for the past years. If I'm wise, I'll leave. When I heard that I can't control myself. I went to find him without my mom. Begging him again and again. But he's mean. He's not changing his mind.

In a fit of anger, since he wanted his school to be so famous right? I rushed up to the 4th floor of the school building and wanted to jump down. That will make his school the most famous in SG. Everyone will know what had he done. He's really cold blooded. Didn't even bother about me. It was the vice principal and some HODs who persude me down.

I was shocked and disappointed. Don't wish to stay in this cold blooded school anymore. So I told my mom I'll go along with her choice and withdraw from school. My mom actually believed what the principal says about I'm a burden to the school and drag down their school's grades.

He still dares to told the vice principal that I requested to withdraw from school myself. Letting the vice principal feeling so upset and disappointed in me. And I got a scolding from her that I don't care about my future. I don't want it too! But do I have another choice?

Heard from my old classmates that he annoucenced to the whole school that I'm ashamed to stay in ZHPS anymore hence I decided to quit school. What's more worse was the neighbourhood schools received comments that I'll surely burden them down, so was advised not to take me in.

I asked myself if I still hate the principal now, I know the answer will be yes. He ruined my future. He's the most selfish person I've ever met. Giving this kind and innocent face when with the other students that will make him proud. And me? I've seen his worst ever.

You may not choose to believe it. It's the truth. So after this, I suffered alone. Facing those people wearing colourful specs to look at me everytime. I've got look down by people so many times. It hurts I tell you.

I've suffered from depression after the year I dropped out from school. Crying and crying everyday. No mood to eat anything, can't sleep etc. I choose to end this by bracing myself up. And now, I just need a rest again.

Let me fade away

Must See Tuesday?

I'm L.A.M.E! Wahahahas.. Mad liao. I'm laughing so hard at the title. To think I can think of it. But I'm crazy hor? Wednesday morning writing a tuesday title. Cause I'm blogging on tuesday's stuffs mah. Ben Dan! xD

No, no, I'm not happy. Just acted it out. It's better then to worry about this and that right? Try to keep myself happy is the most important. I don't want to suffer from another depression. It's not a good feeling. And it also hurts when you have no one to comfort you.

As you may have noticed, I've totally MIA in habbo. I'm trying to stay out of habbo slowly and slowly. Till I quitted one day. Cut down on my online time too. My available time is from 12?! to 4am. Around that lah. Burning the midnight oil for nothing. -_-

Mom's back from malacca. Perharps going back on sat or sun. Don't know if I'm following her. There tends to be some problems. Better keep myself out of it. Family problems and wars. Tsk tsk tsk. So fan. Heck care lah. I know I got a crazy family. Used to it le. -_-

I've learn to take a deep breathe when I feel vexed. Do try, it helps. Or try stuffing yourself with food. And I mean loads of them. But don't eat till you puke lah. Chocolates and tibits are the best. Chips lah. And junks food. Eat and eat and eat, your worries will be gone.

Sometimes I wished that I'm not so useless. Forget it, I had a troublesome day today. Having to change mom's appointments in TTSH. Damn them. Keep shifting the appointments like crazy. All the departments are the same. Making us super blured now.

Jiayi came over too. I dumped her with loads of clothings and earrings. Gosh, so many loh. I wonder how much are those stuffs. Must not buy so many clothes at once. Later all can't wear. Super wasted. And earrings too. Don't see one buy one. Glad now I've changed lots.

Chatted with KH di, baobei di and my good buddy Hui. I really have lots of dis leh. Lol. Hui is now having holiday. And she drinks lah. Told her off a little. She's naggy, but I'm more naggier then her. So of cos I win. xD

Agreed with baobei. I didn't chat with mei le also. Cos when I'm online, she'll be offline. Tomorrow's Star Idol again. Got to watch. The war between 3 guys. Dad says ChengXi will win. Yes lah! We all support him leh. Hope can chat with mei during it's results show tomorrow night.

Nag nag nag, will try to sleep early everyday. But yea loh, it's a broken promise everytime. -_- Suddenly I discovered I'm so inactive in litez. Don't feel like deejaying and anything. I'm just tired with anything regarding habbo. Taking a rest for now. :)

Imma Frustrated

Bad day I have. Headache, giddy, tired and sleepy. Never went out today. Fenni's waiting for Ah Yang to be back. Won't be going out tomorrow. Twins said they're coming over. Or is it JiaYi only?

Watch Magician episode 4. Rofl the whole time. It's chao funny. Buay tahan how Ming Dao acted this time. See him can laugh le. Show's quality is bad this time. Chin cai lah. Mai hiam buay pai.

I'm feeling terrible now. Maybe it's because of the super oily fried rice dad bought. Feel like pucking after eating it. Whole grain of rice is covered in oil totally. Yucks!

Mom's coming back tomorrow morning. Yes! Yes! Don't have to be alone with dad anymore. The more I stay with him, the more I can't stand his temper. I miss mom.

Whole network is lagging. Or only some webpages? Those are the web pages I always go. And it's lagging a hell lot. Wasted my time. Everything I can't do it perfectly today.

Bad day lah, what to do? Whole day only chat with Ah Fai a couple of sentences. Chatting with Fan Fan the most. Grab I not stupid Too's song. And helped Zhen jie done a survey.

I'm off. Eyes so blured. Will be sleeping early tonight. Lastly, I'm lazy to blog nowadays. Don't bother to keep checking back. I need a rest. On leave in both habbo and litez first bah. That's it.

Sleepy Sleepy

What time is it? Yes! just over 12mn. Time for another midnight post. *Yawn* I must admit that I'm super duper sleepy. Tonight, no need to sleep as usual. Chiong all the way to morning. Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi! Plus, I need to find the songs Karen jie wanted. ZzZzZz.. Can someone chase the Zzz monsters away?

Went to twins house for the whole day after I ate my lunch. We were ki siao-ing, as usual lah. Luckily not many comments for my new specs, means still not bad, nice loh. Karen jie was kind of shock when she saw I wore spaghetti top. She screams ''Aiyo! Sexy yo!'' -_-''' Aiya, nothing wrong one. But I really wonder why both jie and kor both give me the shocking face? You Qi Jie Bi You Qi Di?

We went over to Boon Lay and Jurong East in jie's cosy car. Still ki siao-ing in the car till Kai Ma buay tahan. You will know if you saw our malacca house shaking, means that all of the cousins are there. LOL! We are pro in ki siao-ing.

Ate dinner at Jurong. Gao Ji Yong Tou Fu! My favourite lor! Help! And grab two tops ar the sale outside JEC. This Fashion de wor! A nice $5 sleeveless jacket and a $3 yellow top. I really love the jacket lor. I was like testing the clothes and asked them for comments. ''This lah!'' One says. ''That lah!'' Another says. Twins. -_-''' Asked Karen jie best. She just dumped the piece she finds not suitable for me. Easy hor? I'll sure take the nice one liao.

Came back in jie's car. Still don't know what to do about mom's medicine. Really vomit blood. She should have bring more. I really don't want to go to malacca alone by bus. I don't have the time to go this week too. I've got to asked Fenni out to shop, bring the pants Jia Yi wants over to her house and go docter's there. The whole of march is going to be busy with mom's 4 medical appointments at the end of month. And maybe I will really be going to malacca this or next week.

Won't be online much recently, neither will I be blogging much. You'll only catch me online at midnight. I'm the owl that all knows. Going to be busy again. Habbo? I've never went into any rooms for a couple of days. I'll only afk there totally.

Jia You! Chiong-ing tonight! Bye bye my beauty sleep.

Birthday Bash

It's going to be a long post today. So get ready your glasses. And about my glasses, it's better now. Just that I found the shape super weird. If I had the chance, I'll wear contact lens like Youting too.

I'm just back not long ago from Youting's birthday bash. Her best friend Sherline isn't there. It's quite a fun party, provided if you have friends there. She invited a group of her poly and jc friends. And those groups started their mahjong session. Oh man! None of our primary friends turn up. So I was alone the whole evening, chit chatting with her nice and friendly ah ma and mom.

Guess I'm way too early. Says that it's at 4pm. I reached there at 3.45pm. Very pai seh. Arrived so early. Been trying to find her block for 15-20mins. Those residents just asked me to walk walk walk straight up, saw hill. climb over, then there block 170 lor. Lucky I didn't really went to climb the hill at the other side.
-_- I followed and recall the path Youting brought us 10 years ago. Luckily my memory didn't failed.

Youting looks great in her black dress. We both chatted awhile about Peh Zhi Wei before her 2 to 3 groups of friends arrived. Seems that her sis Veronica can't forget that guy who bullied her when she's young and it's like 10 years ago! And asked Youting will he be coming today? I almost choked on my drink when I heard the name Zhi Wei. Thought he's coming too.

The truth is that we had totally lost contact with Mr Peh. He's actually part of our girls group last time. Keep mixing and talking with all the girls. Well, maybe he moved. If not he only lives 3 blocks away from me. Sure will be able to bump into him sometimes. And yes, I remembered his cute meimei. Kawaii!

Rush back home after Youting cutted the cake. She was smeared by her friends till very jia lat using the very expensive cake. Durian cake! *faints* Sorry friend, I can't stand durian. So of course, I didn't eat it. Ate some fry ''Shou Mian'' and satays and a piece of KFC. Haha, aunty is correct, I'm pai seh to take anything.

Saying about Youting's mom. I was surprised that she knows who I am when I told her that I'm Youting's primary school friend. She said ''RongFang hor! Grown so tall le.'' Chat awhile with her as Youting is busy accompany her friends. She asked about my mom's condition too. The funniest is she says that I'm the quiet guai guai type girl, won't ''pa pa zao''. Wait till she knows me real well. I'm not like what aunty thinks I am. Haha.

But her ah ma is the most cutest. A very nice ah ma to have. Thinking if my ah po is younger and healthier and speaks more mandrian, maybe we'll be able to talk lots more. Ah ma keep asking me to eat and sit with her to watch tv. Asked alot about me and asked me to drop by their house when I'm free. When I'm going home, she keep asking me to da bao some KFC back. Haha, ah ma.

Envy Youting for having such a great family. Don't have to worry if you are short of cash, only have 2 bucks in your pockets etc. Her family is really very heart warming and loving. Had a sis to chat with. She had great friends too. For me, I don't really talked much to my dad. 2 or 3 lines bo song end up quarrling. And mom too. Didn't chat much with her recently. A loner nowadays.

I doubt my parents will celebrate my birthday for me this year. Mom goes ''We adults then celebrate our 21th birthday, you kids celebrate for what?'' <-- This lor when I told her she celebrated her 21th birthday and I wanted that too. Told Fenni about it, she was like !?! Everybody's life only have ONE 21th birthday. Yea lor. -_-

Thanks to Veron who showed me the way to the bus stop. Youting asked her to bring jiejie to the bus stop and she goes huh!? But when she knows the jiejie is me, she goes orh. Haha. Think that time the Veronica Ng I ''heard'' in causeway's point's washroom is her. Same voice.

Veron actually played Habbo before. But says that it needs money so she don't bother about it now. She've grown so tall and chio. Last time when I saw her she's only 6! And come crying to me saying Zhi Wei bully her. Now she's 16! I'm joking and told her that, maybe the next time we meet will be 10 years later.

I keep in contact with Youting most. Others as said by her, gone MIA after they work or have boyfriends. How I wish I'm able to keep in contact with more of my primary friends. Wondering where Zhi Wei is. He've gone MIA after primary. Anyone knows a Peh Zhi Wei out there, do contact me.

Mom's medicine can only last till thursday. Why didn't she bring more in? ARGH! I need to send the delivery over to malaysia to her if she's not coming back soon. And I don't like to go into malaysia alone.

Long post, didn't attend Litez event. Was throughout afk-ing. :S Ending here then.

Stupid Specs Stories

Stupid specs! I'm going to bobba you! It's blurish! I need to find out what's wrong before getting it sent over to the uncle's there again. I'm adapting to it. Just wonder why it's still blurish. Can only see clearly when I move the specs out alittle.

Heart pain lah. $320 gone just like that. The frame is alittle small for my BIG eyes too. -_- Sometimes having big eyes isn't that great either. But got the comments from my cousin and my uncle and aunt that this specs looks much more better then my previous one.

Drag my cousin Fenni along to the opitcal shop. And she asked so many stuffs regarding optometry. Cos she's really comfirm going to SP's optometry already. Funny girl. After that, went to her house to chit chat till 11pm. Gossiping about all stuffs.

Need to wake up early to attend Ting's party. Going there alone. Sleeping early tonight. Lastly, I really buay tahan this specs. Makes me looks weird. Nerdy? No, just weird lah. Very not like me. Will see how. My eyes need to adapt and adjust to the specs more. Sian..

Eve Of Weekend

Home alone now. Actually don't feel like online. But there's nothing else to do. No dinner tonight. Guess I'll be chomping on bread or instant noodles. Made a call to the specs shop asking when can I collect it. Tonight wor! Will be going with Fenni. If not later I wear the new specs walk walk then BANG! Walk right into a wall then funny. Haha..

Message Ting asking and comfirm her about tomorrow. Hope I will not lost my way. I'm a super blur queen. Seems she did invite a couple of our friends, but all are busy. Wondering Cindy will be there. Need to ask her later. If not I'll be alone. :S

Did anyone saw the hello kitty icon under the links there? That's my chinese blog. But guess I'll seldom update it. It's tough to type in chinese using blogger. I'll only use that blog to post some pictures and post stories there if I'm not lazy. xD

Found that alomst all 183 club's songs are nice. Their old song named Zhe Mo is excellent too. Maybe I'm posion by them? Lol.. But must admit that when the 5 of them de voice mixed together is wonderful lor. Just like S.H.E

Kelly's album is hmm, not bad too. But I prefer WeiLian's. Have not listen finishing the whole album yet. Really don't know what I'll be doing now. DJ? Go habbo? Sleep? Whatever bah. Must finish my stuffs early so that I can rest early tonight if not I bet I'll oversleep tomorrow. xP

What's Wrong With Me?

Health condition isn't very well recently. Keep having giddy spells and can't online much facing the computer screen. Very, very giddy till I can't get out of my bed. Blurish eyes too. Hand hurts also whenever I type too much. It's not the normal ache. I can't move, bend or lift my hand whenever it hurts.

My neck hurts like it's being twisted. And my spine will hurts like crazy when I sit too much. Need to go lie down for awhile. I will have numbness at the right part of my body sometimes. And gets easily tired. Now, what's wrong with me?

Done quite alot of things today although am tired. If not I bet mum will nag when she's back. But don't think she will be back soon. Maybe I'll go to malacca next week by myself to deliver her medicine after attending Ting's birthday party this saturday and collecting my specs.

She didn't brought enough medicine! Ahh!! Should dump all into her bag that day. By the way, iIm really worried that she might be too tired taking care of grandma. Ok, so who wants to go along with me? Hate to travel alone in bus.

Got a sms from Ah Fai this noon. And I nearly jumped up. Thought someone hates to sms? I asked him about it. He says he's learning to love sms?! LOL! Unbelievable. Who said sms are bored and lame and girl stuffs last time? Ahaha.. Someone changes his mind le wor!

Well, so we sms awhile while I lay on my bed resting my giddy head. He's like an old woman. ''Don't climb high high hor! You giddy leh.'' I don't dare to too! I'm afraid of heights. And we talked about being MIA in habbo. I will continue to MIA-ing.

It's been such a long time since I received an sms. Guess the next sms I received will be from TTSH for mum's appointment around the end of this month. ''Dear Mdm Tan, your next appointment will be on blar blar blar blar blar.'' -_-

Need to comfirm with Ting regarding her birthday party on saturday. I forget how to go to her house already. It's been 10 years since I last went. And I need to comfirm her the time too. Is it at 4pm? I forget about it too. Now, I'm old. Keep forgetting stuffs.

Think I'll read the forums and stories tonight if I'm feeling alrite. Still got stuffs to do online, but will try to rest early. Watch the show which those superstars acted. Not that bad. Will continue to watch it. Yea, forget them I ate an egg tart this noon. Yummy! More please? I love them. And fruit puffs too.

Maybe I should use the christian name my teacher gave me last time. Nobody knows that, including my parents. It's quite nice and unique too. Not too childish either. If I uses that, I'm going to say bye to my chinese name. Keep let people make fun of. That name starts with an A. Which my teacher says since I'm from A class and A means best and perfect. A stands for aiming for things I wanted too. Hmm, thinking now. Don't ask me, won't tell you the name.

Saw a couple of bad news. Some people just loves to make and stir up matters. Offs now.

Habbo Hotel Version 9

You can said that I've just finish my nonsense blog testing. But not able to do one nice one. So in the end. My temper come, all delete lor. -_-

Reinstall my shockwave. Spend a couple of hours. Hope it doesn't load like a tortoise now.

Version 9 of habbo hotel is bad. I hate it. Here's why.

1) The stickies are all mad. I can't paste them quite near to corner. Hence almost all of my stickies in litez room gets hiden. I had to re paste all of them. Which means need to buy more stickes and paste them on again. And spend time finding all those hidden stickies out.

2) Stickies again. You'll never know about how many stickies you have left in your hand. Which means if it's almost finish up you also wouldn't know.

3) Words. All are in a mess. Example like the words which describe your rooms and those words on stickies. Alot of them are in a total mess. I had to spend time to retype them.

4) Extra more larger rooms. This one is the most scaiest one and also the reason which all knows. Extra more larger rooms means more furnis and more creds, which means sulake will be earning more.

I do admit larger rooms are better and nicer. You can make it into your all in one personal roomie. Like what nono does. He made it into a so called 5 room flat to him. But you really got do think of your pockets. I doubt I will create those large rooms unless I dump all my furnis in one room. Lol.

There's some good points too. Such as you can choose how many people you want in your rooms and shows full rooms etc. Well, the rest I still need to check it out.

Version 9 is lagging badly again. As usual. It's like version 8 last time. Will take a few days to reduce the laggness.

Still got stuffs to do. Wouldn't be reading forums and stories tonight. Need to buck up and check my habbo rooms and see see look look on what's new and fresh on habbo hotel Singapore before Dad woke up for work.

I hope this blog of mine is better now. I hidden the music code. Change a new picture. It's from ikia. I simply loves this maple leaves picture. And change a new welcome sign. Which is more suitable for the blog. Lastly, I delete the past monthly blog records. Now, all is perfect and well.

That's all for this late post. :)

Bo Liao

Why are there so many people who wants to cause friction at both sites? Habz and Litez. What's the point? Everytime when there's maintenance, there will sure be those imposter using Ah Fai's name and scold whatever they can scold.

I helped Ah Fai register Fai already. Now this person is using Fai. With a . Pro lor. Need to register whatever Fai what what de. I see that habz also kena. But at least nobody uses litez name to slander habz.

Please don't be so bo liao lah. -_-

Just eaten dinner. The bittergourd egg I fried was still alrite. But the cabbage soup was ewww! The carrot taste so strong. Alamak! Don't even dare to drink the soup lor.

Star Idol is here. I'll go and watch it. Maybe roam pasar malam later. :)

Update at 10pm. Back from pasar malam. Saw lots of hello kitty stuffs. !!!!!!!!!!!!! I want them lah. The kitty rug, towel and more. Swee!! But control myself! Short of cash recently. Need to save, save, save.

Didn't even bought food to eat. I can't bear to spend a couple of dollars too. Dad don't even let me ate the bag of chips at home. Grr!!

Habbo is crazy too. Version 9 is hell. Although there's some good points, there's some bad too. Just like stickies are all overlapping each other. Hope this another maintenance will fixed that. If not I'll have to re stick my stickes! Eee!

Waiting for the results of Star Idol soon. Leo is great in this episode. Bryan too. ChengXi is not bad too. That girl, ehh, no comments. She's still as stiff. Doesn't look like she's acting. So I wonder who will be X. Let's wait and see later. :)

Sleepy Head Part 2

The thing I hate most is being waken up. Hate it! Yet this happen to me today. Dad woke me up, screaming more louder and more scarier then mum. I thought it's earthquake lah! Help loh! Does he know what time I sleep? I finish my music review late. It's only so EARLY and I tio drag up. 3pm only mah. Kiasu. -_-

That's why I told my friend, Do Not call me before 3pm. If you woke me up, you're going to died terribly. If I'm still sleepy, means you are heng. If I'm in a bad mood, I'll pick up the phone and start scolding. If it's an sms, I'll call back and scold too. Alot tio before. You better don't want to try it. I nearly end up scolding the wrong person which is my uncle. Heng ah! I look at the number if not the one who died is me.

Lots of comments regarding my new blog skin. Maybe I really should change it back. Maybe I'll do a new blog skin tonight. Not doing another music review tonight. Am tired. The music review of Cao Cao I did yesterday had some wonderful comments. I'll try to do it once per week. Da ge was super funny. He comment he don't want Cao Cao, instead he wanted Liu Bei! LOL!!

We're now waiting for Version 9 of habbo to arrive in at late night. Can't wait for bigger rooms. But that means need more furnis and richer sulake. -_- There's habbo staffs deejaying in litez later on at 6-7pm. Do remember to tune in.

I'm going off as usual at around 8pm to catch Star Idol. Wonder who will be out today? After the show, maybe I'll go walk pasar malam. Dad says it's open. And right now, Dad and me are big headed over the ingredients for dinner. How to cook lah? Help loh! Going to try anyhow cook. Hope eat le wouldn't lao sai. xD Tada~

Sleepy Head

Dad just went to work. While I'm awoke up by something hard falling on the ground. Went out of the room to find out that's only the CNY deco which fells from the wall. -_- Can dad please get them off? It's WAY over CNY already.

Spend the whole night doing my album review. Very very tired and having a terrible headache after doing the music review. But it's worth it. Will do anything for the sake of litez. Sleepy like crazy. I'll just rot awhile online before going to bed.

Need to think of more new ideas to improve litez articles. There's a decreasing in commenters. Really glad that boss likes my music review. I'm still afraid he may not like it.

Thanks boss for helping me to edit my review. Now I'm learning how to make the perfect review by reading his cheem HTML. It's so hard to learn those HTML. I always peek into our reporters posts in staffs news to learn more HTML.

Thanks to deer too. He helped me alot by giving me a review page and ideas on how to make the perfect music album review. Greatest thanks to them, dear boss and deer.

Go to www.habbolitez.com , under music column to view my album review of JJ Lin Jun Jie's Cao Cao and give me a comment. Thanks alot.

Now I'm off to bed. ZzZzZz.......